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Flight: New and Selected Poems

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by Linda Bierds


  on the cobbles. And on the girls’ satin slippers

  agerings of silt.

  You have seen, secondhand, the centaurs.

  I have seen the lobster redden,

  then rise like a sun through the boiling water.

  Immortality’s sign? you ask me. That slow-gaited sea change?

  That languorous rising?

  I have also seen a comet cross the sky.

  Biography

  To the dedicated listener, two sounds prevailed that night:

  from rafters above the Grand Canal, pigeon snores,

  and from the murky water, the tap of gondolas,

  like empty walnut shells, against the water steps.

  A January Wednesday, 1894, and through those

  parenthetic sounds, a figure, Constance Woolson—

  novelist, great friend to Henry James—leapt

  to her death.

  She fell.

  Depressed—delirious, demented—she died of—influenza—

  loving him. Of unrequited love for James? There is no

  evidence. Seven years before that night, mid-April

  through late May, they shared a home in Bellosguardo.

  A villa. Voluminous. Then met in Geneva, secretly.

  Secretly? Perhaps, although discretion ruled, not

  impropriety.

  No impropriety? Agreed, although

  what ruled was vanity, his need for her devotion.

  A spinster, deaf—in just one ear—and elderly—a mere

  three years his senior—she was for him primarily a …

  source—think Alice, Tita, Cornelia, May—

  yes, a loyal friend, of course, but …

  Knowing

  her death was suicide, James “utterly collapsed.”

  He could not know, although he suffered, yes. And moved

  into her empty rooms, into her empty beds, in Venice, then

  in Oxford. He sought her ghost—as you do now.

  She took herself away—There is no evidence—

  away from his possession,

  he who so valued possession.

  What is biography? What did he mourn? Analysis?

  Appropriation? She slipped away, as he has slipped

  from you. Anecdote and intuition? Some weeks beyond

  her death, by gondola, James ferried her dresses

  to the wide lagoon and, one by one—Reverence?

  Devotion?—

  lowered them into the water.

  They floated back, and back, he said—Hearsay?

  Secondhand remembrance?—like ghastly, black

  balloons, empty and full simultaneously;

  although, through salt, silt, and the turning years,

  their tidal scrape against the weave—

  Reciprocal immortality?—there is no evidence.

  From Campalto

  We entered Venice by Casa degli Spiriti.

  CONSTANCE FENIMORE WOOLSON

  Imagine a white horse, alone in a watery meadow.

  Or, alone in a watery meadow, imagine

  a white horse. The latter increases your need for me,

  your relief in my company, as we walk together

  down the story’s thin lanes, circling the meadow

  and lolling horse, and the gondoliers on the landing

  bicker and smoke and shuffle their soft-backed cards.

  We have, you as my character and I as your guide,

  crossed from Venice on the wide lagoon—

  rib-cage deep but for trenches the ships slip through—

  and we look toward it now, as one by one

  its spires sink through a white fog, that, like your need,

  advances.

  To keep me beside you, you speak

  of da Vinci’s menagerie and the grape skins

  best suited for grappa. You would question my friendship

  with Henry James—you had hoped, in fact,

  for Henry James—but I have grown singular here,

  essential to you as our gondoliers, although

  they’ve turned silent, fog-erased, and beacon us closer

  by nothing but pipe smoke and their cards’ arrhythmic

  purr. You would ask of his manner, his temperament,

  the nature of our fidelity—two writers enamored

  with fiction’s grip—of my life in his presence,

  of my life in his shadow,

  but are grateful instead

  to watch as I pock our trench with pilings

  and we feel our way back through the pale lagoon,

  column by column, much as the blind

  might track the cairns on an ancient path.

  You are frightened, I know, in those intervals

  when our hands break free and we float

  into nothingness. And, yes, I have kept this from you:

  increasingly, as the page fills, I am the fabric

  of nothingness. You would ask of his voice

  and fashion, the nature of our fidelity,

  but out from the white fog, here is Casa degli Spiriti,

  where up you swing from the swaying boat

  and that which remains absorbs me.

  Accountancy: Dürer in Antwerp

  This many times have I dined with the Factor ///////,

  thus often with Stecher , thus with my Lords /////.

  (I am drawn to the fishes. And to citrons—sugared,

  like frost over gem stones.)

  In trade for my portraits, I have taken

  a branch of white coral, a cedarwood rosary, an ounce

  of good ultramarine. And a great fish scale

  that gauzes the day through its intricate lens.

  This many times have mummers amused me ////.

  Fourteen stuivers, to date, for raisins. Two for a brush.

  One for a buffalo horn. Twenty florins in all

  for firewood, flax, one elk’s hoof, one parrot cage.

  In December, four florins—gold—for a little baboon

  who nods like Erasmus when darkness descends.

  There is solace, I find, in accountancy,

  the prudent, resonant thrift of an evening’s meal

  preserved in a slant mark, like the solace I feel

  with needle and ink, Time’s cantering beast

  furred for eternity by a burin’s bite.

  To Johann, one Passion. To the surgeon

  and house servant, each, a Life of Our Lady.

  To Konrad, in service of the Emperor’s daughter,

  one Melancholy, three Marys, a Eustace, a Nemesis,

  a Jerome in His Cell. (Arranged on a wall,

  these gifts might mirror our human progression,

  as the Great Procession of Our Lady’s Assumption—/—

  mirrored our ranks, butcher to saint.)

  This many times has a fever consumed me /////.

  I have dined again // with my Lords.

  At the Feast of Our Lady’s Assumption, just after

  Craftsmen in the Great Procession, but before Prophets

  and an armored Saint George, came a crowd of widows

  garbed in white linen, accounting for losses amongst us.

  Silent, in step, they seemed not shape but vacancy,

  alit between mason and seamstress, foot soldier and clerk.

  They seemed the space an etch mark frees,

  the empty trough that shape awaits.

  Grand day, carmine and boot-black and the swirling

  world. And those stately widows

  defining our borders? These times

  did their passing enfold me ///////////////////////////////.

  Exhibition of a Rhinoceros at Venice

  after the painting by Pietro Longhi, c. 1751

  To the tumbler settling on the sawdust street,

  with its flames and hoops and carnival swords

  swirling up like an alchemist’s galaxy, this quiet scene,

  glimpsed throu
gh a stable’s open doors, seems at first

  a pond—wall-locked, opaque, lit from above

  by the upreaching arc of a white swan.

  Then his eyes adjust and the pond is a dampened

  stable floor, one ruffle of black rhinoceros. And who

  would step forth to restrain him,

  if he slipped on his hands and tumbler’s knees

  in through that black expanse? Or rolled

  in a patchwork somersault

  like a moon in its blue orbit, while

  the swan slowly shifted from beak and wing

  to a gaggle of white-masked spectators, mute in the muted

  light? Who would object if he nestled beside

  that nobility, that count, that willowy, pale contessa

  whose throat and white breast

  first gave to his eyes a swan’s neck? From her perch

  near a waist-high wall, she is watching

  a black-cloaked domino, the dip of his tricornered hat

  as he bends to the still rhinoceros,

  the wall a border he leans across. And who

  would not quicken, as the tumbler does

  in his froth of sawdust and shadow, when

  the beast slowly raises its earthen mass,

  its dusty, furrowed, thick-skinned snout, where

  a flag of summer wheat dangles? Just over

  its plated hull, just over its rheumy, upturned eyes,

  the eyes of the domino hover, dim, plated

  in silk, pale as hoops

  afloat in some future’s flat-lit sky.

  Dominance? Challenge? A courtship display?

  Who would not wonder what the animal sees

  in the white-masked face of such

  facelessness, as its toes slowly spread

  on the dampened floor, and a shiver of wheat

  rises and falls with its breathing?

  Details Depicted: Insect and Hair

  In the margin between No reason exists

  and the innocency of my actings

  in midst of the late revolutions, the writer has circled

  a single fly wing, caught years before on the damp page,

  now dried to a gauze. Two hundred words

  beyond its brittle veins, he falters

  and, sensing no stay of his execution, revisits

  the world, the stars over this terraqueous globe

  and the hazel wheat. Then he rallies.

  A peculiar magnificence has filled his cell:

  sunset squared through fist-sized windows

  and more—there, fast in the page, an arc of amber

  beard hair, cupped like calipers toward his drying m.

  And as he writes mistaken me for another

  and the scored light fades, he wishes the wing

  had followed the hair, as transcendence follows

  the life well lived. He wishes the order reversed—

  that, first, lit by the hair’s prophetic glint,

  he might open his story—Born of worthy parents—

  then weave his history forward, as the paper itself

  wove history forward: flax to fabric to shirt

  (pockets emptied, buttons snipped) to boiler to pulp

  to lifted chin. He knows the power

  of augury, of the signs in a perfect path.

  He knows, were the wing pinned

  near the page’s end, he might close

  with the grand intangibles, the diaphanous strivings

  of citizenship—allegiance, benevolence,

  the peace and protection of a government—and earn,

  by his words, his flight.

  Late day,

  on the wind, two bells ringing in tandem. No help

  at all, the artifacts, his useless plea

  cresting on the sloughed. What good

  to end with the body—wrought—

  the upward arc reversed? As useless now

  to elevate his humanness as to watch

  the weightless page withdraw, regain its rags,

  its sacking, rope, its bits of salted fishing net.

  What good to open with allegiance and then

  move downward to the flax? What good

  to start with government, then close

  with crows against the sky, or the backward-swirling, forward-rolling carriage wheels

  light on the evening’s earth?

  Acqua Alta

  Vandalism drew us nearer, a slim, graffitied slash

  from Icaro to Dedalo across their marble bodies.

  In the piazza below our museum window,

  carabinieri in sky-blue shirts, and pigeons

  and flotsam and teenage boys, drifted together

  in the late-day sun—but no,

  it wasn’t ink-rich aerosol, that looping gash,

  just the sculptor’s woven cord,

  Dedalo to Icaro, lovely in its making. Our spirits

  lifted, while over San Marco’s quay

  the sea quickly rose, glazing the piazza’s indentations.

  He is tying the wings, someone said, half in pity,

  half derision, the myth roped down too literally,

  the father too cunning, the son too enraptured.

  In from the basin, the sea quickly cast

  its daily mass, herringbone brick by brick. A shallow,

  dogleg bay, lovely in its making.

  He is tying—then the pigeons lifted, and the boys

  could not contain themselves

  and broke through the glaze in their soft shoes,

  churning the water—the wings—deafened

  by joy and transformation. One, then a dozen,

  so suddenly the carabinieri on the dryer reaches

  cinched closer together, the moment

  half folly, half threat, the Basilica they guarded,

  the enamels and marble emperors, the massive,

  star-strewn ticking clock, half solid, half,

  in reflection, shattered. One, then a dozen,

  so suddenly the carabinieri … half solid,

  half shattered … cinched closer, the moment.

  He is tying the wings, someone said. In pity. Derision.

  It breaks the heart such recklessness.

  Salvage

  What was the sound, a rasp?

  No, not a rasp. A rattle, then? No, not that.

  And twice it passed over you? I sat

  at the waist-gunner window. Night—

  and the wingtip’s flashing light

  bit through slanted snow: green, green.

  Then we struck the mountain. And of eight,

  five were thrown free and survived?

  I was cast into deep snow

  and plane-shaped debris slipped over me.

  Its sound a scraping? No,

  not a scraping. It slipped down the canyon wall

  and I followed its snow-trough, then

  guided the others to me

  with blasts from my Mae West whistle.

  Yours was a rescue mission, far from war?

  I was alone and just overhead in the darkness

  snow geese and trumpeter swans passed.

  And the green light flashed?

  I could hear their bodies working—And you sat

  at the waist?—ligament, ligature, the labor

  of leaving. In unison, then? A thrum? No,

  each sound in its slender chamber. And you

  whistled them down to you? Yes.

  From the Sea of Tranquillity

  Item: After the hopping and gathering,

  in that flat, crepuscular light, Armstrong

  stroked to the moon’s crisp dust, it is said,

  Albrecht Dürer’s initials, first the A’s wide table,

  then beneath it, the slumped, dependable D,

  the image sinking slowly through that waterless sea,

  named less for tides than resemblances.

  Item: In the year 1471, in the sixth hour
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  of Saint Prudentius’ Day, Albrecht Dürer was born,

  the moon afloat in Gemini’s house, and far to the east

  Leo rising; an alliance that promised, with travel

  and wealth, a slender physique—so slender, in fact,

  Dürer slipped from it daily, as, gripped by concentration,

  someone else’s Albrecht drew a stylus down the grain.

  Item: Kicked up through the moon’s pale dust, a boot

  creates not a scattering but a wave, particles joined

  in a singular motion, faithful to the shape

  of displacement. Such is the loss of atmosphere,

  although aura remains, and time. Think of two men,

  each at his milky page, thirst and the dipper

  a moment away, and the whole unbroken before them.

  Flight

  Osseous, aqueous, cardiac, hepatic—

  back from bone the echoes stroke, back

  from the halved heart, the lungs

  three years of weightlessness have cinched to gills.

  From a leather chaise, the astronaut’s withered legs

  dangle, as back they come, sounds

  a beaked percussion hammer startles into shape.

  The physician cocks his head and taps—exactly

  as a splitter halves his slate, the metamorphic rock

  chisel-shocked, then shocked again, halved

  and halved, until a roof appears, black as space.

  I’m gaining ground, he says, the astronaut,

  who knows, from space, earth is just a blue-green glow,

  a pilot light he circled once, lifted, swiftly flown

  above the rafters and atmospheres, half himself

  and half again some metamorphic click,

  extinct as memory. I’m gaining ground,

  he says, and back it comes, his glint

  of cloud-crossed world: a pilot light

  or swaddled leaf, green in the season’s infancy.

 

 

 


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