Grey Mask

by Patricia Wentworth

  “I might have been killed,” she said.

  “Are you hurt, miss?”

  “I might have been killed,” said Greta with a sob. “Someone pushed me, and I fell right under that horrible bus.”

  “Any injuries, miss?”

  “N-no,” said Greta. She gazed down at the drabbled white skirt which her open coat disclosed. “Oh, my frock’s spoilt!”

  It was like a nightmare. When Archie came up with a taxi, Charles felt as if the whole thing had been going on for years and would continue to go on for ever. The interested crowd; the voice of the bus driver; Greta’s hysterical sobbing; and the policeman writing things down in a note-book. Just outside all this, Margaret standing under the arc-light. She had not spoken a word or moved to come to Greta.

  Charles touched her on the arm.

  “Come along-we want to get out of this. Freddy says he’ll walk, and Archie’s going the other way. I’ll take you home.”

  When he had put the girls into the taxi, Charles spoke for a moment to Archie Millar.

  “I’ll fix up a talk some other time-to-night won’t do.”

  It was only afterwards he thought it strange that Archie turned away without so much as a word.

  CHAPTER XXX

  Greta talked the whole way home:

  “Wasn’t it a frightful thing to happen? Didn’t I have a most frightfully narrow escape?”

  “How did it happen?” said Charles.

  “Margaret and I were going across, and Freddy was going with us, and I heard the bus coming and I said, ‘Oh!’ and Margaret said, ‘Don’t be silly,’ and I started to run. And someone pushed me frightfully hard, and I fell right under the bus.”

  She held Charles tightly by the hand; her fingers were warm and clinging. She went on talking:

  “I always did hate crossings, but now I shall hate them more than ever. Charles, it was frightful. Someone pushed me right under the bus.”

  “You must have slipped,” said Charles.

  He tried to draw his hand away, but she held it tight.

  “No, I didn’t-not till I was pushed. I was just beginning to run, and someone pushed me hard.”

  “Someone knocked against you in the crowd.”

  “They knocked me right down,” said Greta indignantly. “And I’ve got mud all over my face, and Margaret’s white dress that she lent me is simply ruined. Margaret, your white frock is quite spoilt. Isn’t it a pity? But it’s not my fault-is it?”

  She talked so much she did not even notice that Margaret did not speak at all. It was Charles for whom this silence came to be one of those unbearable things which have to be borne.

  Greta exclaimed with pleasure when, having paid the taxi, he came upstairs with them. Her fright was wearing off; she was now merely excited and pleased at having Charles to talk to. She was not at all pleased, however, at being told to go to bed.

  “I don’t want to. I want to sit up and talk-oh, for hours. Margaret, can’t we make coffee and have supper, just you and Charles and me? I’m frightfully hungry.”

  Margaret was standing over the dead fire. She spoke now without turning round. Her voice sounded as if her lips were dry.

  “There isn’t any coffee. You’d better go to bed.”

  “Oh!” said Greta in a disappointed tone.

  Charles put his hand on her shoulder and walked her to the door.

  “Run along-there’s a good child. Wash your face and go to bed. I want to talk to Margaret.”

  “Oh!” said Greta again. She pouted, looked at him through her eyelashes, and then suddenly showed all her very pretty teeth in a yawn.

  “Off with you!” said Charles, and shut the door.

  He came back to the hearth, Margaret had not moved, and for a long heavy minute Charles stood looking at her in silence. One arm lay on the mantelpiece. Her head was bent; she was looking down at the ashes of the fire. Her left hand hung straight at her side. The third finger would not have held his emerald now; the hand was thinner, whiter than it had been four years ago; it looked very white against the black dress.

  Charles stood there. Three things said themselves over and over in his mind: “ A street accident would be the safest way”; “Someone pushed me”; and, “All the perfumes of Arabia.”

  He looked at Margaret’s hand-Margaret’s white hand, hanging there as if all the life, all the strength had gone out of it.

  “Someone pushed me frightfully hard”; “ A street accident would be the safest plan”; “All the perfumes of Arabia cannot sweeten-”

  Margaret lifted her head.

  “It is late,” she said.

  “Yes.”

  She looked like Margaret carved in stone; there seemed to be no colour, no feeling, no emotion. She said, “Aren’t you going?” and Charles shook his head.

  “No-I want to talk to you.”

  “Yes, there was something I was going to say-but it’s too late.”

  “What were you going to say?”

  She had not looked at him at all; she did not look at him now. He could not see her eyes. She spoke in a dull voice:

  “When are you going to take her away?”

  “Do you mean Greta?”

  “I mean Margot Standing. When are you going to take her away? You had better take her away quickly.”

  At the first sound of her voice Charles became once more master of his own thoughts. The obsession of those three terrible sentences was gone. He said perhaps the last thing that she expected, and said it in quiet everyday tones:

  “Why did you break off our engagement?”

  She had been still before; but it seemed as if a hush came upon the stillness like the glaze of ice upon still water. There was a pause, so deep that very far off sounds came near and clamoured at Charles’ ears-a footstep a long way down the street; a motor horn two roads away; the sound of wet branches rubbing against each other from the tree whose yellow leaves he had watched falling-he could almost have heard them falling now.

  Then Margaret said slowly,

  “Do you want me to tell you that?”

  “I think so-I think it would be better if you did.”

  She moved her head a little. The movement said “No.” Her voice came faintly:

  “It won’t do any good.”

  “I want to know. I think you must tell me.”

  “Yes,” said Margaret, “I must-now. But it won’t do any good. Nothing will do any good. Only you must take her away. I can’t have her here. You’ll take her away to-morrow-won’t you?”

  Charles looked at her with a set face.

  “Tell me why you broke our engagement.”

  Just for a moment she stood where she was. Then she sat down in the nearest chair. It was the armchair affected by Greta; a novel lay on the floor beside it. Margaret sat down in the chair. She leaned forward, her elbows on her knees, her face screened by her hands.

  Charles remained standing.

  “Something happened to make you break your engagement. I want to know what it was.”

  “Yes-something happened.” She paused. “It’s very difficult to tell.”

  “Something happened after you got home from our dance that night, for I’ll swear-” He checked a rising note of passion, the memory of how they had parted.

  “Some of it happened before. I didn’t know it was happening-I didn’t know what did happen. It was that morning. I was in a hurry. I went into the study for something. You know Freddy used to write there before breakfast-those long letters he loved to send people. He always wrote them in the study before breakfast. No one was allowed to disturb him. It was a regular family joke. Well, I thought he must have finished, and I went in. He was standing on the other side of the room with his back to me, and-Charles, there was a hole in the wall.”

  “What!”

  “It was a safe. You know, lots of people have them; only I didn’t know there was such a thing in the house. He had taken down a picture that covered it. And he was rustling some papers,
so he didn’t hear me come in. I came right up to the table. And he didn’t hear me, so I stood there and waited for him to turn round. I wanted to ask him something-I forget what it was. I waited. I was rather curious too. There was a letter lying on the table-it caught my eye. You know, one wouldn’t ever think of Freddy’s letters being private- he used to pass them round. I noticed this one because it was written on such funny paper, like wrapping paper. I only saw one sentence, and I thought I had better not go on looking at it, so I moved back. And just then Freddy turned round. He was awfully startled. He thought he had locked the door, and he kept on saying how careless he was, and that it might have been one of the maids, and what was the good of a secret safe if everyone knew where it was? And he said would I promise not to tell anyone? And then I went away. I think perhaps he’d forgotten I was going to be out all day, because he said afterwards he tried to find me-I was out, you know, all day.”

  Charles knew. They were together on the river-a cloudless day that neither of them guessed was to be their last.

  Margaret went on. The words were coming more easily now. It was as if some frightful pressure of silence was at last finding relief.

  “I only just had time to dress. Freddy seemed quite pleased all evening. But when we got home, he let Mother go upstairs and he said he wanted to speak to me. I went into the study with him, and he began to cry. It-it was dreadful. I’d never seen him anything but cheerful before. I’d never seen a man cry. He sat down at the table and put his head in his hands and burst out crying.”

  She made a little pause; but Charles did not speak. She drew in her breath with a shiver and went on:

  “It was about my mother. He told me she was very ill. He said she did not know it herself. He said if she had any trouble or anxiety, it would kill her. And then he put his head in his hands and groaned and said he was her murderer.” Again the pause, the shivering breath. “I couldn’t understand what he meant. And all of a sudden he began to talk about my coming into the study that morning. He asked me if I had noticed a letter lying on the table. I had almost forgotten all about it. He kept on asking whether I had read any of it, and how much I had read. And I told him I had only seen one sentence and a name. And I asked him if it was the name of a race-horse.” Her voice sank and ceased.

  Charles stood dark and frowning above her. He spoke now, sharply.

  “What did you see?”

  Without looking at him and without answering, she took her hands from her face and spread them to the cold unlighted fire.

  Charles repeated his question:

  “What did you see?”

  “I can’t tell you-I mustn’t-I promised.”

  “What name did you see?”

  “I didn’t know it was a name-I didn’t know what it was.”

  “You saw a name. What was it?”

  “Grey Mask,” said Margaret in a whisper.

  After a moment Charles said, “Go on.”

  “He was dreadfully upset. He cried. After a bit he told me that when he was a boy he had got mixed up in a secret society. You know he lived abroad with his mother and never went to school or college. He said he got into bad company.” For the first time she looked at Charles. It was a look of appeal-for Freddy, not for herself. “You can imagine how it happened-you can imagine what Freddy was like as a boy.”

  Charles had nothing sympathetic to say about Freddy. He said nothing.

  “He joined this secret society. He didn’t tell me what it was for. He said it was political; but he said everyone who joined it signed a statement that implicated them in something they could be sent to prison for-they had to take an oath, and they had to sign a statement that they had committed some crime. It was all very carefully worked out. The things were things they could have done. It was to make it quite safe for the society. Freddy said he joined it when he was only seventeen-you know how a boy of that age will join anything that’s exciting. Well, he said after a few years he came over here, and he forgot all about it. And then he came into money, and they began to bother him. And he said he was in love with my mother, and he did foolish things to keep them quiet, so that they got a fresh hold on him. It was idiotic of him, but I don’t suppose Freddy could help it-I mean he’s like that. Then after he married Mother it got worse. I don’t know what they made him do-things he hated, and things that frightened him. He’d had a rotten time, he said.”

  “Why did he tell you all this?”

  “Because I had read that bit of the letter. He said they knew.”

  “How could they know?”

  Margaret looked up and then down again. Charles’ face was like a flint, all the features sharpened, the brows a black line.

  “I’m afraid Freddy must have told them.”

  “Go on,” said Charles in an expressionless voice.

  Margaret hurried a little.

  “He was afraid of them. He had been afraid of them for so many years he did not seem to have any will of his own. He told me the only thing I could do was to join them.”

  “So you joined them.” His tone was quite polite and casual. It touched some secret spring of pride in Margaret; for the first time a little warmth came over her, a spark of the old fire showed in her eyes.

  “I said what you would have said-what anyone would have said. I told him to be a man and stick it out. And he said it would kill Mother. I think we talked nearly all night. He told me some things I can’t tell you. They could have sent him to prison-he said they would if I refused to join. And he said it would kill Mother.” Margaret lifted her eyes to that hard face above her. They were very desolate, very tired; but the fire still burned. “It would have killed her- you won’t deny that-it would certainly have killed her.”

  Charles did not speak.

  “In the end I gave way. Freddy said it would be a form, just to make them feel safe. He had the statement all ready for me to sign.” Her lip lifted for an instant in the ghost of a smile. “I signed the statement, but I would not take any oath. I told Freddy it was no good-I wouldn’t do it; but if they would be satisfied with knowing they could ruin me if I talked, I’d give them that. I think I confessed to pilfering jewellery when I went out to dances. There were some of my friends’ names in the statement. It was frightfully cleverly done-the things really had been lost, and I could very easily have taken them. That frightened me afterwards, because I saw how clever they were. I saw how difficult it was for Freddy.” She stopped. There was a dead silence.

  When it had lasted an unbearable time, Charles said, still in that easy voice:

  “Aren’t you going to go on?”

  Margaret started a little. The cold and the silence had closed in upon her.

  “There isn’t anything more.”

  “I should have thought there was.”

  “I’ve told you.” Her voice was very tired.

  “You haven’t told me why you broke off our engagement.”

  “How could I go on with it?”

  “I’m afraid I don’t quite understand.”

  “How could I? I’d got into this awful tangle. I couldn’t let Freddy down. Even if I’d refused to join, it would have come to the same in the end for-for us-if there had been a scandal, if Freddy-I couldn’t have married you-could I? I couldn’t have dragged you into it. I couldn’t marry you when I knew there might be some awful smash one day. I looked every way, and there wasn’t any way out.” Her voice trembled into passion. “Do you think I wouldn’t have found a way out if there had been one to find? There wasn’t any way out. There wasn’t anything I could do to save-us.” The last words faltered.

  Margaret bent her head upon her hands. She was colder than she had ever been in her life. If only Charles would not hate her so! Nothing hurt her any more-she was too cold for that; but all the strength went out of her before this implacable resentment, and though everything in her failed, she had still to go on to the end. If he would understand a little and forgive! He did not love her any more; he was falling in love
with Margot Standing. Why need he go on hating her so much?

  “Thank you. It comes to this-you sacrificed yourself- me-everything, because Freddy had played the fool.” His tone was coldly amused.

  Margaret did not answer. “I must confess I thought I’d been cut out by something a little more romantic than Freddy.” He paused, laughed, and repeated, “Freddy! Good Lord! Freddy!” Then, quite suddenly, a violent passion came into his voice. “By heaven! I’ll never forgive you!” he said, and went out of the room and out of the flat.

  CHAPTER XXXI

  At eight o’clock next morning Charles Moray, calm and cheerful, rang the bell of the flat. It may be said that he was the last person in the world whom Margaret expected to see. He greeted her without any sign of embarrassment.

  “Morning, Margaret-thought I’d catch you before you went off. I suppose Greta isn’t up. You might just tell her to hurry and pack anything she’s got-no, she hasn’t got anything-has she? But perhaps you won’t mind lending her what she wants for a day or two.”

  “You’re taking her away?”

  It was dark in the tiny passage. The early morning cold chilled everything. He could not see her face; she was just a black shadow. A chink of light showed through the unfastened sitting-room door.

  “Yes-I thought I’d better let you know before you went off.”

  “Where are you taking her?”

  “D’you know, I hadn’t thought of telling you that,” said Charles. He had one thought only-to strike hard, to strike deep, to break her pride.

  Margaret had no pride left to break; it was all broken, and her heart too. She made no answer, only turned away from him into the sitting-room.

  He came in after her and shut the door. His manner changed.

  “Will you tell me that it is safe for you to know where she is? Will you tell me that? Is it safe?”

  Margaret faced him, and faced the light. She could do that.

  Words that he had not planned rushed to Charles’ lips:

  “Who pushed her yesterday? She said she was pushed. You heard her. I want to know who pushed her.”