Saving Us

by Ashley Johnson

  Chapter 33

  Cory

  A month has passed since the last Blaine incident and nothing else has happened since. I’m not sure what the big guy meant when he said we wouldn’t be seeing him again, but I’m just glad he hasn’t shown his face again. Slowly, Sybil has started coming around again. Seeing him wasn’t easy for her and especially the way he did it. The semester is finally over and we have one left. Well, I still have grad school but that’s a different story. Sybil will begin student teaching this fall and she’s very excited. I’ve been helping her get things together but more than anything, I vow to give her a great summer before she starts. She’s finally graduating next semester and I want everything to be perfect for her. She deserves it.

  After the Blaine incident, she began taking self-defense classes. I fully supported her decision and helped sign her up. Every week she comes home and shows me what she learned. Several times, that’s lead to either me being hurt or us ending up in the bedroom. She’s hell on wheels and I love her for it.

  I do love her. I know it was inevitable, bound to happen at any time but I don’t want to scare her when I finally have her happy and where I want her. When the time is right, then she’ll know. Until then, I keep those feelings locked up tight.

  She left this morning for her class and out of habit, I decide to clean the apartment up. I open the refrigerator to grab a bottle of water and when the door closes, my eyes spot the picture of her. She’s laughing in the picture at this ridiculous couple at 80’s night a week ago. Her face was so priceless, I couldn’t help but snap the picture. She insisted I print it up and now it is magnetized to the fridge. My cock instantly hardens just seeing the picture, I can’t help what she does to me. My hand attempts to adjust myself but it just won’t have it.

  My eyes glance towards the clock. She shouldn’t be home for another few minutes. That gives me time to take care of this problem. I walk into the bathroom and turn the shower on, the water runs over me as my hand grabs onto my cock. Slowly I begin to stroke it while her face invades my mind. Stroking harder and harder, I begin to pant as my balls tighten and I explode all over the shower wall. The water continues to run over my body until I can’t take it anymore. Stepping out of the shower, I wrap a towel around my waist and there stands Sybil with her back to me. She’s setting a few things onto the bed, looks like maybe her clothes for after her shower. Her headphones are in her ears and she’s singing along to whatever it is she’s listening to. Her hips sway to the beat and damn here I am getting rock hard again.

  She turns and suddenly blushes seeing me standing and watching her with nothing but my towel and a smirk on my face.

  “You’re home early. What were you listening to? You were pretty into it.” I say with a half-smile.

  “Class let out a little early and I stopped by the cemetery for a minute. Glad I could be entertaining to you. What have you been doing?” she asks knowing full and well what I had to be doing.

  “Taking a shower, obviously, silly. What do you want to do today? It’s summer break. We can do whatever you want.” I say extending my arms out to show her the sky’s the limit. We can do whatever she wants. I would have liked to have gone to the cemetery with her but I fully understand that’s something she likes to do on her own from time to time. After the Blaine incident, she spent a while down there attempting to make her peace. Her poor heart is so battered and torn, I want to make it all better for her. If she wants to go to the waterpark, we can go. Hell, I’d even go shopping with her and I hate shopping.

  The towel begins to slip and before I can grab it, it slides down hitting the floor leaving me in all my glory. Her face blushes a little as she begins to laugh. I should probably be embarrassed or hurry to cover up but I don’t. Casually, I bend down to pick the towel off the ground. It’s not like we haven’t been intimate with one another, of course we have.

  She bends down at the same time and our eyes meet when our hands touch. The towel drops again and she takes in a deep breath. Her eyes are shining like the sun outside and a small smile forms on her lips.

  “Sorry,” she whispers. “I was just trying to help.”

  “Don’t be sorry. I should have held onto it better but then I didn’t think you’d be home so soon. I swear, I wasn’t trying to lure you in.”

  “You don’t have to lure me in,” she says. “You’ve already caught me.”

  Oh hell, she can’t just say things like that and expect me not to react. My lips crash into hers fiercely. Her arms wrap around my neck as the kiss slowly deepens, and in one swift step I’m standing with her legs wrapped around my waist. Gently, her body hits the mattress and the kiss breaks long enough for her to tug at the hem of her shirt. My eyes wander over her body as the shirt hits the floor, she is sheer perfection. Her chest rises and falls with every breath she takes and I know she is all I will ever want or need.

  “I want you Cory,” that’s all I need to hear and I’m suddenly an animal on the attack. With the flick of my wrist, her bra is gone and her breast is in my mouth. She moans as she reaches down to grasp me. Her hand begins to slide up and down bringing nothing but sheer pleasure. This is way better than myself alone in the shower.

  Tugging at the waist of her pants, she raises up to help remove them. My fingers dip below to feel her and I groan at how wet she is. “Is this all for me baby?” I ask.

  She can’t speak, she simply nods her head as her body responds to my touch. I need to be inside her now. I need to feel her. I roll over to grab a condom and she plants me on my back. She’s straddling me and it’s hot as hell. She leans forward, her hair splaying across my chest. She plants a soft kiss on my lips before trailing kisses down my chest. Fuck, what is she doing to me? Her mouth continues downward and I nearly come on myself when her lips wrap around the head of my cock. Moaning, I lie there as she takes me in her mouth. This feels fucking incredible and I’m trying not to blow my load just yet. She moans softly as she goes deeper continuing to suck. Her hand is pumping as she continues to bring me to ecstasy.

  “Sybil, oh fuck. I’m about to come.” I say through gritted teeth. Her mouth is purely magic and I feel like I’m in a whole other world. My hands find her head and I slightly grab ahold of her hair as she continues her assault on me.

  My balls tighten and I close my eyes as she drinks every ounce of me. My breathing is all over the place and I’m trying to get it together when she comes back up to straddle me again.

  Reaching into the nightstand, I grab a condom and slide it on. I take her by the hips and lower her onto my even more throbbing cock. The need to be inside her has now become a necessity. She tilts her head back moaning as every inch of me fills her. Slowly she moves up and down, her perfect breasts moving with her. My hand reaches up to grab ahold of them as I thrust into her. Her breathing begins to increase, I know she’s getting close. She increases her speed completely rocking my world and before she convulses around me, she calls my name out. Holy hell, I never thought my name could sound so damn good. Her body collapses onto mine and I kiss her head.

  “Damn, I don’t think I want to leave the apartment anymore now.” I say out of breath.

  “What, are you wore out?” she says equally out of breath.

  I laugh pulling her closer. “That was amazing.”

  “Yeah,” she says. “Being with you, it gets easier and easier.”

  My eyes shift towards hers and my head cocks to the side. “What do you mean, Syb?”

  “No, it’s nothing bad. I just, in the beginning after you know I lost Caleb and you lost Megan, I really thought you were just trying to use me because you were lonely.” She sees the expression on my face but continues, “Let me finish, Cory. I thought it was wrong at first, that we were ultimately betraying everyone but in reality we’ve found each other. We’ve saved each other from all the chaos that was taking us under. I never imagined in a million years I would this way around you. You make me feel safe and wanted and you take me as I am.”
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  Hearing her say all that brings a pleasant feeling to me. “I know things were never supposed to be like this. Life is fucked up, we both know that more than anyone. I wouldn’t want anyone but you around for me. There is no one for me but you.”

  “Really now? If anything I’d think that you were in—“ she stops.

  I know what she’s thinking but I’m glad she stopped. I’m not ready to have that conversation with her as much as I’d love to. Caleb hasn’t even been gone for a year yet. It’s close but not quite there. I never meant to fall so hard this fast but I am and I can’t stop it.

  ***

  Sybil

  I love my self-defense class. I love coming back and showing Cory what I’ve learned and I love even more when it ends up with us naked. Warm fuzzies invade my body any time Cory is around but I’m getting better at concealing it. If he’s going to want me, I want him to want me. Want me like he wants no one else, not want me because I’m all that’s there. If there were any question in my mind, those questions left after the last Blaine encounter. Cory has always been attentive to me, especially after Caleb’s death. He even showed more attention to the point Megan suspected and he told her how he felt towards me. My eyes have been opened though and I see it more now. I see how he looks at me, he treats me like I’m the best thing that’s ever walked the planet Earth. I felt my head get a little woozy when his towel fell, but dear God it was the most beautiful sight I’d ever seen.

  My body feels better than it ever has when he touches me. When he’s inside me, I lose all inhibitions and am no longer plagued by the fact that we possibly were once betraying our loved ones who aren’t even alive anymore. Should we have moved on this quickly? I don’t know. I think about that all the time but it is what it is.

  Lying beside him on the bed, I begin to tell him how being with him gets easier and easier. He listens attentively as I explain and he when he tells me he wants no one else but me, those warm fuzzies are back.

  “Really now? If anything I’d think you were in—“ and I stop. I almost said I’d think he was in love with me, but love is a word I couldn’t dare speak right now. I’m not sure if I can even say I love him. Sure, I feel amazing when I’m around him. He’s the best rock I could ever have to lean on but love is such a strong word. It’s a word I’ve only ever used with Caleb and I won’t say it until I know it’s just right.

  He looks at me and I wish to hell I could read his expression. His lips curve into a smile and I hold my breath wondering what he’s going to say.

  “You’d think what? I was deeply head over heels for you? Well believe it, because I am.”

  Whew, saved! I can definitely go along with this. My smile matches his as I lean forward to kiss him. “I’m head over heels for you too.”

  ***

  I miss having a girlfriend to talk to. I have no one to gripe to when my period is being a bitch or when Cory just does something stupid to agitate me. He doesn’t do it often, but it’s stupid things like leaving his dirty clothes in the middle of the floor. We rarely argue and it’s complete bliss. It’s been a week since the day we were supposed to get out of the house but stayed in because of his towel falling to the floor. The menstrual cramps are out of this world and my hormones have completely taken over my body. This is miserable. Nothing he says makes me feel better and I suddenly feel like everything makes me want to cry. It doesn’t help that I’m going through the pictures on my phone and there are pictures of Caleb and I and then ones with Megan. Fucking shit. I hate this. Just when it seems to get easier, I’m slapped in the face. It’s my fault though, I’m the one who decided to take a trip down memory lane.

  Without a care, I toss the phone onto the table. The contraption slides clear off the table hitting the floor with a thud. The one year anniversary of Caleb’s death is getting closer and I hate all the emotions that come with that. If I’m feeling this way now, I hate to see what happens when the time actually comes.

  “Whoa, you ok? Your phone just flew. It’s not broken or anything is it?”

  “Who gives a shit, Cory?” I say as I roll my eyes.

  “Hey, what did I say?” he asks softly. He tries to touch me but guilt that I haven’t felt in forever washes over me.

  “Cory, just stop please. I’m hormonal and I just, I want to be alone.”

  He throws his hands up in surrender. “Ok, I’m out of your way. Let me at least grab your phone for you.”

  I shudder as I think of the picture of Caleb that’s going to be on the screen. Cory frowns as he stares at his best friend and slowly sets my phone down. “You miss him, I know Sybil it’s ok.”

  “Yeah,” I scoff. “We think this is ok but what would he really think if he seriously knew you were fucking me? Do you realize he’s been almost gone a year?”

  “Excuse me? Wow, you are hormonal.” I shoot daggers at him and stalk off. “I wasn’t trying to upset you. If you weren’t ready to be with me, you should have said something. I told you I wasn’t trying to rush you, it wasn’t just me you know. And yes, I realize it every minute of every fucking day.”

  I turn to face him and point my finger. “We’re together? Funny, I didn’t remember you asking me to be your girlfriend. We’re just two people fucking each other trying to make sense in a fucked up world.”

  “I’m not arguing with you, Sybil. You think you’re just a fuck to me? If I wanted just a fuck I wouldn’t be here, I’d be out in the bars getting all the pussy I want. But I don’t want just any pussy, I want you and you damn well know that. Now you warned me you were hormonal and I should have just let it be. Sybil, we’ve come so far please don’t start shutting down on me.” he pleads.

  “I’m sorry Cor,” I suddenly say softly pulling a complete one eighty. “I had no right to say those things to you. I’m just lonely. I have no girl friends to talk to anymore and sometimes things just stay bottled up.”

  “Do you want this with me, Sybil? Do you want to be mine because I want to be yours but only if you want it.” He asks softly.

  “Cory, I know we’re technically together,” I begin.

  “Technically nothing. Do you want to officially be my girlfriend? By the way, I’m sorry this sounds so corny.”

  Laughter comes from me and I officially feel crazy. Not even a few minutes ago I was jumping down his throat and here I am close to happy tears. “I would love that Cory.”

  Before I can say or do anything else, he scoops me up and sets me on the table. “I’m glad that’s settled, girlfriend.”

  His lips lightly brush mine and just like that, I’m happy again. Damn hormones.

  Chapter 34

  Cory

  Caleb’s dad called me this morning and invited me to go fishing. This is something that Caleb and I always did in the summertime, so the gesture is appreciated more than he could ever imagine. Sybil decides she will go hang out with Caleb’s mom and the two of them will most likely end up buying out a few stores before the day is over with. She may have started out like a damn firecracker this morning, but the makeup sex was fucking incredible. Who knew being angry could lead to some of the best sex of my life?

  We walk outside after I securely lock the door. She climbs into the truck and as I pull out of the parking space, my hand reaches over and her fingers link with mine. She smiles the cutest damn smile I’ve ever seen and I thank my lucky stars for her.

  As we pull up to Caleb’s parents’ house, I notice her gaze shifts to the tree. She lets out a heavy breath as she climbs out of the truck. Like expected, she walks right up to the tree and runs her hand along the bark. The wind blows through her hair and she turns back and locks eyes with me. Gently, she smiles and makes her way back towards me. My hand extends out to hers and she takes it. Hand in hand we walk up to the front door.

  Lillian opens the door and smiles. “There you two are. Cory, he’s out back getting his poles and tackle together.”

  “Thanks Mrs. Thomas.” I say pulling her in for a hug. I give Sybil’s
hand a gentle squeeze as I lean forward to kiss her head. “Have fun today.”

  “I will, you too.” She says and I leave the two women to get ready to do what they do best.

  I round the corner of the house to see David wearing his fishing hat. He’s setting his poles in the bed of his truck and finalizing the preparations in his tackle box. He turns to see me walking up and smiles. “Hey son, ready to get out fished?”

  “Yes sir, although I hope you don’t mind when I catch more than you.” I smile shaking his hand.

  His grip is always firm yet tight. A handshake tells you a lot about a man. His handshake is genuine.

  “You enjoying the summer so far?” he asks.

  “Trying to. I have one more semester and then grad school. I know things are about to get heavy.”

  His eyes wander around before coming back to look at me. “You will do just fine and of course I hope you will still consider coming to the firm once you graduate. There will always be a spot for you.”

  I never doubted that, but I wasn’t going to bring it up. Hearing him say it brings a smile to my face. “Thank you sir, that means a lot to me.”

  “You’re a hard worker and no doubt in my mind, you’ll make a terrific lawyer.” He claps his hand on my shoulder and smiles. “Let’s get going, we have fish to catch. Maybe we can fry some up for our women when we get back.”

  Hearing him say our women feels odd. I know things with Sybil and I are great but we don’t exactly flaunt what we are around Caleb’s parents even though we have their blessing. Yeah, I’ve just asked her to be my girlfriend today but they knew we had a thing going.