The Hook Up (Game On Book 1)

by Kristen Callihan

  Understanding softens her expression. “Don’t let it worry you too much. For most of us, it takes a lifetime to truly figure out who we are and what we want. I’m merely trying to help you take a step in the right direction.”

  I had thought college would be that step but, apparently, not so much. It’s only made me an intellectual dilettante.

  “Have you considered graduate school?” she asks. “With your grade point average, I imagine plenty of programs would be interested in having you.”

  Having a 4.0 opens doors, true. It also kind of makes you think that academia is the only safe place for you.

  “No. Honestly, Professor, I have no desire to continue with school right now.” The thought makes me shudder. I study because it’s my current job, but I don’t have any passion for it. I’m freaking burnt out on school as it is. And even though it scares the hell out of me, I want to be out in the world, a little fish in a big, blue sea.

  Lambert studies me, her head tilted to the side, as if by looking at me from another angle, she might unlock a clue of who I’m supposed to be. Well good luck to her. I’ve stared in the mirror for hours at this point and still haven’t got a clue.

  When she speaks it’s cautious. “I understand you are involved with Mr. Baylor.”

  My body turns to lead in my chair while my heart begins to pound. “What makes you say that?”

  This time, her smile is soft and wry. “Come now, Miss Jones. You two are in class with me. I’d have to be blind not to notice.”

  I resisted the urge to squirm like a child in my seat. Were we that obvious? Likely we were. It takes all of my willpower not to look at Drew, not to reach out and touch him when he sits a foot away from me. And Drew has always been less circumspect. Every class, I feel the heat and power of his gaze on me like the rays of the sun.

  “I’m not sure how this pertains to our conversation,” I say.

  She bites the corner of her lip, and in that moment, she appears much younger than her fifty-odd years. She leans forward, bracing her arms upon her desk, and her silver bobbed hair swings over her ears. “I realize this is none of my business,”—an intro that never bodes well—“but it’s easy to become lost in the fervor of love.”

  There’s that “L” word again.

  “Which is understandable,” she goes on. “But when it comes to someone like Mr. Baylor—”

  “You fear I’ll waste my potential on a football player,” I finish for her. “And here I thought I knew better than that.” I’m not so sure I do anymore. Which scares the hell out of me.

  Her mouth purses at my sarcasm. “Mr. Baylor possesses a powerful personality, one that easily overshadows others. And while most of my fellow faculty members would be urging you to keep him happy, I’m more concerned about your life.”

  I lean forward as well. “You’re right. It’s none of your business. However, I can appreciate your concern.”

  The corners of her eyes tighten as she peers at me. “All I ask of you is that you consider yourself first. It is all I ask of any student, by the way. Even Mr. Baylor.”

  But we both know that Drew doesn’t have to worry about being lost in me. His life is mapped out in glowing pinpoints of light.

  A dark chasm opens up beneath me, threatening to suck me down. Because she is right, I have no idea who I am supposed to be, or what the hell I’m going to do once college is over and Drew’s gone.

  The edgy, disheartened feeling does not abate as I follow Professor Lambert into our class. I just want to go home and crawl under the covers. The room is too cold, and the tips of my icy fingers begin to throb as I take my seat and pull out my AirBook. Due to the meeting, I’m early and Drew isn’t here. But he will be soon.

  I’d been looking forward to seeing him for days. Missing him and wanting him with a force that ties me in knots and robs me of sleep. Now, glancing at Lambert and then away, anxiety rolls within my stomach.

  And then he’s here. As always, I sense him before I see him. But when I do, I can’t breathe.

  Drew stops at the entrance to the room and simply looks at me. Then smiles. His entire body seems to light up. Like he’s plugged in to me. And that energy bounces back over me, lifting the little hairs along my skin, tripping up the steady beat of my heart. Lost. I know that now. I’ve lost myself to him. Utterly.

  His grin grows as he strides forward. He’s so lit up, people stare as he walks by. And my pulse races faster. I’m practically bouncing in my seat with the need to jump up and wrap myself around him. But then I catch Professor Lambert’s knowing gaze and tense. Fucking busybody Professor.

  Drew stops before my desk. “Hey.” Oh, that soft, for-me-only voice, it melts me every time.

  Before I can say anything back, he leans down and captures my mouth with his. I feel it down to my core. The kiss is possessive, tender, and just enough to have me wanting to chase after him as he pulls away. But we’re in class, so I brace my fists against the desk and keep still.

  The glint of affection in his eyes tells me he knows exactly what I’m doing and how affected I am. His warm hand cups my cold cheek, and I shiver.

  “I missed you,” he whispers before brushing a kiss over the tip of my nose and then slipping into his seat.

  I start to give him a sidelong smile but notice the sets of eyes on us. Jesus. Everybody stares. They stop as soon as Drew notices them. But he doesn’t seem to care. He simply moves his desk closer to mine, until our arms brush, sparking off more tingles of feeling over my skin.

  When his fingers twine through mine, I lean into him. “Do you really have to give them more to gawk at?”

  He snorts softly under his breath. “I’ll never understand why they care what I do.”

  “I think it’s more about who you do,” I mutter darkly.

  He laughs, his thumb caressing the back of my hand. “Well, I care about that too.”

  Another glance from Lambert, and I draw my hand from Drew’s to open my laptop. He does the same, but he remains close to my side, touching me in small ways every chance he gets. And I feel suffocated, as if wrapped up in thick, hot wool. Not by Drew, but by the rest of the world, watching us from the corners of their eyes the whole time.

  Notice of us doesn’t let up after class. It follows us as we walk out of the lecture hall and onto the grass. Drew, as usual, is oblivious. He’s more concerned about putting his arm around me and nuzzling my hair.

  “God, you smell good,” he says. “What is it that makes you smell so good, Jones?”

  I can’t help but laugh at that. “A liberal application of Moroccan oil to keep my hair from frizzing out of control is the likely culprit.”

  “Ah,” he says with a small smile, “the expensive stuff that kicks my dime store shampoo’s ass, right?”

  “You know it, babe.”

  I think it’s the “babe” that gets to him, because as soon as I say it, I’m surrounded by Drew. One hand slides to my nape while his arm wraps around me to gather me close.

  Part of me wants to melt into him and never leave. The other part feels as exposed as an open nerve. The better half of me wins as he kisses his way down my neck, heading for that spot that makes me his slave. I shudder, pressing my hand to his taut side.

  “Call me babe again,” he murmurs, his breath hot against my skin.

  “Why?” I can’t resist running my fingers through his hair.

  His teeth graze a particularly sensitive spot. “Because I like hearing it.”

  My lips twitch, as warmth floods between my legs. “Babe.”

  “Mmm.” He holds me closer. “Again.”

  “Goof.” I laugh softly.

  “Lay it on me, Jones,” he insists, his own husky laugh lost in my curls.

  “Babe. Babe. Baby...” The last one comes out far more tenderly than I intended.

  I can feel him grin against my neck. “Come home with me tonight. I have something for you.”

  “I bet.”

  “That’s my dirty
girl,” he teases.

  Then I hear them, the voices of two girls who aren’t trying to hide their disdain. “Oh my God, that cannot be who he’s with.”

  “Her? Why her?” says the other. “Because I could so rock his world better than that.”

  “Look at the size of her ass. Just no.”

  The comments come at me like rapid gunfire, ripping through my skin and shredding my insides. I don’t think Drew hears them. He doesn’t tense or even flinch as he nips and licks the curve of my neck, his hands going to my ass to squeeze it. My ass that currently feels five sizes larger than usual. I jerk back, bracing my hand on his chest to keep him from following.

  His eyes are hazy, confused, and he gives a slow blink as if to clear his thoughts. “Does it tickle?” He looks far too pleased at the prospect.

  “Not here.” I refuse to look at our audience.

  “What about here?” A crooked smile tilts his lush mouth as his warm palm skims up the back of my neck to cup the base of my head. His lips capture mine, soft, searching, and it’s easy to forget the world. He hums in the back of his throat, an irresistible sound that makes my knees weak. I can’t help but grip the front of his shirt, if only to hold on.

  A muffled, evil giggle, breaks through my fog. “Slumming much, Baylor?”

  “Maybe he lost a bet.”

  I can’t stand it any longer. I tear free.

  “No,” I say to Drew. “Not here.” Out of the corner of my eye, I can see the two girls, now joined by a third, watching. And it’s humiliating.

  “Anna,” Drew says, oblivious and confused, “what are you talking about?” He makes a furtive gesture to touch my cheek but pauses when I tense, he glances in the direction of my fleeting gaze. Dark color floods his cheeks and his brows snap together. “Are you kidding me?”

  His voice carries across the quad and I stiffen further. My gaze darts around. A few people are slowing down. Watching. I can see it in their expressions: What’s Baylor doing with that girl?

  “Keep your voice down,” I say. I hate scenes. Hate them. My face burns.

  Drew looks like he wants to punch something. “Why? Because someone might know that we’re together?”

  “We’re not—”

  “Right,” he snaps, cutting me off. “We’re just fucking.” He’s really yelling now. “How could I forget?”

  I want to die on the spot. More people have drifted to a stop. Drew sees me looking, and scowls over his shoulder at the girls watching with wide eyes. On a curse, he grabs my elbow. His grip is firm but doesn’t hurt as he marches me over to a stand of trees at the edge of the quad. It gives us a bit of privacy but we’re still exposed. I’m still exposed. I have to stop this. But I can’t seem to say a word. I don’t have to. Drew’s going at me again.

  Hurt and anger color his words as he leans over me. “So I can put my dick in you. You can suck me off,”—I wince—“I can go down on you until you scream my name,” he adds with a sneer. “But the very idea that I might try to kiss you in public is so horrific to you that you actually fucking flinch away.”

  My lip trembles and I bite it. God, I’ve hurt him. I’m hurting him now. I need to fix this, but my mind and body are shutting down. “I just…”

  “Just what?” he presses. “Just don’t want people to know that you’re…” His mouth works, but no words come, and his jaw bunches, his eyes going bright with frustration.

  “I’m what?” I can’t help but ask. A bitch? Yeah, I know that. I am the asshole here. I know it well.

  But he doesn’t say that. He says something much worse. “Mine!” he shouts. “That you are mine!”

  The ground beneath me sways, tilts back. My head hits the trunk of the tree. His. I can’t even fathom a world in which I belong to someone. It’s never happened to me. No one has ever wanted me that completely. He must be mistaken. He’ll see that. Eventually he’ll see.

  “We. I.” I take a breath. “We were never supposed to…”

  “Yeah, I got that.” He rakes a hand through his hair. “You made it quite clear what we are and what we aren’t.” The corners of his eyes are creased. Pain there. Disappointment.

  I’m not worth it. I want to shout it to him. I’m not worth his pain. He has the world in his palm. He doesn’t need the burden of me.

  It’s his turn to look away, his fist going to his hips, his head ducking as he presses his lips together. A lock of hair drops over his forehead, and my fingers throb with the need to touch it.

  His voice turns low and bitter. “I mean, God forbid that perfect, classy Anna Jones be seen with Drew the man-whore, right?” He shakes his head on a snort. “You don’t even know how fucking ironic that is.” His eyes catch mine then, and they are burning. “You haven’t got a fucking clue.”

  I can’t stop myself then. “Drew. I don’t want to hurt your feelings.”

  “Says the girl who doesn’t have any feelings.”

  I blink rapidly, wanting to cave in on myself. I don’t even know what I can say. I knew this would end sooner, rather than later. I wasn’t meant to be his. Even as I think the words, I know I’m making a huge mistake. I’m fucking up in the worst possible way. Helpless, I reach out. My fingers graze his forearm. And he explodes like I’ve sliced into him.

  His arm flies up and he takes a huge step back.

  “No!” He grips his hair at the back of his head as if he might pull it out. “I tried to give you space, give you time. I thought that you were just scared, shy—Fuck, I don’t know what, something.”

  God, he knows me so well, I want to cry, but he’s not done. “But I was just fucking kidding myself. You just didn’t want me the way I wanted you.”

  “No, Drew, it was—”

  “Tell me I’m wrong then,” he insists, his voice raw. “Tell me that this whole hooking up bullshit hasn’t been about who I am.”

  My throat hurts so badly that the words feel like broken glass. “I can’t.”

  His expression goes blank, his gaze going right through me. And my heart plummets. I’ve done this. I’ve made him look at me like I’m a stranger.

  “You know what? I don’t need this.” He’s backing away. “I don’t need any of this.” Even though I know what’s coming, it still plunges in like a knife when he finally says it. “I’m done. We’re done.”

  And then he walks away.

  I’M DEAD INSIDE. My emotions have locked down so tight, I hardly feel a thing, just the dense weight of my body as it moves me along. Like I’m pushing through thick, cold sludge. I don’t even know how I end up at the local coffee shop. I must have walked. Must have ordered; there’s an untouched latte sitting by my laptop. I’m writing…something. My midterm on Queen Elizabeth and the use of virginity as a means of political power.

  Perfect. I don’t even want to look at what I’ve written. If it’s any reflection of my thoughts, I’ve said something along the lines of: remain a virgin. Do not engage. Run away while you can.

  Not that refraining from sex would have protected me from Drew. He’d burrowed beneath my skin before he’d laid a finger on me.

  People come and go, and a few glance at me, as if they know me. I don’t get it, but I also don’t really care.

  I’m about to leave when Iris finds me. Her smile is the overly bright one she uses when she wants to cheer me up.

  “I guess you had a rough day,” she says, as she sits in the chair opposite me.

  “What are you talking about?” We both know, but I don’t know how she knows.

  “People are tweeting that Battle Baylor had a ‘lover’s tiff with some foxy redhead’ on campus today.”

  Foxy?

  “People fucking tweet about that shit?” is all I can blurt out. Holy shit. They’re tweeting? Who the hell are these people? Don’t they have a life?

  Iris looks at me as if I’m crazy. “Of course they tweet about it! He’s Drew Baylor, girl.”

  “And how the hell did you even see these tweets?”

 
Iris shrugs. “There’s a hashtag. #BattleBaylor. I follow it.”

  Of course he has his own hashtag.

  “You follow it? Are you kidding me?”

  “Me and a couple-thousand other people. I started to follow it when you hooked up with him.”

  I groan and press the cold heels of my hands against my aching eyes.

  “Don’t worry, sweetie.” Iris gives me a sympathetic pat on the shoulder. “At least there are no pictures. Not yet anyway. Though I haven’t checked on Instagram. We’ll do that later.”

  “Oh, God.” I hadn’t even considered pictures. I want to die. Just die. I think I might if there is photographic evidence of Drew shouting at me. I officially hate fucking social media. I’m banning myself from it. For life.

  “So.” Iris picks up my coffee, finds it cold and sets it back down with a frown. “What happened? You get tired of all that endless sex?”

  The question slaps into me. I think I actually flinch. She’s grinning at me as if my heart hasn’t just been ripped out of my chest. Apparently, I’ve been too effective in my protest that Drew and I were nothing serious. Either that, or misery loves company. Whatever it is, I want her gone.

  “I don’t want to talk about it.”

  “Did you ask for exclusivity, and he gave you the brush off?” There’s a hard glint in her eyes. “Because I’ll kick his ass if he hurt my Anna Banana.”

  “I don’t know what’s worse,” I say with little heat, “the fact that you think I was part of some harem or that you think I would be begging.” I don’t add the laughable idea of Iris kicking Drew’s ass. That part is kind of sweet. Even if the twerp just called me desperate.

  “I know,” says Iris. “You fell in love with him and blurted it out. And now he’s running scared.”

  That is it. I’m done. I collect my laptop and shove it into my bag. “No,” I say in a falsely bright voice. “It was because he wanted to kiss me in public, and I treated him like he had the fucking plague. And when he said he wanted me to be his, I threw that back in his face too.” I stand and shoulder my bag as she gapes up at me. “Don’t you know? I’m incapable of falling in love and all that feeling shit.”