Shallow Graves

by Jeffery Deaver

  "But it wasn't your fault."

  "Yes, it was. I kept supplying him. It was in the film's budget. Under 'Miscellaneous Cast-related Expenses.'"

  "Was that when your wife left you?"

  He smiled. "No, it was a little after."

  Meg said, "That was six years ago, Pellam. You mean nobody would let you work? I don't mean this bluntly but it wasn't the end of the world."

  "Well, it's funny what qualifies for the end of the world. A year in the Q-that's San Quentin. That's one way to define it. Believe me, that's definitely a way to define the end of the world."

  "I'm sorry, John." She touched his arm. This was a different touch. Softer. Closer.

  His laugh was bitter. "Hell, there were publicists in L.A.'d shake my hand and say, 'Fucking great promotion idea-you kill the star. Isn't a newspaper in the country won't do a story about you.'" He paused, listening to the mumble of the coffee machine. "Sure, I probably could have gotten it together after I got out. I'd lost a lot of contacts but that wasn't the problem. The problem was I just didn't care. I had no desire to direct any more. So I got a job scouting locations."

  "I don't know what to say."

  He walked away from her. "It's temporary. Things'll get better."

  "You've got to watch that," she said.

  "What?"

  "Saying that-things are only temporary. Your life could be over before you know it." She said this knowingly.

  "I like scouting," Pellam said.

  "You don't think your camper's just a place you're hiding out?"

  "We all have places we hide out. Mine just happens to have wheels."

  "Exactly what are you doing here, Pellam? We aren't going to get ourselves a movie here in Cleary. You aren't real interested in colored leaves. What do you want?"

  Pellam reached into his sock and pulled out the clear packet of drugs that the bear had planted on him last night.

  Meg glanced at it several times, her eyes flipping back and forth between the powder and his face. "What's that?"

  "A gift to me. I think from the same place Sam got that stuff he took." He explained to her about the attack the night before. "One of them planted it on me."

  "No! Why?"

  "So Moorhouse could throw the book at me and have more leverage to get me out of town." He saw her shocked look. "Oh, the mayor's not behind it. Someone else is."

  "Who?"

  "Whoever didn't want the movie made here." He looked at her. "Whoever's behind those drugs that Sam got. Whoever killed Marty. That's what I'm doing here. That's why I'm not leaving until I find out who it is."

  "In Cleary…" She shook her head. "This is the town where every other car has a red ribbon on the rear-view mirror."

  Pellam shook his head, frowning.

  "Mothers Against Drunk Driving," Meg said. "The grocery bags at the Grand Union say, 'Say No to Drugs.'"

  Pellam opened the packet, sniffed it.

  She said, "Why didn't they find it?"

  "I swallowed it. Then I got it back last night after they searched me, by a well-known biological process there's no need to go into on this fine morning."

  "Jesus, Pellam. What if it'd broken open? You could've died."

  "I couldn't really take a felony possession count," He nodded at the printouts.

  "Why didn't you just flush it?"

  "Sometimes, they test the water in jails."

  She smiled. "I can't exactly see Tom testing the John water for drugs."

  Pellam laughed. "Who knows what kind of kits he got mail order from Small Town Cop Monthly he's just dying to use."

  He stepped to the sink, opened the packet and let the contents disappear into the garbage disposal, under the smiling observation of a cut-out wooden goose wearing a bonnet. "I know people'd cry real tears, see me do this."

  Pellam dried his hands then walked up to a tall breakfront. He didn't know anything about antiques. He stood awkwardly in front of the elaborate piece. "This is really something."

  The breakfast rolls came out and she set them in front of him. He ate two right away. They had a strongly yeasty flavor. Homemade.

  They sipped coffee in an awkward silence for a few minutes. He was on his third roll. "The best compliment there is," she said and ate one herself. "I never gain weight. Oh, I'm not being vain. It's just a fact."

  Pellam walked into the hall. Looking at the wallpaper, the furniture. Houses.

  He knew what Tommy Bernstein would have said about his little place on Beverly Glen north of Sunset Boulevard. Shit, you got a fallee house, man. You be in trouble… Houses on the top of the canyons were faller houses; at the bottom, fallee. You gonna get squashed in the 'quake, he'd have said. Sell that sucker now. He said to Meg, "I'll bet you have nice holidays here."

  "Holidays?" Meg paused. "I guess so. Quiet. Just the three of us. And friends sometimes. A house like this needs big families. It was different when I was growing up. Family all over the place." Her voice faded. Then she said, "I have a confession."

  "Okay."

  "The accident, when I ran into you?"

  "I'm familiar."

  "It wasn't an accident. Oh, I didn't want to hit you. But I wanted to meet you. I saw you walk up the sidewalk and I drove up there on purpose. I was going to skid the car or something. Pretend to drive off the road. So I could meet you." She was playing with her cocktail ring. Five thousand dollars of pressurized carbon spun obsessively on a beautiful, thin finger.

  He asked, "Why?"

  "I thought maybe I could get a part in the movie."

  "That's why you came to see me in the hospital?"

  "No."

  He was standing right next to her. She turned, their eyes met. Outside, miles away, the cracks of shotguns rolled into silence. She said, "Well, maybe."

  He leaned down and kissed her.

  Just like that.

  "No," she said. But that was the only resistance she offered. Her arms were around him, kissing back, and pulling him against her.

  Then she stepped back.

  "No," she said. And this time she was speaking to herself and, unlike him, she decided to obey the command.

  She walked back to the kitchen, stood at the window, wiped the sink absently.

  Pellam had long ago given up apologizing for impulse. He followed her, picked up his cup, poured more coffee.

  "The thing is." Meg didn't look at him, stared out the window. "I'm having an affair."

  He set the cup down.

  Good job, Pellam. You can pick 'em like nobody else. Fall for a woman who's got two men in her life, while you're being chased around the ginkgo trees by a drugged-out flower child (and you, with an unblushing rail-thin Hollywood businesswoman you never call waiting at home for you).

  He saw she was organizing her thoughts. Confession time. Things to get off her beautiful freckled chest. He sat down again. This might take some time. He knew that straying spouses and bad moviemakers share the same obsessive flaw: excessive explanation.

  "Who is he?"

  "A man here in town."

  "Doesn't word get around?"

  "We've been excruciatingly careful. See, Keith's a wonderful person. He's Joe solid. He loves Sam. He's never so much as raised his voice to me. He dotes. He provides. But do I feel magic? No. But should you feel magic?"

  "I heard this line once: a relationship's like a fire. You got a few months of flame, a year of embers, then the rest smoke."

  "It's comfortable."

  "There's a lot to be said for comfort."

  "But I want more, Pellam. Or I thought I wanted more. This thing with Sam, the drugs. It scared me bad. It shook me up. I didn't get an hour's sleep last night."

  "He's okay, isn't he?"

  "Oh, yeah, he'll be fine. It just made me feel so vulnerable. Here I was looking for some-" She glanced at him. "- for some flame and it almost seemed that Sam getting sick was revenge for that."

  "You love him? This other guy?"

  A beat of a pause. "I th
ought I did. But I don't think so."

  "You love Keith?"

  "I know I love Sam and my house. I think I love Keith. I'm tired of having an affair. I shouldn't be saying this to you, should I?" Her eyes were wide, and she seemed very young.

  Pellam smiled. "Say whatever you want. I like listening."

  "Keith's so smart. He doesn't… It's not like he makes me feel stupid, not intentionally, I mean. But I feel stupid."

  "Why do you say that?"

  "I'm just not, well, intelligent."

  "What does that mean?" Pellam asked. "That you can't do calculus in your head? Or recite the periodic table of the elements?"

  "Keith tries to tell me about his business, I don't follow what he's saying. I try, but-"

  "Meg, he's a chemist. Why should you understand chemistry?"

  "Well, politics too. And I don't read a lot. I try but it's just beyond me."

  "You're talking in generalities. What's beyond you?"

  There was a pop and a flash of light behind them. Meg jumped, then laughed. A bulb in one of the kitchen's wall sconces had burned out. Meg pulled the shade off, blew on the bulb to cool it and unscrewed it. "When I was a girl, I was afraid of the light. Isn't that odd? Most kids are afraid of the dark. But I hated the light. There was no door to my room and the light from the living room, that white-blue light from bare bulbs, would glare and keep me up. Even when I was older, when my mother put a sheet up for a door, that didn't keep the light out. You know why I hated it? It was that when they fought, my parents' voices seemed to come from that light. I'd hide under the blankets. Mother thought I was afraid of ghosts or something. I was afraid of the light. That's what I feel like now. Light is so hard to escape from." Meg changed the bulb. "I feel you're some kind of darkness." She laughed. "I'm sure this is coming out all wrong."

  For a time, after he started scouting, Pellam had wondered why this always happened. Why people talked to him as much as they did, bared their hidden secrets and passions. Priests didn't hear the kinds of things Pellam heard. Then he realized it wasn't so much that he was a good listener; it was that he was safe. They could spill their guts and he'd be gone in a week or two. Their secrets with him.

  "I knew you didn't have anything to do with Sam," she said. "I really did." The words were halting. Women are usually better apologists than men. But Meg wasn't.

  "What're you going to do?" he asked.

  "I'm going to stop seeing him, my lover."

  "Is that what you want to do?"

  "It's what I have to do…" She looked at her watch. "Pellam, can I ask a favor?"

  He didn't think it was going to involve freckles on her chest or anywhere else. He'd given up on that. He said, "Sure."

  "Keith's going to be working all day. But Sam'll be home in a while. Could you stay around here? Did you have any plans?"

  "Nothing to speak of."

  "Would you? We could all have Sunday dinner. Maybe you could do some shooting with Sam. He's got a.22 and a little.410 shotgun we gave him last year."

  Pellam said, "I'd love to."

  "Really?"

  "Really."

  Then she was smiling like a sassy schoolgirl. She looked at her watch. "We've got an hour before I pick him up. There's something we could do together-just you and me."

  Where was this leading?

  She took his hand and pulled him toward the door.

  "Where're we going?" he asked.

  "Raking leaves."

  "Are you serious?"

  She pulled him outside. "Sure, come on. It's fun."

  "I haven't raked leaves for twenty years. They don't have leaves in L.A. And even if they did, I wouldn't rake them."

  He resisted at first. But here she was, a beautiful woman with whom he'd shared secrets. And so he said, "I guess."

  He paused on the back porch. Looked out on what must've been four or five acres of colored leaves. She tossed him a rake.

  He studied it for a moment. Then said, "I don't know how it works."

  The glint of light caught the deputy's eye.

  He pulled the Plymouth squad car off the road and eased it into the late-morning shade of a sugar maple, scarred from past years' syrup spigots. He climbed out of the car, pulled his lavender-tinted sunglasses on and began walking through the tall grass and forsythia whips. He'd lived in and around Cleary all his life and knew the customs and routines-where people tended to be and when you could expect to see them there and when you couldn't.

  And one place you didn't expect to see a car parked was in this field on Sunday morning.

  He climbed over what was left of a low stone fence and walked through a row of more maples to a narrow dirt road that led into some woods and just stopped about halfway through.

  The car was parked exactly in the center of this road. The deputy paused twenty yards away and looked at it. A cheap Nissan. White. New York plates and a Cleary Tigers bumper sticker. The reason he stopped wasn't because he was noting all these details. He stopped because he didn't want to see what was in the car.

  Figuring he'd deduced what had happened. Two high schoolers had spent their last hours on earth making out only to doze off and die, thanks to a bum exhaust pipe. That was the only possible reason anyone would park on this road on Saturday night and the only reason anyone would still be here now.

  He took a breath to calm his stuttering heart and walked forward. He found out that he was wrong. There was another reason a car was parked in the middle of this deserted road. Because the driver had been murdered.

  The boy had been shot three times in the chest with a small-caliber gun. His face was serene and there was hardly any blood on the body. Which meant he'd died quickly. The boy's face was pressed against the passenger window, away from the deputy, and his hand gripped the door handle. There was no lividity-sinking of the blood to the lower extremities of the body. This meant that he'd died recently.

  Damn. His heart sank. The deputy walked around to the other side of the car and looked at the face. He recognized Ned Harper. A high school boy, a football player and, he believed, a one-eighty-division wrestler. He'd remembered that he'd seen Ned's father driving the Nissan around town. He wondered why the parents hadn't phoned him in missing. Maybe when your son was an eighteen-year-old football player, you assumed he'd be out late and didn't start to worry for a day or two. The deputy's daughter was two years old and he worried about her constantly. He didn't think there'd ever come a time when he didn't.

  Who'd do something like this?

  Maybe the boy'd picked up a hitchhiker. Maybe an escaped prisoner from Sing-Sing down in Ossining. But then why would he leave the car? Maybe it was an accident. He'd been hunting with a friend, the gun went off and the other boy panicked. But, no, the deputy realized. That couldn't be it. Not with three separate wounds.

  He walked in a slow circle, looking for obvious clues, but he knew the sheriff would take charge of that and call the county in too. Then he realized he was just stalling, not wanting to make the call to report it.

  The sun shot off the slanted window, a dove called from deep in the moist forest. The deputy walked slowly back to the car, praying he wouldn't be the one elected to tell the boy's parents.

  18

  At four-thirty Pellam remembered Janine. "Oh, hell."

  Sam looked up. Probably thinking that he'd pointed the muzzle of the single-shot, break-action shotgun the wrong way or hadn't remembered one of the firearm safety rules Pellam had told him.

  For the past couple hours they'd been plinking away with shotguns. Occasionally Pellam would throw a can or two into the air and Sam, sweating with the effort, would calculate the lead. Pellam noticed the determination on the boy's face. Once he overheard Sam mutter something as he fired.

  "Ned" was what it sounded like. Pellam had asked him what he'd said but he just shook his head and said, "Can you throw another one please?"

  "Got to call it quits, son," Pellam now said. "I've got an errand back in town."


  Inside the kitchen Sam said, "Mom, you should've seen me."

  "I did. I was watching out the window."

  "How'd I do, Mr Pellam?"

  "Did good, really good," Pellam said. "You've got to clean your weapon, Sam. But I've got to run to town. We'll do it when I get back." He looked at Meg and there must have been something in his words or-goddamn it, was he blushing? He looked at her coy smile and said, "You mind dropping me in town and I'll bring the camper back?"

  "Hey," Sam said, his high voice cracking into an even higher register. "Can I come?"

  Meg smiled sweetly, "Oh, and can I come too?"

  "Probably better if you didn't."

  She let him swing for a minute then said, "Maybe you've got some other friends in town. Some people I don't know."

  "Shouldn't take more than fifteen minutes."

  Meg smiled innocently. "Fifteen? That's pretty fast."

  He gave her an exasperated glance.

  The phone rang.

  Meg kept her eyes on Pellam as she made a slow turn and walked to it.

  "Hi, hon… Aw, no. Come on. What? Problems?"

  "Hi, Daddy!" Sam shrieked, jumping for the phone. "I shot a hundred cans…"

  Meg winced and waved him down. "I'm making a roast. You can't make it?" She sighed. "Okay. All right. We'll save some for you. Love you."

  "Bye, Daddy!"

  To Pellam she said, "He's in a bind at the plant. He's got to work most of the night. Sunday, can you believe it? He said he'll be back at eleven… So we eat a trois." Sam said, "What's that, Mom? Sounds yucky."

  "It means there'll be three of us for dinner."

  "Oh, I thought it was this weird food you were going to make." To Pellam he said, "Mom makes this totally strange stuff sometimes. All slippery-"

  "Sam."

  "… and these gross colors."

  "Young man, that's enough."

  "And her apple butter…" He headed for the porch. "It starts out brownish. Then it gets kind of green."