Loving Meg

by Skye Taylor

  Loving Meg

  Husband, lover, friend. There’s no one else like Ben, for Meg.

  Can she tell him the secrets that threaten their marriage?

  After a year in a war zone, Marine Lieutenant Meg Cameron returns home to peaceful Tide’s Way, North Carolina, tormented by guilt over the bomb death of a military dog and the emotionally-charged kiss Meg shared afterwards with her commanding officer, as he comforted her. Ben is the love of her life. How could she betray him by having sexual feelings for another man?

  Ben Cameron is just happy that his brave, beautiful wife is back home with him and their young sons Rick and Evan. In bed, Meg not only shows how much she still wants Ben, she uses sex to distract him when he asks about her nightmares—and why she utters the name of her commanding officer when she cries out in her sleep.

  As Meg searches for ways to tell him what happened and why and tries to decide how she can fit into “normal” life again, she must also face the work Ben loves—training dogs at the kennel he owns. When he begins rehabilitating a traumatized police dog who resembles the dead military canine, Meg’s pain provokes a choice: maybe she should stay in the Marine Corps. Leave home again.

  Ben struggles to get the truth from her, while fearing that it will take her away from him forever.

  Praise for Loving Meg

  “Crafting real-life characters and hard challenges, Taylor’s Loving Meg is a story of courage, love and healing: the journey of a woman Marine who comes home though not without some uncertainty about her identity and her future. Taylor’s story invites us all into the journey of re-entry that is so tough for many soldiers and their families as well. Another don’t-miss Skye Taylor book.”

  —Award-winning author, Nancy Quatrano, author of Yellow Ribbons and The Method Writers

  “Meg is a returning Marine who struggles with nightmares and a huge, misplaced dose of guilt, but her husband and sons need her back in their lives. Can she adjust and recover before she loses all she holds dear? Skye Taylor has crafted a poignant and timely story of emotional wounds and the healing power of love in Loving Meg.”

  —Cheryl Norman, award-winning romance author

  Other Titles by Skye Taylor from Bell Bridge Books

  The Camerons of Tide’s Way Series

  Book 1: Falling for Zoe

  Book 2: Loving Meg

  Book 3: Trusting Will

  Coming of Age: A Tide’s Way Short Story

  The Wager: A Tide’s Way Short Story

  Loving Meg

  Book 2 of The Camerons of Tide’s Way Series

  by

  Skye Taylor

  Bell Bridge Books

  Copyright

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons (living or dead), events or locations is entirely coincidental.

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  Ebook ISBN: 978-1-61194-526-3

  Print ISBN: 978-1-61194-544-7

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  Copyright © 2014 by Skye Taylor

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  Dedication

  This story is dedicated to all the warriors who believe in the American ideal and put their lives on the line to protect it. But especially to those who come home broken in body and spirit, and to the K-9s who help them come all the way home.

  God bless the K-9s for Warriors program and other programs like them who are doing such a wonderful job of training these dogs, rescuing both dogs and soldiers.

  To My Readers

  Dogs have a long military history, beginning in ancient times. They have served as messengers, scouts, mascots, sentries, and trackers. In today’s military, they often wear tactical vests, cameras, and microphones to send information back to the troops who follow them. They are trained to sniff out bombs and have saved countless soldiers’ lives in the war against terrorism.

  We are only just beginning to realize the enormous potential of dogs for saving the lives of soldiers after they return from war zones. Warriors with PTSD struggle to leave their war behind and find their way back to civilian life. They come home suffering both physical and psychological wounds, still reacting as they did in combat: hyper-vigilant and trusting no one, not even their family and friends. The VA’s answer to date has been to prescribe expensive, highly addictive medications, and as the statistics show they do not work. Their pain and anguish far too often ends in suicide, devastating families, friends, and former comrades.

  K-9s for Warriors, Located in Ponte Vedra, Florida, is just one of many organizations that have sprung up across the country for the express purpose of training dogs to work with returned soldiers, especially those suffering from PTSD. They obtain most of their dogs from rescue shelters, and their mission statement says, “We rescue the dogs, they rescue their warriors.”

  Meg Cameron doesn’t suffer from PTSD, but she has her share of difficulty finding her way to fit in again as a wife and mother. Ben Cameron has seen the difference a service dog can make in the lives of veterans, and he is determined to expand his canine breeding and training facility to include just such a program. This country owes a huge debt to the men and women who sacrifice so much in the service of our country, and for my part, I plan to pay it back by sharing a portion of all proceeds from this book with the K-9s for Warriors program.

  Chapter 1

  MEG SHRUGGED HER backpack up higher on her shoulder as she joined the stream of passengers that had just come off the flight from Dulles to Wilmington, North Carolina, and were now filing past the empty chairs of the waiting area and toward the security exit. Her unaccustomed loafers felt stiff and made a hollow sound on the tile floor that seemed to echo the thudding of her heart. A man in a navy blue suit jostled past, then stopped and looked at her as if he thought he might know her. But then he shrugged, apologized, and moved on. She nodded at him absently. She had bigger things on her mind.

  As she approached the hallway leading to the main lobby, she halted abruptly. Her heart thumped harder. Ben would be out there waiting for her. Maybe he’d brought Rick and Evan with him. It had been three hundred and fifty-eight days since she’d last seen her husband and her little boys. Three hundred and fifty-eight days that had changed her forever.

  The crush of people flowed past her like water around a boulder in a riverbed. Her chest felt tight. It was difficult to breathe. It felt a lot like every time she’d moved out to accompany a convoy in Iraq.

  All those days ago when she’d been walking the other way with tears brimming in her eyes, she’d b
een naïve. Committed, eager, and incredibly naïve. She wasn’t the same woman who had said goodbye to Ben that day. She was no longer innocent. And her idealism had fled in the face of the things she had seen. And done.

  Would Ben notice?

  Would he see it in her eyes? Feel it in her touch? Surely he would hear it when she cried out in her nightmares. Would he still love her if he knew the whole of it? If he knew how far she had grown away from the girl he had fallen in love with?

  Meg drew in a ragged breath, squared her shoulders, and stepped out. Suck it up, Marine. Ben’s waiting. Oorah.

  BEN CAMERON hurried up to the security barrier, his gaze fixed on the stream of travelers making their way toward the lobby. The TSA agent glared at him, but he ignored her. He was looking for just one person. One very special person. It had been so long.

  There’d been an accident on the way, and he’d been late getting to the airport. Racing into the building, assuming she would beat him to baggage claim, he’d gone straight there. But her familiar diminutive figure wasn’t anywhere in sight, nor had he seen a bulging green duffle bag among the jumble of luggage, boxes, golf clubs, and car seats moving past on the carousel.

  The plane was on the ground. He’d checked the app on his phone while waiting impatiently to get past the logjam of police vehicles on Route 17 along the coast from Wilmington, along with a wrecker and an ambulance at the accident scene. She had made the connection. She’d called after she’d boarded the plane in DC to give him her airline and flight number and when it was due to land. Her voice had sounded matter-of-fact and unemotional. Very military. She was a Marine, after all. And she’d been in a war zone for almost a year. A place where emotions didn’t belong. At least not those reserved for the husband left behind.

  He glanced back the way he’d come in, then again down the hall guarded by the vigilant TSA agent. Then he saw her.

  Meg came around the corner and strode toward him.

  Her hair was pulled back into a tight ponytail, the dark sheen of it glistening under the bright fluorescent lights. Head up, she looked straight ahead. Shoulders back. Very squared away. His Marine. His Meg.

  At the sight of her, his heart leapt and shuddered into a staccato rhythm. Meg was back. Whole and unharmed. And as beautiful as his memory had promised. He couldn’t wait to hold her again. He couldn’t wait to kiss her and feel her arms circle tight around his neck. To feel her lips returning his hunger and longing.

  Her stride was long and confident, but it still seemed to take forever for her to reach him.

  “Meg,” Ben whispered huskily as he finally swept her into his embrace. His life was whole again. “Oh, Meg.” His eyes stung, and his heart hammered madly in his chest. “I’ve missed you so much.”

  Chapter 2

  CRUSHED IN BEN’S exuberant embrace in the busy airport lobby, Meg felt lightheaded and breathless. His voice husky and tight with emotion, he kept murmuring disjointed phrases of love and welcome. She tipped her head back to reply, but before she could utter a word, his mouth claimed hers.

  Vaguely aware of clapping in the background, Meg surrendered to the shelter of Ben’s embrace. His kiss was hard, demanding, and fierce, but she welcomed the hungry passion and returned it with a need as great as his. When he stopped to catch his breath, she buried her face against his shirtfront, her arms locked tight around his neck. There was so much she couldn’t face just yet, but in Ben’s arms she felt safe. At last.

  Ben set Meg back on her feet and released his possessive grip. His cheeks wet with tears, he grinned and wept openly at the same time.

  Her eyes were painfully dry.

  Meg wanted to cry with him. She wanted to cling to him and tell him she had missed him as much as he had missed her. She stood mute. It felt like someone had packed her up in cotton wool so thick that the world couldn’t get in.

  Ben didn’t appear to notice. He hugged her again, then swung her off her feet, twirling her in a celebratory circle before setting her down once more. He wrapped his arm about her shoulders and propelled her toward baggage claim to get her gear. She waited while Ben shouldered his way through the crowd to claim a desert-dusty duffle bag that appeared among the jumble of suitcases. “This it?” he asked, hoisting the bulky bag off the carousel.

  She nodded, and he swung the bag over his shoulder as if it weighed nothing, then grabbed her hand and led her from the terminal.

  His fingers were strong, his palm calloused and warm, just like she remembered. His strength, his confidence, his reliability—everything she’d always admired about him—seeped into her through their clasped hands as they zigzagged through the parking lot to his truck. She began to feel more like herself.

  When they reached the truck, Ben dumped her duffle into the bed and turned toward her. He pulled her into his embrace, rocking her back and forth, as if trying to absorb the reality that she was actually, really, and truly home. This time, he was as wordless as she, just rocking and hugging as though he might never let her go. Ben had hugged her the same way all those years ago on the day she’d turned eighteen, and they’d kissed for the first time. He’d waited five years for her to grow up, and that day had marked the beginning of their commitment as lovers instead of just friends. Today was another turning point, but Ben didn’t know it yet. She wasn’t the same innocent girl she’d been then. War had changed her. It would be like falling in love all over again. But would he? Once he understood how different she was inside?

  Meg felt, rather than heard the shuddering sob of relief and happiness that ran through her husband’s big, strong body. She had thought she’d cry buckets once she was back in Ben’s arms again after a year of hell, but still her tears didn’t come. After several long minutes, Ben held her away and grinned.

  “Damn, but it’s good to have you back.” He kissed her again before digging into his pants pocket for his truck keys.

  He opened her door for her like the gentleman he was and waited for her to climb in before loping around to the driver’s side and hauling himself into his seat. He leaned across the seat to kiss her yet again before starting the engine.

  On the drive home, Ben kept reaching across the gap between the seats to touch her: squeezing her hand, or her thigh, and once running the back of his fingers down her cheek before blowing her a kiss. He gabbed on about Rick and Evan and how they’d been counting down the days. How they’d cleaned their rooms until the fussiest drill sergeant would have been impressed. How they’d wanted to come with him to the airport but reluctantly agreed to let Dad go alone if they could help decorate for the party.

  Meg groaned inwardly. She should have known there would be a welcoming party. Ben’s family was big on parties, and they’d all be there along with numerous friends and neighbors. Uneasiness set in. How was she going to hold herself together and get through the next few hours?

  By the time they pulled onto Jolee Road and drove through her hometown, Meg was so taut with apprehension her muscles ached. Homes and businesses so familiar and yet so alien lined the main street of Tide’s Way and brought back a rush of memories. She watched the buildings glide by as snatches of long-ago events tugged at her mind.

  The statue of General Jolee appeared, dominating Tide’s Way’s little common. She and a bunch of rowdy friends had festooned it with orange crepe paper one long-ago Halloween. Across from the park she’d gotten her first kiss in the shadows of the public library. Chris Wilson had been as inexperienced as she. They’d both been nervous and excited. And there was Joel’s Diner where she’d called Ben from to come and rescue her the night she’d run away from home because her big brother wouldn’t let her go camping on the beach with a questionable bunch of boys from the trailer park. It was hard to remember being so young or so innocent. Tide’s Way never changed, but she surely had.

  As they got closer to the beach, Meg rolled down the window and sniffe
d the salty scent of the ocean. So different from the desert she’d spent the last year in. This was home. This was coastal North Carolina where she’d spent all but two years of her life: the beach, the ocean, the small town, everyone-knows-everyone atmosphere. There weren’t words big enough to express how much she had missed it all.

  Ben didn’t speak as he pulled up at the stop sign where Jolee Road ended. Dead ahead was home. The crush of cars and trucks crowded into their driveway and spilled over onto the shoulders of Stewart Road. An unwelcome sense of dread hit her. She was happy to be home, but all these people. She would have to talk to them. Make small talk. Ask how they were doing. Remember what had been going on in their lives while she was gone. They were sure to ask questions. Questions she dreaded answering.

  She didn’t want to talk about where she’d been or what she’d done. She didn’t want to have to find words for how she felt, either while she was gone or now that she was home. And she didn’t want to even think about Scout or John or so many others.

  Ben drove his truck onto the grass to get past the jam of vehicles and pulled up between the house and the building that housed the kennels and training facility. He scrambled out before the engine had even finished rumbling to a stop and hurried around to open her door for her.

  “I’m sorry about the crowd. You’re probably exhausted, and I bet you really just want to spend time with the boys. And me, too, I hope, but it’ll probably be a while before we can get everyone to head on out and give us some alone time.” He paused, his face suddenly serious. “God, Meg, I missed you so much. It feels like you’ve been gone forever. Does it feel like that to you?”

  Meg slid off the seat onto the running board and put one hand on Ben’s shoulder. She pressed a finger against his lips. “I love you, Ben. I always have, and I always will. Missing you—” Her eyes ached with the tears she still couldn’t shed. “Words aren’t big enough.” She leaned down and pressed her aching eyes into the hollow of his neck.