by Shey Stahl
“Relax,” he whispered, sensing my hesitation. “There’s nothing to be frightened of. I won’t let anything happen that you’re not comfortable with.”
Am I comfortable with any of this yet?
I trusted Josh. I did. I also trusted Jeb.
Part of me wanted to leave. The other part, what was essentially weighing out the fear, wanted this. Wasn’t this everyone’s dream?
All right, maybe not everyone’s, but I was definitely wanting to stay.
In front of us, Jeb removed Addison’s dress, his mouth on her nipples drawing her left one into his mouth, and then her right. Her stare was on me, assessing my reaction.
Licking her lips, she drew her bottom lip into her mouth and sucked. The other couple, Nathalie and Asher, were to our left, kissing and caressing one another.
Nathalie moved closer to Addison and had her lie on the bed to our right. It was covered with a white sheet and a dark gray silk comforter.
Not a lot was being said by anyone. They were simply feeling the music and their desire.
Josh knew me pretty well, my eyes spoke the truth and he could tell I was nervous and moved me against the chair. He sat down with me on his lap, facing away from Nathalie and Addison on the bed.
He had full view of them and when I felt his cock twitch between my legs, harden with excitement, his eyes were on the women.
“Do they turn you on?” I whispered in his ear, grinding into his erection.
Josh’s wild eyes met mine, his breathing so ragged he gasped and then swallowed, dragging my hips back and forth over his erection. “Yes, they do.”
“Do you want to fuck them?” I glanced over my shoulder to see that Nathalie was between Addison’s legs, licking her pussy, Jeb and Asher both watching intently.
Josh nodded once, never giving me a direct answer.
But I needed one. I wanted to comprehend what was going through his head.
Firmly, I forced him look at me, my hands on his cheeks, my hips rocking with him. His shirt was gone and I could see his shaking chest. “Do you want to fuck them?”
“Yes.” His eyes were fixed on me, waiting for my reply, his jaw flexing and tightening. “I want to fuck them. Badly.” His eyes drifted closed at the sensations.
“And what do you want me to do?” My mouth was at his ear only he pushed me away with force, had me off his lap and standing before me.
Unzipping my dress, he let it fall to the floor. Ripping my panties off in the next motion, he had me on the chair.
Dropping to his knees, my legs draped over his shoulders, he yanked my ass to the edge of the seat. “I want to lick your goddamn pussy, Logan. I want you to come on my face and then I want you to kiss me, suck every last drop from my lips.”
My hands flew to his hair, forcing his face between my legs. His tongue darted out, his mouth everywhere, hot, wet, controlling. His eagerness and the quick movements made me squirm and moan.
“Are you going to share her?” Addison asked, moving from the bed to stand completely naked next to Josh, her hands on his shoulders.
Josh paused, looking to me for an answer.
She wanted to…join in?
I knew this was coming at some point. On the way here, Jeb made a comment he wanted to see the two of us fucking.
Was I opposed to that?
No. I wasn’t.
Nodding, my face was so fucking hot I could feel the heat like it was the highest fever I’d ever had.
When I stood, Josh reached for my hand and then moved me in front of him so his chest was pressed to my back, grabbing a handful of hair, he arched my neck back and walked me over to the bed.
Addison followed us and to our right, Jeb was putting on a condom with Nathalie crawling on top of him, Archer behind her.
People were doing things and fucking and… I had to draw in an unsteady breath, so overwhelmed but yet excited. I could feel every nerve ending in my body alive and pulsating, begging for touches and kisses. My skin burned and every blink of my eyes felt heavy, as if my body wanted to give in and scream with consent.
“Do you want her to get you off? Do you want her to finish the job?” Josh asked, growling out the words with force as he worked on his belt with one hand, the other firmly tangled in my hair.
I couldn’t see his face but I envisioned the need, the desperation he felt based on the intensity of his touch.
Unsure what to say, Josh tugged tighter, demanding I say something. I could feel the cool metal of his belt digging into my ass when Addison moved closer, her hands on my breasts, eyes bright with eagerness. Having her touch me sent a wave of ecstasy through my bones. My nipples hardened, so hard I thought they would break, pebbling around the edges.
With a soft touch, Addison drew my right nipple into her mouth as Josh panted out a breath, provoked by seeing Addison’s mouth on me.
I felt like their toy, willing to do whatever they wanted with me.
Josh let go of me and dropped his pants to the floor, forcing me forward with a gentle push so I lied next to Jeb, but still a good five feet from him on the king-sized bed. Completely naked now, Josh ran his hands over my body and then gave a nod to Addison. The two of them moved between my legs, spreading them open.
Together, they licked my pussy.
They had me hold my legs up by grasping the backs of my thighs while they both licked and sucked. They kissed a few times and my stare locked on the sight, the imaginary details I’d envisioned this to be like, nowhere close to what I felt piercing at me from the inside.
Sure, there were insecurities present, but the electrifying nerves, the allure negated everything else.
Josh’s fingers were in my pussy, curling and exploring while Addison licked my center, and watched my every response to their ministrations.
When my body curved, my stomach clenching, unable to stay still, one of Josh’s hands moved to my stomach and held me in place.
The fire spread quickly, tearing through me with an intensity I’d never experienced. It was essentially Addison who got me off when she sucked the sensitive bundle of nerves in her soft mouth, swirling her tongue and making a lapping motion over and over again until the jolt hit me.
Gasping and breathing heavily, Josh crawled up my body and laid on top of me. His mouth found mine. “Lick your juices off me.” He groaned, kissing me desperately.
I did. I tasted myself on his wet lips and it turned me on more, sent me spinning out of control. I clawed at his back, desperate to show him how alive my body felt, clinging to him like an anchor in the sea of toppling waves.
Jeb was still fucking Nathalie beside me and Asher grabbed Addison from behind. They started going at it. Josh watched for a moment as he put a condom on, and then lowered himself on me, caging me in his steel embrace I had no intention of moving from.
“Are you going to fuck them?” I asked him quietly, my attention on Addison and Nathalie, wondering if he would.
He didn’t answer at first, his hard thrusts fulfilling a need. Drawing up on his arms, he shook his head. “Not tonight.”
My breath caught in my throat, unable to make sense of his words but his eyes told me he was nervous of my reaction to it. Maybe he understood more than I did.
I wondered why but didn’t ask. I was too caught up in the sensation he was evoking inside of me and the visual aspects of everyone around me having sex.
Josh watched Nathalie and Addison kissing as they both fucked their opposing partners. And then he turned, burying his head in my neck, as if he couldn’t watch any longer, and needed to deny himself the sight.
“Fuck, Logan…” I knew he was about ready to come, his cock swelling and then his movements came to an abrupt halt. He was trying not to come, though he desperately wanted to.
“Do they turn you on? Does that get you off watching them?” My voice wilted, low and only for him. Despite not thinking it would, I myself was fascinated by them and the tingling it sent through me seeing that.
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�Yes.” His voice was dense, lust stricken and wavering over every word, every gasp he made. “It’s fuckin’ hot.”
“You’re hot.” I whispered, my tongue darting out to lick the seam of his lips, my scent still present on him and it sent me rushing toward my next orgasm.
My pussy milked his cock to the point where he had to pull out and stop completely, his erection twitching but I knew he wasn’t done. On his knees, Addison reached for him, her arms wrapped around his waist attempting to pull him to her.
He hesitated, his eyes on mine, raising his eyebrow, unsure if that was something I was ready to see. Though he told me he wasn’t going to have sex with them tonight, I think deep down he was dying to.
I wanted him to. I just couldn’t make myself say it. I was shaking so badly by then I think he could tell I wasn’t ready for it, or maybe he was afraid I would run away.
He shook his head and Addison let go of him, never pushing the issue.
What? Why won’t he?
Jeb pulled out of Nathalie and reached for me, removing the condom he had on and then putting on another one.
I was okay with Jeb fucking me and he didn’t wait for an okay.
Instead, he took the opportunity when Josh moved back and had me on my knees.
That position, with Jeb entering me from behind, put my face at Josh’s cock with Addison beside me.
“Mind if I suck this with you?” she whispered in my ear, sucking on my earlobe. The softness of her tongue burned in the best imaginable way possible. Every nerve stood at attention, lurching forward as I fought to catch my breath.
I took a firm hold of Josh and removed the condom, setting it aside, my body bouncing forward as Jeb pounded into me from behind, hitting the deepest parts, my belly burning.
I was about to play a porn star for him.
Nodding, I winked at Addison and brought Josh into my mouth.
Taking him deep, I could feel the groan that left his chest rumble through me, an almost painful sound. His hands went to my hair, fisting one hand and driving my head down on him. His right hand fisted in Addison’s hair as she kissed his hips and the sharp defined muscles that led to his cock.
I made a few passes and then Addison took over.
The sight of her mouth on my boyfriend was strangely erotic. There was a rush of anxiety and insecurities there, but then again, all of that was overcome by the sensuality of the moment.
I could tell Jeb wasn’t going to last much longer by the grunts and the speed of his erratic thrusts. His fingers dug desperately into my hips and one at my ass, pushing down to increase the tightness of my pussy, slamming inside of me.
It was hard to suck Josh’s cock while he was doing that, but then again, I’d let Addison take over, captivated with the way she drew him in deep and let him move his hips and fuck the back of her throat. I needed to take some lessons from her because she had him moaning and practically hunched over her.
I felt Jeb groan behind me, his body bending forward, much like Josh.
Jeb wrapped his arms around my middle, whispering in my ear. “No one gets me off like you do,” he said, only for me.
Was he serious or was that just a heat of the moment?
With Jeb kissing my back, I watched in fascination as Addison brought Josh to the edge and asked if I wanted to finish him off. Josh didn’t wait and grabbed my head by my hair and made me finish him off. It wasn’t forceful but it was enough to let me know he wanted me to do it.
His orgasm surfaced, my lips tightening around his swelling cock as hot bursts of liquid hit the back of my throat. I swallowed every last drop, eager to please him. I watched him as he came, his beautiful contoured face that was on the edge, moments away from pleasurable numbness.
The entire experience was unlike anything I’d ever experienced, both physically and emotionally.
“HOW DO YOU feel about what we just did?” Josh’s commanding voice drew my attention to his, pressed up against the wall, his possessive hard lines of his body curving into me.
I didn’t have words…nothing. I couldn’t even comprehend how alive I felt.
“How do you feel, Logan?”
Swallowing, my voice was timid, hardly any pitch to the noise. “Sexy.”
I certainly felt sexy but even that word didn’t seem sufficient enough for what was really going through my mind.
“You should feel sexy. You are.”
My face warmed and he noticed, running his fingers gently over my cheeks and then stopped, cupping his hand around the side of my face.
I leaned into his touch, overwhelmed by everything pulsing throughout.
I still couldn’t pinpoint any one feeling. It felt like I was on a rollercoaster ride and coming down from the exhilaration. That jittery numbness you experienced where your muscles trembled and resembled jelly.
Looking up at him through my lashes that fluttered open, I sought his gaze, looking for anything to ease something so foreign to me. My mind replayed thousands of flashes from tonight but fixated on one, when he shook his head at Addison and the desperation in his eyes right then. He wanted to have sex with her and I didn’t say anything so he didn’t. But it made me question why. What stopped him?
“Why didn’t you have sex with them?”
His brow scrunched and my pulse fluttered. “I did…”
“No, I mean…why didn’t you want to be inside?”
“I want you to be comfortable with this first.” His voice was softer now, dipping his head forward, he kissed my neck in attempt to ease my nerves. “I will if you want me to, but that entire time, I was fucking terrified that at any moment you were going to run out of there.”
When he drew back, I searched his stare. “You said this was your life, so if I wanted to be in it, I had to try this.” My cheeks burned slightly as I admitted to the reason why I came tonight.
Sure, I went for him but now that I had experienced this, it wasn’t all for him.
“I know.” His eyes softened and I saw the tender side I knew was there all along. He pressed his face closer, his nose touching the back of my ear. He warmed my body and surrounded me as he whispered low with gruffness, “But it doesn’t mean I want you to leave. It’ll be a constant fear of mine.”
I could understand his fear. He’d basically given me an ultimatum that I do this or I couldn’t be with him.
At first I was angry by that. Now that I’d tried it, those feelings had vanished, in a sense.
My fear was I’d lose him by not doing this.
What if weeks from now, maybe even months I decided I didn’t want this, then what?
I wanted to see Josh with another girl.
And not just see him touching her. I wanted to see him fuck someone the way Jeb fucked me, lost in the moment, captivated to the point nothing else mattered.
I wanted to because I wanted to see why he was obsessed with seeing me with other guys.
On Sunday, back at the hotel, I asked Addison and him to have sex, in front of me.
Addison was eager and told me that she hadn’t been with him in a really long time.
“Before I was with him?” The way my voice trembled was damn near embarrassing as we sat on the bed, Addison comfortably naked beside me. I began to understand she preferred to be naked, all the time.
Addison laughed, and leaned in to whisper in my ear. “I haven’t had sex with him while he’s been with you. I promise.”
Josh came over to me and asked if I wanted to film them, I said no. I just wanted to watch.
Jeb wanted to fuck me, so I agreed but I really wanted to just watch and see everything. It was like I was getting to watch a much anticipated movie that I’d seen constant teasers for.
Josh reached for me, his hands framing my face. “Logan, if you’re nervous, we don’t have to do this.”
“I want to,” I assured him, placing a kiss on his lips.
“Are you sure?”
Was I?
“I am.” My heart sped like no
thing before, insecurity and jealously spun in my gut, yet just on the edge was excitement.
Jeb walked over to me and bumped my thigh with his knee. I was still dressed, wearing a pair of cotton shorts and a tank top, him in board shorts, as usual, despite the fact it was freezing outside.
“Does this mean I get to fuck the pretty little ass of yours again?”
I smiled, licking my lips. Jeb was fucking sexy. As much as I wanted Josh, Jeb was right up there on the list. He just had this way about him that drew me in and made me weak for him. “You’ve never fucked my ass before.”
He sat down on my lap and then put my hand on his erection, flirting. “That could definitely be arranged.”
As we went back and forth, teasing, Jeb made me stroke him for a moment as Josh and Addison were now on the bed.
I couldn’t process anything to understand what was happening in front of me. In the beginning, they didn’t pay much attention to anything around them, as if they were too caught up in the act to be watchful of their surroundings.
That bothered me.
But it was also electrifying.
It wasn’t like he didn’t acknowledge me. Because he did.
He even watched closely when Jeb convinced me to sit on his lap, naked. “You just want to fuck me again, don’t you?” I teased Jeb when he put on a condom.
Jeb grinned. “Well, fuck yeah, I want to. Now set that sweet pussy on this cock. It’s lonely over here.” When I didn’t, he stroked it, chuckling. “If you don’t, I’ll just come all over your face.”
Laughing, I shoved him back lightly.
He was serious. If anyone was serious about such things, it was Jeb.
So I sat on him, facing Josh and Addison and watched them as Jeb and I once again had sex. It was our third time and just as good as the previous rounds.
Trying to process Josh and Addison and what I was seeing wasn’t easy. The feelings swirled around like clouds moving through and covering the sun.
Their positions changed from missionary to doggie style to others more adventurous, never remaining the same for very long.
