Short Stories

by Ernest Hemingway

  “I saw him in the moving pictures of the fight,” Tom said. We were all very moved. Alice was shaking all over and I looked and saw she was crying. The Indians had gone outside on the platform.

  “He was more than any husband could ever be,” Peroxide said. “We were married in the eyes of God and I belong to him right now and always will and all of me is his. I don’t care about my body. They can take my body. My soul belongs to Steve Ketchel. By God, he was a man.”

  Everybody felt terribly. It was sad and embarrassing. Then Alice, who was still shaking, spoke. “You’re a dirty liar,” she said in that low voice. “You never layed Steve Ketchel in your life and you know it.”

  “How can you say that?” Peroxide said proudly.

  “I say it because it’s true,” Alice said. “I’m the only one here that ever knew Steve Ketchel and I come from Mancelona and I knew him there and it’s true and you know it’s true and God can strike me dead if it isn’t true.”

  “He can strike me too,” Peroxide said.

  “This is true, true, true, and you know it. Not just made up and I know exactly what he said to me.”

  “What did he say?” Peroxide asked, complacently.

  Alice was crying so she could hardly speak from shaking so.

  “He said ‘You’re a lovely piece, Alice.’ That’s exactly what he said.”

  “It’s a lie,” Peroxide said.

  “It’s true,” Alice said. “That’s truly what he said.”

  “It’s a lie,” Peroxide said proudly.

  “No, it’s true, true, true, to Jesus and Mary true.”

  “Steve couldn’t have said that. It wasn’t the way he talked,” Peroxide said happily.

  “It’s true,” Alice said in her nice voice. “And it doesn’t make any difference to me whether you believe it or not.” She wasn’t crying anymore and she was calm.

  “It would be impossible for Steve to have said that,” Peroxide declared.

  “He said it,” Alice said and smiled. “And I remember when he said it and I was a lovely piece then exactly as he said, and right now I’m a better piece than you, you dried up old hot water bottle.”

  “You can’t insult me,” said Peroxide. “You big mountain of pus. I have my memories.”

  “No,” Alice said in that sweet lovely voice, “you haven’t got any real memories except having your tubes out and when you started C. and M. Everything else you just read in the papers. I’m clean and you know it and men like me, even though I’m big, and you know it, and I never lie and you know it.”

  “Leave me with my memories,” Peroxide said. “With my true, wonderful memories.”

  Alice looked at her and then at us and her face lost that hurt look and she smiled and she had about the prettiest face I ever saw. She had a pretty face and a nice smooth skin and a lovely voice and she was nice all right and really friendly. But my God she was big. She was as big as three women. Tom saw me looking at her and he said, “Come on. Let’s go.”

  “Good-byee,” said Alice. She certainly had a nice voice.

  “Good-byee,” I said.

  “Which way are you boys going?” asked the cook.

  “The other way from you,” Tom told him.

  God Rest You Merry, Gentlemen

  In those days the distances were all very different, the dirt blew off the hills that now have been cut down, and Kansas City was very like Constantinople. You may not believe this. No one believes this; but it is true. On this afternoon it was snowing and inside an automobile dealer’s show window, lighted against the early dark, there was a racing motor car finished entirely in silver with Dans Argent lettered on the hood. This I believed to mean the silver dance or the silver dancer, and, slightly puzzled which it meant but happy in the sight of the car and pleased by my knowledge of a foreign language, I went along the street in the snow. I was walking from the Woolf Brothers’ saloon where, on Christmas and Thanksgiving Day, a free turkey dinner was served, toward the city hospital which was on a high hill that overlooked the smoke, the buildings and the streets of the town. In the reception room of the hospital were the two ambulance surgeons Doc Fischer and Doctor Wilcox, sitting, the one before a desk, the other in a chair against the wall.

  Doc Fischer was thin, sand-blond, with a thin mouth, amused eyes and gambler’s hands. Doctor Wilcox was short, dark and carried an indexed book, The Young Doctor’s Friend and Guide, which, being consulted on any given subject, told symptoms and treatment. It was also cross-indexed so that being consulted on symptoms it gave diagnoses. Doc Fischer had suggested that any future editions should be further cross-indexed so that if consulted as to the treatments being given, it would reveal ailments and symptoms. “As an aid to memory,” he said.

  Doctor Wilcox was sensitive about this book but could not get along without it. It was bound in limp leather and fitted his coat pocket and he had bought it at the advice of one of his professors who had said, “Wilcox, you have no business being a physician and I have done everything in my power to prevent you from being certified as one. Since you are now a member of this learned profession I advise you, in the name of humanity, to obtain a copy of The Young Doctor’s Friend and Guide and use it, Doctor Wilcox. Learn to use it.”

  Doctor Wilcox had said nothing but he had bought the leather-bound guide that same day.

  “Well, Horace,” Doc Fischer said as I came in the receiving room which smelt of cigarettes, iodoform, carbolic and an over-heated radiator.

  “Gentlemen,” I said.

  “What news along the rialto?” Doc Fischer asked. He affected a certain extravagance of speech which seemed to me to be of the utmost elegance.

  “The free turkey at Woolf’s,” I answered.

  “You partook?”

  “Copiously.”

  “Many of the confrères present?”

  “All of them. The whole staff.”

  “Much Yuletide cheer?”

  “Not much.”

  “Doctor Wilcox here has partaken slightly,” Doc Fischer said. Doctor Wilcox looked up at him, then at me.

  “Want a drink?” he asked.

  “No, thanks,” I said.

  “That’s all right,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “Horace,” Doc Fischer said, “you don’t mind me calling you Horace, do you?”

  “No.”

  “Good old Horace. We’ve had an extremely interesting case.”

  “I’ll say,” said Doctor Wilcox.

  “You know the lad who was in here yesterday?”

  “Which one?”

  “The lad who sought eunuch-hood.”

  “Yes.” I had been there when he came in. He was a boy about sixteen. He came in with no hat on and was very excited and frightened but determined. He was curly haired and well-built and his lips were prominent.

  “What’s the matter with you, son?” Doctor Wilcox asked him.

  “I want to be castrated,” the boy said.

  “Why?” Doc Fischer asked.

  “I’ve prayed and I’ve done everything and nothing helps.”

  “Helps what?”

  “That awful lust.”

  “What awful lust?”

  “The way I get. The way I can’t stop getting. I pray all night about it.”

  “Just what happens?” Doc Fischer asked.

  The boy told him. “Listen, boy,” Doc Fischer said. “There’s nothing wrong with you. That’s the way you’re supposed to be. There’s nothing wrong with that.”

  “It is wrong,” said the boy. “It’s a sin against purity. It’s a sin against our Lord and Saviour.”

  “No,” said Doc Fischer. “It’s a natural thing. It’s the way you are supposed to be and later on you will think you are very fortunate.”

 
“Oh, you don’t understand,” the boy said.

  “Listen,” Doc Fischer said and he told the boy certain things.

  “No. I won’t listen. You can’t make me listen.”

  “Please listen,” Doc Fischer said.

  “You’re just a goddamned fool,” Doctor Wilcox said to the boy.

  “Then you won’t do it?” the boy asked.

  “Do what?”

  “Castrate me.”

  “Listen,” Doc Fischer said. “No one will castrate you. There is nothing wrong with your body. You have a fine body and you must not think about that. If you are religious remember that what you complain of is no sinful state but the means of consummating a sacrament.”

  “I can’t stop it happening,” the boy said. “I pray all night and I pray in the daytime. It is a sin, a constant sin against purity.”

  “Oh, go and—” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “When you talk like that I don’t hear you,” the boy said with dignity to Doctor Wilcox. “Won’t you please do it?” he asked Doc Fischer.

  “No,” said Doc Fischer. “I’ve told you, boy.”

  “Get him out of here,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “I’ll get out,” the boy said. “Don’t touch me. I’ll get out.”

  That was about five o’clock on the day before.

  “So what happened?” I asked.

  “So at one o’clock this morning,” Doc Fischer said, “we received the youth self-mutilated with a razor.”

  “Castrated? “

  “No,” said Doc Fischer. “He didn’t know what castrate meant.”

  “He may die,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “Why?”

  “Loss of blood.”

  “The good physician here, Doctor Wilcox, my colleague, was on call and he was unable to find this emergency listed in his book.”

  “The hell with you talking that way,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “I only mean it in the friendliest way, Doctor,” Doc Fischer said, looking at his hands, at his hands that had, with his willingness to oblige and his lack of respect for Federal statutes, made him his trouble. “Horace here will bear me out that I only speak of it in the very friendliest way. It was an amputation the young man performed, Horace.”

  “Well, I wish you wouldn’t ride me about it,” Doctor Wilcox said. “There isn’t any need to ride me.”

  “Ride you, Doctor, on the day, the very anniversary, of our Saviour’s birth?”

  “Our Saviour? Ain’t you a Jew?” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “So I am. So I am. It always is slipping my mind. I’ve never given it its proper importance. So good of you to remind me. Your Saviour. That’s right. Your Saviour, undoubtedly your Saviou—and the ride for Palm Sunday.”

  “You’re too damned smart,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “An excellent diagnosis, Doctor. I was always too damned smart. Too damned smart on the coast certainly. Avoid it, Horace. You haven’t much tendency but sometimes I see a gleam. But what a diagnosis—and without the book.”

  “The hell with you,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “All in good time, Doctor,” Doc Fischer said. “All in good time. If there is such a place I shall certainly visit it. I have even had a very small look into it. No more than a peek, really. I looked away almost at once. And do you know what the young man said, Horace, when the good Doctor here brought him in? He said, ‘Oh, I asked you to do it. I asked you so many times to do it.’”

  “On Christmas Day, too,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  “The significance of the particular day is not important,” Doc Fischer said.

  “Maybe not to you,” said Doctor Wilcox.

  “You hear him, Horace?” Doc Fischer said. “You hear him? Having discovered my vulnerable point, my Achilles tendon so to speak, the doctor pursues his advantage.”

  “You’re too damned smart,” Doctor Wilcox said.

  The Sea Change

  “All right,” said the man. “What about it?”

  “No,” said the girl, “I can’t.”

  “You mean you won’t.”

  “I can’t,” said the girl. “That’s all that I mean.”

  “You mean that you won’t.”

  “All right,” said the girl. “You have it your own way.”

  “I don’t have it my own way. I wish to God I did.”

  “You did for a long time,” the girl said.

  It was early, and there was no one in the café except the barman and these two who sat together at a table in the corner. It was the end of the summer and they were both tanned, so that they looked out of place in Paris. The girl wore a tweed suit, her skin was a smooth golden brown, her blonde hair was cut short and grew beautifully away from her forehead. The man looked at her.

  “I’ll kill her,” he said.

  “Please don’t,” the girl said. She had very fine hands and the man looked at them. They were slim and brown and very beautiful.

  “I will. I swear to God I will.”

  “It won’t make you happy.”

  “Couldn’t you have gotten into something else? Couldn’t you have gotten into some other jam?”

  “It seems not,” the girl said. “What are you going to do about it?”

  “I told you.”

  “No; I mean really.”

  “I don’t know,” he said. She looked at him and put out her hand. “Poor old Phil,” she said. He looked at her hands, but he did not touch her hand with his.

  “No, thanks,” he said.

  “It doesn’t do any good to say I’m sorry?”

  “No.”

  “Nor to tell you how it is?”

  “I’d rather not hear.”

  “I love you very much.”

  “Yes, this proves it.”

  “I’m sorry,” she said, “if you don’t understand.”

  “I understand. That’s the trouble. I understand.”

  “You do,” she said. “That makes it worse, of course.”

  “Sure,” he said, looking at her. “I’ll understand all the time. All day and all night. Especially all night. I’ll understand. You don’t have to worry about that.”

  “I’m sorry,” she said.

  “If it was a man—”

  “Don’t say that. It wouldn’t be a man. You know that. Don’t you trust me?”

  “That’s funny,” he said. “Trust you. That’s really funny.”

  “I’m sorry,” she said. “That’s all I seem to say. But when we do understand each other there’s no use to pretend we don’t.”

  “No,” he said. “I suppose not.”

  “I’ll come back if you want me.”

  “No. I don’t want you.”

  Then they did not say anything for a while.

  “You don’t believe I love you, do you?” the girl asked.

  “Let’s not talk rot,” the man said.

  “Don’t you really believe I love you?”

  “Why don’t you prove it?”

  “You didn’t use to be that way. You never asked me to prove anything. That isn’t polite.”

  “You’re a funny girl.”

  “You’re not. You’re a fine man and it breaks my heart to go off and leave you—”

  “You have to, of course.”

  “Yes,” she said. “I have to and you know it.”

  He did not say anything and she looked at him and put her hand out again. The barman was at the far end of the bar. His face was white and so was his jacket. He knew these two and thought them a handsome young couple. He had seen many handsome young couples break up and new couples form that were never so handsome long. He was not thinking about this, but about a horse. In half an hour h
e could send across the street to find if the horse had won.

  “Couldn’t you just be good to me and let me go?” the girl asked.