Savage SEAL’s Virgin: A Submissives’ Secrets Novel

by Michelle Love

  Oh my goodness, did I just say that? Well, he’s making me that ding dang hot!

  He sits up over me and smiles down at me. To the side of me he moves and unbuttons my jeans, pulling them off as he gazes at my body. I watch him looking at me and find I’m nearly about to fall apart with just that.

  What this man does to me is insane!

  His thumbs hook on either side of my panties and he looks up at me. “I must have a taste, Lex.”

  Oh, man! Oh, dear!

  “K,” I say as I get ready to go completely crazy.

  His lips touch my throbbing bud and I arch up to him as I almost scream with the want I have for him. My hands tangle up in his dark, wavy hair and my body gives itself to him. “I love you,” I groan.

  He stops and looks up at me. “I love you too, princess.” His mouth goes right back to making me crazy and I moan loud and wonder why I ever stopped this in the first place.

  His tongue taps at that little bud until it sends something shooting through me I’ve never felt. As I fall apart I feel his tongue inside me and moan again as it moves in and out. I need him in me like right now! “Max, fuck me now!”

  What? What does this man have me saying?

  He stands up and drops his jeans as he steps out of his shoes and smiles the whole time. “I have you saying shit you never said before.”

  “You have me feeling shit I never felt before, so get your fine ass down here and make me scream.”

  Who am I?

  “Damn it, I’ve missed you, baby,” he says and I can’t quit looking at his gorgeous face.

  My eyes close as he moves his body over mine. Hot lips touch my ear as he whispers, “I’m about to make you mine again.”

  My breath leaves my body as he thrusts into me. It’s hard and animalistic as he moves back and forth, growling and hitting places I didn’t know existed. Tears of sheer joy roll down my cheeks as he rams into me and somehow I want him even more inside me. I wrap my legs around him and he takes one leg and puts his arm around it and moves it near my head.

  Wow! Didn’t know I could do this!

  He’s so much deeper in me now and I can see his eyes dark with desire as he watches my reaction. “How’s that, Lex?”

  There are no real words for how it is so I lift my head up and take his mouth, making him kiss me. No disappointment do I have as he plows into me while his tongue does the same thing to my mouth. My body is on fire like never before.

  His body stiffens and I think he’s about to lose it and I never want this to end. I pull my mouth from his. “Turn me over.”

  He smiles and in an instant his strong arms flip me like I weigh nothing. He’s back inside me and I am whole again. I press my butt against his throbbing cock and whine at how good it feels. I never want this to stop. A hard slap on my butt he gives me and instead of making me mad it makes me even crazier for him. “Bite me,” I shout.

  As he continues to push himself inside me he leans over my back and bites my shoulder. My body seizes and tightens around him. I scream as my insides turn into a mass of sensations I never knew existed. “Oh, fuck!” I yell as I fall apart and feel him stiffen and he makes a loud groan as I’m filled with hot semen.

  I pulse around his still hard dick as I milk every drop of the fluid from him. “I love you,” Max says in my ear as he falls on my back. We land on the cold floor in a heap.

  Max

  The room is dark and the noise from the people and the basketball game can be heard. I hold the one I know I’m supposed to be with in my arms as she cries like a baby. “What if I get pregnant?” Lexi says as she sniffles.

  I kiss her cheek. “I’ll marry you tomorrow if you agree to.”

  “That was insane, Max. That’s how I know it’s too dangerous,” she says.

  Please don’t tell me she’s about to run from me again!

  Pulling her even closer to me, if that is even possible, I say, “Stop this nonsense. We belong together, Lex. I almost died, I’ll not spend my life with anyone but you, love.”

  “The pretty red-head, Max,” she says as she bawls like a baby. “It’s her you should be with. She saved you. She’s your angel. It’s in all the papers and on the news stations.”

  A kiss I leave on her cheek as I say against her ear, “She saved me for you, princess.”

  A heavy sigh she makes, and she finally is quiet and her crying stops. “We are naked in a small room in a public place. You’ve made words come from my mouth I never thought would. I have a lot to think about.”

  She pulls her body from mine and I almost want to cry myself. I watch as she grabs her clothes and pulls them on. I rise and put my clothes on. It’s as if she’s closed down on me, she won’t look at me.

  I try to touch her, but she steps away from me. “Stop it!” I shout.

  Her eyes finally meet mine and I can see it in them. She’s made up her damn mind and I’m going to be without her. “Max, you know as well as I do this is explosive, and that can’t be good.”

  “Don’t, Lexi, please. I’m begging you to stop.”

  As she buttons her shirt she says, “What do you suppose we do about this? I mean the sex is great more than great, but do you know how bad it will hurt if we try to keep this up and something happens?”

  “Like what?” I ask as I grab her and pull her into my arms.

  “This isn’t helping,” she says.

  “I’m not trying to let you go, Lex. Stop being afraid of what might happen. Let’s have all the great days we can. Hopefully they’ll last for many years.”

  Her head shakes and I may have to hogtie her to get her to stay with me. Then I remember who I have with me and wonder how I can go about taking her home with me. Her boyfriend probably won’t be too eager to let me take her either. “I know you have this boyfriend thing to deal with, so I’ll let you do that, but as soon as you do it, come to me,” I say.

  “Max, no, I can’t,” she says then looks up at me. “Logan is too sweet to do that too.”

  “Does Logan make you feel like I do?”

  She pauses and I know he doesn’t. She shakes her head. “No, but it’s a much calmer way to live. No dramatic ups and downs. My heart doesn’t race when I’m with him. I mean, come on, how long do you think I’ll live with my heart always pounding so hard just with the touch of your hand?”

  “We have something special, you and I.” I stroke her long, blonde hair and make her lay her head on my chest. “Don’t let this go because of fear.”

  “What if you let me think about it for a while?” she asks, and it’s better than what she was saying.

  “That’s all I ask, just think about it. And I have one more thing to ask you to do for me,” I say and take her chin in my hand to make her look at me. “Promise me if you have sex with that guy, or anyone, you make him wear a condom. If this little session here did get you pregnant I don’t wish to end up on Maury to see if I’m the father, okay?”

  She nods. “What if I do get pregnant from what we just did? You had a lot of baby-making juice you just unloaded in me.”

  “Then you’ll have to put this nonsense of us being dangerous for each other out of your head for good, because you will marry me and we will be a family for our child, okay?”

  She nods again and finally I feel a bit safer about her, and secretly hope I did knock her up. I take her hand and lead her out of the little room and back into the lobby where I see Kate and her parents looking for me, seems the game’s over.

  “Hey, I want you to meet the people who saved me,” I say as I pull her with me to meet them.

  “How do I look?” she asks as she runs her hand over her hair.

  “Like you just got your brains fucked out, you’re glowing,” I say with a laugh.

  Her cheeks turn red and she slaps my arm. “See, you’re a bad influence.”

  I wave a hand and Kate spots me. “Max, where were you.”

  We meet Kate and her parents and I gesture to Lexi. “This is the love of
my life, Lexi. I ran into her and we were just catching up with each other. Lexi this is Kate, my angel.”

  Lexi extends her hand and Kate shakes it. “Thanks for saving him,” Lexi says. “Life would be boring if he weren’t around to ruffle my feathers every now and then.”

  “You are his love. Is he yours?” Kate asks her with a frown.

  Lexi looks back at me and says, “Yes he is.”

  “Then why you two not together?” Kate asks. “If you love each other, you should be together.”

  “It’s complicated,” Lexi says and I feel her trying to tug her hand out of mine. “Speaking of complicated, here comes Logan.”

  I hold tight to her hand. She turns her eyes to mine and they are pleading for me to let her go, and I know I should, but I can’t seem to make myself do that so I hold on.

  “Hey, Alex, where did you disappear to? And you are Max Lane,” he says as he extends his hand. I let Lexi’s go to shake it and feel a tiny bit bad about what I just did to his girlfriend.

  “You must be Logan, Lexi’s told me so much about you,” I say and can’t help being a whole hell of a lot jealous she’ll live with him and not me.

  Logan looks Lexi up and down, it’s not completely obvious what we did, but her eyes are bright and her skin glows and she’s lost all that nervousness she normally has. “You ready to go, babe?” he asks her and reaches out for her to take his hand.

  She does and my heart stops. Two steps she takes away from me and I feel like grabbing her. “Bye, Max,” she says over her shoulder.

  “Lexi, wait!” I say and they stop. I step forward and grab her free hand and pull her into my arms for one last hug. “I love you.”

  Her body tenses in my arms and she pulls her head back. Tears glisten in her eyes. She mouths the words back to me and I have to let that be enough, for now anyway. “You keep in touch,” I say.

  Then I let her go and watch her walk away with some other guy and now I know what she’s talking about when she says what we have is too painful, because everything in me hurts.

  Please let her decide to come to me!

  Alexis

  Bright lights skip over the car windows as Logan drives us home. He hasn’t said a word and I know why. He’s going to pretend nothing happened so we can continue to stay together, but this life is a lie and I can’t let either of us live a lie.

  “Logan, I have to confess….”

  He interrupts, “Please don’t tell me, Alex.”

  With his eyes looking straight ahead I can see unshed tears. “Logan, this thing we have isn’t fair to you.”

  “I know you love him, but you said it yourself, you’re dangerous for each other.” He turns and looks at me. “I saw it, the raw passion, the all-consuming emotions you both had. It’s intense and I think you’re right not to want that in your life.”

  “I’m not a hundred percent sure I don’t want it in my life anymore,” I say and watch as the first tear breaks free and rolls down his cheek. I reach out and wipe it away.

  “Not sure anymore, huh?” he asks. “Where does that leave me, Alex?”

  I look out the window, “I’m not real sure, Logan.”

  I never meant to hurt him. I may not go back to Max, but I know I can’t continue to let Logan think we have a future. Lightning crackles through the sky and rain begins to fall as we go home, and I cry as I feel shame for my actions.

  Why does life have to be so hard?

  Part 5 Secrets of Temptation

  Alexis

  It’s been a month since I moved out of Logan’s nice house and into a crummy apartment in Dallas, but things are looking up and I’m moving in with a guy I work with a lot.

  Just as roommates!

  Marcos is so metrosexual. I think he may be homosexual and is just too wrapped up in himself to realize it. The guy spends more time on his appearance than any female I’ve ever known. We met at a modeling gig.

  Oh yeah, I’m a model now!

  When I was looking for a job, so I could move out of Logan’s house, I saw an ad for a modeling job at the mall and joked about checking that one out. Logan said I should and took me so I couldn’t back out of it. They hired me on the spot and have kept me busy this whole last month.

  Logan was upset that I broke it off with him, but he lucked out at the modeling interview as he started talking to one of the women there and they hooked up. The worst part is that I felt no jealousy, I mean what’s wrong with me?

  Logan is the nicest guy ever and I just didn’t feel anything deep for him. Friendship is about all I felt. I’m an idiot, that’s for sure.

  So I’m in my van and driving back to Houston. That’s where Marcos has what he calls a to-die-for apartment. There are plenty of modeling jobs the company I work for has in Houston too. I love the town, but I do fear running into Max.

  He’s been nice about giving me time and space, but I know he wants me with him and I’m just too afraid of that soul-shattering effect he has on me. I take his calls, because I promised him I would always do that. He’s down to one or two a week now. I think he’s trying to come to terms with the fact we’re dangerous for each other.

  No one should have that ding dang much power over your happiness. No one should be able to make your whole day with just the touch of their hand or ruin your day by getting themselves sick or hurt. If he and I were to really be together I would always be worried about him. I’d try my best to wrap him up in bubble wrap and make sure nothing happened to him, because it would devastate me if it did.

  Our last conversation he told me the young, French girl, Kate, who found him floundering in the ocean wants him to visit her in France. He said she asked if he would bring me along. She wants what’s best for him and she thinks it’s me.

  Silly girl!

  How can I be what’s best for Mr. Billionaire?

  I’m pulling up to the gates of one very nice place which doesn’t even begin to resemble apartments. I push in the code Marcos gave me and the gates open, so I am definitely in the right place. Oh, man, this place is nice and my van looks like I’m here to clean someone’s home, not live here.

  I really should get a nicer car!

  Max

  Pink and orange hues fill the sky as I sit by the pool and semi-patiently wait for Lexi to call me and tell me she made it safely to her new apartment. She’s moving in with a man she tells me is probably gay, and he’s completely gorgeous. She’s so naïve. I don’t trust her judgement and she won’t let me meet him or come see her. Our last encounter has her afraid of what we have.

  I tried to push her hard at first, but she told me she’d stop talking to me all together if I didn’t, and these are her words, not mine, ‘put my panties in the icebox so I could chill out already.’

  That girl always has me laughing. I wish she’d let me talk to her every day, but she won’t. There are times she’ll answer the phone, ask if I’m okay and when I say yes, she tells me that she is too and hangs up. She’s crazy and I’m crazy about her.

  Kate has asked me to come to visit her and her family in France and asked me to bring Lexi. When I told her she refuses to go with me she tut tuts in her tiny voice with a French accent and tells me to try much harder. My little angel thinks Lexi and I are meant to be together and we must make sure we are, or our lives here are in vain.

  Yeah, she’s over the top!

  The French and their idea of all-encompassing love, it’s sweet, but when your soulmate is afraid of her own shadow it may be impossible to ever have what we’re apparently meant to have.

  My phone rings and I see it’s my love. “Hello, love.”

  “What did I tell you about that, Max?” Lexi asks.

  “Not to say it, but I was worried with you on the road and I do love you. Every so often I want you to remember that, Lexi.”

  “Anyway, Prince Charming, I made it. I’m safe and Marcos is making us celebratory Caipirinhas. He says they’re the latest cocktail and to-die-for. He uses that phrase a lot, s
o many things are so great you would actually give your life up for them.”

  I laugh. “You are to-die-for, Lexi. You should let me come see you.”

  “Should I?” she asks coyly.

  My heart skips a beat. “Yes, I’ll bring you Chinese food.” I wait and cross my fingers.

  “Marcos, you want Chinese food?” she shouts right into the phone.

  Please, please, please want some, Marcos!!!

  “Carbs, baby, no way!” I hear his very effeminate voice say.

  “Steaks,” I blurt out. “I’ll bring steaks and salad!”

  “How about steaks and salad?” she asks.

  “Now we’re talking,” I hear him say. “Tell, Mr. Too Handsome, to bring some of the low carb beer we like so much and he can visit.”

  I think I love this man already!

  “Give me the address and I’ll be there,” I say and find myself jumping up and down with excitement.

  “You sure?” she asks. “It’s like clear across town. I’d hate for you to go out of your way.”

  “Lexi, you damn well know I’d go across the world for you,” I say and silence is all I hear.

  I brought up the dreaded fact I’d do anything for her and stirred the fear pot she always has boiling inside her.

  “Max, just so you know, I will not be having any type of sex with you and your visit will not be an overnight one. You can come and don’t forget the ice cream. I’ll text you the address. See you soon, bye,” she says and hangs up.

  Dancing all the way into the house I see Hilda and grab her up in a big hug. “Mijo, what is this about?” she asks.