Half of a Yellow Sun
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“Of course I love her.”
“Did you ever touch her?”
Madu’s laugh was short and harsh.
“Did you ever touch her?” Richard asked again, and Madu was suddenly responsible for Kainene’s disappearance. “Did you ever touch her?”
Madu got up. Richard reached out and grasped his arm. Come back, he wanted to say, come back here and tell me if you ever laid your filthy black hand on her. Madu shrugged Richard’s hand off. Richard hit him across the face and felt his hand begin to throb.
“You idiot,” Madu said, surprised, staggering slightly.
Richard saw Madu’s arm raised, saw the swift blurred movement of a coming punch. It landed on his nose, and the pain exploded all over his face and his body felt very light as it sank down to the floor. When he touched his nose, there was blood on his fingers.
“You idiot,” Madu said again.
Richard could not get up. He pulled out his handkerchief; his hands trembled and he got some of the blood on his shirt. Madu watched him for a moment and then bent down and held his face between wide palms and examined his nose closely. Richard could smell the crayfish on Madu’s breath.
“I didn’t break it,” Madu said, and straightened up.
Richard dabbed at his nose. Darkness descended on him, and when it lifted he knew that he would never see Kainene again and that his life would always be like a candlelit room; he would see things only in shadow, only in half glimpses.
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Olanna’s moments of solid hope, when she was certain that Kainene would come back, were followed by stretches of raw pain, and then a surge of faith would make her hum under her breath, until the downward slide came and she would be crumpled on the floor, weeping and weeping. Miss Adebayo visited and said something about grief, something nice-sounding and facile: Grief was the celebration of love, those who could feel real grief were lucky to have loved. But it was not grief that Olanna felt, it was greater than grief. It was stranger than grief. She did not know where her sister was. She did not know. She raged at herself for not waking up early the day that Kainene left for afia attack and for not knowing what Kainene wore that morning and for not going with her and for trusting that Inatimi knew where he was leading her. She raged at the world when she boarded buses or climbed in beside Odenigbo or Richard to go to crowded hospitals and dusty buildings to search for Kainene and did not find her.
When she first saw her parents, her father called her “Ola m,” my gold, and she wished he wouldn’t because she felt tarnished.
“I did not even see Kainene before she left. When I woke up, she was gone,” she said to them.
“Anyi ga-achota ya, we will find her,” her mother said.
“We will find her,” her father repeated.
“Yes, we will find her,” Olanna said too, and she felt as if they were all scratching desperate fingernails on a hard scarred wall. They told one another stories of people who had been found, who had come back after months of being lost. They did not tell one another the other stories, of those still missing, of families burying empty caskets.
The two soldiers who had come and eaten her jollof rice filled her with rage. She lay on the living room floor and prayed that they would not find her Biafran pounds. After they left, she took the folded notes out from the envelope hidden in her shoe and went out and lit a match under the lemon tree. Odenigbo watched her. He disapproved, she knew, because he kept his flag folded inside the pocket of a pair of trousers.
“You’re burning memory,” he told her.
“I am not.” She would not place her memory on things that strangers could barge in and take away. “My memory is inside me.”
The weeks passed and the water started running again and the butterflies were back in the front yard and Baby’s hair grew jet-black. Boxes of books came for Odenigbo from overseas. For a war-robbed colleague, the notes read, from fellow admirers of David Blackwell in the brotherhood of mathematicians. Odenigbo spent days poring over them. “Look, I had the first edition of this one,” he said often.
Edna sent books and clothes and chocolate. Olanna looked at the enclosed pictures and Edna looked foreign, a woman who lived in Boston and had greasy-pressed hair. It seemed very long since Edna had lived next door to her flat on Elias Avenue, and it seemed even longer since this yard on Odim Street had formed the boundaries of her life. When she took long walks on campus, past the tennis courts and Freedom Square, she thought how quick leaving had been and how slow returning was.
Her bank account in Lagos was gone. It no longer existed. It was like being forcibly undressed; somebody had snatched at all her clothes and left her shivering naked in the cold. But she saw a good sign there. Since she had lost her savings, then she could not possibly lose her sister too; the custodians of fate were not that wicked.
“Why is Aunty Kainene still at afia attack?” Baby asked often, with a steady suspicious look.
“Stop asking me, this child!” Olanna said. But she saw a sign in Baby’s questions too, although she could not yet decipher its meaning. Odenigbo told her that she had to stop seeing signs in everything. She was angry that he could disagree with her seeing signs of Kainene’s return and then she was grateful that he did, because it meant he did not believe that anything had happened that would make his disagreeing inappropriate.
When some relatives came from Umunnachi and suggested that they consult a dibia, Olanna asked her Uncle Osita to go. She gave him a bottle of whisky and some money to buy a goat for the oracle. She drove to the River Niger to throw in a copy of Kainene’s photo. She went to Kainene’s house in Orlu and walked around it three times. And she waited for the week that the dibia had stipulated, but Kainene did not come home.
“Maybe I didn’t do something right,” she told Odenigbo. They were in his study. The floor was littered with blackened paper crisps from the pages of his half-burned books.
“The war has ended but hunger has not, nkem. That dibia was just hungry for goat meat. You can’t believe in that.”
“I do believe in it. I believe in everything. I believe in anything that will bring my sister home.” She stood up and went to the window.
“We come back again,” she said.
“What?”
“Our people say that we all reincarnate, don’t they?” she said. “Uwa m, uwa ozo. When I come back in my next life, Kainene will be my sister.”
She had started to cry softly. Odenigbo took her in his arms.
8. The Book: The World Was Silent When We Died
Ugwu writes his dedication last: For Master, my good man.
AUTHOR’S NOTE
This book is based on the Nigeria-Biafra War of 1967–70. While some of the characters are based on actual persons, their portrayals are fictitious as are the events surrounding them. I have listed below the books (most use the anglicized spelling Ibo for Igbo) that helped in my research. I owe much thanks to their authors. In particular, Chukwuemeka Ike’s Sunset at Dawn and Flora Nwapa’s Never Again were indispensable in creating the mood of middle-class Biafra; Christopher Okigbo’s own life and Labyrinths inspired the character of Okeoma; while Alexander Madiebo’s The Nigerian Revolution and the Biafran War was central to the character of Colonel Madu.
However, I could not have written this book without my parents. My wise and wonderful father, Professor Nwoye James Adichie, Odelu Ora Abba, ended his many stories with the words agha ajoka, which in my literal translation is “war is very ugly.” He and my defending and devoted mother, Mrs. Ifeoma Grace Adichie, have always wanted me to know, I think, that what matters is not what they went through but that they survived. I am grateful to them for their stories and for so much more.
I salute my Uncle Mai, Michael E. N. Adichie, who was wounded while fighting with the 21st Battalion of the Biafran Army, and who spoke to me of his experience with much grace and humor. I salute, also, the sparkling memories of my Uncle CY (Cyprian Odigwe, 1949–98) who fought with the Biafran Commandos, my co
usin Pauly (Paulinus Ofili, 1955–2005) who shared his memories of life in Biafra as a thirteen-year-old, and my friend Okla (Okoloma Maduewesi, 1972–2005) who will now not clutch this under his arm as he did the last.
Thanks to my family: Toks Oremule and Arinze Maduka, Chisom and Amaka Sonny-Afoekelu, Chinedum and Kamsi Adichie, Ijeoma and Obinna Maduka, Uche and Sonny Afoekelu, Chukwunwike and Tinuke Adichie, Nneka Adichie Okeke, Okechukwu Adichie, and especially Kenechukwu Adichie; all the Odigwes of Umunnachi and the Adichies of Abba; my “sisters” Urenna Egonu and Uju Egonu, and my “baby bro,” Oji Kanu, for believing I am better than I am.
Thanks to Ivara Esege; to Binyavanga Wainaina for his excellent complaints; to Amaechi Awurum for teaching me about faith; to Ike Anya, Muhtar Bakare, Maren Chumley, Laura Bramon Good, Martin Kenyon, and Ifeacho Nwokolo for being draft-reading friends; to Susan Buchan for those photographs taken in Biafra; to the Vermont Studio Center for the gift of space and time; and to Professor Michael J. C. Echeruo, whose erudite and generous comments made me search for the other half of the sun.
I am grateful to my inimitable agent Sarah Chalfant for making me feel safe; and to Mitzi Angel, Anjali Singh, and Robin Desser, my brilliantly discerning editors.
May we always remember.
Chinua Achebe, Girls at War and Other Stories
Elechi Amadi, Sunset in Biafra
J. L. Brandler, Out of Nigeria
Robert Collis, Nigeria in Conflict
John De St. Jorre, The Nigerian Civil War
Herbert Ekwe-Ekwe, The Biafran War: Nigeria and the Aftermath
Cyprian Ekwensi, Divided We Stand
Buchi Emecheta, Destination Biafra
Ossie Enekwe, Come Thunder
Frederick Forsyth, Biafra Story
Herbert Gold, Biafra Goodbye
Chukwuemeka Ike, Sunset at Dawn
Eddie Iroh, The Siren in the Night
Dan Jacobs, The Brutality of Nations
Anthonia Kanu, Broken Lives and Other Stories
Alexander Madiebo, The Nigerian Revolution and the Biafran War
Micheal Mok, Biafra Journal
Rex Niven, The War of Nigerian Unity
Hilary Njoku, A Tragedy Without Heroes
Arthur Agwuncha Nwankwo, The Making of a Nation
Flora Nwapa, Never Again
Flora Nwapa, Wives at War
Benard Odogwu, No Place to Hide: Crises and Conflicts Inside Biafra
Christopher Okigbo, Labyrinths
Ike Okonta and Oronta Douglas, Where Vultures Feast
Joseph Okpaku, Nigeria: Dilemma of Nationhood
Kalu Okpi, Biafra Testament
Wole Soyinka, The Man Died
John J. Stremlau, The International Politics of the Nigerian Civil War
Ralph Uwechue, Reflections on the Nigerian Civil War
Alfred Obiora Uzokwe, Surviving in Biafra
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Copyright © 2006 Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie
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Adichie, Chimamanda Ngozi, 1977–
Half of a yellow sun / Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie.
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