by Lauren Wood
“Fine Colt, but I’m telling you that I’m not going to be able to sleep. I’ve never been good sleeping alone in strange places. That’s why I hate travelling for work.”
“It’s not a strange place, you have been here before Candy. And I’m not a strange man, I’m your husband.”
“Is that why I feel this way right now?”
“What way?”
“Like I want you to kiss me.”
I was stunned by her admission.
“I know that it’s wrong. I have a man at home, but I can’t help it. It just feels so wrong to want you.”
“There is nothing wrong about what we’re doing. I need you Candy. Surely you can feel that, too?”
She said that she could, but I wasn’t so sure. I wasn’t sure if she understood me at all, even though I liked to think that she could. If she knew how I was feeling, she wouldn’t be teasing me as she was right now. It was like she was torturing me, but I knew that it was innocent.
“If this isn’t wrong Colt, then why are you shooing me away right now?”
I didn’t have much of an answer for that because I was thinking about what it would be like to be with her. She sure seemed to be with it enough, to give her consent. Why did I have to wait?
“Because I don't want it to happen like this. I want it to happen to completely different way and nothing else will do.”
Chapter 10
Candy
The memory of how I acted the night before was not something that I wanted to relive. I had acted in poor taste and I was thankful that I’d woken up alone. It certainly wasn’t because of me. I had tried my best to get Colt to lay with me, but he’d told me that he was going to leave as soon as I was asleep. He hadn’t wanted to lay with me at all, but there was nothing that I could do about it. I had been so horny, so drunk, I don’t even know. What I did know, was that Colt had been the voice of reason and I owed him for it. I almost didn’t something that I would have surely regretted.
At the end of the day, I knew that I was lucky that he hadn’t taken advantage of me like I knew he could have done. It was very clear to me that I was lucky. It became even more apparent when my phone started to ring, and I could see that it was Jax on the line. What would I have said to him if Colt wouldn’t have been the way that he was? How would I have been able to explain myself?
I picked up the phone and said hello. My head was pounding from the night before, and I hadn't really opened my eyes that much, but after talking to Lisa, I knew that I had to take the call.
“Hey Candy. I was wondering when you're going to answer the phone. I was worried that you didn't want to talk to me.”
“Why wouldn't I want to talk to you?”
“I don't know, it's just weird not talking to you. I think this is the longest we've ever went without talking since we've met.”
Of course, Jax remembered things like that. Sometimes I really think that I didn't deserve him because he was so romantic, when I wasn't. I said that he was perfect, and I meant it, but that didn't mean that I was. I knew that I was far from perfect.
“I know baby, it has been weird here without you.”
“So how is it going? Do you like the hotel?”
Again, he was putting me on the spot and I didn't know what to say.
“The place I'm staying at alright, but it's cheap, so what can you expect?”
“You should get you a nice place and have some fun. You’re in Vegas after all.”
I suppose if he knew what I was doing last night he wouldn’t be telling me that. I wasn't much into drinking and I had gone way over my limit the night before. I could still feel it in the throbbing of my head and the fact that I still couldn't even open my eyes that much. It was just too bright, and my head was killing me.
“I'm not here to have fun Jax. You know what I'm here for. And as soon as I am done with that, I will be back home to you.”
“I know Candy. I just miss you and wanted to hear your voice. I didn't get to talk to you last night, so I wanted to talk to you this morning. You sound like you just woke up. This is kind of late for you, isn't it?”
Considering the fact that I didn't even know what time it was, I nodded my head to nobody in the room. Pulling my phone from my ear, I looked at the time and it was almost noon. I don't know what I had been doing, but it was Saturday and I had to get things taken care of. While I was trying to convince myself that I was here for the right reasons, if I didn't get it done, then that wouldn’t be true.
“I didn't just wake up I'm just, I don't know little tired. Probably jet lag from the trip. You know that I hate to fly, especially if there isn’t a beach on the other end.”
“Well, I'm about to go to the meeting. If you need anything just call me and Betty will answer. It won't be long until I'm out and I'll give you a call when I'm done, okay?”
“Okay, baby. I hope everything goes well with the meeting.”
“It will be fine. Although I am glad that you told me to go. The firm really needs this client and I don't know why but they wanted me here.
I told him that it was because he was so talented, and I know that I was stroking his ego a little bit, but at the end of the day, he was one of the best lawyers in the city. Everyone knew of him and I was happy that nothing else was going to be messed up because of my mistake. The last thing I needed was for him to lose a client, a very good client, over the mess with me being married.
“Just tell me that everything is going to be alright.”
“Everything is going to be fine Candy. Take care of what you have to take care of and then come home to me. That is all that matters.”
I told him that I would, but there was a part of me that wondered what was going to happen next. I couldn't very easily forget what had happened between me and Colt the night before. I had been horny as hell and he was the one that I was looking for. He had been the one that has stopped it from happening, but that didn't mean that I wanted it to happen. At the time I did, but now, thinking back, I'm glad that he had his mind about him and not me. It was sort of strange though, because I knew that's what he wanted.
Jax told me that he loved me and told me to hurry up and come home. Just the fact that he was being so sweet made me feel bad and I felt worse as I took a shower and got dressed for the day.
I did have a max-match of clothes with me, but there was one outfit in particular that wasn’t like the rest. It was a little tight on my curves and I were too impressed. I had just gotten off the phone with Jax, but I was getting dressed up for Colt. I knew that I was wrong in so many ways. but that didn't stop me from going down the stairs and giving Colt a smile. It wasn’t hard to see that he liked what he saw.
“Good morning.”
“Good morning. I am sorry that I slept in so late. I didn't realize that. I usually don't do sleep so late. I have to get up early for work most days.”
“I can tell by the way you handle your liquor. It is starting to seem like I am a bad influence on you.
I agree with that wholeheartedly and I knew that it was easier to blame him than to play myself. I don't know what the hell is going on with me lately, but I need to get my head on straight so that everything will be taken care of. I was here to get a divorce, nothing else. I said that in my head, at the same time I was smiling, hoping that he noticed me.
“Yeah, sorry about last night. I don’t know where my head was at.”
I could have mentioned the fact that I was sorry I came on to him the night before. That wasn't me at all either, but I was getting sick of saying it and I wanted to pretend like I didn't remember. We wouldn’t have to have a conversation if I didn't remember, because I didn't think that he would bring it up himself.
“It's no problem Candy. It was good to see the old you again. I told you that she was still in you.”
While I knew he was kind of being a smart ass, part of me knew that what he said was true. He seemed to bring out a side of me that I hadn't been in a long time. While I l
ike to think of that time as a crazy time, a time where I made a lot of mistakes, which was true. It was also true that I had learned a lot about myself and about the world. I had a freedom back then, no expectations and in a way, I missed it. I missed only having to make myself happy instead of everyone else. It was a lot easier that way.
“Your right. she came back for the night, but don't expect to see her again. I'm not...”
“I know, you're not like that.”
I giggled at him and told him not to be so upset about it.
“You make it sound like it's a bad thing.”
Chapter 11
Jax
We were both dancing around the issue of last night. The fact that she was so awkward around me told me that she remembered just fine what had happened. I was trying my best to not say anything, be the bigger man, be a gentleman, but it was getting rather hard. I almost regretted the fact that I was such a gentleman the night before. Everything would have been different if she had woken up next to me, though there was a part of me that wondered if it would have been the same as before.
“So, what are we doing today?”
I had thought about it a lot and I decided just to take her out as a tourist. She said she'd only been here once and that was for a Bachelorette party. Considering that I was with her most of the night and into the day, I knew that she hadn’t went and seen many sites. We had met in the bar at the Blanko and then went back to my place not too long after that.
“We can do whatever you want, there is a lot to see here. We can go gamble or we can go to Lake Tahoe that's not too far from here, or a number of other things. Just tell me what you like.
She smiled at me and said that she wasn't sure.
“Do you want to just go around and check things out? These casinos have done some pretty awesome things to bring in tourist. Why don't we be a tourist for a day?”
The smile that went up on her face was enough for me. I think that she was feeling the pressure of it all, much like I was, and it was easier if we were doing something to keep our mind and body occupied. All I could think about was taking her back to the house and into my bed, but that was to be at the moment, I had to do something to keep my mind off of that. If not, I was going to walk around with a hard on all day and that was going to be rather uncomfortable.
“I really like the sound of that. Do you think this will be okay to wear out, or should I go ahead and change?”
What she was wearing would draw a lot of attention, but then again, I had a feeling that she was going to draw attention no matter where we went. The woman was right about her hair, it made her stand out about as much as it was possible to and the red dress just brought it to another level. No, she wasn't just studied because of her red hair like she thought. It was her banging body as well.
She looked like sex on a stick and I couldn’t keep my eyes off of her. I knew that no one else was going to be able to either. But I wasn’t going to say all of that out loud. She wouldn’t take it as the compliment that I would mean it as. So instead of saying anything, I just told her that it would be fine and willed my cock to follow direction and calm the hell down.
When she told me that she was ready, I told her that I was as well. I called up the driver and he pulled the car around for us to get in. I could see by Candy’s expression that she wasn’t expecting the driver again. Maybe she thought that last night was a one-time thing. I don’t know.
“Don't you ever drive yourself?”
“Not too much anymore. The traffic around here is a bear and it isn't as enjoyable as it is on some of the highways. I just got sick of driving around in deadlock all of the time. I was losing a lot of time in my car, when I should have been at least answering calls. Now I can do both.”
She told me that she could see that. Sometimes it would be easier to let somebody else drive, but I really like to drive, and I don't know if I can give it up.”
“If you lived here with me, you would reconsider. It just isn't fun here.”
Candy had a look on her face that told me she was not sure about what I said. I was thinking of her living here with me, had been since I heard from her yesterday and it was clear to me that she wasn't thinking about that at all. For the first time in a long time, I had to wonder if this was all for nothing. Had I really missed my chance?
I have felt the tension in the air because I didn't say much else to her when we were getting in the car. Maybe she was right, and I was delusional. It wasn't that I was crazy or anything like that, it was just strange to be turned down when I was never turned down before. I was the man who could have any one and of course, it seemed to be poetic justice that I couldn't have the one that I wanted the most. How many women had been in my bed when I woke up the next morning? There had to be a reason that I didn't remember not one of their names.
“So, what do you like about Vegas?”
“Well there's always work, I can tell you that much. I don't know what it is about this place, but everyone gets so happy and wants to start spending their money on anything and everything. Then regret sets in not too long after that.”
“Yeah, I can see that happening. How many people try to sue the casino for losing everything?”
“That actually doesn't happen. You can’t fight the house.”
The silence went over us again and part of it was my fault because I didn't know what to say. I was usually the smooth operator, but when I talked to her, everything seemed to come out with the wrong way.
We stopped at the fake Sphinx that one of the casinos had put together and while I had passed it many times in the past, I liked to see Candy’s face when she saw it. She genuinely liked what she saw and if nothing else, it was going to be an interesting day. If she was like this already, there was a lot more that she was going to like to see today and I was hopeful that I would be able to get my mind out of this rut it was in. She wasn't the only one that had changed. Apparently, I had become far more contemplative then I used to be.
The two of us went all over Las Vegas and by the third stop, we were back to talking to each other normally. I just tried to steer clear of any conversation I had to do with romantics. It was clear that she didn't want to have nothing to do with that and I was just going to put myself into a grave that I couldn't dig out of. It wasn't just her reaction that I was avoiding, but mine as well. All it did was rile me up and give me hope that something was going to happen.
“Are you ready to get something to eat?”
She told me that she was and when I asked her where, she told me that she didn't care. It was a breath of fresh air compared to when I went out with other women, because they always knew exactly where they wanted to go. It was usually a place that was way overpriced, and food wasn't even that good. I agreed of course because I just wanted to get in their panties.
“So, you really don't care?”
“No not really, why?”
“I just haven't met a woman that didn't care. Most of the ones I meet, already have our whole lives figured out in the first ten minutes that we meet.”
Candy told me that it was silly.
“What is life, if we plan it all?”
It was the first thing that she had said to finally give me a little bit of hope. I liked to think the same way, and if she thought that way, then maybe all the plans that she had laid down hadn’t worked as I first thought. This is what I wanted to tell myself anyways. I always got my way, and I wasn't going to let this be any different.
“Well, if you really don't care, I know this place that had some really good food. I don't know if you will like the entertainment, but I guess we'll find out.”
I was a little amazed. She didn’t even ask what I was talking about or where we're going. It did appear that she really didn't care either way. Candy was going to leave it all to me and I really liked that. I know that it was just a meal, but it also signified that she was putting a little bit of faith in me. It was at least more than we had before.
M
aybe I was just being naive and hopeful, but I really wanted to believe that something good could come of all this. It all had to be for a reason. I had to believe that.
Chapter 12
Candy
“Are you being serious right now?”
I wasn't sure what to say, but I knew that there was no way that I was going to go in there. There was pictures of dancers out on a front panel and it didn't look like the sort of dance that I was going to be interested in. To me it just looked like strip club and I wasn't sure if that's what it was or not, but I certainly didn't want to go through the dark door.
“What's the matter? Haven't you ever been to a cabaret show before?”
“Why in the world would I go to one of these places?”
I can see why men would want to go, but I couldn't for the life of me see why a woman would want to be in a place that had half naked women posters in front. It didn't seem like a classy place, or any place that I would want to go. I really wondered if he was just messing with me or not.
“Because the show is really good. It's not what you think it is or what your face says you think it is. It's not like naked strippers or anything. They keep their clothes on, most of them.”
I just shook my head and I really didn't have a clue how I was supposed to respond to this. I was not used to being put in this sort of situation and he was acting like it was just another day. Maybe it was just another day for him, but it was a lot more than that for me. I was standing to silence and when he reached out to me, I just followed but I knew that I wasn't going to want to stay long. He wanted us to get to know each other, and I was starting to see that we were very different. That was obvious before we left, but it was even more not obvious now.
When we got inside there was already someone getting on the stage dancing and while it wasn't what I was expected, it was something different altogether. It was sort of like a car crash passed on the Interstate and even though I wanted to just keep on driving, something made you look and keep looking.
I was at that point right now and I was a little embarrassed when he had to get my attention to take me to our table. I was standing there in the middle of the floor frozen, transfixed by the woman that was dancing on the stage. She made it look so natural, the way her body contorted.
