Pole Position

by H. M. Montes

  I handed the picture back to him, I couldn’t get it out of my head how much that little boy looked just like Jet.

  “I’m sorry.” He said with a shaky voice.

  I shook my head, “Sorry won’t fix this Jet.” I laid back down and turned away from him. He mumbled something then asked if he could sleep with me. I climbed out of the bed grabbed pillow and went to the living room of the camper. He followed me, and told me he would sleep on the couch. We argued for a second until I finally pulled the covers up to my shoulders and turned my back to Jet again. He started telling me how much he loved me, how he didn’t do it to hurt me. I snorted, “NO I’m pretty sure it was obvious why you were doing it.”

  “Please talk to me, I love you more than you think I do. I don’t love her, I hate her you have to believe me.” He was pleading with me, more tears fell down my cheeks.

  “I just want to go to sleep, I can’t talk about it now.” I told him and shut him out as he continued talking but I ignored him as I fell asleep.

  The following morning I woke up about nine thirty, my eyes were puffy, my throat was raw, and my head was throbbing. I rolled over and bumped my hip against something, I looked down to see Jet with his head resting on the couch as he slept. I lightly traced my fingers along his jaw line, then through his hair. His thick black eyelashes rested against his cheek bones, his perfect thick lips parted with each breath that he breathed. “Oh Jet, why’d you do it.” I whispered then climbed around him being sure to not wake him up.

  I showered, dressed, then gathered my bags and quietly left Jet sleeping, I glanced back at him as I shut the door with a small click of the lock. Asher was just walking out of the hauler as I made my way towards it. “You okay?” she asked around a yawn.

  “Yeah, I want to leave before he wakes up, I can’t talk about this with him here.”

  “Okay, I know Carley is up because she called me.” Asher said.

  We made our way back across the pit area and met Carley outside of Russell’s trailer.

  We went to town to get breakfast before our one hour drive to the airport, we were all three quiet as we were all obviously still hung over from the night before.

  “So how did it go with him last night?” Carley finally asked breaking the silence.

  I shrugged a shoulder, “He was shocked that I watched them, he tried to apologize and he showed me a picture of his three year old son they had together that he never got to meet. Riley gave him up for adoption.”

  Carley’s eyes got big, “Whoa!”

  I nodded my head, “I don’t want to talk about it anymore, I just want to be back in the dorm where I can have some time to myself.” I told her. We finished breakfast then left.

  On the drive to the airport, I fell asleep but I couldn’t get the look on Jets face out of my mind when I told him that there was no working through this. That we were over for good. The hurt, the shock, the anger, all kinds of emotions rolled over his face. Asher woke me up once we had arrived. Carley walked with us into the terminal, she hugged us both and kissed us on the cheeks. “I better hear back from you when you get to the dorms. I’m going to come party some weekend with you two beauties.”

  I laughed, “Yes you will, I promise we will call. Thank you for showing us a good time these last few days.”

  She hugged us each one more time then turned and walked out of the airport. “How long before he calls do you suppose?” Asher asked as we handed the clerk our tickets.

  “I don’t know, and I don’t care.” I told her.

  We no sooner got sat down and they called for our flight to board, we grabbed our bags and wheeled them behind us down the hallway of the terminal. Once we were boarded on the air plane and our luggage was in the overhead compartment we sat down. My phone rang, “Where are you?” Jet asked in a sleepy voice.

  “Uh…With Asher.” I wasn’t going to tell him that we were flying back to Ohio.

  “When you get back I think we need to talk.”

  “What? You’re breaking up…” I ended the call and powered my phone off.

  Asher busted up laughing, “Did you seriously just do what I think you did?” she asked and started laughing even harder.

  “Yep, I most certainly did.”

  The airplane taxied down the runway and lifted off, in only a few short hours I would be back in the comfort of my own room and away from Jet until Sunday.

  Jet

  ****

  I woke up briefly as Chassis traced her fingers along my jaw line then ran her fingers gently through my hair. I eased my breathing as she softly whispered my name as she ran her fingers through my hair again.

  “Fuck.” I groaned as I stood up from the floor, I had a horrible kink in my neck from sleeping with only my head on the couch cushion next to Chassis. When I woke up Chassis was gone, I went into the bathroom to take a piss. The bathroom was still warm with steam from her shower. I brushed my teeth, then stripped down and took a nice long shower. I worked at the kink in my neck when the water finally ran cold I shut it off. With the towel wrapped around me I walked to the bedroom to get dressed. That’s when I noticed that Chass’s bag wasn’t beside mine where it was last night. I looked under the bed but it wasn’t under there, I pulled some clothes on and walked out into the living room. Her backpack and laptop weren’t under the table, and her cell phone charger wasn’t plugged in next to the table where it had been. I called her phone, when she answered I asked where she was at, she told me she was with Asher, I told her when she got back we were going to talk. She said that she couldn’t hear me and ended the call. I stared down at my phone, I had full signal so it wasn’t my phone that was cutting out and I had heard everything she said just fine.

  I grabbed my ball cap and headed out to the hauler to see if everybody else was awake, it was now almost one o’clock, as drunk as they all were the night before I would be surprised if they were even awake. I stepped around the front of the RV and almost ran right over that Carley chick. I thought it was strange that she wasn’t with Chassis and Asher. “Hey.” She said with a smile and started to walk off.

  “Wait up.” I called back to her.

  She stopped walking but didn’t turn around. I turned her around, “So what the fuck was that about last night?”

  She shrugged, “She lost a bet.”

  “What?” I asked shocked. Carley explained the entire bet to me about how Chassis had said she couldn’t win the wet t-shirt contest. I shook my head, “Well it sure looked like you both enjoyed fulfilling the bet.”

  “For sure.” She said and started to walk away. I caught up with her again.

  “Wait, if you are here where the hell are Asher and Chassis, they don’t have a vehicle here?”

  Carley shrugged her shoulders, “You’ll have to ask her.” Then she walked away.

  I shook my head and started back towards the hauler, I tried calling Chassis but it went straight to voicemail. Since I didn’t have to race today I really wanted to sit down and talk to her, I know that I fucked up. If it meant having Riley tell Chassis that we indeed did NOT fuck, I would do that. I loved Chassis, I would do anything for her forgiveness, losing her would kill me and it would be my own fault.

  Once at the hauler I was surprised to find Jason, Jerod and Mitch all awake and eating breakfast. I pulled a lawn chair up and rolled my neck trying to loosen up the muscles.

  “Problems?” Jerod asked then handed me a bag of food from McDonalds.

  “I slept on my neck wrong.” I told him as I un-wrapped my breakfast burrito.

  “I have to know did you get in on some of that hot action with Carley and Chass? I heard about the bet.” Mitch asked.

  I glared at him and shook my head no, “Nope, Chassis wouldn’t let me.”

  “Can’t say that I blame her.” Jason said.

  I snapped my head up to look at him, “What’s that supposed to mean?”

  “Oh come on we aren’t fucking idiots, Chass isn’t the only one that seen you with
that fucking bitch Riley.” He told me

  I swallowed my food hard, “I fucked up okay, I’m going to set down and talk to her today I can’t lose her. I just can’t, if I have to drag Riley’s ass over here to prove to Chass that we didn’t fuck then I will. She doesn’t believe me though.” I pulled the condom out of my wallet, “I knew she had an ulterior motive.” I said.

  “Huh?” Jerod and Mitch both said at the same time.

  I flipped the light on, on my phone again and laid the condom on top of it.

  “The same fucking way I got her pregnant our senior year. I kissed her the other night and felt her tits that’s all that happened. I stopped before I did anything overly stupid thank god. Now I just have to get Chass to listen to me.” I told them

  Jason snorted and took another big bit of his sandwich, he glared at me as he chewed. “Gonna be hard to do when she’s on a flight back to Ohio, then makes the drive back to Kansas.” He said.

  “What?”

  “You heard me.”

  “No, I heard you say she’s on a flight back to Ohio. She said her and Asher were…they’re both going?” I asked and stood up quickly.

  “Where the fuck are you going?” Jerod asked.

  “To Ohio!”

  “No fucking way, leave her alone. Finish off the weekend, when we get back Sunday if it’s not too late you can try to talk to her then if she will.” Mitch said and stood chest to chest with me.

  I narrowed my eyes at him, “You think you can fucking stop me?” I asked and pushed at his chest. Jerod stepped between us and pushed against my chest.

  “Knock it off, you’ve got a damn good chance at the win Saturday, she doesn’t want to talk to you that’s why she left.” He told me.

  I stepped away from them and went back to the RV, I tried calling Chassis over and over, and I sent her text after text. *Chassis, I’m sorry, so fucking sorry. PLEASE, I love you, I’ll do anything, ANYTHING to have another chance with you. I know I fucked up baby you have to believe me, I didn’t fuck her. I have no reason for why I did what I did. I promised you that I wouldn’t hurt you and I did. I’m so fucking sorry. Please, please baby, I love you. I can’t lose you. I love you! I’m coming home after the races Saturday and we are going to talk. I’m going to race my hardest and win this mother fucker for you. If you want me to quit racing I will, I’ll do whatever you want me to. Please just one more chance let me prove to you that I only love you and will always only love you. I love you Chassis Brinn Heart. This is me wide open begging you for forgiveness. I can tell you hundred times in this text if I have to, I love YOU! I’m so sorry for what I did, I swear it’ll NEVER happen again. I love you...and I’m sorry! *

  I laid back down on the bed, she was gone, and my gut was telling me she wasn’t going to take me back. I fell asleep, three hours later I woke up and scrambled to find my phone. I swore I had heard it ring but when I finally found it on the floor there was nothing, no missed calls no unread text. I checked the message that I had sent Chassis, the Delivered was now Read. I tried calling her again but she let it ring until her voicemail picked up. I ended the call and called again, Asher answered her phone, “Jet just stop okay, let her have a couple of days.”

  “No, I need to talk to her.”

  “I’m sorry but I know she won’t talk to you.”

  “She read my text right?”

  “Yeah, she read it.” She sounded irritated.

  “She isn’t going to forgive me is she?”

  “Honestly, I don’t know. She loved you Jet.”

  “I know, and I love her.”

  “Goodbye Jet.” Asher said then hung up.

  I threw my phone onto the bed, picked it up and sent her another text. * I love you *

  I walked back out of the RV and over to the hauler, the guys were all talking when I walked up.

  “Get anything accomplished?” Jason asked.

  “No.” I said and sat down.

  He walked over to me, “It’s your fuck up, you figure out how to fix it.” He told me.

  I nodded my head, “I plan on it.”

  TO BE CONTINUED…..

  Special Thanks:

  To my husband, he has listened to me whine and complain about not being able to think of where the story is going. He puts up with me staying up way too late, then listens to me grumble when I re-read what I wrote “Was I even awake when I typed this?” LOL!

  April, Robyne, Susan, FeFe, Erica, Desi, and Nicole: My betas…ROCK!! That’s the only way to put it, they’ve read and re-read numerous times, told me they liked where it was going and even threatened me to finish the story HAHA. The weird ass phone calls they get I’m pretty sure most people would hang up but…not them they laugh and answer the questions! Love and Hugs to all of you!!!

  To my kids and my niece, Thank you for being patient and waiting just “One more minute” LOL, while I “finish” this paragraph. I love you all so much.

  My mom you still can’t read these books…sorry ;)

  My sister, you’re still on the first book I wrote!! Read on woman!!

  ……………………….

  My dad, I miss you so much and wish you were here to go through all crap I put the family through while I write HAHA. We all love you and miss you so much!!

  And a HUGE thank you to all of my readers, THANK YOU so much for your support!!!

  Thank You to Jade C. Jamison for answering any question I throw your way!

  Thank You to the drivers and pit crew that I have called and asked questions about this great sport!!

  Last but not least, “Lawrence” you’ve been a HUGE help, but don’t try to sleep too sound, it’s not over yet buddy HAHA!!! <3

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  Far East Movement ~ Like A G6

  Usher ~ Yeah

  Jason Aldean ~ Night Train

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  Disturbed ~ Down With The Sickness

  Blake Shelton ~ Sure Be Cool If You Did

  Dierks Bentley ~ Come A Little Closer

  Eminem & Rihanna ~ Love The Way You Lie

  Lenny Kravitz ~ American Woman

  Macklemore & Ryan Lewis ~ Thrift Shop

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