Borderline

by Allan Stratton

  Borderline

  Allan Stratton

  For Faizal, Laila, and Azeem

  Contents

  Part One

  One

  I’m next door in Andy’s driveway, shooting hoops with him…

  Two

  After prayers, Andy drives us to Mr. Softy’s in the Deathmobile,…

  Three

  Mom passes me the chick-peas. “So, Sami, what are your…

  Four

  Holy shit. What just happened? Mom and Dad—they never fight…

  Five

  Dad’s gone when I get up.

  Six

  Last period. History. Cottage countdown.

  Seven

  We’re a mile down Valley Park Road before I catch…

  Part Two

  Eight

  Thanks to Andy’s heavy foot, we get to Alexandria Bay…

  Nine

  The guys make jokes as we skim through the water.

  Ten

  The man holding the shotgun is maybe sixty. He’s wearing…

  Eleven

  We get home midafternoon. Mom practically has a hemorrhage. She…

  Twelve

  After the swim, Andy and Marty come over for supper.

  Thirteen

  I bike to school Monday morning. Friday seems like years…

  Fourteen

  Dad’s already arrived home when I wheel in. His morning…

  Fifteen

  Andy and Marty text me around midnight. They’re so lucky.

  Sixteen

  The whole weekend, I’m stuck inside. Dad says I can’t…

  Seventeen

  It’s one A.M. Thursday night—well, early Friday morning, technically. Whatever.

  Part Three

  Eighteen

  The world’s a blur of shouts. Shadows. Boots. Dogs.

  Nineteen

  The agents grill me to a crisp. Questions about Dad…

  Twenty

  The chopper belongs to the local news station. They use…

  Twenty-One

  Two minutes later, there’s a report that members of the…

  Twenty-Two

  Mom and I stay inside for the weekend.

  Twenty-Three

  All night I have nightmares.

  Twenty-Four

  Next morning Mom gets a call from Mr. Bhanjee. Dad has…

  Twenty-Five

  They keep Dad in jail.

  Twenty-Six

  Next morning I enter the Academy from the side door…

  Part Four

  Twenty-Seven

  I hit Meadowvale Secondary at lunch break. It’s a zoo.

  Twenty-Eight

  When I get home, there’s a note on the kitchen…

  Twenty-Nine

  We’re on the 401 to Toronto, a multilane highway packed…

  Thirty

  One thing at a time.

  Thirty-One

  Yonge and Bloor. Five to five.

  Thirty-Two

  Hasan rises. He looks at me with curiosity and suspicion.

  Thirty-Three

  I need something to help me focus. I take a…

  Thirty-Four

  Mom and Mr. Bhanjee are watching from the bay window when…

  Thirty-Five

  The case against Dad turns into confetti. The FBI never…

  Thirty-Six

  It finally happens late one Friday afternoon. Mr. Bhanjee calls from…

  Thanks

  About the Author

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  PART ONE

  One

  I’m next door in Andy’s driveway, shooting hoops with him and Marty. The holidays are over next week, and we’ve hardly been together at all. Andy was in summer school for Math all July. After that, he and his family took Marty to their cottage on the Canadian side of the Thousand Islands. They just got back yesterday.

  I could have gone too, except for Dad. Other times he’s let me, but when he heard that Mr. and Mrs. J wouldn’t be there 24/7, he pulled the plug. “You’re too young to handle the responsibility,” he said.

  “What responsibility?” I demanded. “We’ll be swimming. Fishing. Dad, please. I’m almost sixteen.”

  “I’ve said what I’ve said.”

  Yeah, and it’s totally not fair. I don’t do drugs. I hate booze. And that stuff with Mary Louise Prescott happened over a year ago.

  The worst was watching the videos Andy and Marty e-mailed of them hiking, swimming, and cannonballing off the Johnsons’ dock. They even got to take the boat out on their own. “So, Sammy, what are you doing?” They laughed as they hot-dogged through the islands.

  But now they’re back and everything’s fantastic.

  At least it was. Dad’s stepped onto our verandah. The day’s been a scorcher, but it seems nobody’s told him. Even home, after dinner, it’s like he’s still at work, supervising the microbe researchers at the lab. His jacket’s off, but he’s wearing everything else: silk tie, dress shirt, pearl cuff links, and flannels.

  I tense as he stands by the railing, watching us play. I was doing great. Now I suck.

  “Close, very close,” Dad says, as my third shot in a row rockets off the backboard.

  I get the basketball before it bounces into the street, pass to Andy, and fix Dad with a stare. “You want something?”

  “Can your mother and I borrow you for a while?” Translation: It’s time for prayers. Years ago, Mom convinced Dad to give me prayer calls in code, so I wouldn’t be embarrassed in front of my friends. But Andy and Marty know the drill.

  “You need me this second?”

  “Not right away. But, say, in five minutes?” Dad flashes his fake smile, the one where his lips go stiff. “Sorry to interrupt your game.”

  Go, Dad. Just Go. I shoot out imaginary force fields, picture him flying through the air into tomorrow, but he hangs around like a bad fart.

  “You boys have grown this summer!” he says out of nowhere. Dad makes stupid announcements like this almost every time he sees us. It’s his idea of Taking An Interest. Well, if he really took an interest, he’d know Andy’s been six feet tall since ninth grade; the guys call him Stiltz. And Marty doesn’t grow up, just out. Fries, Cokes, chips. If he keeps at it, he’ll turn into his parents.

  Dad waits for one of us to break the silence. We don’t. He bobbles his head like a dashboard ornament, gives us a tight little wave, and finally—finally—goes back inside.

  We play a bit more, but it’s not the same.

  Dad taps on the living room window. When he was a kid, he fled Iran because of the secret police. So what did he learn about freedom? Not much, apparently. I can’t even shoot a private game of hoops with my friends.

  “Catch you later,” I say.

  I take off my shoes and socks inside the front door, wash my hands, face, and feet in the hall bathroom, and head to the family room. I’m expecting Mom and Dad to be standing by the prayer rugs, waiting. Instead they’re sitting on the leather sectional, eating grapes, and the rugs are rolled up on their shelves under the flat-screen TV. Mom’s green silk hijab is folded loosely on top; she only wears it at mosque and prayers—a big relief, as far as I’m concerned.

  “What’s up?”

  Mom’s eyes dance to the ceiling the way they do when there’s exciting news. Dad pats the cushion next to him. “I don’t only call you in for prayers,” he says. I hate how he reads my mind. Does he know what I say to Andy and Marty?

  I sit on the edge of the seat, take a paper napkin from beside the fruit bowl, and twist it gently in my fingers.

  “You want to tell him?” Dad asks Mom.

  “No, no, it was your idea.” Mom always likes to make Da
d look good.

  He rubs his thumb against his ring. “End of September, I’m off to a four-day security conference in Toronto. I’ll be leading a seminar Friday afternoon, and touring their new category-four lab Monday morning. But I can skip the weekend workshops.” He looks at Mom as if he’s not sure what he’s supposed to say next.

  “Your Dad noticed the Toronto hockey team…,” Mom prompts.

  “Yes, the Leafs,” he says. “They’ve got a preview with the New York Islanders, Friday night. Baseball’s in town too: The Jays have a doubleheader Saturday with Boston.” He takes a deep breath. “I can get us tickets through the conference organizers.”

  I lean forward, the napkin tight between my hands. “Us? You can get us tickets?”

  “Not us,” Mom bats the air with her hand. “Just you and your Dad. I couldn’t be dragged kicking and screaming.”

  I smile. Whenever there’s sports on TV, even playoffs, Mom leaves Dad and me for a bubble bath or to squirrel away with a book. The exception is golf. She’ll watch that crap for hours. Go figure.

  “We’d be flying out of Rochester early Friday morning, coming back late afternoon Monday, Inshallah,” Dad says. “You’ll be missing two days of school, but I’m sure I can make arrangements with the Academy.”

  Two days off school? Has Dad had a brain transplant?

  “We haven’t done anything special for quite a while,” he continues. “I was thinking a father–son weekend would be nice. That is, if you’re interested.”

  I’m interested, sure—in having two days off school to see baseball and hockey. But the father–son part, that’s scary. It’s bad enough when Dad and I are alone watching TV. We sit on opposite ends of the sectional, like there’s this invisible border between our cushions and we’re in totally different countries that don’t talk to each other, or even speak the same language. When there’s a commercial and somebody should say something, one of us leaves for a snack or a pee. So to go all Friday through Monday, with just the two of us…

  Dad sees me hesitate. “Of course, you and your friends…You may have plans.”

  “Maybe. I don’t know. They just got back.”

  He takes a deep breath. “I understand.”

  Mom shoots me a look: Your father’s trying.

  I know and I’m being a shit and I hate myself. But I can’t help it. Before Mary Louise Prescott, things were normal. Dad could be fun. He’d tease me, and I’d laugh. Even when I messed up, we could talk. I wasn’t just a disappointment.

  Dad stares awkwardly at the sliding patio doors. Our backyard faces the Meadowvale Country Club. Through the glass, I can see the sun touching the row of maples that line the fourteenth fairway. “Time for prayers,” he says quietly. His shoulders wilt.

  I can’t stand it. “Dad,” I hear myself say. “About the weekend. Why don’t I just say yes?”

  He looks at me like he’s not sure he heard right. “You want to come?”

  I nod. “Sure, I guess. Yeah. I can do stuff with Andy and Marty anytime.”

  A smile rolls over his face. His chest swells. His fingers stretch.

  Oh my god, is he gonna hug me? Am I supposed to hug him?

  From the look on Dad’s face, he doesn’t know what to do either. He clears his throat, claps his hands, and goes to the prayer rugs.

  Whew, that was close!

  Two

  After prayers, Andy drives us to Mr. Softy’s in the Deathmobile, aka his Mom’s old Camry. We call it the Deathmobile because of all the scrapes it’s been in. Mrs. J thinks parking lots are expressways, and she’s not so great on curbs. Andy inherited it last fall when he got his permit. Since he turned seventeen, top of the summer, he’s had his full license. Now he’s free as a bird, meaning we are too.

  We eat our cones, propped against the hood. I brag about my trip with Dad. The guys are jealous about the tickets, but they don’t let me off easy.

  “Your dad was gonna hug you?” Andy gasps. “What, and get his shirt dirty?”

  “I knew I shouldn’t have told you.”

  Marty laughs. “You could’ve picked up spores from his lab. Started glowing in the dark.”

  “Funny, Marty. Original too.”

  We toss our cone wrappings in the garbage bin and head to the small neighborhood park across the street, where we sit on the ledge of the fountain, dangle our feet in the water, and chill.

  Andy and Marty have been my best friends since fourth grade. Before them, I didn’t have any friends, period. Our mosque is a half-hour drive away in Rochester, so I never got to hang out with the kids from my Saturday morning madrassa. And at public school, I never fit in. There was this little clique that used to point at me and make bomb sounds. At recess, I’d stay inside and pretend to nap. The teachers didn’t say anything.

  Things changed when Andy arrived. It was a Saturday. I was nine, lying on my belly, staring at this anthill by our curb, when a moving van pulled in next door. Men hauled boxes and furniture, and a woman yelled, “Fine, just don’t go far,” at this skinny kid in a Bart Simpson T-shirt who was running around the yard like his pants were on fire.

  In a flash, Skinny disappeared. I figured he’d blasted off to Mars or something, and went back to watching the ants drag a grasshopper head into their colony. Next thing I knew, there was a pair of sneakers in front of my face. I looked up. It was Skinny, along with this chubby guy from up the street who was in the other fourth-grade class.

  “I’m Andy. I just moved in,” Skinny said. “So, who’s gonna win the World Series?”

  I scrunched my nose. “How should I know?”

  The kid from up the street snickered.

  “Marty here says your name is Mohammed.” Andy grinned. “That’s, like, the Prophet, right? So, if you’re the Prophet, who’s gonna win the World Series?”

  I looked from Andy to Marty and back again. “Hunh?”

  “It’s a joke, dummy,” Andy sighed. “So is your name really Mohammed?”

  “Yeah,” I said. “Is your name really Andy?”

  Marty looked at me like I was mental. But Andy laughed. When Marty saw Andy laugh, he laughed too.

  Andy grabbed my hand and hoisted me to my feet. “You know that fence that runs along the back of our yards?” he whispered, an eye over his shoulder. “Well, there’s a space at the bottom behind the bushes at the end of our garden. Me and Marty are gonna crawl under it, into the golf course. Wanna come?”

  I knew I should ask Mom, but I didn’t want to look like a wuss. Besides, she and Dad belonged to the club and were always complaining about kids trespassing. So if I asked, she’d say no for sure, and I’d be a snitch as well as a wuss—and never have any friends, ever.

  I scratched my butt. “Okay.”

  Andy scouted for grownups, as we snuck onto the course and ran from tree to tree, crawling through the rough till we hit the dogleg on the tenth hole. There’s a dip in the fairway, where you can’t be seen from the tee-off. “Hey,” Andy said, “let’s wriggle out and grab the golfers’ balls. We can toss ’em in the tall grass, and watch their faces.”

  This turned out not to be such a great idea, on account of Mrs. Bennett. She was standing up in her golf cart, watching Mr. Bennett’s drive through her binoculars. I never knew old people could yell so loud. All of a sudden, there were golf carts everywhere, chasing us. We got away, but an hour later my parents got a call from the club manager. Being the only Iranian-looking kid on the course, I’d kind of stood out.

  “I didn’t touch any golf balls,” I told my folks. “I just checked a few to see which brands went farthest.”

  “You expect us to believe that?” Dad said. “Who were the others?”

  “There weren’t any others. I was on my own. I figured it was okay cuz we have a family membership.”

  Dad smacked his forehead. “Lies and more lies!” He went on a rant about how he and Mom had moved to Meadowvale before I was born, when the subdivision first opened up; how they’d had to threaten to go
to court to get the developer to sell to them; but how we finally belong—“I’m on the club’s planning committee! Your mother’s in the Ladies’ Invitational!”—only I’d turned into this juvenile delinquent.

  “But I didn’t do anything!” I gave Mom a Bambi look. She put her arm around me. “Mohammed’s a good boy. If he said he didn’t do anything, he didn’t.”

  I felt like a total turdball. I mean, I’d never done anything bad before, at least not that I could remember. And I’d certainly never lied about it. Especially not to Mom.

  Still, that night as I crawled under the covers, I couldn’t help thinking about the fun I’d had with Andy and Marty, sneaking through the trees and bushes, pretending we were spies. They might be a little dangerous in the Getting Me Into Trouble Department. All the same, I couldn’t wait to see them again.

  I got my wish. Next morning I was back at the anthill when Marty screeched up to Andy’s door on his bike. I waved, but he hardly nodded. It was like us being friends was a dream. But in a sec, Andy barreled out, and everything was fine again.

  “Hey, Prophet,” he hollered.

  “Hey, Prophet,” Marty echoed.

  They ran over, Andy in the lead. I hopped to my feet.

  “Marty’s gonna bike me round the neighborhood,” Andy said with a friendly punch to my shoulder. “You up for it?”

  “Sure. I just have to ask—”

  But Dad had already stepped out of the garage, a storm in his eye.

  “This is my dad,” I said cautiously. “Dad, these are my new friends, Andy and Marty. Andy’s just moved in.”