by S. J. Dalton
Those four words changed everything
"Ne me quitee pas”.
Don’t leave me.
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Chapter 7 -Cody
CODY.
That girl she makes me want tobe a better person,her eyes will haunt me for as long as I live there like the ocean so clear that I could see into her soul falling flyingjust for her she's my blue .when she said she was leaving my heart felt like it was being ripped right out of my chest. The one girl I was actually falling for I've never felt like this before she makes me feel real like I can be the real me nobody else can see. she sucked me right in with every little thing that she dose ,like the way she bites her lip when she's thinking or the way she stares at me like she knows all my secrets. I can't leave her go because I will regret it for the rest of my life if I do. After three encounters with this little Irish girl she may have captured my heart. I can't let this pass I can't let her leave I have to stop her before it's too late.
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Home. Home. Home.
I’m going home I’m leaving California I should be excited but I’m not I’m miserable last night with Cody was I guess you could say.. Strange. He’s different to what I thought he would be I mean been famous and all. But no he’s not he’s perfect. But it was only a kiss we don’t have to complicate it right? oh what the hell am I thinking it was more way more but how can I feel like this I’ve only seen him three times .and kissed him once. He’s the reason I didn’t sleep last night I was up thinking if I’m doing the right thing by leaving. But then again what makes me think Cody would give an actual chance, he’s famous I’m ordinary. Just plain old me .I’m pulled out of my imagination by my flight been called out. I get out and grab my handbag ready to board I hand the flight attendant my ticket. But I don’t give it to her I’m walking away, away from my only way home or am I home? I explain to the customer services desk that I’ll need my bag back and he tells me that I can pick it up the following day. I’m outside the airport what the heck am I doing! I’ve $50 dollars left how do I plan to stay here on $50 firkin dollars I decide to walk the 15 minutes to the beach since I can’t afford to spend money on a cab .I decide to go get a latte in a little coffee shop called 'coffee haven ' on the beach cute name I thought . I stop as I walk towards the door and read the sign - part time staff wanted ASAP ask at counter for more info. that sign gave me hope I grab it and walk inside there’s an old woman standing behind the counter she smiles at me as she speaks '' hey doll I see u saw the sign'' she nods towards it in my hand . ‘‘Hi yes I have I’m really interested'' she asks me what I would like to drink I say a vanilla latte 'good choice' she reply’s she motions for me to sit down at a table. '' So dear where are you from?'' I’m from Ireland'' '' well aren’t you a long way from home'' yes ma’am am but I’m starting to think this could be my home .she nods like she understands. ‘Well ...can u start Monday?'' I look at her in shock '' you mean I got the job but...but I didn’t even do an interview '' she nods her head her grey hair moving as she does so.'' that was it my love, I have fate in you and you need a job and I need help I’m getting a little old to be running this place by myself'' I get up and grab her in a hug as I cry on her shoulder she pats my back and tells me it will work out for me. Somehow that woman called Lucy gave me hope, fate that maybe just maybe this is it for me. Here.at home.
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Chapter 8-not here
Cody.
She's gone. She’s’ not here. Where is she?
I’m in Ireland. And she’s not.
I got on my jet as soon as she left I wanted to beat her here to show her that I care .I wanted her to stay because I think she’s it for me . My imagination is running wild thinking about her, what happened to me though this girl has turned my world upside down and inside out. I met her parents Linda and David they are the most loving family I’ve ever seen Lily really looks like her mom. They knew who I was they said Lily told them about me. I wish I had a family like them hell I wish I had a family to begin with. It’s been a day and she's not here the only thing I can think of is she’s with a friend or she didn’t come home. On the second day I travel home to see if she stayed or me, for us for what we could have.
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Lily.
I’ve been to Cody’s house but nobody was there where could he be gone. I stayed for him and now he’s not even here smart move Lily. But on the upside I got a job which means I can stay here for college I’m so happy I decide to call my mom since I’ve like 20 missed calls from here but I just wasn’t in the mood to talk to anyone I needed to think'' hi mom how are you?'' Lily!! you’re ok thank god I was so worried about you you flight was meant to come in last night but you weren’t on it and then the boy Cody you were telling me about showed up at our door looking for you!'' hold on a sec mom, you mean Cody was in Ireland?'' yes honey that poor boy came looking for you he was a mess I called you like 20 times to tell you'' my world stops. he came for me.'' oh my god mom I’m so sorry I didn’t pick up I just had a lot to think about and I got a job yesterday and I couldn’t leave Cody '' '' I know Hun I knew the second he knocked that you stayed.'' where is he now?'' he’s on his way back to California he went on his jet so he should be there in the next half hour '' thanks mom I got to go catch him before it’s too late'' go get him dear love you'' love you too ill call later’ ‘bye ''goodbye''.
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Chapter 9-let’s start again
I have no bloody idea where a private jet lands, I mean is it the airport or a private one that no one knows about I’ve no idea. Since I’ve no clue I decide on heading to Cody’s home and waiting there is my best option so I can see him face to face and explain what happened. Okay. It’s been 20 minutes and there is still no sign of him where the heck is he! He certainly didn’t go in or out because I’m sitting right outside his gate entrance …hang on a sec... Did that camera just move or was it just me it turns again and I jump up as if I’ve been stung by a bee or something. I walk over to where the camera is placed on the pillar next to the gate I look into the lenses don’t ask me why but I do, I start messing with it poking and moving it so see if anything happens ok it’s not just seeing things its moving right in front of me ! I stand back and the camera moves to face me what the actual fuck. the gates start to open okay this is some crazy shit someone is in there and I know I wasn’t seeing things .that’s when I see him walking towards me my word stops like literally it’s like seeing him for the first time again, I’m running, I’m in his arms, I’m been swung around, my legs are around his waist I’m with Cody my Cody. ’You stayed’’ he says so softly I barely here him. ’For you, I’m home’’ I whisper back. He grabs my face and kisses me with everything maybe this is right him,me,us,this now he pulls back and looks into my eyes I hear him say ‘’blue ‘’under his breathe.
‘’ne me quitee pas’’
I smile with a knowing smile.
‘’je suis a toi’’
I am yours.
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Chapter 10-right here right now.
4 days later
It’s been 4 days since I last saw Cody and decided on staying here it was my best hope for my future and it has been the best few days of my life I got to spend it with Cody, I even started my new job witch I love . I’ve been staying at my hotel still as I want to have something that’s mine you know... I don’t want to depend on him for everything I’m not like that I’m independent I’m me. He’s on tour at the moment for a week in los anlages California he asked me to go too but I don’t think that’s the life for me I don’t get being famous it’s stupid and it’s all about money . I even use a pen name when I write that’s how much I don’t want people to know about me or my personal life because with fame you don’t have that I’ve seen it with Cody he can’t even walk to the supermarket or been a normal adult and live his life the way he wants it’s all set out for him his whole life. Towards me I don’t know what I want in life all I know is I want to be a writer and have Cody by my side is that so
much to ask for ?. I’m off work until Monday and today is only Friday and I’m bored off my head already what am I meant to do in a bloody hotel room on my own NOTING. I jump off my bed and root threw my stuff until I find my fortune cards I’ve missed these and maybe they might answer some of my questions like… is staying here right for me? Is Cody right for me? Will I get into college etc.? I shuffle them and then choose my nine cards I turn them over one by one. They say that I have a new love in my life witch I do … I also have money coming and a new home, my new jobs also shows up and there is a health scare I think about all my cards in my head and read the definitions to be clear, yep an health scare I’m not sick so I don’t know what that’s about yet maybe it’s noting maybe it’s something who knows… but for these cards to actually work you need to believe in them and use your mind and choose them write usually my cards are right I mean everything in my last reading is happening right now so maybe this health scare is to come and it didn’t happen yet but it’s there either way and I always trust these cards there like my guide in life I should lead right here right now. I open my laptop and begin writing.
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Chapter 11-just breathe.
I love the sound of a keypad typing it means I’m writing something that means everything, straight from my mind it’s a relief to get things typed down.
‘’Breathe in
Breathe out
Just breathe
And let it all out.’’
That’s my motto for writing I always say it over and over when I’m writing it helps me for some reason I guess it just lets my mind run free just listing to myself breathe and nothing else in complete silence.
At the end of the day life is always about steps just take those steps and move forward not backwards your noting going that way.
Did you ever get into one of those trances and you just keep writing you just can’t seem stop even though you haven’t a clue what you writing about well yeah I just had one of those on this day since I’ve been alone it’s all I’ve done was write which is a good thing because I’ve been blocked the past couple of weeks. Maybe it’s because Cody is on tour and I’ve had alone time with this document either way I’m thrilled I’m over it I shut down my laptop after writing a few chapters as it was all I could seem to get out maybe tomorrow I will find inspiration to help me write more.I roll out of bed the next morning in search to find more inspiration for my next chapter. I take a quick shower and throw on a simple pair of jeans and a t-shirt I let my hair air dry even though it will just go into a big head of waves, I grab my laptop, keys and a bikini just in case then head out the door. I decide to sit on the beach as the sun is shining I take in the fresh air and my surroundings I look at the kids swimming in the sea so carefree while their parents are like lifeguard’s watching them can’t say I wouldn’t blame them. The water is clear blue today and it looks to good glistening in the sun I decide to change into my bikini and take a swim I walk slowly towards the sea feeling the sand between my toes it reminds me of home the beach I used to always go to the beach when I was blocked I don’t know why I didn’t think of it better later then never I suppose. I feel the water at my toes now and it’s so refreshing I savor it for a few seconds then I dive into the water its cold at first and I get a shiver down my spine but then it turns into complete bliss I’m lost in my thoughts until I feel strong hands around my waist I close my eyes and get a lump in my throat I want to cry tears of happiness as he kisses my neck he’s home finally. ’’Surprise’’ he mummers into my ear. I turn around to face him and he’s already looking at me with a big shit eating grin I laugh out loud and wrap my legs around his waist I’ve always wanted to be like this in the water wrapped around someone like people from movies. ’’Hey you ‘’I poke him. ’my last couple of shows were cancelled and I came straight back not that I could stay away from this much longer’’ I hide my smile’’hmm are you trying to say that you missed me? ’No I’m telling you that I’ve missed you’’ ‘’ well I missed you too’’ I look into his perfect eyes I see the truth in them and I know at that moment that he’s telling the truth. ‘’you’re like a wildflower out here just looking to be found’ ’he presses his lips to mine and I replay that sentence in my head again and again he really is unflawed. ’You found me’’ ‘’I guess I’m a lucky guy then’ .I think coming out here today was a success I sure got the inspiration I needed and a hell of a lot more I got Cody. After we get out of the water we dry off and head to my hotel room I take another shower and Cody does too. I lie on my bed and open my laptop and begin writing about today and what I learned Cody slides into bed with me it’s weird when his body guards aren’t around because right now he’s just like a normal 21 year old guy. ’’What are you writing about’’ he asks. I look at him a smile happy that he wants to know what I’m doing ‘’I’m writing about today about you’. This catches his attention because he sits up ‘’ oh really now you’re writing about me?’’ ‘’ya I mean I want to write a book someday so I write down everything that inspires me and I guess that’s you’’. He looks at me and then at my laptop and shuts it down he gets up and puts it on my night stand he comes back and slides into bed I roll my eyes at him and bite my lip ‘’ don’t roll those beautiful eyes ‘’he says and his voice is husky and smooth , it shuts out the bedside lamp and pulls me into the curve of his body I look up at him as he holds me studying his face he has a little freckle under his left eye that I never noticed ,he has the longest eyelashes I’ve ever seen on a guy before ‘’why are you looking at me like that?’’ he asks ‘’I’m painting a picture of you in my head so I can remember this moment’’ ‘’well let me paint one back’’ I smile and shake my head. After around 10 minutes of been stared at he looks me in the eye ‘’you *kiss*are*kiss*perfect*kiss’’.
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Chapter 12- her
Cody.
Remember tonight for it is the beginning of always
-Dante
She’s like a breath of fresh air to me.
I didn’t want to stop staring at her she’s lying in my arms right now I’m in awe with her, I remember every little detail about her face like the way she has freckles scattered across her nose I love those. Or the way her bottom lip is slightly bigger than the top but they are the most fascinating lips I’ve ever came across with another little freckle sitting above her top lip. And those eyes my favorite they sucked me right in it was like she knew all me secrets while looking at me they are the bluest I’ve ever seen but they always look sad like puppy eyes but that’s why I call her blue I guess because blue is a sad color but yet so bright. I suck in a breath as she touches my lip while biting hers damn she drives me crazy when she does that. I pull her closer not that there’s much closer she can come I kiss her hard thinking of all the things I could do with her right now. but tonight’s not that night and she’s to special I want it to be perfect just like her .she falls asleep in my arms and I watch her and whisper ‘’how did we get here blue’’. I hold her tight as I drift off to sleep thinking how did I get here, how did I get so lucky with her and how will I keep her.
