Redemption (Cavan Gang #2)

by Laylah Roberts

  Redemption

  A Cavan Gang novel

  Laylah Roberts

  Copyright

  Laylah Roberts

  Redemption.

  © 2016, Laylah Roberts

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  This story contains explicit sex scenes and is R18.

  Cover Design: Erin Dameron-Hill

  Editor: Wizards in Publishing

  Prologue

  “Did you hear they’re letting me blow this joint?” Miller curled up in a black leather armchair, her hair tied in a messy bun. She’d dyed it bright red since the last time he saw her. Her baggy clothes dwarfed her tiny frame, not an ounce of makeup on her face.

  She was the most beautiful woman he’d ever seen.

  Fuck it.

  Rogan worked hard to keep his feelings hidden. He’d had years of practice. But if anyone could erode his hard-won control, it was Miller. Beneath the cool, calm exterior, his blood heated, his heart raced. His cock, so rarely interested in much, stood at attention. All it took to turn him on was catching sight of her, a hint of her scent, or even just hearing her voice.

  And her laugh was enough to make him see double.

  He’d thought himself too cold and broken to ever react to a woman this way. If it wasn’t a quick fuck and good-bye, then he wasn’t interested.

  Except when it came to her. Because, then, he imagined all sorts of things he could never have.

  Miller in his arms. Kissing her. Touching her. Fucking her. Damn well owning her.

  And having her own him.

  “Yes, I talked to your doctor.”

  She grimaced. “Of course, you did. Because Lord forbid anything be private around here. Have they never heard of patient-doctor confidentiality?”

  He shrugged. He had his methods of getting people to talk.

  She ran her gaze around the room. “I guess because you’re paying for all this, you get to listen to every sad little aspect of my recovery.”

  He cocked his head. He’d seen her swing between emotions since she’d been at the drug rehab facility. Anger. Sadness. Despair. Fear. But, this time, something was different.

  “What’s wrong?” He suppressed the urge to lift her from her seat and pull her onto his lap, to taste her, tease her into a better mood. He could do it. He’d seen the way she watched him when she thought he wasn’t looking. With heat. Hunger. Need.

  He couldn’t take advantage of her vulnerability. She was his responsibility.

  She scowled. “Wrong? What could possibly be wrong? I have no job, no home. I’m stuck in a fucking rehab center because that asshole, Iker, got me hooked on a highly addictive drug. And it’s my fault because I thought I’d play Nancy Drew and try to figure out who killed my mother. What kind of idiot does that? What did I think would happen? That that the Vipers would welcome me with open arms? That there would be a big arrow with a sign saying ‘This way to find evidence of who killed your mother’? I was utterly delusional.”

  He didn’t bother to argue with her. Because he agreed. She’d been stupid to think she could infiltrate the Vipers and investigate her mother’s death.

  Instead of earning their trust, she’d ended up at their mercy.

  So, yeah, she’d been a naïve fool, and he wasn’t going to tell her otherwise. Best she learn from her mistakes and never put herself in such danger again. Although she hadn’t taken the drug voluntarily, Fizz was a highly addictive drug and she’d needed the help of specialists to cope with the withdrawals and cravings. Luckily, she hadn’t been on Fizz long. Longer use resulted in a longer recovery process. She had made good progress. As long as she learned to handle stress and had a support network, her doctor believed she would do well.

  Soon she would be released and he wouldn’t see her again.

  That wasn’t disappointment he felt but relief. At least that’s what he was going to tell himself.

  She bit her lip. “I’m TSTL.”

  “What?” he asked, confused.

  Her brown eyes filled with misery. “Too stupid to live.”

  Oh no.

  “Ahh, I wondered what emotional stage you had reached,” he drawled.

  She frowned. Shit. How did she manage to look so beautiful even when she scowled?

  He was in so much trouble.

  “What do you mean?”

  “Well, you’ve gone through anger, fear, and despair and I couldn’t work out where you were at now. But, now, I see you’re stuck on pity.”

  “Pity?” She sat up, glaring at him in righteous fury. Better.

  “You’re feeling sorry for yourself.” Rogan made certain to keep his voice calm. He even brushed some imaginary lint off his pants. His disinterest would fuel her anger. Better anger than self-pity. He knew all too well how destructive self-pity could be.

  He’d spent too long feeling sorry for himself for being forced into this life. Forced to step up and become the boss of the Cavans.

  But he had to embrace his life. As Miller needed to take charge of hers.

  Perhaps he should have been more sympathetic. But he struggled to find the right thing to say.

  “Don’t you think I have a right to feel sorry for myself? My life is a fucking mess!”

  He frowned. “You’re alive.”

  With an impatient sigh, she waved her hand through the air. “Fine, fine. You’re right. I could have died. I should be grateful to be alive.”

  He found his lips twitching, and he had to fight hard to keep a smile from curling his lips. “You don’t sound very grateful.”

  “Well, I’m not going to start singing about whiskers on kittens while I dance on roof tops.”

  “I think you’re mixing your movies up.”

  She shrugged. “I don’t know. I’ve never watched those movies all the way through.” She crossed her arms over her chest. “I started watching them, but they were too…”

  “Too what?”

  “Farfetched. I mean, it’s not real life. They’re fairy tales.”

  “You don’t like fairy tales?”

  She shrugged. “Hansel and Gretel made sense.”

  A story about two children being abandoned by their family.

  “Even though I’m getting out of here, I understand I need a damn babysitter. As though I need someone to watch over me. Tilly will insist I stay with her, and I don’t know how I’m going to tell her I don’t want to.”

  She didn’t? He’d been gearing up to say good-bye. Growing attached to her wasn’t smart. Miller wouldn’t be just a fling. And he couldn’t offer anything more.

  “Why not?” he asked.

  “Because she’s got this—this perfect life. She’s engaged to be married to a wonderful man; she’s happy.”

  He failed to see the problem.

  “Everywhere I go, I bring trouble. I don’t want to ruin things for her. And, truthfully, I don’t think I can be around all that happiness right now.”

  Rogan let out a deep breath. “You’re not a walking plague.”

  “Feels like it. But there is no one else I can stay with. I can’t stay here forever. It’ll bankrupt you.”

  It would take a lot to bankrupt him, but he didn’t say so. He studied her. He was missing something.

  “You hate it here.”
/>   She glanced away, her lip caught between her teeth. What wasn’t he getting?

  “You don’t want to leave?” he asked. Her eyes flared. Bingo. “You’re scared to leave?”

  She picked at loose thread hanging from her T-shirt. He winced, wanting to pull her hand away. The ugly, gray T-shirt was already threadbare—pick the wrong thread and it would all come apart.

  “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

  “Miller,” he bit out, not about to let this go.

  “Everybody wants me to talk,” she grouched. “What are you thinking, Miller? What emotion are you experiencing, Miller? How does that make you feel, Miller? I’m sick of talking.”

  He ran his finger over his lower lip. “Yeah, I can see how that would be annoying, but they know what they’re doing.”

  She shrugged.

  “You’re trying to dodge my question.”

  “God, are you always this persistent?” she grouched.

  “Yes. And you’re still avoiding the question. Why don’t you want to leave?”

  “Why wouldn’t I want to leave? This place sucks.”

  He waited. He could be a patient man when it mattered.

  “But it’s safe, isn’t it?” she added.

  “And outside these walls isn’t safe.” He could understand her fear. So much had happened to her in such a short space of time, she clung to the one thing she knew.

  “I’m a coward. I should put on my big-girl panties and get out there.”

  Rogan wondered how many times she’d had to push aside whatever she felt and get on with things. It didn’t seem like anyone in her life had put her needs before their own. Her mother had abandoned her when she was young; her father, who was in and out of prison, had left her to be raised by a strict, religious grandmother.

  He grunted. If she wouldn’t live with Tilly, few options remained open to her.

  She could live with you.

  Fuck, no. A disastrous thought. Not only because he wanted to fuck her until he found oblivion, but living with him could well put a target on her back.

  So what’s the alternative? Leave her here? Let her go off on her own to get into God knows what trouble? Because although he’d told her off for calling herself a plague, he had the feeling Miller attracted trouble like a magnet.

  She needed a goddamned keeper.

  It can’t be you. You have no right to have someone like her in your life.

  Rogan stood. “I have to go.”

  Startled, she gazed up at him, a hint of disappointment in her brown eyes.

  “Umm, okay. Thanks for visiting.”

  Loneliness surrounded her like a dark cloud, and he had to clench his fists to keep from reaching out to her, from pulling her close, and promising to look after her.

  Instead, with a nod, he left.

  Rogan stepped out of the rehab center and took a deep breath of air, trying to clear his head. If only he could forget Miller so easily.

  “Short visit tonight,” Colm observed.

  Rogan glanced over at his bodyguard. The large Scot raised his eyebrows questioningly before falling into step beside him as he walked through the parking lot to his car. Colm kept enough space between them to draw his gun, but stayed close enough to leap into the line of fire if needed.

  Rogan hoped Colm would never have to risk his life for Rogan’s.

  Fuck it.

  He knew better than to get close to those around him. As his bodyguard, Colm accepted the risks involved in protecting him.

  He lived in a dangerous world. Threats lingered around every corner. He couldn’t afford to let anyone close. The more people he let close, the more people he had to worry over. To protect. Because danger was a part of his life.

  Do not care about her.

  “Let’s go home.”

  He nodded to his other bodyguard, Cillian, who stood next to the car, before climbing into the backseat. The cold leather seats did nothing to cool the fire in his blood. Years of honed control kept him from showing his turmoil. Two devils sat on his shoulders, fighting for dominance.

  Take her home with you. Fuck her. Get her out of your system.

  Bad idea. You cannot get involved. You’ve done your part. It’s time to wipe your hands of her.

  He’d never experienced domestic bliss. Any woman who got involved with him would forever be at risk. His one real attempt at a relationship had been a disaster.

  Shaking his head, he tried to remove Victoria from his mind. The Vicious Viper as his cousin Aedan had nicknamed her.

  Silence filled the car as they sped through the streets of San Antonio.

  “Fuck!” Cillian swore, looking in the rearview mirror. “I wasn’t speeding, Boss.”

  Rogan glanced behind him. “They were probably lying in wait for us. Pull over.” He grabbed his phone and sent off a quick text.

  Cillian pulled over and Rogan waited. This shit was getting old. He pinched the top of his nose. He was getting too old for this…at thirty-three.

  As the officer approached, Cillian wound down the window.

  “What’s the problem, Detective?” he asked.

  “You ran a stop sign. License and registration.”

  Rogan rolled his window down. “There must be very little going on in the city if the police department is putting their best detective on traffic duty.”

  Detective Maran glared at him as Cillian handed over the paperwork.

  “I trust everything is in order.” Rogan smirked up at the man.

  Maran sniffed a few times. “Smells like pot in here. I’m going to need you all to step out so I can frisk you.”

  Rogan stiffened. There were very few people he let touch him. The detective most certainly was not one.

  “So you can plant evidence and arrest us?” Colm drawled from the front passenger seat.

  Maran puffed up like a rooster. “Are you suggesting I’m corrupt?”

  “Not suggesting anything,” Colm replied.

  “Detective, you obviously have very little to do at the moment.” Rogan stared at him. “It’s a shame you’re not out there investigating real crimes instead of following me around.”

  “I’m going to get something on you one day, MacGuire, and on the day you get what’s coming, I’ll toast your rotting corpse.”

  “Think about it a lot, do you? I thought you pulled us over for running a stop sign. I wasn’t aware I murdered anyone.” Rogan felt his temper slipping. It was bad for business to have a detective following him around. Rogan didn’t know why the detective had the hots for him so bad, but he needed to get him off his back.

  “Get out of the car. All of you.”

  “We’ll have to decline until my lawyer gets here. Luckily, we’re close to his house.”

  “Your lawyer? When did you call him? I pulled you for a traffic violation, or have you got something else to confess?”

  “If it’s a traffic violation, why do we have to get out of the car?” Colm asked.

  Maran scowled at them. “Out now. Before I arrest all of you.”

  Rogan nodded at Colm and Cillian. Moving slowly, they climbed from the car. Colm opened Rogan’s door as another car pulled up behind them. Maran stiffened, placing a hand on the weapon strapped into a shoulder holster.

  “Easy,” Rogan murmured. “I won’t be happy if you shoot my lawyer.”

  Maran rubbed his hand over his face. “Get out of the fucking car.”

  “Now, now, Detective. No need to get all riled up.” Fergus Bryson stepped up beside the taller detective.

  Maran turned to glare down at the short, rotund man standing next to him. Fergus volunteered to play Santa each year at the local children’s hospital, went to church each Sunday, and was an absolute shark in the courtroom.

  “Mr. Bryson,” Detective Maran spat out. “Overkill for a routine traffic stop.”

  Fergus shrugged. “I get paid by the hour.”

  “And I’m sure this will cost me a pretty penny,” Rogan sa
id dryly, straightening his pants as he stood.

  “After hours and short notice.” Fergus grinned. “Now, Detective, what’s the problem here?”

  Twenty minutes later, Rogan leaned back against the backseat as they pulled out into traffic. He closed his eyes.

  “I need a vacation,” he muttered.

  “Boss?” Colm queried.

  “Nothing.”

  His phone rang and he ignored it. The caller could wait.

  “Is Ms. Toresso all right?” Colm asked.

  Rogan bit back a growl. Couldn’t the man see he wanted some peace and quiet? But Colm had a huge protective streak when it came to women and he’d seen Miller at her worst—out of her mind while detoxing. Rogan clenched his fists. He would love to kill Iker all over again for holding her against her will and forcing her to take Fizz.

  The latest drug on the market looked like candy and fizzed on your tongue. Both the Vipers and the Seven Sinners pushed it for the Fuerte Cartel.

  “She’s fine. A lot better. They say she can leave soon.”

  “Yeah? Well, that’s good, right?” Colm asked.

  “Hmm.” He opened his eyes as they pulled into the driveway, waiting for the electronic gates to open. The large house wasn’t the one he’d grown up in. That house had been too full of memories to keep. Most of them he didn’t care to remember. As he walked inside, his phone rang. Persistent. With a sigh, he pulled it out and glanced at the screen.

  “Hey, Dylan.”

  “Rogan. How are you?”

  Exhausted. Indifferent. Horny.

  He moved into the study and sat behind his large, oak desk. “Fine. How is Tilly?”

  “She’s great. We’re in Waco at the moment.”

  Rogan settled back and half listened. His rather apathetic attitude should have alarmed him, but he couldn’t work up interest in anything.

  Except Miller.

  Around her, he fired up, he felt alive.

  “So you’ve been to see Miller? Rogan?” There was a long pause. “Are you still there?”

  Rogan started. Christ, he had to be better than this. “Yeah, I’ve just been at the rehab center. Her doctor and therapist are happy with her progress. They’re releasing her next week, provided she has someone to stay with.”