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by Betina Krahn

  How long had it been? Minutes? Hours? Tenley couldn’t remember. Why was she so confused? She called his name again. And then again. Over and over until her voice was weak and her throat raw.

  The sound came out of nowhere, a low rumble, like the engine of a boat. It was Tommy. He’d come, just as he’d promised. But as the roar came closer, Tenley realized it wasn’t a boat at all but a huge wave, so high that it blocked out the moon and the stars in the sky. She held her breath, waiting for it to crash down on top of her. Where had it come from?

  A ton of water enveloped her, driving her deep beneath the surface. The breath burned in her lungs and she struggled to reach the cold night air. Maybe it was better to let go, to stop fighting. Was that what Tommy had done? Was he safe at home, or had the black wave taken him as well? No, she wouldn’t. She couldn’t. She—

  Tenley awoke with a start, sitting upright in her bed, gasping for breath. For a moment, she wasn’t sure where she was. She rubbed her arms, only to find them warm and clad in the soft fabric of her T-shirt. She was safe. But where was Tommy? Why wasn’t he—

  A sick feeling settled in her stomach as she realized, yet again, that Tommy was gone. There were times when she had such pleasant dreams about their childhood. They’d been the best of friends, twins, so much alike. As the only children of a poet and an artist, they’d grown up without boundaries, encouraged to discover all that nature had to offer.

  Back then, they’d lived on the waterfront, in the apartment above her grandfather’s studio. The sailboat had been a present from her grandfather for their thirteenth birthday and every summer, she and Tommy had skimmed across the harbor, the wind filling the small sail and the sun shining down on them both.

  But as they got older, they became much more daring. Their adventures had an edge of danger to them. Diving from the cliffs above the water. Wandering into the woods late at night. Sailing beyond the quiet confines of the harbor to the small islands just offshore.

  They’d both known how quickly the weather could shift in the bay and how dangerous it was to be in a small boat when the waves kicked up. But they both loved pushing their limits, daring each other to try something even more outrageous.

  A shiver skittered through her body and Tenley pulled the quilt up over her arms. It had been her idea to sail out to the island and spend the night. Even though the wind had been blowing directly into shore and they’d gotten a late start, they’d tacked out, the small Sunfish skimming over the bay at a sharp angle.

  But sailing against the wind had taken longer than she’d anticipated and by the time they’d reached open water, it was nearly dark. Tommy had insisted that they head back toward the lights, but Tenley had been adamant, daring him to go on. A few minutes later, a gust of wind knocked the boat over.

  It was usually easy to right the boat in the calm waters of the harbor, but in the bay the currents worked against them, exhausting them both. Tenley could see the outline of the island and suggested they swim for it. But in the dark, it had been impossible to judge how far it was. In the end, Tommy had left to get help.

  They’d found her clinging to the boat, four hours later. They’d found his body the next morning, washed up on a rocky beach north of town. Tenley shook her head, trying to rid herself of the memories. It had been nearly a month since she’d last dreamt of him. In many ways, she’d longed for the nights when the dreams wouldn’t haunt her. But sometimes, the dreams were good. They were happy and she could be with her brother again.

  She threw the covers off her body and stood up beside the bed, stretching her arms over her head. The room was chilly, the winter wind finding its way inside through all the tiny cracks and crevices in the old cabin. Outside, the storm still raged.

  Tenley rubbed her eyes, then wandered out of the bedroom toward the kitchen. She rarely slept more than four or five hours at night. For a long time, she’d been afraid to sleep, afraid of the nightmares. But she’d learned to cope, taking the good dreams with the bad.

  The dogs were curled up in front of Alex’s door and they looked up as she passed. Tenley stirred the embers of the fire and tossed another log onto the grate. As she watched the flames lick at the dry birch bark, her mind wandered back to the kiss she’d shared with Alex in the kitchen.

  She’d been tempted to let it go on, to see how far he’d take it. The attraction between them was undeniable. But she wasn’t sure she wanted to act upon it. She preferred uncomplicated sex and Tenley sensed that sex with Alex might be like opening a Pandora’s box of pleasure.

  Restless, she got up and began to pace the perimeter of the room. She had no idea what time it was. Tenley had given up clocks long ago, preferring to let her body decide when it was time to sleep and when it was time to wake up. Besides, since Tommy’s death, she’d never slept through an entire night so what was the point of a schedule?

  Tenley grabbed a throw from the back of the leather sofa and wrapped it around her, then slowly walked down the hall to the guest-room door. Dog and Pup were still asleep on the floor, pulling guard duty, defending her safety. Perhaps the dogs knew better than she did about the dangers that lay beyond the door.

  “Up,” she whispered, snapping her fingers softly. They both rose, stretched, then trotted off to her bedroom. Holding her breath, Tenley opened the door and peeked inside.

  Alex’s face was softly illuminated by the bedside lamp and Tenley crossed the room to stand beside the bed. His limbs were twisted in the old quilt, a bare leg and arm exposed to the chilly air in the room. Tenley let her gaze drift down from his handsome face and tousled hair, to the smooth expanse of his chest and the rippled muscles of his belly.

  An ache deep inside her took her breath away and she felt an overwhelming need for physical contact, anything to make her feel again. She’d pushed aside her emotions for so long that the only way to access them was to lose herself in pleasure. Until now, all she really required was a man who wouldn’t ask for anything more than sex. But now, watching Alex sleep, she yearned for a deeper connection, a way back from the dark place where she’d lived for so long.

  Was he the light she was looking for? Tenley rubbed her eyes with her fingers. Then reaching out, she held her hand close to his skin, surprised at the heat he generated. If she were warm and safe, she could forget the dream, forget the guilt. All she needed was just a few minutes of human contact.

  A shiver skittered through her and without considering the consequences, she lay down beside him, tucking her backside into the curve of his body. Tenley felt him stir behind her and she closed her eyes, waiting to see what might happen.

  He pushed up on his elbow and gently smoothed his hand along her arm. She glanced over her shoulder to find a confused expression on his face. Slowly, she rolled onto her back, their gazes still locked. Then, Tenley slipped her hand around his nape and gently pulled him closer, until their lips touched.

  The kiss sent a slow surge of warmth through her body as he gently explored her mouth with his tongue, teasing and testing until she opened fully to his assault. With a low moan, he pulled her body beneath his. They fit perfectly against each other and Tenley arched into him, desperate to feel more.

  The memories of the nightmare slowly gave way to a tantalizing pleasure. Alex ran his hand along her leg and beneath the T-shirt, then stopped suddenly, as if surprised that she wore nothing beneath. Giving him permission to continue, she slipped her fingers beneath the waistband of his boxers, searching for an intimate spot to explore.

  But as the touching grew more intense, the clothing they wore seemed to get in the way. Frantic to feel his naked body against hers, Tenley sat up and tugged her T-shirt over her head, then tossed it aside. She heard his breath catch and she smiled. “It feels better without clothes.”

  He grinned, then skimmed his boxers off, revealing the extent of his arousal. Unafraid to take what she wanted, Tenley wrapped her fingers around his hard shaft and gently began to stroke him. The caress brought a moan from deep in
his throat and his fingers tangled in her hair as he drew her into another long, deep kiss.

  “Am I awake or am I dreaming?” he asked, his lips soft against hers, his voice ragged.

  “You’re dreaming,” she whispered.

  “It doesn’t feel like a dream,” he countered. He cupped her breast with his palm and ran his thumb over her nipple. “You’re warm and soft. I can hear you and taste you.”

  “Close your eyes,” Tenley said. “And don’t open them until I get back.”

  She crawled off the bed, but he grabbed her hand to stop her retreat. “Don’t leave.”

  “I’ll be right back. I promise. Close your eyes.”

  He did as he was told and Tenley hurried out of the room to the bathroom. She rummaged through the cabinet above the sink until she found the box of condoms, then pulled out a string of plastic packets. When she returned to the room, he was sitting up in bed, waiting for her. She held up the condoms. “I think we might need these.”

  He chuckled. “All of those?”

  Tenley felt a blush of embarrassment. It had been a while since she’d had a man in her bed. Once might not be enough. “Yes,” she said. “All of them.”

  “I think you might be overestimating my abilities,” he teased.

  “And you might be underestimating mine,” she replied.

  When she got close to the bed, he grabbed her hand and yanked her on top of him. “Tell me what you want. I’ll do my best to comply.”

  She wanted to lose herself in the act, to let her mind drift and her body take flight. She wanted to forget the past and the present and future and just exist in a haze of pleasure. She wanted the warmth and touch of another human being. And most of all, she wanted that wonderful, exhilarating feeling of release with a man moving deep inside her.

  She tore a packet off the strip and opened it, then, with deliberate care, smoothed it down over his erection. Without any hesitation, Tenley straddled his hips and lowered herself on top of him. When he was buried to the hilt, she sighed. “This is what I want,” she murmured, her eyes closed, her pulse racing.

  “Me, too,” he whispered.

  ALEX HADN’T BEEN prepared for how good it would feel. Maybe because it had all been so unexpected. He’d always taken his time charming a woman, knowing that once he got her to bed, his interest would soon wane. But from the moment Tenley had lain down beside him, Alex knew something remarkable was about to happen.

  This wasn’t some game he was playing, a diversion that he found interesting until something better came along. This was pure, raw desire, stripped of all artifice and expectations. He closed his eyes and sighed, reveling in the feel of her warmth surrounding him.

  He didn’t care what it meant or where it would go after this. All he knew was that he wanted to possess her, even it if was just for an hour or two on a snowy January night.

  His fingers tangled in her hair and he drew her to his mouth. Though she didn’t possess any of the attributes he normally found attractive in a woman, he couldn’t seem to get enough of her. Her skin was pale, but incredibly soft. And her breasts, though small, were perfect. She was everything he’d never had before—and never wanted. Alex smoothed his hands over her chest and down her torso to her hips. Then he sat up, wrapping her legs around his waist and burying his face in the curve of her neck.

  Tenley moved against him, her head tipped forward and her eyes closed. Her hair fell across her face and he reached up and brushed it aside, watching as desire suffused her features. Though he wanted to surrender to his own passion, Alex found it far more fascinating to watch her.

  The intensity of her expression made him wonder what was going through her mind. She seemed lost in her need, searching for release in an almost desperate way. He reached down between them and touched her. A soft cry slipped from her lips and Alex knew he could give her what she wanted.

  Her breath came in deep gasps and he focused on the sound, trying to delay the inevitable. And then, she was there, dissolving into spasms, her body driving down once more, burying him deep inside her.

  It was all Alex could take, watching her orgasm overwhelm her. He surrendered to the sensations racing through his body and a moment later, found his own release.

  Tenley nestled up against him, her arms draped around his neck, her lips pressed to his ear. “Oh, that was nice,” she whispered.

  “Umm,” he replied, too numb to put together a coherent sentence. “Very nice.”

  She drew back, a wicked smile curling her lips. “You want to do it again?”

  “No, not quite yet,” he said with a chuckle. “Just let me catch my breath for a second.” Alex wrapped his hands around her waist and pulled her down beside him, dragging her leg up over his hip. “This is a nice way to spend a snowy night.” She shivered and Alex rubbed her arm. “Are you cold?”

  Tenley shook her head. “Would you like some hot chocolate? I feel like some.” She crawled out of bed and walked to the door, naked. “Are you coming? It makes a really good nightcap.”

  With a groan, Alex rolled out of bed. First, incredible sex and then hot cocoa. He didn’t know much about her, but she was a study in contradictions. Grabbing the quilt off the bed, Alex wrapped it around himself and followed her to the kitchen.

  The room was dark, lit only by the flames flickering in the fireplace. She opened the refrigerator and he stood and stared at her body, so perfect in the harsh white light. “You are beautiful,” he said.

  “No,” Tenley replied. “You don’t have to say things like that to me. I don’t need reassurance. I wanted that as much as you did.”

  “I’m just telling you what I think,” Alex said. “You don’t take compliments well, do you?”

  “No,” she said. “They make me…uncomfortable.”

  “Personally, I love compliments,” he teased.

  She poured milk into a pan and set it on the stove. The burner flamed blue and she turned it to a low simmer. “I think you have nice eyes,” she said. “And I like your mouth.”

  “Thank you,” he replied. “I like your mouth, too.”

  “Thank you,” she said.

  “See, that wasn’t so bad.”

  “The key to making good hot chocolate is in the chocolate. You have to use real cocoa and sugar, not those powdered mixes.”

  He sat down on a stool and wrapped the quilt more tightly around him. “I was always of the opinion that marshmallows were the key. You can’t use the small ones. You have to use the big ones. They melt slower.”

  Tenley opened a cabinet above the stove and pulled out a bag of jumbo marshmallows, then tossed them at him. “I totally agree. Bigger is better.”

  “Oh, another compliment. Thank you.”

  She giggled. “You’re welcome.” Tenley turned back to the stove and Alex got up and circled around the island to stand behind her. He wrapped the quilt around her, pulling her body back against his. Just watching her move had made him hard again.

  She tipped her head as he pressed his lips to her neck. “Why do you smell so good? What is that?”

  “Soap?” she said. “Shampoo.”

  “I like it.” The women he’d known had always smelled like a perfume counter. But Tenley smelled clean and fresh. He closed his eyes and drew a deep breath, trying to commit the scent to memory. “I’m glad you came into my room,” he whispered.

  She turned to face him, then pushed up on her toes and gently touched her lips to his. “It’s too cold to sleep alone.” Tenley brushed his hair out of his eyes and smiled. “Cocoa. I need cocoa.”

  After she’d retrieved a container from a nearby cabinet, Tenley measured out the cocoa and stirred it into the milk, before adding a generous handful of sugar. Then she picked up the pan and poured the steaming drinks into two huge mugs that were nearly full of marshmallows.

  “Let’s sit by the fire,” she said, grabbing the mugs.

  Alex followed her, spreading the quilt out on the floor in front of the hearth. She seemed j
ust as comfortable naked as she did clothed, stretching out on her stomach and offering him a tempting view of her backside.

  “What are you doing here?” he asked.

  She took a sip of her hot chocolate, then licked the melted marshmallow from her upper lip. “Relaxing?”

  “That’s not what I meant. I meant, here, all alone, in this cabin. Why isn’t there someone here with you?”

  She rolled over and sat up. “Like a roommate?”

  “Like a man,” he said.

  “I like being alone. I don’t really need a man.” She paused. “Not that I don’t enjoy having you here.”

  The words were simple and without a doubt, the truth. “I can always head back out into the storm, if you’d rather be alone,” he offered.

  “No. It’s nice to have company every now and then.”

  “Someone to talk to?”

  “Someone to touch,” she said. Tenley reached out and placed her hand on his chest. “Aren’t there times when you crave physical contact?” She paused. “Never mind. I suppose you just go find a woman when that happens, right? Men have it easy. No one questions your need for sex.”

  “And they question yours?”

  “Not they. Me. I guess that comes with being a female. We aren’t supposed to want it like men do.”

  “And do you want it?” Alex asked.

  “I’m not afraid to admit that I enjoy it,” she said. “Sex makes me feel…alive.”

  “Good to know,” Alex said. He took her mug from her hand and set it down on the floor, then cupped her face in his hands. “You are the strangest girl I’ve ever met.”

  “Weird strange?”

  “Fascinating strange,” he replied.

  He gently pushed her back until she lay on the quilt. Tenley stretched her arms over her head, her body arching sinuously beneath his touch. Taking his time, he traced a line from her neck to her belly with his lips.

  He knew how to bring a woman to the edge and back again, and he wanted to do that for Tenley. His fingers found the damp spot between her legs. She responded immediately, her body arching, her breath coming in shallow gasps.