Desire_Her Two Rivals

by Ally Miller

  I nodded, feeling the fear lace through my body. What sucks, is that she actually did have a point, it’s just scary to actually come forward and admit those feelings.

  “I know I’ll feel better, but I’m scared. Plus it might be considered wrong,” I said.

  “Listen Casey, the only way you’ll feel better is to be true to yourself. You can tell me forever about how much you like this person. I get it. I’ve been there before. But it’s not the same as buckling down and letting this person know of your feelings. The only way to feel better, especially in your case, is to just get down and say it. just tell them,” she said.

  I listened to this, and while I knew she meant well, she didn’t understand the fear that laced my bones. However, I knew that just telling her that was only going to make things go around in circles, so I sighed.

  “Yeah. I get it. I’ll try,” I said.

  “You will do it. It’s the only way to feel good about it. I mean, I can’t tell you how to feel, or even what to do. But if you do what your heart says, do what is right, no matter what, you’ll get what you want out of this,” she said.

  I paused, taking time to mull over this. I turned to her, smiling warmly as I thanked her.

  “I do appreciate it. Thanks,” I said.

  “You’re welcome. Just follow your heart. You’ll feel way better,” she admitted to me.

  Maybe I would. I didn’t know for sure, but the fear of the moment raced through me as well. I spent the rest of lunch telling her about how school is going.

  “Oh yeah, did you finally get that class sorted out? I know you hated it, especially when I was in there,” she said.

  I blushed. That was part of the reason why I was feeling better. I simply nodded, giving her a sly grin.

  “Yeah. I feel way better about it. I’ve done some thinking, which honestly really helped. I realized why I kept failing that class. It was my dumb immaturity,” I said to her.

  “Good. You just keep doing what is right. I, for one, am proud that you’re taking your responsibility with it,” she said.

  I blushed, nodding in assent.

  “Thanks,” I said.

  The rest of lunch was quiet for the most part, and then, I headed out. I knew that I needed to tell them, especially about how I was feeling. Finals were coming soon anyways, and I knew that holding onto these feelings would only make me feel worse, and while I did enjoy going to tutoring, I also started to regret it, simply because of how much it affected me mentally, and how much I wanted to tell them.

  Chapter 6

  I spent the next two weeks going to tutoring, but for the most part, I stayed quiet. I didn’t tell either of them about my feelings, what I was going through, or even how to feel. Of course, that aroused pure suspicion from both of them, and they looked at me with a curious glance.

  “Everything okay?” Caleb asked.

  I blushed, trying to hide the truth albeit failing.

  “I guess,” I said.

  “What’s wrong? You can tell us, you know,” Robert said.

  I looked at both of them, noticing just how pretty they looked today. Fuck, this was making me feel even worse.

  “It’s nothing, I swear. I don’t want to tell you,” I said.

  “Are you sure?” Caleb asked.

  “Yes!” I cried out. I immediately turned away, trying to hide my shame.

  Both of them knew that something big happened, and they wanted to ask what in the world was going on. However, they simply brushed it off, not caring about what was happening. However, it was eating me alive, driving me insane, and while I wanted to tell them, I feared they might hate me. I mean, a student shouldn’t fall for their teacher and the aide that he had, but rather, she should be looking at people her own age. I felt scared, especially with how taboo this was. I didn’t want them to get in trouble, especially since both of them did love teaching.

  I spent the next hour or so trying to hide my feelings, however, I was totally distracted. At the end of this, both of them looked at me, concern on their faces.

  “Are you sure you’re oaky? If there is anything you want to say, you can tell us,” Robert said.

  I wanted to tell them, I really did. It’s the first time I’ve ever felt these feelings, but I also felt ashamed by them as well.

  “No. I don’t want to say it. At least, not yet,” I said to them.

  Thy understood, backing off. “Well you have my number. I’ll let Caleb know as well,” he said.

  I did have their number, which made expressing these feelings all the worse for me. I had a desire to just come forward, to tell them the truth, but I knew that doing so could risk everything. We had such a good relationship already, that I didn’t want to ruin it all.

  “I’ll think about telling you. Just give me time,” I said.

  I left the tutoring session, not going to them or class for about three days. I did get calls from Robert, but I felt the fear racing through my body as I saw his number. I wanted to tell him, I really did, but I always feared the worst. I didn’t know what he would do if he knew the truth? Would he hate me? Would he report me? Would I lose everything? I doubted it. I knew that I’d have to face the music sooner rather than later.

  On the third day, I got a call once again. I wanted to ignore it, more than I’ve ever wanted to ignore a call before, but I picked it up on instinct, holding it up to my ear.

  “Hello?” I said.

  “Hey, it’s Robert. Can we talk? You haven’t been to class in about three days,” he said.

  I paused. Do I tell him the truth? Or should I continue to play this off? I could pretend I’m sick or something?

  “It’s nothing. Just…there is something that I want to tell you. like really badly,” I said to him.

  There was a pause on the other end, and I began to wonder if he already knew. “Do you want to say it in person or over the phone?”

  “In person. I can’t here,” I admitted. I didn’t because I feared the worst honestly. I was already bracing myself for the obvious rejection incoming. There was another pause, and I hoped that he wouldn’t hang up on me. finally, he spoke.

  “Meet me at the room in about thirty minutes. We’ll talk there,” he said.

  I thought about it. as much as I didn’t want to tell them at school, I felt like it was now or never, especially with the way everything was going.

  “Fine. I’ll see you then,” I said.

  I hung up the phone, my breath coming out in ragged gasps. I couldn’t believe I was doing this. Why did I fear it so much? Probably because this was all novel to me, but still. I began to feel the fear racing through my body, but I knew it was time to face the music.

  I got ready, putting on a cute black sweater dress and some stockings, pulling my black hair back into a ponytail. I would do this. I’ll face it all, and I’ll make sure that the true feelings that resided within me would come out and show themselves.

  Chapter 7

  “So what do we do?” Caleb said.

  Robert sat in his office, head in his hands. He knew he couldn’t hide this anymore, and the fact that a meeting was called this late seemed suspicious.

  “I don’t know Caleb. I can’t pretend anymore,” he said.

  “I honestly can’t either. But what about the school? What about our jobs?” Caleb said. He feared starting a romance would be the nail on the coffin for them, and so did Robert.

  Robert knew he’d put up too many walls for far too long. All of this time, all of this strain and worry, it was eating him alive. He couldn’t play pretend with his feelings anymore.

  “I’ve deluded myself far too long Caleb. I have a feeling if we’re quiet about it, everything will be okay,” he said.

  “Even with the risk?”

  “Yes Caleb, even with all the risk in the world. You want this. I want this. I’ve never fallen for a woman like this before. I’m not letting this get away. If she says what she’ll say, I already know my feelings on the matter. You can sort
out your own,” Robert said. It was the first time Robert actually knew what he felt, and when Caleb looked at him, he sighed.

  “I feel the same way. Even though I don’t want to admit it, you’re right,” he said.

  “Good. Now embrace them, and if she says it, you know what to do,” Robert explained.

  They knew the risks were there, but they’ve pretended for far too long. They knew what they felt, and if they didn’t’ get these feelings out, they may never have another chance.

  I walked over to the room quickly, ignoring the feeling in my gut. I needed to be honest. I couldn’t keep hiding these feelings forevermore. When I got to the door, I knocked, and soon, I saw both Robert and Caleb there. They were dressed to the nines in gorgeous suits, and when I looked at them, I felt a lingering desire in my body.

  “Hello there,” I said.

  “Hello to you as well. Come on in,” he said.

  I gladly did so, feeling my heart beating fast. When the door was closed, Caleb locked it, which eased my mind slightly. They then turned to me, looking at me directly before speaking.

  “So spill. What the hell is going on?” Robert said.

  “Yeah, you haven’t been to class, and you sounded weird over the phone,” Caleb added.

  It was so obvious what was going on. I knew hiding my feelings would only prove to hurt me. I sighed, knowing the only way out was through it.

  “It’s about both of you. I’m honestly terrified to admit this, but I can’t hold back. I know that what I feel is real, especially for the both of you,” I said.

  They listened to me, almost understanding on instinct what was going on.

  “Just tell us. I swear, we won’t hate you for what you’re about to say,” Caleb said.

  I knew they wouldn’t, but I was also scared of rejection.

  “Fine, if you say so. It’s just… I like you two. A lot. At first, I thought this was a simple crush, something stupid that would go away after a while. But when I’m around you, I feel happier. I know it’s wrong for a teacher to see a student, but I can’t hold these feelings back any longer. I’ve felt this way for a long ass time, and honestly, if I keep ignoring the feeling in my heart, I’m only going to hurt myself,” I said.

  They listened to me, understanding the issue at hand. Finally, Caleb spoke, looking directly into my eyes.

  “You serious?” Robert asked.

  I nodded, turning red once again. “Yeah. Dead serious. I’ve felt this way for a while. I normally don’t fall for guys. I’ve always been the type who kept my feelings away from my studies, and my overall demeanor. But when I look at both of you, when you’re there to encourage me, when you do all of this, I feel happy. It’s a strange level of happiness that I’ve never experienced before and I want to experience it with both of you,” I said.

  They listened to this, and I really hoped I didn’t sound totally stupid. However, instead of being told to leave, instead, I saw smiles on their faces.

  “You should’ve said something sooner. It was obvious, but I wanted to hear it from you. Honestly, we’ve felt the same way, battled with the same feelings, but it is mutual,” Robert said.

  “Yeah. To hell with the risk, we both like you,” Caleb said.

  I looked at them with agape faces, unsure of what to say. “For real?” I asked.

  “Correct. We both really enjoy you Casey. Sure, you’re rough around the edges, but at the very bottom of it all is a nice, caring soul. I mean, we can keep this our dirty little secret. Plus, you’re passing my class this time around, so it’s not like I’m actually doing something with a student directly. I mean, we can keep this our little thing, and even though some might be against it, I know this is indeed what you want, isn’t it,” he said to me.

  I knew this was the right decision. I smiled at them, simply grinning from ear-to-ear.

  “Yeah. I want you two more than anything,” I said, blushing at my words.

  “Then your wish is our command. If you want this, then allow us to show you what it is you’ve been missing. Let us give you the pleasure you’ve so desired for a long time,” Robert said.

  “Just remember to keep this a secret, and we’ll make sure to cater to your desires whenever,” Caleb added with a smile

  Before I could respond, Robert grasped me, pulling me closer and looking at me directly. I blushed, realizing the closeness of our bodies, but at the same time, I enjoyed the feeling. He then tilted my chin up, pressing his lips to my own in a hot, passionate kiss. I began to kiss him back, loving the way that it felt, and as time began to become still, I realized right then and there that I made the correct decision, and while I was scared of what could happen, at the same time, I knew that the beating in my heart, the fluttering that happened, was totally real, and I’m finally facing these fears, along with embracing the future with both of these men.

  Chapter 8

  Robert’s kisses were almost intoxicating. He took his time, letting his lips move against my own in the subtlest of ways. I embraced this, feeling a groan emerge from my mouth. He captured the sound in a kiss, and that’s when I felt his tongue snake out. I began to tense up, unsure of what to do at this point.

  I never had a boyfriend. Like I said, I was always focused on studies, or just being a dick to Robert when needed. I also spent most of my time drinking alone, so I never had companionship. But now, even with this gentle kiss, I felt excited, ready for more, and craving this from the other man. He began to let his lips move against my own, and his tongue started to explore after I opened up. I moaned, excitement and need obvious in my body. He began to press his tongue to mine, causing shivers of arousal to pass through my body. I loved it, I truly did, and with every single touch, every single lick, every single caress, I felt like I was losing my mind with this.

  As he did it, he pulled away, and soon, Caleb pressed his lips to my own. His kiss was vastly different, in that he seemed to almost move in a haphazard way, causing me to groan in excitement as he did this. The two of us exchanged kisses, letting our tongues move and collide with one another in a way that befit both of us. I moaned against him, and when he pushed his tongue harder and harder against my own, rubbing the appendage, I began to let out a small cry for more. I wanted more, and I could tell that tonight was going to change me.

  I was pushed down on the desk, the hard surface hitting my back with a thud. Already, the dress was hiked up, exposing the upper half of my thigh, and the stockings I adorned were already loosely hanging against my knees. Both of these men looked at me, the desires obvious in their eyes.

  “You’ve never done this, have you?” Robert said.

  “No. Please be gentle,” I said, blushing as I heard my voice. God, I sounded like such a wanton whore, but that’s honestly what I enjoyed about this. He leaned in closer, giving me a chaste kiss against my lips.

  “Don’t you worry, you’re going to love this,” he said.

  I braced myself, feeling their lips move down my body. At first, I didn’t really know what to think when I felt Robert’s hot lips against my neck, but there was almost a ticklish sensation that came with this, and I began to let out a small cry of need as he continued to tease there. I felt Caleb do the same, except on the other side. However, he found a spot on there, right near where my neck met shoulder, and when he teased it, I felt my hips buck almost on instinct, a guttural sound of need emitting from my lips.

  God I wanted more. My entire body was lost in the passion of it all, and I knew for a fact that it was only going to drive me insane. With every single touch of their lips, every single motion, I felt whole. However, I felt their hands near the hem of my dress, touching it for a second before looking at me.

  I simply nodded, and soon, the dress was pulled off my body. I blushed when they looked at my underwear-clad boy, my need increasing in my bones as they looked me over. It was then when I felt Robert touch the tip of my breasts, squeezing them and smiling.

  “You have gorgeous breasts,” he said.<
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  I blushed, feeling his hands tease my nipples through the garment. I did admit, I had some nice hooters, that’s for sure. It’s kind of a nice blessing, especially since people obviously enjoyed them. Caleb moved his hands over to the edge of the clasp, taking it off without any second thoughts.

  I let out a small squeak, shocked that this was even happening. Soon, the garment was off my body, exposing my luscious breasts for them to see. I felt nervous, especially since I’ve never let a person see me like this before, however, instead of seeing looks of derisiveness, I saw looks of rapturous need, almost as if they wanted more.

  “Holy shit,” Caleb said, his hands teasing the edge and corner of my breasts. I began to blush, feeling his hands softly pinch the nipples. He leaned in, capturing my lips with a soft kiss before Robert leaned against my ear.

  “Should I teach you real pleasure tonight with my assistant?” he said, licking the shell there. I simply moaned in response, the aching need in my body almost overtaking everything by this point.

  Both of them wasted no time after they heard the sounds I uttered. They moved their lips down to where my nipples were, kissing the very edges and the tip of it with the slightest touch before the captured the bud between their lips. I felt the differences in pressure immediately. Robert seemed to know the perfect pressure to use, teasing the erect bud without any second thoughts. He used his lips to suck, his tongue to tease the tip of the nipple and the sides, and as he licked and flicked I could feel a bubbling in my stomach, a hearty need for more. Caleb on the other and as much gentler, almost as if he was learning what I liked. That was fine, and in truth, I enjoyed the difference each of the pressures made within my body. I began to shiver with every single touch, every single caress, and with every moment as it went on. I felt them both continue to tease and arouse me, making me feel even more turned on from all of this.