The Color Master: Stories
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The cake, at first, had remained in the tree. Lodged in the branch nook of the old oak where she’d left it. But various birds found it in a few short days—they could smell its bready sweetness from yards away—and they pecked so hard at the napkin that the cake fell from the nook and rolled out of the linen. On the ground, the birds pecked it into nothing. It replenished. They pecked. It replenished. The cake wanted to satisfy the birds, so it made itself into a seeded type, and the birds went at it with new vigor. The cake replenished. The birds were so full they hopped off, wobbling, but they returned with eagerness in the morning, and the next morning, and the birds that lived near the oak tree became fat and listless. They could hardly fly. All they did all day long was peck at the cake.
The cake had grown old. It had been made so many years ago, and it had been so many cakes in its time.
I will never die, thought the cake to itself, in even simpler terms, as cakes did not have sophisticated use of language.
On her walk back, the woman saw it on the ground. She recognized her napkin, checked blue against the dirt. She was heading home. She was not sure if she could really return, or how to do it, but she wanted to try. She missed her husband, and the sight of him throwing up her uncle had filled her with a sore and tender love. There was the cake, in seeded form now, and she felt sorry for it.
With her pointed stick, she dug a hole in the ground. Now, dear cake, she said, gently burying it, patting the dirt. At least you can rest. At least you will not be endlessly pecked and diminished.
The birds found it in a day. A cake like that? Let that kind of thing go? They thought not. They scrabbled in the dirt and dragged it out with their beaks. They had missed it, for that missing day. They pecked with unusual ardor. A few worms had already attached to its bottom side and were eating it too, and the cake had formed its back side into a kind of dirt cake and its front into seed, and it would replenish itself according to the ratio of its eaters.
It went on like this for a while, and a few of the birds died early, from overeating and lack of flight. New birds came and went. Same with the worms.
The woman returned to her house, and her husband opened the door, widening it when he saw it was her, and they sat at the kitchen table. It did not feel wrong. She got up and took her items out of her dirty bag and piled them into the sink for laundry. That moment a few days later when their arms touched over by the guest room? They ate their stew bowls together. They walked formally into the living room, sat on a sofa, and stumbled through a conversation. At night, she climbed onto his chest to sleep and he held her in place like a belt. Later, they took a few trips to a waterfall, and a glacier, and befriended an ogre who ran a school. After many years, the woman died of natural causes, and a few years after that, the ogre died. Eventually, his mistresses died. Down on the ground, in the people village, over decades, the war men and women died. The human girl who had escaped her early death died, across the land, over by the ocean, in her shack of blue bowls and rocking chairs. The witch who had originally made the cake and made up the spell and given it as a gift to her beloved ogre-friend died.
The cake went on and on.
Time passed, and the climate shifted. The trees and grasses faded, and the land grew dry. Birds stopped flying overhead. Reptiles ate the cake but eventually died out. The worms dried into dust. A quarter mile away, the magic cloak had stayed stuffed in its tree, hidden from view over many, many years. Some wind had nudged it into open air, and now, half-tucked in the broken branches of a dead tree trunk, was a shining bright coat-shaped area of dappled light through foliage. It showed dapple long after the sun had stopped shining through any leaves, because there were no more leaves.
Neither could move, but the cake felt a sense of the presence of the cloak, and thought it might be a new eater coming to find the cake, and the cake, always wanting to please—the cake who had found a way to survive its endlessness by recreating its role over and over again—tried to figure out in its cake way what this light-dappled object might want to eat. So it became darkness. A cake of darkness. It did not have to be human food. It did not have to be digestible through a familiar tract. It lay there on the dirt, waiting, a shimmering cake of darkness. Through time, and wind, and earthquakes, and chance, at last the cloak fell out of the tree and blew across the land and happened upon the cake, where it ate its darkness and extinguished its own dappled light. The cloak disappeared into night and was not seen again, as it was only a piece of coat-shaped darkness now and could no longer be spotted so easily, had there been any eyes left to see it. It floated and joined with nowhere. Darkness was overtaking everything anyway. Pouring over the land and sky. The cake itself, still in the shape of darkness, sat on the hillside.
What’s left? said the cake. It thought in blocks of feeling. It felt the thick darkness all around it. What is left to eat me? To take me in?
Darkness did not want to eat more darkness, not especially. Darkness did not care for carrot cake, or apple pie. Darkness did not seem interested in a water cake, or a cake of money. Only when the cake filled with light did it come over. The darkness, circling around the light, devouring the light. But the cake kept refilling, as we know. This is the spell of the cake. And the darkness, eating light, and again light, and again light, lifted.
Acknowledgments
Big thanks to the core of usual suspects, including Bill Thomas and Henry Dunow, Coralie Hunter and Yishai Seidman and Mark Miller, plus additional indebtedness for new help and advisement from Sarah Bynum, Mark Danielewski, Susan Laemmle, and Amy Cutler for her wonderfully evocative painting Tiger Mending.
I’d also like to express my deep appreciation to the various editors at magazines and literary journals and anthologies and radio shows who are true champions of the short story. Including, but of course not just: Kate Bernheimer, John Siciliano, Andy Hunter, Halimah Marcus, Steve Erickson, Rob Spillman, Win McCormack, Will Allison, Hannah Tinti, Matthew Fish-bane, Dave Eggers, Jordan Bass, Brock Clarke, Nicola Mason, Katherine Minton, the late Isaiah Sheffer, Lydia Ship, Chloe Plaunt, Jim Shepard, Steven Lee Beeber, Adrian Todd Zuniga, Jeff VanderMeer, Sumanth Prabhaker, Nathaniel Rich, Aaron Hicklin, David Milofsky, Bob Fogarty, Wendy Lesser, and Lee Montgomery.
The stories in this collection were previously published, sometimes in slightly different form, in the following publications: “Appleless” in The Fairy Tale Review; “The Red Ribbon” in Electric Literature; “Tiger Mending”—based on an Amy Cutler painting—first in Black Book and then in Best American Non-Required Reading; “Faces” in The Paris Review; “On a Saturday Afternoon” in nerve.com and Black Clock; “The Fake Nazi” in Ploughshares; “Lemonade” and “Americca” in Tin House; “Bad Return” in One Story; “Origin Lessons” on Studio 360 and in The Chattahoochee Review; “The Doctor and the Rabbi” in Tablet; “Wordkeepers” in McSweeney’s; “The Color Master” in The Cincinnati Review and My Mother She Killed Me, My Father He Ate Me (New York: Penguin Books, 2010); “A State of Variance” in Awake! A Reader for the Sleepless and Opium; and “The Devourings” forthcoming in an anthology of new myths from Penguin.
A Note About the Author
AIMEE BENDER is the author of the novels The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake, a New York Times bestseller, and An Invisible Sign of My Own, and of the collections The Girl in the Flammable Skirt and Willful Creatures. Her works have been widely anthologized and have been translated into sixteen languages. She lives in Los Angeles.
Other titles by Aimee Bender available in eBook format
The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake • 9780385533225
Willful Creatures • 9780307493255
An Invisible Sign of My Own • 9780307804471
The Girl in the Flammable Skirt • 9780307804464
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The Particular Sadness of Lemon Cake
Willful Creatures
An Invisible Sign of My Own
The Girl in the Flammable Skirt