HUNTER (The Corbin Brothers Book 1)

by Lexie Ray

  But for as many success stories, there were twice as many failures. We were once robbed blind by a drifter Granny had opened her home to. He took everything of any value, probably to pawn for cash to fund his all-consuming addiction. That even included the toaster. It took months for us to save up enough money to buy a TV.

  By that time, I was in high school and working after classes in a daycare. All the little children were bright spots in my day. They could never pronounce “Miz Collette,” but “Miz Cocoa” they could more than manage. They chirped it like birds, running back and forth across the center.

  And Cocoa stuck. Even Granny took to calling me that.

  “But you’ll always be my Collette Bell,” she said, snaking her arm around my waist and hugging me to her. I’d surpassed her height during middle school and had to lean down to give her a kiss on the top of her white curly hair.

  Granny — to multiple people's objections, mine included — took in Tito, a notorious thug in the neighborhood. I avoided him as much in school as out — during the days he was in school, anyway. He was a truant, a drug dealer, a thief, a gang member, and an all-around troublemaker.

  "Granny, Tito's beyond hope," I protested as she made up a cot for him in the living room. He had gone to his buddy's house to pack a backpack before coming over.

  "Cocoa, no one's beyond hope," Granny said. "I never thought you were beyond hope, small as you were and addicted to heroin when you were just born."

  "That's different," I continued, following her as she continued to bustle around. "I was just a baby. Tito's bad news."

  "He asked for help, Collette," she said, her use of my full name indicating she was getting irritated. "When somebody asks, I can't deny them the help I have to give."

  I knew I was already skating on thin ice, but I had to try. The time the drifter had robbed us had been bad, but I was afraid Tito would be so much worse.

  "Granny, I heard he's done bad things," I said. "I don't want him bringing that kind of nonsense inside your house."

  "Anyone can hear anything, child, but that doesn't make it true," she said, dusting off one of the coffee tables. "Now, if you're finished with your homework, you can start some supper."

  Thus began Tito's reign of terror. Granny didn't take any mouthing off, which Tito learned right away. One baleful look from her was all it took for him to stop cursing in the house. That surprised me and heartened Granny. Was Tito really going to work out? I began to wonder ...

  ... and stopped the day I got out of the shower and found him leaning against the wall, staring at me.

  "Get out of here!" I shrieked, covering myself as fast as I could with a towel. I knew he had seen everything.

  "Just here for the show," he'd said casually before swaggering out the door.

  Ever since that incident, I had a creeping, pervasive dread about Tito. I'd lock my door when I went to bed, aware that he could probably be able to jimmy it open just as quickly as he had the bathroom lock. I would have nightmares of him standing over me as I slept, doing nothing but watching and waiting.

  I never knew what he was waiting for in those nightmares until they came true.

  Granny had gone to the courthouse to attend a benefit and Tito and I were in the house alone together. I'd gone to my room as soon as she'd left, locking the door and getting started on my homework.

  It'd been a speech against gangs; I remembered even to this very day. It was funny the way memory worked.

  I'd been so absorbed in the subject that the knock on my door had scared me nearly out of my skin. My hear knocking against my ribcage, I set my pencil down.

  "Who is it?" I asked.

  "You know who the fuck it is," was Tito's reply. "Open the goddamn door."

  "No!" I said viciously. "Leave me the fuck alone, asshole!"

  With no Granny around to wash our mouths with soap or give us the stink eye, Tito and I easily reverted to our real selves — the ones that let us survive in this neighborhood.

  "That's it, bitch," Tito warned. "That's it. You think you better than everyone. I'll tell you the truth: You're not good enough for me. But I'm feeling charitable today. Must be all this living with Granny. Best thing that's ever happened to me."

  The door rattled for a few seconds before popping open. I gasped and threw my book about gangs at Tito, but he slapped it away. He was on me in a second, a very violent, very real manifestation of my worst nightmare.

  "I've been good in this house for too long," Tito said, his lips right by my ear. "It's time to be bad. I've fucking earned it."

  I screamed as he tore at my shirt, the force of his movements bruising my neck where the collar dug in. One button popped off, then two, three, and four. I smacked him on his ear — a wild, desperate blow — before he could get a hold of my wrist.

  He slapped me hard on the face.

  "Tit for tat," he said, ripping my breast out of my bra.

  "Get off me!" I screamed, writhing beneath his weight. He was too big, too strong, I realized, reeling with the knowledge that he was about to do whatever he wanted with me.

  "I've definitely had better," Tito said, roughly squeezing my breast. "Shit, I think Granny has a better rack than you do. Maybe I'll have her next."

  "Fuck you," I said, spitting in his face. That earned me another slap and a painful twist on my nipple.

  "That's not ladylike at all," Tito said with mock reproach.

  He ripped my shorts off me even while I beat at him with my one free hand in a last-ditch attempt to ward off what I was beginning to realize was inevitable. Tito intended to fuck me whether I wanted it or not.

  I began to scream when he ripped off my panties, tearing my skin with his ragged nails in the process.

  "Go ahead and scream, bitch," he said. "It just makes me hornier."

  This was the kind of neighborhood where no one answered screams for help, no matter what house they were coming out of.

  He grabbed my other hand so that he was holding both of my wrists with one of his big, meaty hands. That freed him up to whip out his cock. It strained angrily away from his body, thick and vicious looking.

  I tried not to look at it, tried not to think about what it was for, tried not to acknowledge that I was going to be raped. I wasn't innocent to the idea. I knew girls it had happened to at school. But I had always been so sure that it wasn't going to be my fate.

  Now I was certain that there was going to be no way to escape it.

  Tito forced my legs apart with one of his knees and plowed into me, laughing at my cries of pain.

  At least he wasn't the first. That was my sole, cold comfort as he viciously took me, grunting at the effort it took for him to grind in and out of my dry pussy.

  My first had been a sweet boy in my English class who'd wooed me with poetry. The coupling hadn't been as good as the couplets in the poems he'd recited, but at least the experience was there — the experience of what sex was supposed to be.

  At least Tito didn't ruin that for me.

  I was weeping in spite of my pride by the time Tito had shot his thin stream of seed into me. He pushed me away as if I disgusted him, spitting on me as he tucked his deflating cock into his pants.

  "Worst lay I've ever had," he said. "I hope you'll be better next time."

  He left the house, the front door's slam rattling all of Granny's walls. I really let myself go then, weeping at the utter injustice of it all. I'd begged Granny not to take Tito in, and this was what had happened.

  I took a shower, trying to wash the hurt away with the hottest water I could stand. The deepest wounds weren't physical, and there was no amount of soap that would make them disappear.

  I closed myself in my room, pretending to be asleep when Granny finally got home from the courthouse function. I didn't know how I could possibly tell her what had happened. What could she do to get Tito out of the house?

  Most of all, I felt ashamed. My mind ran through dozens of things I could've done. I knew that Tito had hi
s eye on me. Maybe I should've begged Granny to let me go to the courthouse with her. Maybe I should've gone to a friend's house. Maybe I should've hidden one of the steak knives under my pillow to ward off this very situation.

  I knew there couldn't be a second time. I had to do something to stop this.

  I resolved to tell Granny in the morning, even if I had to force the words out of my mouth. I needed her help. She'd told me herself she could never deny the help she had to give.

  I didn't know how I could sleep, but I did. I fell into a deep slumber, devoid of dreams.

  I hadn’t dreamed since, even after all this time. Sleep was a blank, dark period of rest from that time forward.

  The next day, I woke up early. It was a Saturday and I wanted to find Granny before she went out to run any errands or see any friends.

  I wanted to find her before it happened again.

  She was in the kitchen, making a big breakfast for, I could only assume, Tito and me.

  "Granny," I said, my voice threatening to fail me, "I have something I need to talk to you about."

  "And I have something I need to talk to you about," she answered, not turning from the stove. Her voice was stiff with anger.

  "What is it?" I asked, confused. There wasn't anything that I could be in trouble for — that she knew about, anyway.

  "Tito told me what happened," she said. "You should be ashamed of yourself."

  My legs lost their strength and it was all I could do to fall in the direction of one of the kitchen chairs. It slapped jarringly against the backs of my thighs. I should be ashamed of myself? What was that supposed to mean?

  "Granny, he raped me," I said, barely able to get the words out.

  "You can't rape the willing, Collette," she said, still not looking at me.

  "I was anything but willing," I said, raising my voice. "He attacked me."

  "That's not what Tito told me," Granny said, flipping the ham she had in the skillet. The fatty smell made my stomach turn.

  "What exactly did Tito tell you?" I demanded.

  "That you're jealous of him," she said. "That you don't want anyone in this house except for you. That you've been threatening him, saying you're going to call the cops and get him locked up like the no-good piece of trash he is."

  "None of it's true!" I cried. "He's lying to you! He raped me while you were gone to the courthouse! Why don't you believe me?"

  Granny looked at me, her eyes filled with loathing. "He said you threw yourself at him, telling him the only way you'd let him stay here is if he slept with you."

  I laughed. It was the only thing I could do. I'd had to wear a panty liner even though I wasn't on my period.

  "There's nothing funny about this!" Granny snapped. "This isn't the girl I raised from a newborn baby."

  "You're right," I said, "because it's not. I never did those things Tito said. He raped me. He said he was going to do it again. He can't stay here with us, Granny. It's not safe."

  "Please don't make me go, Granny," Tito said, weeping at the door to the kitchen.

  I stared. There were genuine tears falling down his face.

  "I don't have anywhere to go," he sobbed. "After I told my gang I didn't want to be in it anymore, they told me they'd kill me if they saw me on the streets again. You're my only hope."

  Granny held her arms out and hugged my rapist.

  "Sweetheart, no one's going to make you leave," she said soothingly, smoothing a hand down his back.

  Tito stared daggers at me, the grin stretching across his face full of the sharp teeth of a promise.

  He told me there was going to be a next time. I'd told myself there couldn't be a next time. There was only one thing to do, and it broke my heart more than anything.

  I understood why Granny was doing what she was doing. Her heart loved so easily and she always welcomed people into her home. I was a living example of what her love could do. She’d taken me and raised her as my very own daughter when everyone else had given up hope.

  I couldn’t blame her for trying to turn Tito’s life around — whether he wanted it or not.

  Granny couldn't send a boy to his death on the violent street any more than she could know it was all a lie. I’d done my best to convince her of Tito’s treachery. The next thing I had to do was protect myself, even if it was the hardest thing I’d ever done.

  It was my turn for tears, and they wrenched themselves from my body.

  “I can’t do this,” I sobbed, covering my face. I hated for Tito to see me crying and hated to witness what I had been reduced to. But the thought of what I had to do drove me from the kitchen and sent me running upstairs.

  I had to leave Granny. That was clear to me.

  I hated the thought of it. I hated to leave her alone with Tito. He’d threatened to hurt Granny, but deep down, I knew he was only doing it to terrorize me. I was his target, not her. The entire community would rise up against him if he ever did anything to Granny. She was the white light in this dark neighborhood.

  My heart ached. I would have to hurt Granny in order to save myself. There was no other solution. She would be inconsolable when she found my room empty, and it hurt me even more to imagine her crying, all alone.

  She’d never let me leave if I told her I was going, but I couldn’t live in the same house as Tito. It was with great reluctance that I packed a rolling suitcase and backpack full of clothes and pulled them quietly to the door.

  “Where are you going with that suitcase?”

  I froze and turned around to see Granny standing there, her hands on her hips.

  “It’s a school project,” I said, pointing at the suitcase and hoping Granny didn’t ask to look inside. “I didn’t want to drop it on the way, so I put it in the suitcase.”

  Granny nodded, looking at my tearstained face.

  “You’re a good girl, Collette Bell,” she said. “I just wish you didn’t have it out for Tito.”

  I wished he didn’t have it out for me, but I didn’t say so. I wanted my last memory of Granny not to be of us fighting.

  She took me in her arms and kissed my hair.

  “I love you, Granny,” I said, my voice hitching.

  “I love you, too, Cocoa,” she said. “I’ll have you a special snack ready when you get back from school. That’s something to look forward to, isn’t it?”

  “It is,” I said, fighting not to break down. I wasn’t going to be back to find out what it was. I wasn’t ever going to come back.

  I stayed for a week with one girlfriend, another week with another girlfriend, and so on, jumping from couch to couch until I graduated high school. I'd long exhausted the friends who were willing to put me up and was on acquaintances by then.

  So I'd taken my rolling suitcase and my diploma across the city, looking for a place to work and a place to live. Mama herself had found me sitting in the park, resting my legs.

  "You going somewhere with that luggage?" she'd asked. "I'd get there soon, if I were you, the sun setting like it is. Looks like a tempting target for someone looking to do a pretty girl harm."

  "I've got nowhere," I said glumly. "I've been looking for a place to live and a job all day — since early this morning."

  Mama had brightened, sitting down next to me on the bench. Even back then, she'd dressed nicely, back before the nightclub was in its heyday.

  "I have a proposition for you, then," she said. "I recently opened a nightclub that doubles as a boarding house. You work for your room and board. The tips are yours."

  I was so tired and desperate — and looking back, I was sure Mama knew that. I said yes on the spot, not asking any questions.

  At that point, Mama had about ten girls in her employment. I received training and found myself flourishing in the customer service industry. I liked talking to people and taking care of them.

  By the time I really "serviced" my first customer, I trusted Mama so much that I did it gladly.

  I sent a good portion of my tips to Granny
each month. All I had to do was ask Mama for the funds. I always signed a little note card "Love, Cocoa," but never added a return address to the envelope. The last thing I needed was Tito figuring out where I was and offering to pay for a second opportunity to take everything from me.

  I also never mentioned exactly what I did for a living. I told Granny that I was in customer service and sometimes wrote funny stories about actual customers — with the essential details modified, of course. I knew that if Granny realized what I really did for a living, sleeping with the highest bidder, she’d think that I had failed in life — meaning that she had failed me.