Shameless

by Tara Janzen

  But the rest of her was soft, ungodly soft.

  He opened the gate and, once on the other side, shoved the bolt home, locking out the rest of the world. He wasn’t worried about the Ramones. The traffic was usually one-way from the Sandovals’. By the time people ended up at the Ramones’, they were done for the night.

  No, all his attention was focused right here, right now, right where he stood.

  His heart was pounding.

  It was dark on his side of the wall, dark and sweet with the smell of flowers, with just the light from the party filtering in through the trees and across the tops of the climbing vines.

  “Kid,” she said, her voice still so softly breathless. “You’re here. I hoped, but... my God, it’s like I dreamed you.”

  Her face was turned up toward his her hand touching his arm.

  “Nikki... I—” he started, then gave up and simply lowered his mouth to hers. There was nothing to say, not right now, not when all he wanted, all he needed was to touch her, to slide his tongue in her mouth and taste her, to fill himself up with her.

  Their lips met, hers parted, and a hundred emotions flooded through him. He’d expected the pleasure, electrifying pleasure—but he also got relief, bone deep. This was home, being with Nikki, their bodies touching. She came up on tiptoe, her mouth on his, her arms going around his neck, and he slid his hand down her back.

  Then farther.

  Two rules down in under thirty seconds. He was kissing her and had his hand on her ass—and it was incredible.

  This was going to get crazy, fast. Real fast. He could tell. The kiss had gone from “home sweet home” to hot and deep instantly. He tried not to stick his tongue halfway down her throat, tried not to devour her, but she was already there, and he was drowning in the love he felt—in the edge of desperation pulling him under, the heat of her skin, in the all-consuming soft wetness of her mouth.

  This was going to be more than crazy. It was going to be crazy hot sex, sweet and dirty up against the garden wall in less than five minutes. Geezus. He’d been so in love with her, was so in love with her. How had he ever thought he could live without this?

  * * *

  Nikki opened her mouth wider, took him deeper, and it still wasn’t enough—not even close.

  She was doomed. Nothing should be this hot, this fast, and nothing ever had been, not in her whole life, except Kid Chaos. She’d come to Panama needing to see him. Her friend Skeeter had said he’d finished up a mission and would be returning to his house in Panama City, and Nikki had known she had to come. She needed to tie up loose ends, close the books, get him out of her system so she could move on.

  She had not come to kiss him.

  She had not come for this. She swore it, but between one placed bet and the next, she’d known he was here, and her heart still hadn’t stopped racing. It was crazy. She knew it—but, God, it was Kid, and everything she’d ever felt about him, everything he’d ever made her feel had washed through her and nearly dropped her to her knees.

  She’d thought she’d gotten past him, but she’d gotten past nothing, not from his first kiss to his last, to this one. The way he felt, the way he smelled, the angle of his jaw, the nape of his neck, the way he held her in his arms, his strength—with his mouth on hers and his arms around her, she never wanted to let him go.

  And damn, it wasn’t supposed to be this way.

  He’d left her, twice, the last time without a word for seven long months. No letter. No phone call. No e-mail. She’d missed him until she thought she’d die, been angry with him, longed for him. God, how she’d longed for him, all six feet of warm, smooth skin and ironbound muscle. He was so beautiful, a warrior with dark brown hair and hazel eyes, and a face stripped of all artifice. He was what he was, and he was the first man she’d ever given herself to—and God help her, she was about to do it again. The need was building in her, totally irresistible, damnably inevitable.

  Doomed.

  She held his face in her hands, covering him with kisses, and he slid his hand under her skirt—and all she could think was Yes... yes. Please, Kid. It had been so long since she’d had him, since he’d been hers, and it was so easy to fall for him again, to get just a little more naked with every passing minute. He pushed off her panties. She unzipped his pants. Her top came untied. She opened his shirt.

  “You’ve been hurt,” she whispered against his lips, her fingers gently touching an edge of gauze.

  “No,” he assured her, then backtracked a bit. “Well, just a little... maybe.”

  Probably more than a little, considering the size of the bandage, but his heart was beating strongly beneath her hand, his skin was warm, and his mouth was all over her, telling her how much he wanted her.

  It was all she needed to know. For this moment, for now, it was everything.

  * * * * *

  Hope you liked the peek at Crazy Kisses. Please read on for an excerpt from another sexy and exciting Tara Janzen novel, the RITA award-winner, Avenging Angel.

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  Avenging Angel

  RITA AWARD WINNING NOVEL

  LIVING UNDERCOVER AND ON THE EDGE, DYLAN JONES HAS SEEN DAMN FEW THINGS TO GIVE HIM HOPE...UNTIL HE SEES JOHANNA LANE. HE RISKED HIS LIFE TO SAVE HER, AND SHE VOWS TO NEVER LET HIM GO.

  Chapter One

  The woman. He needed her . . . desperately. He needed her to drag him up, get him out, and set him free.

  Dylan drove with nerveless precision, tearing down the highway, burning up the road and the tires on his black Mustang. Wind whipped his hair through the open window and stung his face with the blast-furnace force of a summer gone crazy with heat. From Chicago, to Lincoln, Nebraska, to Colorado, the asphalt had shimmered to the horizon like the shadow of a mirage on the landscape.

  Without taking his eyes from the road, he lifted a Styrofoam cup to his mouth and drained it of coffee. He’d lost the other two times he’d broken his FBI cover to prevent disaster. He’d been too late, too slow, in far too deep to surface in time to save a life. He wouldn’t be too late to save Johanna Lane. He couldn’t be. He’d come up for good and three was his lucky number.

  A grim line broke across his face, an expression no one had ever mistaken for a smile. Since when did he know about luck? He had no luck.

  In the darkness ahead, a pickup truck pulled onto the highway. Dylan hissed an obscenity, his fist crushing the empty cup before he threw it to the floor. The man had to be blind not to see the Mustang hurtling toward him. When the driver didn’t even speed up to the limit, Dylan cursed him again, taking a lot of names in vain and ending up with half a dozen synonyms of dirty slang for sex.

  The oncoming traffic was heavy on the two-lane highway outside Boulder, but Dylan had no time and nothing left to lose except his pulse. Flooring the gas pedal, he roared up on the truck and at the last moment jerked the wheel, sending the Mustang slewing into the other other lane, taking a highly calculated risk and the narrowest of openings in the traffic. Cars scattered onto the shoulder. The truck skidded off the road.

  Hard-won skill, not luck, guided Dylan through the hundred-mile-an-hour maze he’d made of a van, a station wagon, and two compacts. Dylan Jones had no luck.

  The fact was proved a mile down the road, less than a minute’s worth of traveling time. The flashing lights of a police car lit up his back window and rearview mirror like a Fourth of July parade.

  Dylan swore again and pressed harder on the gas pedal, willing the Mustang to greater speed. The city lights of Boulder were seconds away. He’d come too far, too fast, too hard to lose.

  He swept through the first stoplight on the north side of town, ignoring its red color. The Mustang barely held on to the ninety-degree turn he slammed it through. The tires squealed and smoked on the hot pavement. The chassis shuddered. Working the steering wheel one way and then the other, he missed hitting a car in the eastbound lane and shot between two westbound vehicles.
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br />   The police car behind him missed the turn and came to a jolting stop in the middle of the intersection, siren and lights going full bore, snarling traffic even further. Dylan made the second left-hand turn he saw, then wound through the streets in a frenzied, seemingly haphazard fashion for more than a mile. Finally he slowed the Mustang to a stop on a side street, pulling between two other vehicles, a gray, nondescript sedan and a midsize truck.

  The summer night was quiet except for the pounding of his own heart. Expensive houses crowded this part of town. Porch lights were on, smaller, homier versions of the street lamps, but the interiors of the houses were dark. People were settled in for the night, safe, sound, and unsuspecting.

  He waited for a moment, checking the street before pulling his duffel bag across the front seat to his lap and slipping his left arm out of his coat. The bag was heavier than clothes would have allowed, the weight being made up in firepower and ordnance. It was the only protection he had, and it felt like damn little compared with what he was up against.

  Sweat trickled down the side of his face. At the corner of his eye, the moisture found the day-old cut angling from his temple to his ear. The salty drops slid into the groove, burning the raw skin. He swiped at the irritation with the back of his hand, then yanked open the duffel.

  He took out a shortened, pump-action twelve-gauge shotgun and slipped the gun’s strap over his free shoulder. After angling the shotgun down the side of his torso, he put his arm back through his coat sleeve. The duffel went over his other shoulder as he got out of the car. The policeman had been behind him long enough to call in his plates. The Mustang had to be ditched. It didn’t matter. If he lost Johanna Lane, he didn’t much care if he got through the night with his life. He sure as hell didn’t care if he got out with his car.

  He walked to the pickup truck in front of him and tried the door, his gaze moving constantly, checking shadows and sounds. The door was locked. The owner of the late-model gray sedan parked behind him wasn’t nearly as cautious. He got in and smashed the ignition assembly with the butt of the shotgun. Then he went to work hot-wiring the car.

  Johanna Lane lived at 300 Briarwood Court, and Dylan knew exactly where 300 Briarwood Court was in relation to his current position—two blocks west and one half block north.

  * * *

  Johanna Lane stood on her third-floor balcony overlooking the street. French doors were open behind her, allowing the night wind to lift and flutter sheer, floor-length curtains. Vivaldi’s Four Seasons played on the stereo, the classical notes crystal clear, floating on the air with all the purity that the finest digital sound was capable of producing. The stereo system was an indulgence, one of many in the oak-floored, art-deco-furnished apartment.

  She turned partway to look inside. In the dining room, an unfinished, candlelit dinner of pasta alfredo and salad was neatly laid out on one end of an intricately carved, black lacquer table. A damask napkin was crumpled next to the still-full crystal wineglass.

  She really should eat, she thought, watching the candle flame dip and bow with the breeze. If she wasn’t going to run home to Chicago and her father, she should eat, and she’d decided against running. Running was an admission of guilt, either of a crime she’d been very careful not to commit, or of an act of betrayal she’d never considered.

  Austin Bridgeman was flying in from Chicago. To do some follow-up work on a deal that had gone bad in Boulder, he’d said when he called. He’d suggested going out for drinks or a late dinner so they could talk about old times—old times when she had worked for him as his most private legal counsel.

  Even the thought of her previous employment made her head ache and her palms sweat. She’d left her job and Chicago because of what Austin Bridgeman had become, and she doubted if the intervening four months had improved his moral character.

  Slowly, to calm herself, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. In four years of working for Austin, she’d seen him skirt the law many, many times, bending it at will with his power and his money. She’d seen him crawl on his belly like a snake to make bribery look like a gift. She’d seen him voice requests as unrepentant demands to politicians and judges alike. But she hadn’t seen him break a law until two days earlier, Friday morning, when she’d read the front-page newspaper story about a senator charged with influence peddling. With all the other congressional scandals cropping up, she hadn’t given the story much more than a glance at first. Then a name had caught her eye, the name of a small, privately held company in Illinois—Morrow Warner.

  The influence the dear senator had been peddling went far beyond the expected pork barreling. He had dabbled in foreign affairs and foreign wars, foreign corporations, foreign currency, and especially foreign imports. The press had labeled him the “Global Connection,” and all of his hard work had been directed toward filling the coffers of Morrow Warner.

  Johanna knew who owned Morrow Warner. She also knew that no one else did, because she had hidden the owner’s identity in miles of paperwork, barely skirting the law herself. A precaution, Austin had said, something for his old age, something the board of directors of Bridgeman, Inc., couldn’t take away.

  Saturday’s paper had confirmed worse than influence peddling by the senator and had alleged extortion. Then that morning’s Sunday Post had quoted “reliable sources” confirming extortion and alleging underworld connections and a possible tie-in to an assassination. Two hours after she’d read the article, Austin had called wanting to visit her, personally, that night.

  Johanna had thought about notifying the police, then realized irrationality wasn’t her best option. Austin hadn’t been charged with anything, and asking someone to dinner didn’t qualify as a crime. Powerful men were easy targets for scandal and allegations. Both the Illinois senator and Austin Bridgeman were powerful men. She knew better than to jump to conclusions, or to believe everything she read in the newspapers.

  Still, she wished her law partner, Henry Wayland, had decided to stay in Boulder for the weekend just this once. She would like someone to be with her when Austin came, since she’d decided to beg off dinner, and drinks, and especially long talks about old times. The best posture for her to assume was one of cool formality and discretion.

  At least that’s what she’d thought earlier. Now darkness had fallen and she wasn’t sure.

  In a distracted gesture, she ran her hand back through her hair. Damn Henry for disappearing every Friday. She knew he did it to escape his mother, but that was ridiculous for a grown man. She didn’t even know where he was. All she knew was that he’d be back by Monday morning at 9:00 A.M. sharp. Henry was nothing if not reliable.

  Austin was reliable, too, but not in a comfortable way. She had worked for a powerful man. She knew power corrupted; she’d seen the workings of corruption firsthand.

  Assassination. It was improbable . . . but was it possible?

  She had seen Austin break men with less thought than some people gave to lunch. A few times she’d helped him. It was part of the game of high-stakes business. Winner take all. Losers run like hell.

  She wasn’t running. She could handle Austin.

  She turned back toward the street. The only movement was a gray sedan cruising the block at a crawl, no doubt looking for the rare parking spot.

  Raising her chin, she rolled her head to one side, easing the ache of muscles gone tight with strain. She continued the motion by lifting her hair off the back of her neck to let the night wind blow against her skin. It was so damn hot.

  Her suitcases were still packed in her bedroom. She probably should have run.

  She probably should have run like hell.

  * * *

  Dylan watched her with a narrowed gaze, taking in every sinuous line, every sultry curve. She made jeans look like custom-tailored slacks and a silk T-shirt look like a thousand dollars’ worth of handwork. It was Johanna Lane all right. Pure sweet class from the sheen of her honey-blond hair to the arch of her foot, which he’d previou
sly seen only encased in butter-soft, Italian leather heels. He remembered everything about her, everything he’d seen at a distance. Austin’s rough boys weren’t allowed to fraternize with the upper echelons of the hierarchy. He doubted if Johanna Lane remembered he existed. He hoped not. It would only make things harder—on him.

  He opened the duffel bag and took out a wide roll of cloth tape. Tearing off a length, he taped the passenger-door handle to a random spot beneath the dash. The rest of the roll went in his overcoat. He didn’t have time to talk her into going anywhere. Nor was he particularly inclined toward explanations. He hurt too damn bad. He’d been two days without sleep, almost as long without food, and he was bleeding again. He could feel the fresh dampness seeping down the right side of his chest. He’d killed a man last night in Lincoln, but not before the bastard had cut him.

  Get out. Get out while you can, his conscience whispered. Then he remembered he didn’t have a conscience. He’d killed a man in Lincoln to save a worthless life—his own—and maybe one that was worth a whole lot more, Johanna Lane’s.

  He turned and, with a quick jab of the gun, broke the dome light in the sedan. The last thing he needed was a welcome-home signal when he brought her out.

  * * *

  Johanna closed and locked the French doors, then pulled the sheers and the drapes. She’d packed her suitcases on a gut instinct, and the later it got, the more rational her instinct seemed. If she hurried, she could still catch a flight to Chicago. Once she was safe in her parents’ big house, Austin Bridgman would look more manageable. And it had occurred to her more than once that she might end up needing a good lawyer. Her father happened to be the best.

  In the bathroom, she threw her toothbrush, comb, and makeup into a small bag. Before she put in the aspirin bottle, she shook two pills into her hand, then a third. It was definitely turning out to be a three-aspirin night.