You Should Have Known
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“No. Brazil.”
She looked at him. But it didn’t make what he’d said make any more sense. Brazil did not make sense.
“I don’t understand. That letter.”
“Oh, the letter was from him. And it was mailed from Minot, North Dakota. But we’re sure he didn’t mail it. Probably he paid someone. Or just found someone willing to do it. He was good at getting people to do what he wanted, as you know.”
“But…” She was shaking her head. Her fingers were spread out flat on the sticky tabletop. “Why would he do that? Why bother to say he was anywhere?”
“Well,” O’Rourke said mildly, “you know, Minot’s less than an hour’s drive from the border. And I mean, you got a thousand miles of unprotected border up there, and an Indian reservation. Chippewa. Can’t be too hard to get someone to guide you across. It’s exactly where you’d go if you were trying to leave the country without anybody knowing about it. It’s where I’d go,” he said, as if this conferred authority.
“Obviously, he didn’t, though. Brazil,” she marveled. She was holding up the idea of him, one final time: walking alongside the frozen river in the city of Whitehorse, Yukon, Canada, past a restored arctic riverboat called Klondike that was now a museum, waiting for her to materialize. She realized that she had dressed him specifically for this fiction, to her own taste, in a thick flannel shirt and a woolen hat pulled down over his now long hair, and set him off on the trail, head down, hands in pockets, longing for her and looking for her. She couldn’t get over it.
“Why did he write me that letter?”
“Maybe just to fuck with you a little bit more,” O’Rourke said simply. “Some people, they just never want to lose an opportunity to fuck with you, just for the sake of it. That’s their thing, that’s what gets them going. I used to try to figure it out. Like: really, what’s in it for them? Now I just think…forget it. I’m never going to understand it. I just clean up after them.” He shrugged luxuriantly, as if he had all the time in the world to ponder this and life’s other mysteries. “But what am I telling you for? You’re the shrink.”
Right, thought Grace.
“You wrote the book about it. Right?”
No, she thought. That was somebody else entirely.
“Plus he got to fuck with us, too. That’s a lot of birds for one stone. We sent people out to Minot, and Whitehorse, too. We got the Mounties involved. They watched all the trails up there, and around the boat he described, and they looked at every rental since December, but there just wasn’t anything to find. Then we got a call through INTERPOL. It’s him in Brazil, no question. Mendoza went down a couple days ago to file a formal extradition request. It might not be quick, but they’ll send him back at the end of the day. Usually they only give us trouble if it’s a Brazilian national. We do have a treaty.”
He stopped.
“How you doing?”
“Just…” But she couldn’t finish. She shook her head.
“We wanted you to hear it from us. I’d say you’ve got one or two days before someone gets hold of it. Of course it could happen sooner. We just wanted to tell you ourselves. We appreciate that you tried to help us.”
She nodded. “He probably thought Rio’s such a big city, he could get lost.”
“No,” said O’Rourke. “Not Rio. He was in some place I never heard of, way up the Amazon, called Manaus. I might not be pronouncing it right. It’s Spanish, I guess.”
Or Portuguese, Grace thought, but she didn’t say that.
“Right in the middle of the rain forest. You can’t drive there. You got to fly in or take a ship. We think he was on a ship, but we’re not sure yet. Eventually we’ll put it all together. And how he got out of the States, obviously we’d like to know that. But right now we’re thinking ship. It’s a big port. Mendoza got there on Saturday. He called me this morning. He said there’s an opera house. Big pink opera house in the middle of the town, they shipped over from England in pieces like a hundred years ago. The guy’s beside himself.” He gave a small, vastly inappropriate laugh. “Mendoza loves the opera. It’s his big thing. Took me with him once, down to Lincoln Center when his wife wasn’t feeling well. Four of the most painful hours of my life.”
To her own amazement, Grace laughed, too.
“What was the opera?”
“God, I don’t remember. There was a horse on the stage. It didn’t help. But I have to say, you don’t expect an opera house in the middle of the Amazon.”
She sat back in her chair. Her head was so full. She thought almost longingly of the laundry and the packing, the comforting boxes waiting to be filled and sent away. She wished he would go.
“Fitzcarraldo,” Grace said. “It’s a movie about building an opera house in the Amazon jungle. I’ve heard this story before.”
“Fitz…?”
She spelled it for him, and he got out his pad and wrote it down. “I’ll tell him. He’ll want to see it.” He looked around the kitchen. “Looks like you’ve got a system.”
“Oh. Yes. Some boxes are going to Connecticut, but a lot of it’s going to Housing Works. I’m getting rid of pretty much everything. You have what you need, I assume?”
O’Rourke looked at her.
“Jonathan’s things? If there’s anything else you want, speak now.”
“No, we’re good. Of course, if anything turns up you think we should see…”
She nodded, but she had done enough. From now on, they were on their own.
“Well,” he said. He got to his feet. “I’ll go, then.”
She got up, too, relieved.
“Where’s your boy?” he said conversationally, walking back to the front door.
“With his grandparents. It’s his spring break from school.”
“Ah. I met your father. We talked to him back in December.”
“No,” said Grace. “His other grandparents. He’s out on Long Island with Jonathan’s parents.”
O’Rourke stopped and turned to her. “That’s…well, I’m surprised. When we talked to them, they said they never saw either of you.”
“We had dinner in New York last month. That seemed to go pretty well, so they invited him to stay for a couple of days. Henry wanted to go.”
He nodded. His neck, as always, was so erratically shaved that it looked patchy.
“That’s good. They’re good people. They went through a lot.”
We all went through a lot, she thought automatically. But what was the point of saying it?
She opened the door for him. He rang for the elevator.
Grace stood awkwardly in the half-opened door. It was a curious moment, for which she was unsure of the protocol. She had stood in this precise place on her own threshold ever since she could stand at all, waiting for the elevator to take her visitors away: playdates, babysitters, party guests. Long ago she had seen off her own boyfriends here, leaning into the vestibule to make out as long as possible before the elevator arrived. Ordinarily, you waited for your guest to be taken away and made small talk, but this was not ordinary, and she had no small talk to make with Detective O’Rourke. On the other hand, she couldn’t just close the door, either.
“Listen,” he said suddenly, “I’m going to kick myself tomorrow if I don’t say anything.”
She gripped the door frame, physically bracing herself. Like quicksilver, every possible permutation of “anything” raced through her, and none of it was welcome. Whatever he might kick himself tomorrow for not saying—be it accusation or thank-you or some sage wisdom about her circumstances—she didn’t want to hear it. But she didn’t want him coming back to say it, either.
“I know this family in Brownsville. Brooklyn?” He looked at her.
Grace frowned at him. “Okay.”
“Actually, I arrested one of the sons last year. But we realized he really was a good kid, just picked the wrong friends. And we misplaced the paperwork. Hey,” he said with a little laugh, “it happens.”
More lo
st than before, she just waited.
“Anyway, they’ve been in a shelter out there, but they got an apartment a few weeks ago. City apartment. You know, subsidized. Which is great. But they don’t have anything. They’re sleeping on the floor. I got to know the family, like I said. It’s a good family.”
Faintly, Grace could hear the elevator setting off from the lobby.
“I mean, you’re giving it all to Housing Works, and that’s great. I just thought, you know, if you wanted…”
“Oh.” At last, it got through. “Oh, right. Of course. Happy to. Whatever they want to take, it’s fine. There are beds, sheets, and towels. There are pots and pans.”
His face relaxed into an almost childlike happiness. He was transformed. He looked suddenly like a young man: young Officer O’Rourke. Just like that.
“It would be such a great thing for them. You can’t imagine.”
They quickly arranged for him to come back the day after next, with the father and two of the sons and a borrowed truck.
“They’re a good family,” O’Rourke said again. “Believe me, I’ve seen a lot of crappy families. This is a good family.”
“I’m sure,” said Grace. She no longer had any idea what a good family was, but she supposed he might. “You don’t misplace the paperwork for just anyone.”
“No.” He looked a little sheepish. “Hey. I wanted to tell you. We knew you didn’t know anything. After that first conversation, we were pretty sure. We felt bad for what we put you through. We knew you weren’t a bad person.”
Grace felt the heat flood into her cheeks. She nodded, but she didn’t look at him. “Just…picked the wrong friends, right?”
“Picked the wrong guy. It happens all the time.”
Don’t I know it, Grace thought. The elevator was close now.
Behind him, the gate creaked open and O’Rourke stepped back with a wave. Grace waited at the half-opened door until he was gone, but she didn’t go back inside right away. Instead she stood there, listening for the utterly familiar sequence of groans and clicks as the elevator made its descent, until at last she heard the far below scrape of the gate, releasing him to the lobby, and the rainy and dark midafternoon, and the street where she used to live.
Acknowledgments
Thank you to Phil Oraby and Ann Korelitz for their insights into matters therapeutical, and in particular into that sadly ubiquitous creature: homo sociopathicus. Their expertise, so generously shared, was invaluable. Thanks to Nina Korelitz Matza for her acute observations about New York private schools. I am grateful to Tim Muldoon for helping me with the modus operandi of New York detectives. Thank you, James Fenton, for allowing me to use your beautiful poem, “A German Requiem.” Deborah Michel, as always, is the best reader imaginable. I can’t adequately thank Suzanne Gluck, Deb Futter, Dianne Choie, Sonya Cheuse, Elizabeth Sheinkman, and Sarah Savitt for their belief in this novel.
More general appreciation goes to my family and friends, the shipboard community of Semester at Sea’s Spring 2012 voyage (on which much of this novel was written); and to Karen Kroner, Paul Weitz, Kerry Kohansky Roberts, Anna DeRoy, and Tina Fey, for reminding me that creative work is a conversation, even when you do it alone.
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Contents
Cover
Title Page
Welcome
Dedication
Part I: BeforeChapter One: You Just Know
Chapter Two: What’s Better Than Raising Children?
Chapter Three: Not My City
Chapter Four: Fatally Softhearted
Chapter Five: Access to the Quick of Things
Part II: DuringChapter Six: Not for Much Longer
Chapter Seven: A Bouquet of Useless Facts
Chapter Eight: Someone Has Just Sent Your Husband an E-mail
Chapter Nine: Who Listens?
Chapter Ten: Hospital Land
Chapter Eleven: Everything That Rises Must Converge
Chapter Twelve: Snap, Snap
Chapter Thirteen: The Spaces in Between the Houses
Chapter Fourteen: Rushing to Its End
Chapter Fifteen: To Search For and to Seize
Part III: AfterChapter Sixteen: The Foundress of the Feast
Chapter Seventeen: Suspension of Disbelief
Chapter Eighteen: Christmas in the Shtetl
Chapter Nineteen: The Great Mistake
Chapter Twenty: A Couple of Missing Fingers
Chapter Twenty-One: The Caboose
Chapter Twenty-Two: The First Thing They’ll Say About Me When I Leave the Room
Chapter Twenty-Three: The End of the World
Chapter Twenty-Four: Somebody Else Entirely
Acknowledgments
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