Forbidden to Love: An Historical Romance

by Patricia Hagan

  Forbidden to Love

  An Historical Romance

  Patricia Hagan

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  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Reader Invitation

  Passion's Fury

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  Chapter 1

  New Orleans, Louisiana Summer, 1858

  A warm breeze wafted through the open French doors leading to the porch. Wearing a thin chemise and pantalets, Anjele stood just inside her room. She was supposed to be taking a nap, or at least lying down, because it was the season of the ague, or yellow fever. People believed resting in the hottest part of the day helped prevent the disease, but going to bed was the last thing she felt like doing in such miserable heat.

  The shade of the spreading oaks, dripping with shadowy moss, looked cool and inviting along the avenue leading to the sleepy river beyond. She longed for a swim, but not in the thick, brown waters of the serpentine Mississippi. It was her secret place she yearned for, the hidden freshwater pool she and Simona and Emalee had discovered a few years ago. Hidden in the fringes of Bayou Perot, it was fed by an underground spring that kept the water from becoming stagnant. Best of all, they had never seen a snake or an alligator there.

  Sadly, as she stood there enjoying the view, she was struck once more with awareness of how time was running out to enjoy the things she loved on the plantation. Since her sixteenth birthday the month before, when the formal announcement of her engagement to Raymond Duval was made, a feeling of desperation had descended. All her life, she'd been well aware of the pact between their parents, but it wasn't till it became official and a wedding date set for Christmas that the actuality had soaked in, Now, thinking about moving into New Orleans, leaving this beloved place to return only for visits, made her stomach knot with dread.

  She had grown up loving to spend as much time as possible traipsing after her father, whom she adored. He had taught her to ride a horse and shoot a gun as well as any man—unknown to her mother, of course, who didn't approve of her learning masculine skills. So it had become a cherished secret between her father and her, only now she had to fit in those times around her music.

  Ida Duval, Raymond's mother, insisted Anjele start learning to play the piano, something Anjele had resisted in the past. Miss Ida felt it was a nice touch for a hostess to be able to entertain her guests after dinner and, since Anjele's mother was much too busy to give Anjele lessons, Mrs. Melora Rabine was sent twice a week to teach.

  Anjele smiled to think how surprised everyone was to discover she had a natural talent. In no time at all, she was able to play anything by ear, after hearing the melody only once or twice. But Claudia, her adopted sister, had been studying for years and accused her of having been practicing secretly, declaring it was not possible to master the piano so fast. Anjele neither denied nor confirmed. Long ago, she'd learned there was no getting along with Claudia.

  Ida also sent someone to instruct in needlework, and Twyla turned a deaf ear to Anjele's protests. Anjele suspected the real reason her mother was going along with everything Ida wanted was to keep her busy so she wouldn't have time to slip away and be with Simona and Emalee. Acadian girls. Her mother didn't approve of them but wasn't as vocal as Claudia, who warned that Ida Duval would have a fit if she knew Anjele socialized with the lower classes.

  Anjele was well aware that lots of other people looked down their noses at the Acadians due to the mixed heritage of some, but it didn't matter one bit to her. She felt sorry for the way their ancestors, French Canadians, had been driven from their colony of Acadia by the British, forcing them to find new homes in unfamiliar territories. Many, like the families of Emalee and Simona, had chosen to settle in the fertile bayou lands of southern Louisiana. They lived in small, compact, self-contained communities deep in the swamps. When they sought work, it was in the cane or cotton fields. But, unlike the Negro slaves, the Cajuns were paid wages and free to leave at quitting time to return to their bayou homes.

  Anjele envied them their happy, carefree lives as she listened to Emalee and Simona and the other girls describe the merriment that went on in their compounds as they cooked their supper. Cauldrons of turtle soup or crawfish gumbo bubbled deliciously while fiddlers played rousing Cajun tunes in an effort to ease their weary spirits after a hard day. They would sing, and sometimes, on the banks of the shadow-silent waters of the mysterious bayou, and even though she wasn't allowed, Anjele longed to be a part of it all.

  Two years ago, Simona had married, when she was only fourteen. But that hadn't stopped her from spending time with Anjele whenever possible. Anjele would slip down to the edge of the cane fields and wait till the overseer wasn't looking, so both Simona and Emalee could dart away. The trio would then disappear into the moss-shrouded forest for a few stolen hours at their secret pool, treasured memories that now filled Anjele with longing on the hot and humid afternoon.

  Suddenly she was torn from reverie by the sound of the door from the outside hall opening. She watched as Claudia crept stealthily into the room. Seeing Anjele's empty bed, she glanced about wildly, spotting her at the open French doors."You're supposed to rest until two o'clock, and it's only half past one," she said sharply.

  "So are you," Anjele reminded her. Dear Lord, she couldn't remember a time in her life when they weren't sparring. She honestly felt she had tried through the years
to get along, but it was a hopeless situation. Claudia despised her and always would.

  Claudia's ice blue eyes flashed with defiance as she lifted her chin and smiled gloatingly. "Mother said I could go with her to take tea at Miss Ida's. We're going to be leaving soon." She was also wearing a chemise but several ruffled petticoats covered her pantalets. She crossed the room to a large mahogany armoire and jerked open the mirrored doors.

  Anjele, stunned by her nerve, demanded, "What do you think you're doing?"

  Claudia ignored her as she pawed impatiently through the gowns hanging inside till she found what she was looking for and yanked it out in triumph. "I'm wearing this. It's cooler than anything I have, and it will look better on me than you, anyway."

  Anjele shook her head in firm denial. "I'm wearing that to Rebecca Saunders's birthday ball tonight."

  "So? Wear it. We'll be home around five." Draping the garment over her arm, she started out.

  Anjele ran to block her path. She hated to have an argument, but every time Claudia borrowed her clothes, they were brought back mussed. And the dress was a favorite for the sweltering weather—a cool, pale green color, fashioned of light lace and chiffon and draped off the shoulder with a scooped bodice.

  She knew Claudia was only using the heat as an excuse. The real reason was her larger bosom, which would be more revealing in Anjele's smaller bodice—and all for Raymond's benefit. Claudia had never made a secret of the way she felt about him. Not that Anjele was jealous. Actually, it concerned her that she wasn't.

  Anjele repeated her objection, adding, in an effort to pacify, "I'll be glad to let you wear it another time."

  Claudia's eyes narrowed. "You'll be sorry."

  "You have other dresses." She bit back the impulse to point out that Claudia actually had a much nicer wardrobe than she did. It was merely another way her mother made sure she could not be accused of favoring her natural daughter over the adopted one.

  "It's because of Raymond, isn't it?" Claudia challenged. "You're afraid he'll think I'm prettier than you, so you don't want me to look nice."

  Quietly, Anjele yielded, "You are prettier than me, Claudia." And she believed that to be so. Anjele envied her cousin's naturally curly golden-blond hair and limpid blue eyes, while thinking her own appearance to be a bit on the plain side. Her mother said it was because she didn't try to be glamorous, which was true. Anjele much preferred her long hair blowing in the breeze when she went riding, and it was too much trouble to sponge her skin with rosewater and lemon juice. She saw nothing wrong with tanned flesh and sunburned cheeks.

  Claudia was getting angrier by the minute. "If I'm so pretty, then how come it's you Raymond is going to marry?"

  Anjele sighed and shook her head, wondering once more why it had to be this way between them. Claudia knew as well as she how it all came to be but pushed back impatience as she reminded, "Ida and Elton have been friends with Momma and Poppa forever. It was always understood."

  "But you don't love him..." Her words trailed off as Jobie, the little servant girl, appeared in the doorway.

  Looking fearfully from one to the other, Jobie finally held out the tray she was carrying and said to Anjele, "I got yo' lemonade, missy."

  Anjele stepped back long enough to allow her to place it on the table by the window but made sure Claudia did not rush by with the dress.

  When they were once more alone, Anjele saw no need to continue the subject of Raymond and tried to end the conversation. She held out her hands to take the garment. "I'm sorry, but I can't let you borrow it, Claudia. Not this time."

  Claudia was silent for a moment, then whirled around as she cried, "Very well. But if I can't wear it, neither will you. Not tonight, anyway."

  Before Anjele could make a move to stop her, she ran to where Jobie had left the pitcher of lemonade and quickly snatched it up to pour the liquid on the dress. Horrified, Anjele rushed to yank the garment away from her, at the same time accidentally knocking the pitcher to the floor with a loud crash.

  Claudia began to shriek, "You're crazy! Your own dress! I don't believe this, and all because I asked to wear it...."

  Anjele realized just what she was up to at the same time her mother, hearing the uproar, came charging into the room. "What in heaven's name..." She saw the gown Anjele was holding, the huge, wet stain on the bodice, spreading to the skirt. Crossing the room in quick strides, she jerked it from her and demanded, "What have you done?"

  Claudia was not about to allow Anjele to defend herself, and told her hastily conjured lie. With a feigned look of horror and dismay, she wailed, "You can see what she's done—ruined it, that's what, and all because I wanted to wear it this afternoon. She accused me of wanting to look nice for Raymond and said she'd make sure I couldn't wear it."

  "Oh, Anjele, how could you?" Twyla Sinclair moaned. "This was a terrible thing for you to do. Why couldn't you let your sister wear it?"

  She's not my sister, Anjele silently, furiously, fumed but knew better than to say so out loud. Nothing made her mother madder than to be reminded Claudia was actually her second cousin and not her adopted sister.

  "Are you going to answer me?" Twyla asked tightly, evenly.

  Claudia positioned herself behind Twyla so she could grin at Anjele in triumph.

  Anjele bit her lip thoughtfully. So many times, she'd been through similar scenes, and the outcome was always the same—her mother believed Claudia's side of the story. Not to do so meant calling her adopted daughter a liar, which would make it appear she was favoring her real daughter. Long ago Anjele had stopped defending herself to salvage her pride, and this occasion was no different. With a careless shrug, she responded, "You're going to believe what you want to, Mother. Nothing I say ever makes any difference."

  At that, Twyla wailed, "Why do you have to be so difficult? Why do you always make trouble?"

  Claudia had to put both hands over her mouth to hold back delicious giggles. About to lose control, she backed out of the room, pausing at the door long enough to stick her tongue out at Anjele before skipping down the hall.

  Anjele threw herself, face down, across the bed, preparing for another of her mother's diatribes.

  She did not have to wait long.

  "Why do you take such malicious pleasure in hurting your sister? I should think you'd take pity on her because she's adopted, Anjele, instead of being bitter about it. What if it had been I who died in childbirth, instead of your father's cousin? What if you had been the pitiful little baby abandoned by your father in his grief, left to be cared for by relatives? Wouldn't you have wanted compassion? Wouldn't you have wanted to be treated like one of the family? Of course you would, yet you seem to go out of your way to antagonize poor Claudia.

  "I had hoped your engagement to Raymond would make a difference," Twyla raged on, pacing up and down the huge room, waving her arms in the air. "I thought it would mature you, but it hasn't. You aren't thinking about marrying him. All you seem to care about is annoying your sister. You know she's always hoped by some miracle she'd be the one to marry Raymond, but even if it hadn't all been prearranged, it was you he wanted. So do you have to twist the knife?"

  Anjele didn't respond. Experience had taught her it was best to let her mother rave on, even though silence was considered further insolence.

  She shut her out by concentrating on the beautiful blue skies beyond, picturing fields of sugarcane dancing in the wind in a rainbow hue blending from near white to yellow and on to green and purple and red and violet, even striped stalks, all nearly six feet high, swaying proudly in the rhythmic breezes. How she longed to be out there amidst it all, and—

  She came back to reality with an excited rush, for suddenly her mother had caught her interest.

  "...and I'll expect you to practice the rest of the afternoon," she was saying, changing her tone from anger to disappointment, which meant the scene was, mercifully, coming to an end. "Miss Melora says the new Beethoven piece needs more work, and she'll expect
you to have it mastered by the time she returns. She'll be in Baton Rouge only a week."

  So, Miss Melora wasn't coming today. Anjele burrowed her face in the pillow so her happiness wouldn't show. There was absolutely no way she was going to stay indoors if she could help it. This was her first chance to get away for a few hours in so long she couldn't remember. She was relieved to hear her mother leaving.

  Twyla paused at the door to deliver the final punishment. "To teach you a lesson, since you ruined the dress you were planning to wear to Rebecca's party tonight, you won't be going. Raymond can just escort your sister, instead. I'm truly sorry, Anjele, but that's how it must be."

  I really don't care, Anjele silently answered, though she knew Raymond wasn't going to like it. He had told her how Claudia made him uncomfortable, fawning over him as she did.

  She waited till she saw their carriage leave, then hurried to slip on a light muslin dress. The house was quiet. The servants were, no doubt, out back in the kitchen, preparing supper.

  She made her way down the rear stairs but was met by Mammy Kesia as she stepped into the service hallway.

  "And where you think you goin'?" the old woman said. "Your momma told me you was to practice the piano till she comes home around five this evenin', and from the way you're sneakin' around with that gleam in your eyes, I'd say abangin' on them keys is the last thing you got in mind."