In Want of a Wife

by Jo Goodman

  “No, they wouldn’t. You have a reputation.”

  “I know,” she said, leaning her shoulder into him. “Sometimes it is difficult to know whether to laugh or to be dismayed.”

  “As long as you know you did right.”

  She nodded. Sometimes she wondered if she could have done anything differently, but she never thought she had done wrong. “I was very careful not to be seen with a knife in my hand today. That’s why I asked Jenny Phillips to cut the pies and Mrs. Sterling to slice all the cakes.”

  “I noticed, but I doubt anyone else did.”

  She patted his thigh. “You are still a terrible liar. You do much better omitting facts than offering ones that you know to be false.”

  “I thought you didn’t like that.”

  “Well, I don’t, but I suppose it is better than an outright lie.”

  “All right.”

  “All right? Just like that?”

  “Yes.” He started to gently move the swing. “Just like that.”

  Jane lifted Morgan’s arm and ducked under it so that it covered her shoulders like a shawl.

  “Are you cold? Should we go in?”

  “What I am is replete,” she said. “I do not want to move.”

  Morgan had no objection to that. In time, he felt her head grow heavier and knew she had fallen asleep. He bent, pressed his lips to her hair, and then laid his cheek against it. She did not stir, and he thought that was as it should be. She had earned this rest, as had he.

  The quiet in her settled in his heart. In these moments, the peace that had eluded him all of his life became what she was, his companion. He walked with his past at his side now. He walked with her.

  With Jane, all things were possible.

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  Chapter One

  Bitter Springs, Wyoming Territory

  Lorraine Berry wondered about the man arriving today. Allowing her thoughts to drift into the great unknown of possibilities and unforeseen consequences was as close to daydreaming as she ever got. The work facing her was considerable, and she was too practical to stray from it for long. Besides, she had deliberated at length, sometimes out loud, and she had done it for weeks before she began the correspondence with the gun for hire.

  It had been a risk writing to him, but at the time it seemed that not writing was the greater risk. It troubled her that she no longer had the same firm sense that she’d made the better choice. Of course, it could be that if she’d done nothing, she would still be plagued by niggling doubt, and then she would have lost the opportunity to hire him. In spite of the fact that she answered his notice, Raine could not imagine that a man with his specialized talent was ever without work for long. In fact, Raine had supplied more information about her circumstances than he revealed about his own. Somehow this made her feel more comfortable about the arrangement, as though he were choosing her, not the other way around, and that he could be better trusted because of it.

  It was not until his last letter that she learned who he was, and then because she requested it. He never signed his previous correspondence, so it showed a certain amount of confidence in her when he finally shared his name.

  Best regards, Nat Church.

  Raine looked up from arranging bottles behind the mahogany bar and caught her reflection in the gilt-framed mirror. Her wry smile was mocking, which was exactly as it should be. Nat Church? She might have ended their arrangement if he had penned that at the outset.

  It wasn’t that she believed it was his real name; it merely troubled her because it demonstrated a singular lack of imagination. Now if he had signed his name as Aaron Burr or John Wilkes Booth, that would have hinted at wit, however dark and ghoulish.

  Raine’s self-mocking smile deepened as she addressed her reflection. “You are most assuredly twisted, Raine Berry.” She raised a hand to her hair. “Look at you. When exactly was it that the cat dragged you over the backyard fence?” One of her tortoiseshell combs had lost its moorings and was no longer serving the intended purpose of keeping her hair close to her head. When she was still a young girl and knew every sort of thing was possible, she held fast to the notion that her dreadful carroty curls could be tamed. As a woman full grown, she knew better and accepted as marginal consolation that sometime between four and twenty-four the color of her hair had darkened from carrot to copper.

  Raine licked her fingers, smoothed back the strands trying to stand at attention, and anchored the comb so it was positioned on a symmetrical plane to its twin. In the event there was still more wrong in places she couldn’t easily see, she felt for the coil near the crown of her head and rearranged a few pins to keep it in place. When she was satisfied that she had done the best she could with what she had, she nodded once at the mirror so her reflection could confirm it.

  Raine turned away from straightening the bottles and picked up a broom before the mirror became a bigger distraction than the impending arrival of Nat Church. She swept behind the bar and was starting to make a pass under the tables when Walter Mangold walked in from the storeroom at the back. She was glad he didn’t know how to tread lightly; otherwise his sudden appearance might have had her diving for cover.

  Walt rested his large hands on his waist, his arms akimbo, and scolded Raine in a baritone so deep and dulcet that no sting could be attached to it. “Now, stop that, Mrs. Berry. Give me the broom. On no account should you be doing my work just because you can.”

  Raine didn’t think about arguing. She held out the broom. Walt was her hardest worker, and what he lacked in quick-wittedness, he compensated for in size, strength, and steadiness. He was also loyal. While there was a certain amount of charm in his devotion to her, Raine also felt a responsibility to do right by him. There were plenty of people in town who looked out for Walt, but there were always a few who considered it a fine joke to make him the butt of one. Before she and Adam took over the Pennyroyal, Walt mostly worked for the Burdicks, and that family had a way of using a body that had nothing to do with useful. The passing recollection of the way they had treated Walt was enough to set Raine’s teeth on edge.

  “Goodness, but you got yourself riled up about something,” Walt said. “There’s color creeping up your neck.”

  Raine wished she still had the broom so she could make a playful jab at him with it. Instead, she immediately raised a hand to the hollow of her throat. She didn’t know whether she really felt the heat or only imagined it, but she knew Walt was right about the color. She could school her fine features into an expressionless mask, but it usually served no purpose when her pale skin flushed pink with so little provocation.

  “You think I’m riled now? Just stand there talking to me when you should be sweeping and I’ll show you riled.”

  Walt grinned, flashing teeth almost as big as his fingernails, before he ducked his head and set to work.

  Raine got out of his way. She started to pick up a rag to polish the brass rail at the bar, thought better of it, and retreated from the saloon in favor of the hotel’s dining room. Three overnight guests were already seated, the older married couple from Springfield at one table and the liquor salesman from Chicago at the other. Town regulars who enjoyed the company and coffee at the Pennyroyal occupied two more tables. Raine greeted everyone by name before she disappeared into the kitchen.

  Mrs. Sterling promptly told her to get out.

  “You’re going to get underfoot,” the cook said flatly. “You always do. And Emily will take her orders from you instead of me, and sure as God made little green apples, the next thing you know I’ll be burning Mr. Wheeler’s toast and scrambling Jack Clifton’s eggs instead of turning them over real easy like.” And in the event Raine had a conveniently forgetful memory, Mrs. Sterling reminded her, “It’s happened before.”

  Raine stayed where she was just inside the door. To further placate her cook, she kept her pa
lms flat against the raised oak panels. “I thought I might get my own breakfast,” she said. “I haven’t had anything to eat since yesterday’s lunch.”

  Mrs. Sterling evinced no sympathy. She used one corner of her apron to swipe at the beads of perspiration outlining her widow’s peak before she returned to flipping hotcakes on the griddle. “Whose fault is that? That’s what I would like to know.”

  “It’s mine,” Raine said. She stepped aside to let Emily pass into the dining room with a pot of coffee and a platter of hotcakes. She tried to catch the girl’s eye, but under Mrs. Sterling’s more predatory one, Emily was having none of it. The fair-haired Emily slipped past Raine with otherworldly efficiency, like a wraith in a Gothic novel. Raine was left to inhale sharply as the cakes went by and hope the aroma clung to her nostrils until Mrs. Sterling invited her in.

  “Did you say something, dear?” Mrs. Sterling asked. “Because I thought I heard you say something.”

  Raine knew the cook had heard her perfectly well, but she answered just the same. “I said it is my fault.”

  Mrs. Sterling nodded briskly. “Always good to have that out of the way. Now, why don’t you go up to your room, have a little bit of a lie-in, and I’ll send Emily up with a plate of everything once I attend to the guests and the regulars?”

  “The regulars are also our guests,” Raine said.

  “If you say so.”

  Raine smiled. “I always do.” Mrs. Sterling had known Howard Wheeler and Jack Clifton since they worked beside her husband laying rails back in ’67. She knew the other regulars just about as well. If they were visitors in her own home, which they hadn’t been since Mr. Sterling was shot dead, then she would have called them guests. What she thought of them now, she’d told Raine, lacked Christian sentiment and did not bear repeating, so she was a better woman for just calling them regulars.

  Raine watched Mrs. Sterling carefully tend to Mr. Clifton’s eggs. Her smile deepened. In spite of the unchristian sentiments the cook insisted she harbored, she never broke one of Jack Clifton’s eggs if she could help it and to Raine’s knowledge she had never tried to poison anyone.

  “Why do you think I should have a little bit of a lie-in?”

  “Do I need to say it?”

  “Apparently so.”

  Mrs. Sterling stopped what she was doing long enough to remove her spectacles from their perch above her forehead and place them on the rather pronounced bridge of her nose. It was all for effect because she stared at Raine over the top of the gold-plated rims. “Those bags under your eyes are so big that Rabbit and Finn would refuse to carry them, and you know those two would rather throw themselves in front of a moving train than admit there’s something they can’t do. Is that plain enough for you?”

  Raine blinked. “Yes,” she said when she found her voice. “It is.”

  “Well, you had to make me go and say it.”

  “Again, my fault. Perhaps the next time you’ll simply tell me that I look tired.”

  “Mr. Sterling was always trying to put words in my mouth. It didn’t work for him. I don’t expect that it will work for you.”

  Sighing, Raine gingerly pressed her fingertips to the underside of her eyes. The skin didn’t feel puffy, so the reference to bags was an exaggeration, but during her earlier conversation in front of the mirror, she’d glimpsed the same faint shadows that drew Mrs. Sterling’s notice.

  “I was late going to bed. The saloon was crowded last night.”

  “I’ve said it before, but it bears repeating. You’re the owner, not the entertainment.”

  “I was behind the bar all evening.”

  “Pouring drinks with a smile and a kind word for everybody.”

  “I like to think it reminds them they’re gentlemen, and it helps keep tables and chairs in place and the mirror in one piece.”

  Mrs. Sterling pushed her spectacles back above her salt-and-pepper widow’s peak. She gave Raine a hard look, nothing feigned about it. “Were the Burdicks here?”

  Raine shook her head. “No. No, they weren’t.”

  The cook’s shoulders had drawn together, tension pulling them taut. Now they relaxed. She began to plate eggs, steak, and fried potatoes. “You’d tell me, wouldn’t you?”

  “Of course I would.”

  “Hmm. That’s because you know I’d hear about it.”

  “I’d tell you because you deserve to know. The same as I do. And there are others, you know, besides us.”

  Mrs. Sterling nodded. “I’m not afraid for myself. They did their worst by me already, taking my husband the way they did, but I can’t help fearing for you and the others.” She picked up Jack Clifton’s plate and gave it a little shake. “I don’t know what makes this man think he needs to stay around when he knows he could end up no better than my Benton.” She raised the plate she’d made for Howard Wheeler and thrust it in Raine’s direction. “And this man has about as much sense as a bag of hair or he would be on the next train to somewhere else.”

  “That didn’t work for John Hood,” Raine said quietly. “The Burdicks found him.”

  “I think it scares folks to say so out loud,” said Mrs. Sterling. She returned both plates to the tray and looked past Raine to the door. Her voice crackled with her rising agitation. “Where’s that girl gone to? Look in the dining room and see if she’s wiping up something she spilled or flirting with Mr. Weyman.”

  Raine opened the door wide enough to catch Emily Ransom’s eye when the girl stopped giggling at something the whiskey drummer from Chicago had said. She crooked her finger and gently closed the door, then moved out of the way until Emily pushed through. Mrs. Sterling gave over the tray and shooed the girl out again.

  “I say it out loud,” Raine said, picking up the thread of their conversation. “And Hank Thompson’s been gone almost a year and no one in Bitter Springs has heard from him. He had friends. There should have been a letter by now. One to his mother, at least.”

  “That could mean anything. Maybe Agnes got one and isn’t saying. She could be trying to protect him.”

  “You’ve known Agnes Thompson all your life. She can’t keep a secret. No one’s heard from him because he’s dead.”

  Mrs. Sterling twisted her apron in her hands. “I don’t like this talk.”

  “I know.”

  The cook hesitated. The question was drawn from her reluctantly. “You really think Hank’s dead?”

  Raine briefly closed her eyes. “I’m afraid so, yes.”

  “If it’s true, it’s not your fault.”

  “I appreciate you saying so, but I know differently.”

  “It’s not your fault,” Mrs. Sterling repeated. The steel was back in her voice. “I think I’ve proven I know how to assign blame when it’s warranted. And it’s not, not about this. I don’t hold you responsible for my Benton’s death. He knew what he was about, and he wanted to do the right thing. He was proud to stand up, and I was proud of him for doing it. Still am proud. You diminish his courage by thinking you pressed him to do something against his will.”

  Raine nodded, willing to be convinced for now because it was important to Mrs. Sterling. “Maybe that’s what Mr. Clifton and Mr. Wheeler are doing. Standing up.”

  “They did that. Now they’re just standing around, and that’s plain foolish. It’s hard to be proud of fools.”

  Raine understood that Mrs. Sterling was determined to have the last word. It was wiser to change the subject and hope for the best. She yawned as if she meant it. “I suppose I’ll have that bit of a lie-in after all.”

  “There’s a girl.” She added some water to the pitcher of hotcake batter and gave it a stir. “Give me a minute and you can take a couple of these with you.”

  Raine waited the requisite minute and a few additional ones so the cook could add an egg and a palm-sized serving of steak. Balancing her plate and a cup of hot coffee in one hand, she lifted her skirt with the other and took the stairs at the back of the hotel to reach her rooms o
n the third floor.

  She had all the space she needed for herself on the uppermost floor of the Pennyroyal. Sometimes it was too much. She could find herself wandering from room to room, recalling that when Adam and Ellen were still with her, she had complained the apartment was too small for the three of them. It was a miserable memory, and she did her best to avoid tripping over it.

  Raine used a forearm to clear a space for her breakfast on the writing table in her office. A couple of sheets of paper fluttered to the floor and she let them lie. Sitting down, she pulled out the fork she had squirreled away under her sleeve and cut into the hotcakes. Her stomach rumbled as she lifted two thick slices of molasses-soaked cakes. Just in time, she thought, and stuffed the double helping into her mouth.

  She couldn’t eat everything Mrs. Sterling gave her, but she had a taste of all of it, and when she pushed out her belly, her stays pushed back. She turned her chair away from the desk and inched it toward the window. The Pennyroyal was the tallest building in Bitter Springs, taller even than the spire on Grace Church, and the view from Raine’s office took in the storefronts of half a dozen businesses on the opposite side of the street. Beyond that she could make out the rooftop of the parsonage, where Pastor Robbins and his family lived, Mrs. Garvin’s attic window, and if she tilted her head at just the right angle, she could see between the false fronts of the mercantile and the drugstore all the way to the privy in Mr. Webb’s backyard. It always made her smile to think that a self-important man like Mr. Webb traipsed to an outhouse when her hotel had all the latest amenities including hot and cold running water and porcelain pots in every bathing room, which meant her guests did not have to visit the privy. After Adam had installed the water tank and boiler, the hotel was booked for eight weeks with townspeople who paid to spend a night just to open a faucet and wash their hands and face with hot water. Some even took a bath. Mr. Webb was not among the guests. The Burdicks surely would have insisted that the banker stay away. They controlled the bank; therefore, the banker.