Benching Brady (The Perfect Game Series)

by Samantha Christy

  Me: I know you do. It will happen. You’re getting stronger every day.

  Brady: You tell me that all the time. But it’s been almost three months and I still can’t throw a baseball better than my grandmother.

  Me: That’s not true, Brady. You are throwing well. And once your grip comes back, you’ll be throwing better than before. Every single time I measure your hand, you improve. Every millimeter of progress you make is one step closer to your goal. Someone once told me that the best things in life are worth fighting for. You need to keep fighting and you’ll get what you want.

  Brady: Are we still talking about baseball, Ry?

  I reread my text and realize what I said. And I wonder if he thinks I’m worth fighting for.

  Me: So you get back tomorrow, right?

  Brady: Way to deflect the question. Yes, tomorrow. Is it okay if I come by for a minute and drop off Stryker’s animal?

  Me: What is it this time?

  Me: Wait. Let me guess. You are in San Diego … um, a seal?

  Brady: Guess again.

  Me: A sea lion?

  Brady: Nothing from the water, but you’re close on the name.

  Me: I give up.

  Brady: A mountain lion.

  Me: Really?

  Brady: Yeah, San Diego is close to the desert. It was either that or a bobcat.

  I look at the shelf where Stryker keeps all the stuffed animals Brady gives him. He gets so excited when he knows Brady is coming home. We often play guessing games on what kind of animal he’s going to bring. It’s been fun for Stryker. And surprisingly educational.

  Me: Remind me never to go walking at night if I go there.

  Brady: I’ll go with you if you do. I’ll always protect you, Rylee.

  I know he will. I feel it. But the question is, can he ever feel the same about Stryker?

  Brady: Are you still there?

  Me: Yes.

  Brady: I know you must be tired. I just wanted to say hi. I miss you, Ry.

  Me: I suppose I miss you too.

  Brady: You suppose? Come on, throw a guy a bone.

  Me: Okay, fine. I miss you.

  Brady: How much?

  Me: Now you’re pushing your luck.

  Brady: See you tomorrow night, Ry.

  Me: See you then.

  I put the phone down and think about how much I miss him. I miss the way he kisses me until he knows I can’t stand it and then he does something mundane like picks up a magazine or turns on the television like he didn’t just wreck me. I miss the way he follows my every move with his gorgeous brown eyes when he comes for physical therapy. I miss the way he holds my hand when he takes me to the movies.

  I miss everything about him.

  And I realize I also love everything about him. Or at least the man he’s proven himself to be.

  I just wonder if he’s capable of loving me. Of loving anyone.

  ~ ~ ~

  There’s a knock on my door. I check the time. It’s just after nine o’clock. He said he would stop by, but I figured he was too tired when he didn’t show up at the usual time.

  I check the peep hole to make sure it’s him and I see a … mountain lion?

  I laugh and open the door. Before he even says hello, he sweeps me into his arms and plants a kiss on me. But he releases me almost as hastily. “Oh, shit,” he whispers, looking past me into my apartment. “Is the little guy around?”

  I shake my head. “He’s been asleep for an hour.”

  A devious smile comes up Brady’s face. He picks up his duffle bag and drops it inside my door then he lifts me into his arms and carries me to the couch.

  “How light of a sleeper is he?” he asks.

  “A freight train couldn’t wake him.”

  He laughs. Then he looks into my eyes. Deep into my eyes. I swear he’s telling me all the things he’s afraid to say out loud. And I’m saying them right back to him.

  “God, you’re beautiful,” he says, leaning down to give me a proper kiss hello.

  His kisses start out light and feathery. He explores my face with his lips. He tickles my eyelids with them. He traces a path down my jaw. He tastes the lobes of my ears.

  I take his head into my hands and pull him towards my lips. I need to taste him. I need to feel the connection that I long for when he’s away. I force his lips onto mine. I kiss him long and hard.

  My hands wander across his biceps, along his back, even down to the seat of his pants. His hands never leave my face, my shoulders, my arms.

  When I can’t stand it any longer, I grab one of his hands and put it on my breast. “Touch me,” I say, breathlessly.

  He pulls back. “Are you sure?”

  I haven’t felt his touch on my body for far too long. I crave it. I need it. I grab his other hand and pull both of them to my chest. “Touch me,” I say again.

  His eyes close as he feels me beneath his hands. I’m wearing a t-shirt and yoga pants. I didn’t bother with a bra so I know he can feel every part of me.

  “Jesus, Ry. You’re incredible.”

  “Put your hands under my shirt.”

  He obliges without question, lifting my top to get a full view of what he’s touching. He stares first, before putting his hands back on me. He traces every inch of my creamy flesh with his eyes, causing my nipples to pucker.

  He sees my reaction and reaches out to roll my nipples between his fingers. My head falls back against the couch at the sensation. And without thinking, I grab his shoulders and pull his head to my chest.

  He takes me into his mouth, giving equal attention to both my breasts. The one he’s not tasting, he’s fondling. He licks and sucks and laves me until I’m squirming beneath him. My hand goes in search of his lap, needing more.

  When I find what I’m looking for – when I find his manhood straining beneath his jeans, he stops me, removing my hand. “No, Ry. That’s not why I’m here.”

  I question him with my eyes.

  “We still have two more weeks,” he says.

  My head falls forward in frustration. “What if I tell you we should change the rules?”

  For a second, I see hunger in his eyes. For a second, he wants to change the rules, too. But then he pulls my shirt back down. “We’re not changing the rules. You’re not ready.”

  “I am,” I tell him.

  He shakes his head. “Do you trust me, Ry?”

  I study him. “I think I do.”

  “That’s not good enough.”

  He jumps up off the couch and holds his hand out to help me up. “Do you have a sitter this week?”

  “Chloe can come on Tuesday if that’s okay.”

  “Tuesday is perfect. I’ll pick you up at ten o’clock. I’m sorry it has to be so late.”

  “I get it, Brady. You have to be at the games. It’s okay. But Chloe can only stay until eleven thirty.”

  He leans down to kiss me. “That’s not nearly enough time with you, but I’ll take anything I can get.”

  “Thank you,” I say.

  “For what?”

  I shrug. “For understanding my schedule. For bringing presents for Stryker. For being patient even when I can’t be.”

  He grabs his duffle bag and opens the door. “You’re worth it, Ry. You’re worth waiting for. You’re worth fighting for.”

  I watch him walk down the hall before I retreat into my apartment. I lean against the wall wondering how this man could be so perfect.

  Then again, however, maybe he’s not. How can a man go from being the playboy of baseball to being the ideal man in just a few months?

  My father once told me a leopard never changes his spots.

  But perhaps Brady never really had spots. Maybe his spots were camouflage, hiding who he truly is.

  I go to bed and dream of my leopard, thinking that maybe I can be the one to break down the walls he’s built up around his heart. Hoping he has room left in that heart for two more people. Praying he can find his way to love me the way I love him
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  Chapter Thirty-five

  “This has been one of the most fun nights I’ve ever had,” I tell Murphy as the eight of us leave the dance club.

  “I’m glad we could do it,” she says. “It’s been far too long since we’ve all gotten together. Someone is always pregnant or traveling or working. All the stars had to align to set this one up.”

  “I need a drink,” Skylar’s sister, Piper, says.

  The oldest Mitchell sister, Baylor, stops and reprimands her. “Are you kidding, Pipes? Mason will have my head if I send you home drunk.”

  “Not a drink-drink, Baylor. Water. I need water,” Piper says.

  “Oh.” Baylor laughs at her youngest sister.

  “Let’s go in here,” Mallory says, pointing to a tavern. “We can sober up with coffee and water before heading home.”

  “Good idea,” Charlie says, opening the door to let us all file in.

  We get settled into a large corner booth and order a round of non-alcoholic drinks.

  Lexi points to the television that is showing highlights of the game. “I can’t believe you missed a game for girls’ night,” she says to Murphy.

  “It’s not like I’ve never missed a game, Lexi. I miss a lot of the games when I’m working. What do you think DVRs are for?”

  “Do you really watch all of them?” I ask.

  She shakes her head. “Caden thinks I do, but no. I mostly fast-forward to the good parts. I pick out one highlight, something they might not cover on the news, and I tell him about it. It makes him feel important.”

  “What is it about men and their need to be the center of the universe?” Mallory says.

  “But your man actually is the center of the universe,” Skylar says to Mallory. “I mean, the Thad Stone?” She fans herself melodramatically.

  Mallory’s husband is one of the movie stars I’ve worked on at the gym. He goes by his real name, Chad, when he’s not acting. I can’t believe he’s actually an A-list star. He’s so normal and down-to-earth.

  “Not to sound too fan-girl or anything,” I say. “But what’s it like being married to one of the world’s hottest actors?”

  “Probably the same as it is dating the world’s most eligible baseball player,” she says with a wink.

  I roll my eyes. Sometimes I forget the truth of that statement. But only sometimes. Other times my stomach is in knots knowing that thousands of women want him. They want what I have. Well, what I kind of have.

  “How do you handle it, Mallory? There are so many women. And Chad has to kiss them and stuff. I can’t imagine.”

  She gives me a sympathetic smile. She knows what I’m asking. “It was hard at first. I didn’t trust the girls who threw themselves at him. I didn’t even trust some of the actresses he got paired with. But once I knew he loved me, it got easier. Because no matter how much I don’t trust the women, I trust Chad.”

  “But how did you know you could trust him?”

  “I just did.” She puts her hand on top of mine. “You’ll know when you know.”

  “Look!” Lexi says, pointing to the TV. “They won. That’s fifteen in a row. They are setting up for a press conference.”

  It’s late and the tavern is relatively quiet. Murphy asks the bartender if he could turn up the volume on the television.

  We all watch as the manager of the Nighthawks talks about the winning streak. Then Cole Crawford talks about being the most winning pitcher on the team right now. My eyes fall to the table. I know that must kill Brady.

  Murphy touches my arm in empathy.

  Cole gets asked about Brady and he waves someone up to the mic. “Why not let him speak for himself?” he asks, surrendering his chair to Brady.

  Brady sits down confidently, looking uber-handsome in his all-too-clean jersey.

  “How’s the arm?” a reporter asks.

  He holds it up. “Getting stronger every day.”

  “Any idea when you’ll be off the DL?”

  “Soon,” he says.

  My eyes are glued to the TV as he gets asked some more technical questions about his injury which he answers very diplomatically.

  “Rumor has it, you’ve met a special lady and you’re off the market, Brady,” another reporter asks. “Care to comment on that?”

  All eyes at the table turn to me. My heart races and my palms become sweaty.

  “I don’t ever like to talk about my personal life, haven’t you learned that by now?”

  Another reporter starts asking a question, but Brady cuts him off. “But in this case, I’m happy to confirm that the rumors are true. I do indeed have a girlfriend.” He pretends to look at his non-existent watch. “Well, as of midnight tonight, I will.”

  “Midnight? Why midnight?” the reporter asks.

  “Nothing. Next question,” Brady says.

  “What’s the lucky girl’s name?”

  “I meant next question about baseball,” he says. “Anyone? Okay, I guess I’m done. Jason, you want to talk?” He hands the mic over to the team owner.

  I’m left with my chin in my lap. “Did he just …?”

  “Yup,” Murphy says.

  “Oh, my God.”

  Several of my friends squeal in delight.

  “What happens at midnight?” Baylor asks.

  “At midnight, it becomes June 1st,” I tell her, still reeling over his declaration. “I gave him until then to prove to me he was done with other women. He said that would be the day he called me his girlfriend. I just didn’t think he would tell the whole world.”

  “But he didn’t say your name,” Baylor says.

  Murphy shakes her head. “Doesn’t matter. Everyone knows he’s taken now and that was his intention. Talk about grand gestures, Rylee. That man just put himself out there. The most private guy I know just gave up a very personal detail.”

  I stare at the TV as the news anchor glosses over the story of the winning streak in favor of Brady’s uncharacteristic declaration. “There you have it, New York,” he says. “And if I were a betting man, I’d bet the quest to find out who this girl is will pale the quest to find out who shot J.R. back in the eighties.”

  I drop my forehead and bang it on the table.

  “What’s wrong?” Lexi says. “This is a good thing, isn’t it?”

  “Maybe,” I say looking up at her. “Or maybe Brady has just made me enemy number one.”

  Mallory, Murphy and Piper all try to comfort me, being that they have been in my position in one way or another.

  “They’ll get over it soon enough,” Mallory says. “In two months, this will be old news.”

  “Just remember who your friends are,” Piper says. “You can trust every woman at this table, but you can’t trust anyone else. People will try to break you up. Crazy women from his past may become jealous and try to sabotage your relationship. Don’t go jumping to conclusions and believe them.”

  “You say that as if you speak from experience,” I say.

  “Sadly, I do. Even after I trusted Mason, I still almost let someone rip us apart.”

  “I don’t know if I can do this,” I say, tearing up at the gravity of my situation.

  “Do you love him?” Murphy asks.

  I stare at her. How could she possibly know?

  “Do you?” she prods again.

  I close my eyes and nod.

  “I knew it,” she says. “And he loves you too. I’m just as sure of that, Rylee.”

  “But … Stryker.” I look at her with sad eyes.

  “Brady will come around,” she whispers to me. “Healing has a funny way of happening slowly and then all at once.”

  Murphy stands up and puts money on the table. “Come on, you’re going to need your sleep. After all, at midnight you transform into a girlfriend.”

  Suddenly I’m excited and terrified all at once. He’s talked about tomorrow so much I fear it will be a huge letdown when it actually happens. I fear I’ll be a letdown. He’s put me on a pedestal these past six
months. How can I live up to that?

  Maybe that’s not the problem. Maybe the problem is that I can never measure up to a ghost who was his first love. To the woman in the picture who will always be perfect in his eyes. And to the son who can never be replaced.

  Chapter Thirty-six

  I’ve been plucked, waxed, shaved, and perfumed in all the right places. I’ve changed my clothes three times. I’ve had a glass of wine to calm my nerves.

  Still, I pace around the apartment until he arrives. I take a deep breath when he knocks on the door fifteen minutes early. I open it to see he’s still got his duffle bag.

  “Sorry,” he says. “I know I’m early. I still have to hit the shower, but I wanted to bring Stryker his animal before he went to bed.”

  I want to jump into his arms but my son is in the room behind me. And we don’t hug or kiss in front of Stryker. I don’t want to give him hopes of having a man in our lives until I’m sure about who that man will be.

  Stryker runs over to stand next to me. He looks up at Brady. “Did you bring one?”

  “Of course I did,” Brady replies, handing a stuffed eagle to my son.

  I laugh. “You were right, Stryker.” I turn to Brady and explain, “We research every city you visit and guess which animal you’ll bring home.”

  “Sounds like a lot of fun,” he says. “I have something for you, too. But you have to come upstairs to see it.”

  I smile at the seductive look on his face. “I’ll bet you do,” I say.

  Suddenly, my son surges forward and latches onto Brady’s leg. “Thank you, baseball man. I love it.”

  It’s the first time Stryker has shown affection for him.

  Brady stiffens and I try not to notice the intense pain that crosses his face when he leans down to ruffle Stryker’s hair. “You’re welcome, sport.”