Literary Love

by Gabrielle Vigot

  “Doubtless, doubtless,” said Morrel; “but I shall say, like the Spaniard, ‘He has not been so brave to-day as he was yesterday.’”

  “You will breakfast with me, will you not, Morrel?” said the count, to turn the conversation.

  “No; I must leave you at ten o’clock.”

  “Your engagement was for breakfast, then?” said the count.

  Morrel smiled, and shook his head. “Still you must breakfast somewhere.”

  “But if I am not hungry?” said the young man.

  “Oh,” said the count, “I only know two things which destroy the appetite,—grief—and as I am happy to see you very cheerful, it is not that—and love. Now after what you told me this morning of your heart, I may believe”—

  “Well, count,” replied Morrel gayly, “I will not dispute it.”

  “But you will not make me your confidant, Maximilian?” said the count, in a tone which showed how gladly he would have been admitted to the secret.

  “I showed you this morning that I had a heart, did I not, count?” Monte Cristo only answered by extending his hand to the young man. “Well,” continued the latter, “since that heart is no longer with you in the Bois de Vincennes, it is elsewhere, and I must go and find it.”

  “Go,” said the count deliberately; “go, dear friend, but promise me if you meet with any obstacle to remember that I have some power in this world, that I am happy to use that power in the behalf of those I love, and that I love you, Morrel.”

  “I will remember it,” said the young man, “as selfish children recollect their parents when they want their aid. When I need your assistance, and the moment arrives, I will come to you, count.”

  “Well, I rely upon your promise. Good-by, then.”

  “Good-by, till we meet again.” They had arrived in the Champs Elysees. Monte Cristo opened the carriage-door, Morrel sprang out on the pavement, Bertuccio was waiting on the steps. Morrel disappeared down the Avenue de Marigny, and Monte Cristo hastened to join Bertuccio.

  “Well?” asked he.

  “She is going to leave her house,” said the steward.

  “And her son?”

  “Florentin, his valet, thinks he is going to do the same.”

  “Come this way.” Monte Cristo took Bertuccio into his study, wrote the letter we have seen, and gave it to the steward. “Go,” said he quickly. “But first, let Haidee be informed that I have returned.”

  “Here I am,” said the young girl, who at the sound of the carriage had run downstairs and whose face was radiant with joy at seeing the count return safely. Bertuccio left. Every transport of a daughter finding a father, all the delight of a mistress seeing an adored lover, were felt by Haidee during the first moments of this meeting, which she had so eagerly expected. Doubtless, although less evident, Monte Cristo’s joy was not less intense. Joy to hearts which have suffered long is like the dew on the ground after a long drought; both the heart and the ground absorb that beneficent moisture falling on them, and nothing is outwardly apparent.

  Monte Cristo was beginning to think, what he had not for a long time dared to believe, that there were two Mercedes in the world, and he might yet be happy. His eye, elate with happiness, was reading eagerly the tearful gaze of Haidee, when suddenly the door opened. The count knit his brow. “M. de Morcerf!” said Baptistin, as if that name sufficed for his excuse. In fact, the count’s face brightened.

  “Which,” asked he, “the viscount or the count?”

  “The count.”

  “Oh,” exclaimed Haidee, “is it not yet over?”

  “I know not if it is finished, my beloved child,” said Monte Cristo, taking the young girl’s hands; “but I do know you have nothing more to fear.”

  “But it is the wretched”—

  “That man cannot injure me, Haidee,” said Monte Cristo; “it was his son alone that there was cause to fear.”

  “And what I have suffered,” said the young girl, “you shall never know, my lord.” Monte Cristo smiled. “By my father’s tomb,” said he, extending his hand over the head of the young girl, “I swear to you, Haidee, that if any misfortune happens, it will not be to me.”

  “I believe you, my lord, as implicitly as if God had spoken to me,” said the young girl, presenting her forehead to him. Monte Cristo pressed on that pure beautiful forehead a kiss which made two hearts throb at once, the one violently, the other heavily. “Oh,” murmured the count, “shall I then be permitted to love again? Ask M. de Morcerf into the drawing room,” said he to Baptistin, while he led the beautiful Greek girl to a private staircase.

  The moment the pair was alone, in the corridor housing a servant’s staircase, Haidee threw herself into the count’s arms.

  “My beautiful child, I find myself at an impasse, feeling things I want not to feel and wanting things I no longer knew I could want,” the count whispered against her hair.

  Haidee pulled away and looked up into his eyes. Our young Greek could see into the count’s soul and she knew he needed more than a life of revenge and treachery.

  “I wish nothing more than your happiness and always work toward that end.”

  Her big dark eyes held him in sway. Her face was like sculpted marble and her hair heavy and dark arranged in a style fashionable and alluring. The count found it irresistible, that dark mass of curls, and plunged his hand deep into the weight of it at the nape of her neck. The pair stared into each other’s eyes as he massaged the base of her neck with his hair-tangled fingers.

  “Haidee, there are no words, I can not,” he began but she interrupted by pulling his face down for a kiss. There wasn’t even a thought that could occupy his mind at that moment. Haidees hands threaded up into his hair and he sank against her pushing her back into the wall.

  They kissed as if the other provided the oxygen needed to breathe. Tongues, teeth, and lips tangled until they broke apart in one panting gasp.

  The count stared down into her eyes as if a great revelation had come to his mind.

  “What is in your eyes, my love?”

  He shook himself visibly and replied,

  “It is nothing, I had a thought but it passed.”

  The count stepped away and released the young woman. They straightened their clothing respectively each not meeting the other’s eyes. Haidee finally broke the constrained silence.

  “Why must you continue to push me away?”

  “I do not mean to shame you, love, I only wish to keep your honor intact so you might, one day, find a husband and the family you so deserve.”

  “I have no desire for anything save you. I possess all I need in your arms if only you would listen.”

  The count shook his head scared of what he might see in the lady’s eyes.

  “Haidee, it is not meant to be this way.”

  “What way is that, dear count, what way is love supposed to be?”

  “You don’t love me child, anymore than a baker might love his customer.”

  It only took a moment to realize his words were incorrect in the lady’s mind.

  “Do not presume to tell me how I will love or the depth of my feeling. I will give my heart where I choose and I chose to give it to you long ago despite your ill-treatement of it.”

  He reached out to touch her cheek but she stepped away from him shooting him an agonizing glance.

  “I did not mean to hurt you. I care for you, please believe that, but we can not be anymore than what we are.”

  “What are we? Hidden away in a secret staircase for eternity?”

  “I am an old man. I will not take your light from this world to join me in the dark.”

  “Why must you live in the dark when you can simply join me in the light. We can live our days as we should in leisure and together.”

  This time Haidee allowed his touch as he traced one finger down her neck.

  “You are a contradiction. You speak of not wanting me and yet you yearn for what I offer you. I see it in your eyes when you meet m
y gaze and I feel it in your touch on my skin in this moment.”

  “Haidee,” he began before she pressed a finger against his lips.

  “No, my love, I know my heart. I will not stop loving you simply because you wish it. I may be your slave but you do not control my affections.”

  “I do not see you as my slave.”

  “And you do not see me as your daughter. Who am I then, how do I mold into your life?”

  “You do not fit into my life. I fit into yours.”

  The count stopped speaking before he caused irreparable harm from which he could not return.

  “Oh how angry you make me,” Haidee whispered staring down at her slippered feet.

  He tilted her chin up and found himself longing to kiss her beautiful lips again. The lady must have known his mind because she stretched up and pressed her lips to his, gentler than before but no less passionately.

  Our young lovers kissed and the count pressed more into Haidee with each breath until her body cradled his vertically against the wall. The costume of her people made it all the more easy for the count to situate firmly between her thighs.

  Each kiss brought with it a sensation and only moments passed before the count shook himself from her arms. He became lost in her kiss and began to rub his hard length into her belly, much to his shame.

  She reached out to him, but he could not even look at her. He treated her exactly as if she were his slave, there for his erotic pleasure and nothing else. The depth of his shame had no end; she deserved so much from him than a rut in a servant’s staircase.

  “Please, look at me,” she whispered while gripping his shoulder.

  “Madam, I can not. You have been treated appallingly and deserve more than a rutting beast on a heated mare. You deserve a young beautiful husband who will treat you with the courtesy you should be afforded.”

  “I warned you mere minutes ago,” she said, “and yet you continue to assume you have some claim on my mind.”

  You can not understand,” he said, sadly, before pulling his arm from her grasp and slipping back out of the staircase.

  The count returned for his visitor.

  We must explain this visit, which although expected by Monte Cristo, is unexpected to our readers. While Mercedes, as we have said, was making a similar inventory of her property to Albert’s, while she was arranging her jewels, shutting her drawers, collecting her keys, to leave everything in perfect order, she did not perceive a pale and sinister face at a glass door which threw light into the passage, from which everything could be both seen and heard. He who was thus looking, without being heard or seen, probably heard and saw all that passed in Madame de Morcerf’s apartments. From that glass door the pale-faced man went to the count’s bedroom and raised with a constricted hand the curtain of a window overlooking the courtyard. He remained there ten minutes, motionless and dumb, listening to the beating of his own heart. For him those ten minutes were very long. It was then Albert, returning from his meeting with the count, perceived his father watching for his arrival behind a curtain, and turned aside. The count’s eye expanded; he knew Albert had insulted the count dreadfully, and that in every country in the world such an insult would lead to a deadly duel. Albert returned safely—then the count was revenged.

  An indescribable ray of joy illumined that wretched countenance like the last ray of the sun before it disappears behind the clouds, which bear the aspect, not of a downy couch, but of a tomb. But as we have said, he waited in vain for his son to come to his apartment with the account of his triumph. He easily understood why his son did not come to see him before he went to avenge his father’s honor; but when that was done, why did not his son come and throw himself into his arms?

  It was then, when the count could not see Albert, that he sent for his servant, who he knew was authorized not to conceal anything from him. Ten minutes afterwards, General Morcerf was seen on the steps in a black coat with a military collar, black pantaloons, and black gloves. He had apparently given previous orders, for as he reached the bottom step his carriage came from the coach-house ready for him. The valet threw into the carriage his military cloak, in which two swords were wrapped, and, shutting the door, he took his seat by the side of the coachman. The coachman stooped down for his orders.

  “To the Champs Elysees,” said the general; “the Count of Monte Cristo’s. Hurry!” The horses bounded beneath the whip; and in five minutes they stopped before the count’s door. M. de Morcerf opened the door himself, and as the carriage rolled away he passed up the walk, rang, and entered the open door with his servant.

  A moment afterwards, Baptistin announced the Count of Morcerf to Monte Cristo, and the latter, leading Haidee aside, ordered that Morcerf be asked into the drawing room. The general was pacing the room the third time when, in turning, he perceived Monte Cristo at the door. “Ah, it is M. de Morcerf,” said Monte Cristo quietly; “I thought I had not heard aright.”

  “Yes, it is I,” said the count, whom a frightful contraction of the lips prevented from articulating freely.

  “May I know the cause which procures me the pleasure of seeing M. de Morcerf so early?”

  “Had you not a meeting with my son this morning?” asked the general.

  “I had,” replied the count.

  “And I know my son had good reasons to wish to fight with you, and to endeavor to kill you.”

  “Yes, sir, he had very good ones; but you see that in spite of them he has not killed me, and did not even fight.”

  “Yet he considered you the cause of his father’s dishonor, the cause of the fearful ruin which has fallen on my house.”

  “It is true, sir,” said Monte Cristo with his dreadful calmness; “a secondary cause, but not the principal.”

  “Doubtless you made, then, some apology or explanation?”

  “I explained nothing, and it is he who apologized to me.”

  “But to what do you attribute this conduct?”

  “To the conviction, probably, that there was one more guilty than I.”

  “And who was that?”

  “His father.”

  “That may be,” said the count, turning pale; “but you know the guilty do not like to find themselves convicted.”

  “I know it, and I expected this result.”

  “You expected my son would be a coward?” cried the count.

  “M. Albert de Morcerf is no coward!” said Monte Cristo.

  “A man who holds a sword in his hand, and sees a mortal enemy within reach of that sword, and does not fight, is a coward! Why is he not here that I may tell him so?”

  “Sir.” replied Monte Cristo coldly, “I did not expect that you had come here to relate to me your little family affairs. Go and tell M. Albert that, and he may know what to answer you.”

  “Oh, no, no,” said the general, smiling faintly, “I did not come for that purpose; you are right. I came to tell you that I also look upon you as my enemy. I came to tell you that I hate you instinctively; that it seems as if I had always known you, and always hated you; and, in short, since the young people of the present day will not fight, it remains for us to do so. Do you think so, sir?”

  “Certainly. And when I told you I had foreseen the result, it is the honor of your visit I alluded to.”

  “So much the better. Are you prepared?”

  “Yes, sir.”

  “You know that we shall fight till one of us is dead,” said the general, whose teeth were clinched with rage. “Until one of us dies,” repeated Monte Cristo, moving his head slightly up and down.

  “Let us start, then; we need no witnesses.”

  “Very true,” said Monte Cristo; “it is unnecessary, we know each other so well!”

  “On the contrary,” said the count, “we know so little of each other.”

  “Indeed?” said Monte Cristo, with the same indomitable coolness; “let us see. Are you not the soldier Fernand who deserted on the eve of the battle of Waterloo? Are you not the Lieutena
nt Fernand who served as guide and spy to the French army in Spain? Are you not the Captain Fernand who betrayed, sold, and murdered his benefactor, Ali? And have not all these Fernands, united, made Lieutenant-General, the Count of Morcerf, peer of France?”

  “Oh,” cried the general, as if branded with a hot iron, “wretch,—to reproach me with my shame when about, perhaps, to kill me! No, I did not say I was a stranger to you. I know well, demon, that you have penetrated into the darkness of the past, and that you have read, by the light of what torch I know not, every page of my life; but perhaps I may be more honorable in my shame than you under your pompous coverings. No—no, I am aware you know me; but I know you only as an adventurer sewn up in gold and jewellery. You call yourself in Paris the Count of Monte Cristo; in Italy, Sinbad the Sailor; in Malta, I forget what. But it is your real name I want to know, in the midst of your hundred names, that I may pronounce it when we meet to fight, at the moment when I plunge my sword through your heart.”

  The Count of Monte Cristo turned dreadfully pale; his eye seemed to burn with a devouring fire. He leaped towards a dressing-room near his bedroom, and in less than a moment, tearing off his cravat, his coat and waistcoat, he put on a sailor’s jacket and hat, from beneath which rolled his long black hair. He returned thus, formidable and implacable, advancing with his arms crossed on his breast, towards the general, who could not understand why he had disappeared, but who on seeing him again, and feeling his teeth chatter and his legs sink under him, drew back, and only stopped when he found a table to support his clinched hand. “Fernand,” cried he, “of my hundred names I need only tell you one, to overwhelm you! But you guess it now, do you not?—or, rather, you remember it? For, notwithstanding all my sorrows and my tortures, I show you to-day a face which the happiness of revenge makes young again—a face you must often have seen in your dreams since your marriage with Mercedes, my betrothed!”

  The general, with his head thrown back, hands extended, gaze fixed, looked silently at this dreadful apparition; then seeking the wall to support him, he glided along close to it until he reached the door, through which he went out backwards, uttering this single mournful, lamentable, distressing cry,—”Edmond Dantes!” Then, with sighs which were unlike any human sound, he dragged himself to the door, reeled across the courtyard, and falling into the arms of his valet, he said in a voice scarcely intelligible,—”Home, home.” The fresh air and the shame he felt at having exposed himself before his servants, partly recalled his senses, but the ride was short, and as he drew near his house all his wretchedness revived. He stopped at a short distance from the house and alighted.