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Flight: New and Selected Poems

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by Linda Bierds


  and hive doors. She opens her jacket and soft liner.

  The bees, in their perfect circle, still.

  Nancy Hanks Lincoln in Autumn: 1818

  Thirst. And the slow pains of the stomach.

  Her heart gives the sound of an oar through water, blunt

  and diminishing, or the slipping of hooves over oak roots.

  No window in view, yet the door near her bed

  frames the nut trees and sycamores, the cows

  folded down in a clearing. Like an alchemist’s mark

  for infinity—loop beside loop, horizontal eight—

  each body curls back to itself: shoulder arched, neck dipped,

  head

  stretched back to rest on a circle of hip.

  Their milk will kill her, their journeys down game paths

  to the white, forest blossoms of snake-root.

  Bud high with poison, the vine plants rushed,

  muzzle, to milk vein, to udder, to a thirst

  whose final magnification seems a form of mockery.

  An ax claps somewhere to her left. The table

  with its belly of puncheon casts the shadow of a ferry,

  as if the floor were again the flat Ohio,

  Kentucky behind, Indiana just ahead in a chaos of trees.

  Someone coughed then, she remembers. Sharp coughs,

  skittering. Someone sang of the journey the soul

  must make, little boat over water. Their home

  took the color of chestnuts. She read aloud

  from the fables of Aesop: foxes and eagles. The crow

  and the pitcher—its water out of reach,

  just off from the tongue, his beak at the rim

  like ax strokes. To her left they are chopping,

  then whittling a clearing with fire. They are stacking

  ripped vines, saplings, and underbrush

  like a plump wreath at the base of a sycamore.

  It will burn in an arc-shaped heart, huge

  and magnificent, dark veins of heat

  ripping off at the edges. Will the birds break again then,

  out from the trees? The passenger pigeons and parakeets

  lift as they have in a thick unit, their thousand bodies

  dragging the shadow of a wide pond

  down over the game paths, down over the oak trees

  and cattle, the doorframe, bedposts, cupped hands,

  bellows, the cheese in its muslin napkin?

  Until shape after darkened shape floats in a wash of air?

  Thirst. Braiding every thought back to an absence.

  She drinks from her cup. Drinks again. On a hillside

  the children are laughing, called out from their sorrow

  by the spectacle of flames. Or by birds

  in a sudden jumble, perhaps. Or the placid cows

  catching handkerchiefs of ash on their broad faces.

  How simply two circles can yield to each other,

  curl back to each other without ending:

  raised shoulder, a dipping, raised hip.

  The path an oar makes in water, in air, then in water.

  Träumerei

  All I have done in music seems a dream

  I can almost imagine to have been real.

  ROBERT SCHUMANN, 1810-1856

  Perhaps this, then: the holystone licks

  of the winter Rhine. A cleansing.

  A scouring away. Anything to free him

  from the constant filling.

  Weeping, in slippers and dark robe, maddened

  by phantom voices, music,

  he walks from his house with

  the tentative half-steps of a pheasant.

  A little rain collects on his robe hem,

  and street meal, the cubiform dust-chips

  of cobblestones. He has carried no coin purse

  and offers to the bridge guard

  a silk face cloth, then the image

  of a man in bedclothes, in the quarter-arc of flight

  from raining to river.

  There is wind—upward—

  and the parallel slaps of his slippers.

  With the abrupt closure of a trumpet mute

  his heart stops. Then the music, voices. Water

  has flushed through his robe sleeves, and

  the thin, peppered trenches

  between groin and thigh.

  He will surface

  as an opal surfaces: one

  round-shouldered curve of brocade in the wave-chop.

  Then his heart kicking back.

  And the oarlocks of rowers who are

  dipping to save him?

  A-notes and A-notes—perfect—in unison.

  What else but to starve?

  The starched coats of asylum guards

  give a fife’s chirrups. They are joined by

  tintinnabulum, chorus, and oboe

  on his brief walks to the ice baths.

  At the first flat shocks and frigid clearings

  he smiles, murmurs

  that his madness is at least his love,

  distorted, of course, pervasive, but still …

  aural. A music. The trees

  by the fenceline fill, release. One year,

  two. He follows halfway, taking

  into the self the quarter-notes of

  footsteps, the cacophony of laughter, wagons, doors,

  the hums of the candle-snuff.

  Writing stops, then speech. No word,

  no flagged dot on its spidery stave

  to diminish the filling. What else but

  to turn from all food, to decrease from without

  like the August peaches? To take at the last

  the fine, unwavering balance

  of an arc—heart and perimeter—

  a cup where all sound resonates? …

  A bell has fallen in Moscow, he once wrote,

  so huge it carried its belfry to the ground.

  And into the ground. The bell lip

  and shoulder boring deep in the earth. Then

  a cross-rip of belfry. Then, through

  the stark reversal of summer grasses,

  four pale steps leading down.

  The Grandsire Bells

  At first quick glance and lingering second,

  the five, sludge-smeared miners on the roadway—

  through this pre-morning light, with their shock

  of canary in its braided cage—

  might have seemed to the five ringers approaching

  like a portrait of memory, like the sway

  and blear of themselves in memory: the bend

  of bootsoles in the myrtle grass, black

  caps, yellow lantern flame, the knapsack stings

  of rhubarb and mildew. And the village

  below, coal fires granting to the fresh day

  plumes in the fashion of cypresses—base knot,

  stalk, the splintering crown-tip—a kind

  of memory also, as the ringers trudged

  up the hillside, past the miners and smoke strings,

  past the fluted iron churchyard fence, the dollops

  of marble headstones. Then into the breezeway,

  where belfry steps accepted the trudge,

  and the bells, above, waited. Five. In a blend

  of copper and tin, each shouldered the hub ring

  of a great wheel, the bell ropes lashed to spokes

  and threaded, the soft-tufted cordage

  dangling down to the ringers like a spray

  of air roots. With the motion of climbing

  the treble was cocked, pulled up to suspend

  ■ ■ ■

  at the balance point, waist and mouth-edge

  inverted, hovering. Then the others cocked,

  turned up, each ton of fish scale-glistening

  arc at rest of a pin-tip of stay.

  And toppled. One after one, treble, second,

  third, fourth, tenor, topple
d. Quick pump and

  spillage,

  like heartbeats. Again, the ringers releasing

  the strike and hum notes, handstroke to backstroke,

  the bells pulled up, up, the snapping ropes wound

  up, tail tufts and sally-grips in the jig-play

  of dancers. All morning, the swinging

  treble wound through its hunt path, a nudge

  into second ring, third, fourth, and the second

  replacing the tenor bell, and the third knocked

  into lead. In the village the day

  was a braiding of change-rings, notes swelling,

  fading, as the bells turned. In the bracken

  and mine shafts. In the foundry, when the forge

  bellows hushed and the furnace tapway

  spilled a rush of smoking bronze down bricklined troughs in the earth floor. Bell notes. When

  bronze curled down through buried bell molds, cut

  half-rings

  in the earth, cut bell shapes. When the cupped clay

  flared and stiffened. Bell notes. Change upon change.

  Then ending. Ending. In an instant, closing back

  in their first order. All ringers for that second

  claiming past, present, like walkers on a roadway:

  in the half-light of morning, one shock

  of canary in a braided cage,

  one curve of lantern flame approaching.

  FROM The Ghost Trio (1994)

  The Winter: 1748

  Erasmus Darwin, 1731-1802

  A little satin like wind at the door.

  My mother slips past in great side hoops,

  arced like the ears of elephants—

  on her head a goat-white wig,

  on her cheek a dollop of mole.

  She has entered the evening, and I

  her room with its hazel light.

  Where her wig had rested is a leather head,

  a stand, perfect in its shadow but

  carrying in fact, where the face should be,

  a swath of door. It cups

  in its skull-curved closure

  clay hair stays, a pouch of wig talc

  that snows at random and lends to the table

  a neck-shaped ring.

  When I reach inside I am frosted,

  my hand like a pond in winter, pale

  fingers below of leaves or carp.

  I have studied a painting from Holland,

  where a village adjourns to a frozen river.

  Skaters and sleighs, of course, but

  ale tents, the musk of chestnuts,

  someone thick on a chair with a lap robe.

  I do not know what becomes of them

  when the flow revisits. Or why

  they have moved from their warm hearthstones

  to settle there—except that one step

  is a method of gliding,

  the self for those moments

  weightless and preened as my leather companion.

  And I do not know if the fish there

  have frozen, or wait in some stasis

  like flowers. Perhaps they are stunned

  by the strange heaven—dotted with

  boot soles and chair legs—

  and are slumped on the mud-rich bottom,

  waiting through time for a kind of shimmer,

  an image perhaps, something

  known and familiar, something

  rushing above in their own likeness,

  silver and blade-thin at the rim of the world.

  Memento of the Hours

  First the path stones, then the shadow,

  then, in a circuit of gorse and mint,

  the room with a brook running under it.

  It freshened the milk, the cream that grew

  in its flat habit a shallow lacquer,

  a veil I tested on slow afternoons

  with a speckle of pepper.

  There was butter, cheddar, the waxy pleats

  of squash, green as a storm pond.

  Walnuts. Three families of apple,

  each with its circle of core fringe.

  And the sheen on the walls

  was perpetual, like the sheen

  on the human body.

  My mother would sit with me there,

  her drawstring reticule

  convex with scent jars and marzipan, the burled

  shapes of the hidden. Once she brought her cut

  flowers to chill until evening, and told me

  the mouths of the bluebells

  gave from their nectar a syrup elixir.

  It holds in suspension the voices of choirboys,

  she said. A dram of postponement.

  And I felt as she spoke their presence

  among us: the hum

  of the brook just under our feet,

  the mineral hush of the plenitude,

  then the blackened robes of the blackberry vines

  gradually filling the door.

  Windows

  When the cow died by the green sapling,

  her limp udder splayed on the grass

  like something from the sea, we offered

  our words in their low calibrations—

  which was our fashion—then severed

  her horns with a pug-toothed blade

  and pounded them out to an amber

  transparency, two sheets that became,

  in their moth-wing haze, our parlor windows.

  They softened our guests with the gauze-light

  of the Scriptures, and rendered to us,

  on our merriest days, the sensation

  of gazing through the feet of a gander.

  In time we moved up to the status

  of glass—one pane, then two—each

  cupping in proof of its purity

  a dimple of fault, a form of distortion

  enhancing our image. We took the panes

  with us from cottage to cottage,

  moth-horn and glass, and wedged up

  the misfitted gaps with a poultice

  of gunny and wax. When woodsmoke

  darkened our bricks, we gave

  to the windowsills a lacquer

  of color—clear blue with a lattice

  of yellow: a primary entrance and exit

  for light. And often, walking home

  from the river and small cheese shop,

  we would squint their colors to a sapling

  green, and remember the hull

  of that early body, the slap of fear

  we suffered there, then the little wash

  of recovery that is our fashion—how

  we stroked to her bones a cadenced droning,

  and took back from her absence, our

  amber, half-literal method of sight.

  The Reversals

  Grit metals drawn to a bourbony syrup,

  then the tiny ear trumpet is cast: hand-sized

  cornucopia, one tendril of head band.

  And the child who has followed this process, pickax

  to flame, to the small, curved swelling in his day-pouch,

  steps off on a mission to the faltering Beethoven,

  just as the other, housebound, in a chaos of music sheets

  and chamber pots, steps back through his mind

  toward Holland. Late autumn. And by noon,

  the ice on the deck rails is a lacework of gull prints.

  There are waves, unbroken, rolling port to starboard

  like a hammock wind. Deep cold. His hands

  are made warm by a wrapping of scarf, his feet

  by the black drapery of his mother’s lap.

  Through his frost-fed and wave-rocked drowse,

  three nuns on the deck are a gaggle of sea birds,

  the arced wings of their huge headpieces

  lifting their slender bodies… .

  Music sheets. Chamber pots. One beckoning

  metronome. And the ear trumpets

  s
end off through his nerves

  the sensations of a rake scraped over a harp.

  Great pipe shapes. Ladles. Just a coolness in the palm,

  then a warmth. Or lined up on the tabletop,

  an orchestra of reversals, sucking sound

  back in, bell to a pucker of mouthpiece.

  A wind has begun in the clear day.

  And perhaps they were spirits, there on the deck boards,

  a ghostly trio lifting before him—no land

  in sight, then his small body so suddenly

  his body, so suddenly himself, the hands,

  the feet in their soft shoes.

  Now a child is standing in the open doorway,

  the smallest of ear trumpets shining in his hand:

  its perfect walls, the perfect, cupped vessel of it.

  Look, he is mouthing, what

  has risen from the earth to meet you.

  Phantom Pain

  Josiah Wedgwood, 1795

  It speaks, now and then.

  A lisp at the knee. A needle-trill

  where the ankle once arced. Then I reach into air

  or the concave disturbance of the bedclothes.

  And nothing. A pain in an absence. A leg-shaped

  absence in pain. I do not know

  what it is that calls—

  and burns then, unsummoned, like the summer fires

  that flame through the bracken.

  A low cloud blackens the larch trees.

  We have opened the channel through Harecastle Hill

  and the vases and flake-white medallions

  float down its dark tunnel, the canal boats

  slender as fingerlings. No tow path

  exists there and the workers must

  leg the boats through: propped on their backs

  on the cabin rooftops

  must stride down that starless ceiling,

  not advancing at all, but

  advancing all, walking the eggshell jasper bodies

  through the dripping darkness.

  They tell me the day draws nearer like a lantern,

  like the day must arrive

  for the climbing colliers: a whiteness

  coming closer—but then, as if on the pond

  of the inner eye,

  the intricate, inverted brilliance of a maple.

  A glimpse into heaven, perhaps, or its loss,

  the image flicked upright in the questioning mind—

  in an instant, already gone

  even as it approaches, a form

  flaring nearer while backing away.

  The Swallows: 1800

  Through the wet and continual trout-chill of earth,

  he dropped with his father, past shale beds, black-slush,

  down corridors greased with the seeping of springs,

  and cranked in the darkness a stuttering flint wheel,

  a wand that threw to the pickax and mine walls

  quick jitters of light. The sparks left the wheel

  in fractured arcs and brought from the darkness

 

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