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Pieces of You (Shattered Hearts)

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by Cassia Leo




  Shattered Hearts #2

  by Cassia Leo

  http://cassialeo.com

  Pieces of You: Shattered Hearts #2

  Copyright © 2013 by Cassia Leo

  First Kindle Edition: 2013

  Cover art by Sarah Hansen at Okay Creations

  Formatting by Streetlight Graphics

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  The characters and events portrayed in this book are a work of fiction or are used fictitiously. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

  For Arielle.

  Chapter One

  Adam

  I STEP ONTO THE SMALL stage constructed in the sand and, though I can’t stop grinning, the only thing on my mind is Claire and how I wish she were here to see this. Hank Langley hands me the third place trophy and pulls me into a sloppy one-armed hug. Hank is the promoter for the competition. We’ve stayed in touch since I quit surfing two years ago and he’s the only reason I made it onto the roster for this event.

  As soon as we arrive at the hotel, the mini-bar is ransacked and champagne is ordered from room service. I grab my phone out of my backpack and sneak off to the bathroom to call Claire.

  I open the bathroom door and Paul Leyva is boning some chick on the bathroom counter. The same Paul Leyva who was ranked fourth in the world on the ASP world rankings last year. The chick makes eye contact with me and I slam the door shut before I make my way into the hotel corridor. The scroll pattern on the carpet makes me think of the curtains in my dad’s study. He doesn’t know where I am this weekend. If he knew I’m competing again he’d tell me to give it up. Twenty-two is too old to start competing again. What he doesn’t know is that I’m doing this as much for Claire as I am for myself.

  I sink down onto the carpet next to the ice machine and dial her number. She picks up halfway through the first ring.

  “Hey.”

  Her voice is soft yet eager and fills me with relief.

  “Hey, baby. What are you doing?”

  I hear a rustling on the other end and I imagine she’s putting down a book or a pile of notes.

  “Studying. I have a statistics test on Monday. Where are you?”

  “I’m at the hotel. We just got back. I came in third.”

  She pauses for a moment. “I’m so proud of you. I knew you’d do well.”

  “I’ll be there in six days. You can congratulate me then.”

  There are so many things I want to ask her. She told me last night that her ex would be dropping off some more pictures today. I want to know everything, but I don’t want to pry. I don’t want to push her away, but the long pause on the other end concerns me.

  “I don’t know if I can wait six days,” she finally says. “I wish I was there with you to rub your sore muscles and fall asleep in your arms.”

  “I wish you were here, too. I miss the fuck out of you. Are you lying down?”

  She giggles because she thinks I’m trying to initiate phone sex.

  “I just want to picture you,” I insist. “I’m in the middle of the hotel corridor. I’m not going to jerk off out here.”

  “Yes, I’m lying down.”

  “What are you wearing?”

  “I’m wearing the Sugar shirt you bought for me.”

  “Is that it?”

  “And my panties.”

  “Take them off.” She pauses, but I hear her breathing quicken. “Please.” The movement on the other end gets me excited. “Claire?”

  “Adam?”

  “When was the last time I touched you?”

  “Six days ago.”

  “When was the last time you touched yourself?”

  She giggles again and I wait for her to get over her embarrassment and answer. “When you called me this morning.”

  I don’t know why I torture myself this way when there’s a roomful of girls down the hall who’d get on their knees for me in a heartbeat. Maybe I just need to prove to myself that I’ve changed.

  “I love you, Claire.”

  “I know.”

  “You know I would never hurt you.”

  “I know. Are you okay?”

  I want to tell her how much it scares me that she’s been seeing Chris while we’re apart. I want to tell her how much it kills me that he can show up at her dorm or outside her classroom anytime he wants. But she doesn’t want to hear that shit.

  “Yeah, I’m just tired. I’ll let you go so you can get your homework done, but I want you to think of me tonight… when you touch yourself.”

  “I wouldn’t think of anyone else.”

  “I can’t hide anything from you, can I?”

  “Adam, I love you. I’ll wait six days or six years. Whatever it takes. Nothing and no one else matters.”

  This isn’t true. There is one other person who matters as much, or more, to Claire than I do. And I can’t even be upset about it because that’s exactly as it should be. But that doesn’t change the fact that being her number two worries the hell out of me.

  “Tuck yourself in tight. Goodnight, baby.”

  “Goodnight.”

  I lean forward to slide the phone into the back pocket of my shorts then sit back against the wall and stare at the framed picture of a floral still life on the wall in front of me. If I go back to the room, I’ll probably get so drunk or high I won’t remember what I did in the morning. But I can’t stay out here. Maybe I should just take a taxi to the airport and catch the next flight to Raleigh to surprise Claire.

  Fuck that. That’s a desperate move. I’m not desperate.

  I trudge back to the room, resigned to lay off the booze and keep my head clear so I don’t fuck up. When I walk through the door, I’m smacked in the face with the aroma of some good smoke. I step inside the hazy hotel room and spot Yuri Takahashi, number twenty-six in the world and one of my best friends, sitting at a table near the window toking it up, smoke curling from the small pipe in his hand.

  A hand clasps the back of my neck and I can tell by the size and the way it grips me softly that it’s not one of the guys. I turn around and the girl I just saw getting boned by Paul is giving me a come-fuck-me look. Her dark hair is tousled and her black eye makeup is smeared across her left temple. I’m surprised I notice these details since she’s standing before me topless, wearing only a short skirt.

  “Not gonna happen,” I say as I push her hand off my neck.

  She curls her lip in disgust. “What? Are you gay?”

  I shake my head as I turn my back on her and make my way toward Yuri.

  “Hey, it’s the fucking comeback kid,” Yuri says when he sees me.

  He grins broadly as he passes me a freshly packed bowl and a lighter. I think of Claire and I almost hand it back to him, but I need to hide inside myself tonight. I bring the pipe to my lips and suck in as I hold the lighter’s flame to the bowl. It’s been more than a week since I’ve toked so the hot smoke burns my throat and stings my lungs. I hold in the smoke as I pass the pipe back to Yuri.

  He shakes his head. “That’s your bowl, bro. Finish it.”

  I let the smoke out of my lungs and finish off the bowl. I hand the pipe to Yuri and he taps the ash out into an ashtray before he packs it again. The music coming from the iPod clock radio on the nightst
and gets inside my head. I lean back in my chair and close my eyes as I lose myself in the music.

  The sounds of giggles and whispers can barely be heard over the song. I don’t know what’s going on until I feel someone’s hand in my crotch. I open my eyes and the topless girl is back and she’s trying to undo the button on my shorts.

  I push her hands away and she laughs. She’s fucked up. So am I. But I’m not stupid.

  I stand up and she reaches for my shorts again. “Fuck off,” I mutter as I step around her and make my way out into the corridor again.

  I stand in the corridor for a minute, unsure of what the fuck I’m doing. I’m fucked up and my mind keeps circling back to the same thoughts over and over again. I think of texting Claire, but she needs to study. Then I think of going back inside, but I’m too stoned to deal with the temptation. I need to get out of this hotel. Fuck the backpack. I have my wallet and my phone. That’s all I need.

  I make it down to the lobby and jump into the first taxi I find outside the hotel. “Orlando International.”

  The cabbie looks at me and I wonder if I look as stoned as I feel. Something about my appearance makes him skeptical and he appears about ready to kick me out of the cab, but he relents and pulls away from the hotel entrance.

  I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing. I’m running; that’s what I’m doing. I don’t trust myself.

  The taxi pulls onto the highway and I realize I left my trophy in the hotel room. I can call the front desk and ask them to ship it to me tomorrow, if it’s still there.

  When we reach the airport, I’m a bit more sober—at least, I think I am. I hand the driver a wad of cash and make my way to the first airline check-in counter I find. The girl behind the counter looks bored as she chats with a burly guy in a security uniform. I glance at her nametag: Wanda.

  “Can I help you, sir?” Wanda asks.

  I blink a few times thinking this might sober me up a little more. “When’s the next flight to Raleigh?”

  Chapter Two

  Claire

  I NEVER WANTED TO BE like my mother. And for a brief moment in time I thought I had escaped that fate. But life has a lovely way of reminding you that you are no better than anyone else—even a dead heroin addict.

  It wasn’t until three weeks ago I finally understood that being like my mother isn’t such a bad thing. She may have brutally removed herself from my life when I was only seven years old, but she left behind a foundation for me to have a better life than her own. She taught me how to keep myself safe, which really came in handy as I was shuffled from one foster home to the next for eight years after her death. And, of course, there’s the enormous trust fund she left me—though I have no interest in ever claiming a dime of that money.

  So I guess things could be worse, but it’s hard to imagine how as I lie here on the twin bed in my dorm doing statistics homework on a Saturday evening while my boyfriend is surfing in Florida. Of course, judging by the tone of the conversation we just had, it doesn’t seem like Adam is really enjoying his trip. Just remembering his words and the sound of his voice makes my stomach stir.

  “I’ll be there in six days. You can congratulate me then.”

  His voice was husky with exhaustion and it only makes me miss him more. I want to be there with him in Florida. Instead, I’m stuck in my dorm playing catch-up. This is the price I pay for taking my sophomore year off from UNC.

  I glance at the alarm clock on the nightstand between my and Senia’s beds. She should be back from hanging out with Eddie in a couple of hours. The sight of the stack of photos on the nightstand makes my chest ache.

  Chris came over this morning to drop off some pictures of Abigail on his way to the airport. He could have emailed them to me, but he insisted on bringing the actual photos in case I wanted to put them in a frame or an album. That’s bullshit. He’s trying to get under my skin. He wants me to feel comfortable around him again.

  When he left, I laid the photos facedown on the nightstand so I wouldn’t feel that longing every time I glance at my alarm clock and see my daughter’s face. But seeing the pictures turned facedown is just as jarring. It fills me with a stinging guilt that I’m certain has become part of my DNA by now.

  Against my better judgment, I lift the stack of photos off the nightstand and lie back on my pillow. The first photo is of Abigail—I don’t even know her last name yet—lying on someone’s bed and smiling at something above her; something out of frame. I can’t help but refer to her as Abigail Knight in my mind. She’s a piece of Chris, and one look at her soft blonde hair and pouty lips and it’s apparent that she’s a piece of me. But neither of those pieces belongs to us.

  The process of an open adoption is much less complicated than I thought it would be. The only thing that needs to be hashed out is the actual agreement. Abigail’s adoptive parents have verbally agreed to send us pictures and emails occasionally. We get to know her. They’re just not sure whether they want Abigail to know us.

  The second photo is a close-up and she has Chris’s dark eyes. I trace the curve of her eyelid and I can see the way it turns down slightly at the corner, just like Chris's.

  My phone buzzes as it vibrates on the nightstand. I lay the photos on the nightstand and pick up the phone, hoping it’s Adam with a joke text to pull me out of this funk. It’s Chris.

  Chris: Just landed in London. I got a voicemail from Tasha. They want to meet us on Tuesday. I’ll be back by then.

  Tasha Singer is the lawyer Chris hired to handle the adoption. I think it’s funny that her last name is Singer. Chris thinks I’ll find her name less funny when I finally meet her. He claims she’s the hottest thirty-two-year-old he’s ever met. He thinks this stuff makes me jealous, but it doesn’t.

  I love Chris. Nothing will ever change that. But it’s not the same love we shared a year ago. It’s the kind of love shared between friends who know each other’s deepest secrets. The kind of love shared between friends who’ve forgiven each other’s worst sins.

  Me: OK. I have class from 7-2. Will be in my dorm by 3.

  Chris: I’ll pick you up outside your class at 2.

  Me: Fine.

  Chris: Don’t take that tone with me. Don’t forget I still remember all your most ticklish spots.

  Me: Stop being a jerk. And stop texting me. I’m trying to study.

  Chris: Goodnight, Claire-bear.

  I don’t respond. Why would I respond to that? He’s baiting me.

  I finish my statistics homework and start reading the text for my Family and Society class. This has got to be the worst class I can possibly be taking right now, but it’s pretty much required if I have any hope of being a superstar social worker.

  I open Public and Private Families by Andrew Cherlin and I’ve only read three pages when the dormitory door flies open and Senia charges inside, her dark waves flying. She tosses her purse onto the desk and collapses facedown onto her bed. Her skirt flies up and her panties are showing, but she doesn’t seem to care as she buries her face in the pillow.

  “What’s wrong?” I ask as I set down the textbook and sit up.

  “Ugh!” she groans. “I’m so stupid!”

  Even though the pillow muffles her voice, I can still hear the strangled sound in her scream. She’s crying.

  I get up from my bed and take a seat on the edge of her mattress. I rub her back and she mashes her face even harder into the pillow.

  “What happened?”

  She shakes her head then flips over onto her back. “He’s been fucking someone else, that’s what happened.”

  “Eddie?”

  “Don’t say his name. He disgusts me.”

  Senia and Eddie have been together for almost seven months now, but I never would have suspected Eddie for a cheater. He’s always been insanely jealous and possessive. I always assumed Senia would be the one to dump Eddie once she got bored of his clinginess.

  “How do you know he’s been…?”

  “I found t
he fucking text messages. They’re already exchanging I love yous!”

  She covers her face with her hands and my heart breaks for her. Senia has never cried over a guy since I’ve known her. Even when she was a shy freshman two years ago, she’s always kept her head about her when it came to relationships. I’ve always admired her ability to compartmentalize her emotional life. Her relationships never affect her studies and school never affects her social life. I’m the one who quit school when my personal life became too much for me to handle. She’s always kept it together. It’s not like her to fall apart like this.

  Then I think of what she just said. “What text messages?”

  “I was trying to look up times for that new Jack Black movie and a text came in. I can’t even tell you what it said. It’s gross. He’s a fucking pig.”

  My mind instantly flashes to the text Chris just sent me. Goodnight, Claire-bear. Or the text about knowing my ticklish spots. Would Adam flip out if he saw those?

  I spring up from the mattress and grab my phone off my bed. It takes a while to scroll all the way to the bottom of the list of texts I’ve been exchanging with Chris, mostly about adoption stuff, but there are some texts from him that could be construed as flirty.

  “What are you doing?” Senia mutters.

  “Trying not to be a fucking pig.”

  “Are you cheating on Adam?”

  “What? Hell, no. I just want to make sure there’s nothing remotely incriminating on my phone. Chris is trying to get under my skin.”

  Senia sits up and cocks one of her perfect eyebrows. “Are you really that afraid of Adam’s jealousy?”

  “I’m not afraid. I’m trying to avoid misunderstandings.”

  She shakes her head before she lies back down on her stomach with her head at the foot of the bed. “I need to get drunk tonight.”

  I look up from the screen of my iPhone, which I will probably have to trade in soon because I can’t afford the data plan without my job at the café.

 

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