The Beast Is an Animal

by Peternelle van Arsdale

  As they neared the shack, the sisters smelled blood, and pain and fear as well, but this wasn’t pleasant to their noses and their footsteps quickened. The door to the shack was agape. Perhaps the old goat had nudged it open in the night. The goat’s blood pooled thickly just in the spot where she had often lain on sunny days. The wolves had dragged the rest of her away.

  The older sister felt nothing. The younger sister had the glimmer of a memory of something called sadness, but it floated just out of her reach. They were girls no longer, nor were they women. They had become something else. They found that they had little need of food and water anymore. There were so many frightened, uncertain souls in the world just waiting to be eaten up. And all the girls had to do was breathe them in.

  Their names were Angelica and Benedicta. And they were the soul eaters.

  ONE

  Nights were long for Alys.

  And they were always the same. Her mother washed her and dropped her flannel nightshift over her head. She tucked Alys between linen sheets and under wool blankets that felt heavy on Alys’s restless limbs. Then came Alys’s night-long entrapment by darkness and quiet and the absence of sleep.

  Alys looked longingly after Mam as she left the room. Mam turned back once and smiled at Alys, then closed the door behind her, snuffing the glow of light from the warm kitchen. Alys imagined her father sitting out there, pipe in mouth, toes near the fire. Then she lay in bed listening to the sounds of the house fall around her—the low murmur of her parents, the clattering of a dish, the footsteps on wood floors.

  Then silence.

  She could hear them breathing. Mam’s soft sighs, Dad’s snores, a moan.

  Alys was seven now, and she’d been this way for as long as she could remember. She dreaded the night.

  If only she were allowed to get out of bed. It was the knowing that she couldn’t get out, that was what made sleeping so impossible for her. Told to lie still and sleep, Alys felt the strongest urge to do exactly otherwise. Her eyes instead flew open and stayed that way. She had no siblings so she couldn’t know this for sure, but she’d been told that she was an odd child this way, that most children knew to give in to sleep when the time came. Alys could not do this.

  Alys decided that this night would be different. This night, when the sighs and the snoring rose in the air, she would declare an end to her nights of entrapment. She would make the night her own.

  She waited long after silence fell, just to be sure. Then she dropped her feet to the cold wood floor. It was end of summer, near harvest, and although the days were still warm, already she sniffed autumn in the air. She found her woolen stockings and boots, a wool overdress. She was not a child who needed to be told what to wear. Mam always told Alys that she was sensible that way.

  Alys wasn’t being sensible now. This wasn’t the wisest night for her to wander. She knew this, and yet she couldn’t stop herself. She’d made a plan, and after so much waiting, after such a long imprisonment, she refused to wait another night. She couldn’t wait. She wouldn’t. Not even after what had happened last night with the farmer and his wife, nor the night before that, when the wolves came and ate up all the chickens, and goats, and horses in the entire village of Gwenith. Alys was sad about Mam’s chickens. They were so sweet and warm in her lap, and they laid such nice eggs.

  Alys had heard her parents talk about the farmer and his wife, the ones who were dead. They lived way out on the edge of the village, nearly to the fforest. Mam had said the only reason they were found at all is that someone thought the farmer might know what had happened to all the animals. Mam said that surely all that bloodshed was the work of a witch, and that was where the other witch and her twin girls had lived. And then Dad said that just because you had married one witch, didn’t mean you had married another. Mam disagreed, and said she supposed it did mean that very thing, because then why else was the farmer dead? And weren’t Mam’s own dead chickens proof they were all being punished for that man’s sins and whatever he and his wife had been getting up to out there where no one could see them? Then Dad had given Mam a look, and Mam realized that Alys was listening, and well . . . that was the end of that.

  Alys should have been afraid of the wolves and the idea of a witch being married to a farmer, but she wasn’t. Alys, in fact, had never been afraid. Her favorite nursery rhymes were the scary ones. The ones about The Beast sucking out your soul and leaving behind nothing but gristle and skin. Those were the ones Alys liked best. When her friend Gaenor squealed and shut her eyes and clapped her hands over her ears, Alys just laughed and kept singing. Sometimes she’d promise Gaenor she’d stop, and just at the moment Gaenor trusted Alys enough to drop her hands from her ears and open her eyes again, Alys would continue:

  The Beast, It will peek in on you

  When you’re fast asleep

  Open up

  Invite It in

  And oh your Mam will weep

  Alys stepped out of her room, listened again for Mam and Dad’s breathing. Then she was through the kitchen and out the kitchen door before she could think twice or change her mind.

  The air was chill and moist and open around her. And the sky, oh the sky. It was awash in stars.

  Alys looked up at the sky, felt lifted up by it. She turned to see how it might look different, to catch parts of it that she couldn’t bend her head back far enough to see. It was lovely to be so free, everyone in the village asleep, and Alys not even trying to sleep. If she could spend every night this way, Alys thought to herself, she’d have no reason to dread it anymore.

  Standing in Mam and Dad’s kitchen yard, Alys began to feel hemmed in again. She could sense the house rising up behind her, the coop and the barn on either side of her. And she knew that through the darkness rose their neighbors’ houses. What Alys wanted was a fallow field—a stretch of tall grass that she could feel spreading out all around her as far as her eye could see through the dark. And Alys knew where just such a field lay. She only had to get herself to the road, follow it out of the village, and there it was, big and wide and bordered only by fforest that was even bigger and wider than the field.

  Her legs carried her through the dark. She held her arms out to either side, felt the night air float over and around her. She was alone but not lonely.

  Then the field. In she walked, feeling the long grass brush her skirts, scratch and tickle even through her stockings. No longer could she feel any kind of structure around her. When she reached the center of the field, she looked up again at the stars. The sky was an endless bowl tipped over, the stars pouring down on her like grains of light. She opened her eyes wide to take them in.

  She felt them before she saw them—the women.

  It wasn’t that they made a sound. It was more the way they didn’t make a sound that attracted Alys’s notice, the sense of a presence without bodies attached. But they did have bodies, she saw. These women. These women made of mud and leaves. They floated through the grass and they saw Alys with their wide gray eyes that glowed even in the night, as if they were lit from within.

  And still Alys wasn’t afraid. Curious, yes. Alys had never seen women like these before. They weren’t village women—at least not from any village that Alys had ever heard of. They didn’t even look like travelers. Travelers were odd-looking sorts, but these women were odder. They looked, it occurred to Alys, more like trees than women.

  And then they were near her, next to her, standing either side of her and each resting a hand of mud and clay on her shoulders. They were slim, and although they were much taller than she, Alys realized that they weren’t women at all. They were still girls. Older than Alys, but maybe not so much older. Not mothers, certainly.

  “What is your name?” Only one of the girls said it, and yet it seemed like both of them did. Alys felt a kind of energy pass through her shoulders, a shivery thread connecting their hands.

  “I’m Alys.”

  “Alys, go to sleep,” the other said.

 
When the other said it, Alys felt an instant tug in her eyes, like a curtain being pulled. But no, Alys thought, that wasn’t what she wanted. She sent the curtain flying up again, opened her eyes wider. “But I don’t want to sleep,” Alys said.

  “There is no fear in this one, Benedicta.” The girl sniffed the air around Alys. She had been sniffed by Gaenor’s dog just like that.

  “No, there is no fear, Angelica.”

  Benedicta. Angelica. Alys had never heard those names before. She thought they were beautiful. And there was something beautiful about these owl-eyed girls, their long dark hair tangled with branches and leaves.

  Then they left her. Just as quickly as they came, the girls floated on. Out of the field and into the dark, disappearing at a point off in the distance that told Alys nothing about where they were going.

  TWO

  Alys woke up in the grassy field, her hair and clothes damp with dew. The sky was a bright, clear blue overhead. She often dozed in the early morning. It was when her parents rose, the sky just barely more blue than black, that Alys found she could easily fall to sleep, knowing that the world was waking up around her. But she’d never slept this late before, and she sat up with a start, knowing that her parents must have been looking for her.

  She got to her feet and ran to the road. It hadn’t seemed nearly so far when she walked it the night before, but now home was far, very far. Her breathing was heavy and hurtful in her chest. Her own heart and breath were all she could hear, and then it struck her how strange that was. The village was always a bustle at this time. There should have been the sounds of wagons and iron pounding iron, women calling to children, men calling to each other. But there was none of that. There wasn’t even the call of birds. This was a silence fuller and bigger than anything that had fallen around Alys during her long nights awake.

  She stopped running, couldn’t run any farther, and then she did hear something—wagon wheels behind her, headed toward Gwenith from somewhere beyond. She turned and saw a traveler’s caravan coming toward her. A covered wagon driven by a man and pulled by two gray horses.

  The man wore a wide-brimmed hat tugged low on his forehead, and his long red hair lifted over his shoulders like flapping wings. At the sight of her, he pulled up on the reins and came to a stop.

  “Hey there, little one,” he said. “You’re far from home.”

  “Ay,” Alys said. “But I’m going there now.”

  “Well no sense running anymore. Climb in and I’ll take you there. You just point me the way.”

  Alys walked up to the wagon, looked up at the man. His eyes were dark green like moss and his hair was red but his beard was shot through with threads of white. He smiled at her. It was a kind face. A face she liked looking at. “Ay, all right,” Alys said.

  He held a hand out for her and she settled herself on the seat next to him. “I’m Alys,” she said.

  The man tipped his hat. “And I’m Pawl, fair Alys.”

  She smiled then. He was a nice man. And she liked being called fair. It was like something out of a story. “My house is just up that way, the third on the left, past the blacksmith. Mam and Dad are going to be awful upset with me so I’d like to get there fast if you don’t mind.”

  Pawl nodded and winked as if they held a secret between them.

  As they drew closer to the village, Alys grew uneasier. She wasn’t sure which she found more frightful—the prospect of her parents’ anger, or the strange spell of quiet that seemed to have fallen over the village.

  “It’s awful odd, ain’t it,” Pawl said. “How quiet it is.”

  “Ay,” Alys said. “Maybe it’s because of all the animals being dead and all.”

  Pawl raised two red eyebrows in the air. “What’s that about dead animals?”

  “Ay, the wolves came and ate them all.”

  Pawl whistled. “Well now. No wonder it’s so quiet then.” He shook his head. “I never heard of such a thing. Weren’t the barn doors closed? And the coops?”

  “Ay, they were,” Alys said.

  “Well then how would the wolves have gotten into them, do you suppose?”

  “High Elder said it was the work of The Beast,” Alys said.

  Pawl looked at her thoughtfully. “I never did meet a wolf who took orders, did you?”

  Alys shook her head. “I never met any wolves at all.”

  “No? Well I’ll tell you something. I never met a wolf could open a barn door.” Then Pawl clucked his tongue. “Oh, my Beti is not going to be happy with me.” He looked at Alys. “Beti’s my wife.”

  “Why’s she going to be mad at you?”

  “No livestock in Gwenith means a bunch of unhappy people who aren’t going to be so interested in trading with me. I’m a traveler, fair lass, and so I need to trade with your people. That’s how I make my living. And if I go back to where I come from in the Lakes empty-handed . . . well, like I said, my Beti will have a few words to say about that.”

  “Oh,” Alys said. None of this meant very much to her. She knew the Lakes were far away, and that the travelers were strange folks who came from there. They dressed funny and didn’t comb their hair and she’d heard some other things said about them, the kinds of things adults spoke low under their breath when they thought you weren’t listening. Things Alys didn’t really understand. Right now, Alys just wanted to get home. She needed to pee something awful, and the more afraid she grew of what Mam and Dad would say to her, the more she feared she might lose her water right there in the wagon.

  “It’s there,” Alys said. “Right there.”

  Pawl drew up in front, but suddenly Alys didn’t want to get out of the wagon. Something told her she shouldn’t go inside. A fierce intuition deep in her belly kept her attached good and tight to the wagon seat.

  “Did you want me to go in with you, child? Maybe ease the way with your folks?”

  “Ay,” Alys said. “Maybe.” But that wasn’t what Alys wanted. Alys wanted to stop everything right here and not go in there at all. Then Pawl was out of the wagon and lifting her down, and then Pawl was knocking on her parents’ front door.

  And there was no answer.

  He knocked again, this time harder. Harder than you’d ever knock if you thought someone was home and they might hear you. And still there was no answer.

  “Why don’t we just go in,” he said. He pressed the latch and then they were inside. The house was so quiet. And cold. Alys shivered. The kitchen was empty, no fire in the hearth. The sunlight coming through the windows was bright and strange. Nothing here was right. Alys sensed that Pawl was as unnerved as she. He looked at her with an odd sort of smile and said, “Well lass, why don’t you wait right here while I go see.”

  “See what?” Alys said.

  Pawl opened his mouth, then closed it. Then opened it again. “See what’s what.”

  Alys sat in her chair at the kitchen table to wait for him. She stared down at the wood, at the ghostly rings of tea mugs and long knife grooves.

  She heard Pawl’s steps, slow and steady. She heard a door open, more steps and a pause, and then a single note hung in the air—half cry, half intake of breath. She rose to her feet and followed the sound.

  Pawl stood by her parents’ bed, and Alys could see Mam and Dad both lying there, still as anything. And Alys knew they were dead. She knew they were dead the same way she’d known Gaenor’s old dog was dead when they’d found him under the back porch. There was just something about dead that was different from alive.

  Alys made no noise but Pawl jerked his head toward her anyway. “Oh no, child. No, no. You mustn’t.”

  Alys ran past him to Mam’s side, and picked up Mam’s cold hand. But it wasn’t Mam’s hand anymore, and that wasn’t Mam. Mam was gone and what was left was a body from which everything important had been taken. There was just a shell and nothingness, and the song in Alys’s head came fast and loud and she swore she’d never sing it again.

  The Beast is an animal

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  It eats you while you sleep at night

  Leaves nothing but your skin

  THREE

  Pawl tried to convince Alys to stay in the wagon while he went in search of help, but Alys refused. She held fast to his hand, and once she did so he held fast to hers as well. And they stayed that way.

  Pawl pounded on the first door they came to. He pounded and pounded again, and Alys didn’t know what to feel in herself, but she felt panic rising in him. Inside Alys only felt cold, and she shook with it. Her teeth clattered.

  Then they heard the shuffling of feet on the other side of the door and Alys felt Pawl’s relief right through the skin of his hand.

  Enid opened the door. She was fifteen, almost a grown-up to Alys. Her hair was undone and she wore her nightclothes, and she rubbed her eyes like a child. “I’m sorry,” she said. Then she looked confused as if she weren’t sure what she was sorry for, but sensed the awkwardness of the situation.

  “Your parents,” Pawl said. “Where are they?”

  “They’re . . .” Enid trailed off and looked behind her, then looked back to Alys and Pawl.

  “Child,” Pawl said, his voice too loud, “is there something wrong? Are you all quite well in this house?”

  Enid looked so strange and Alys couldn’t at first think why. Then it struck her. Enid’s eyes were her prettiest feature, a watery blue like dawn sky. But this morning they were swallowed by black, the blue of her irises just the thinnest border around bottomless pupils. Enid stared at Pawl, saying nothing, until Pawl moved past her, tugging Alys behind him.

  Once in the kitchen he stopped and turned to Alys. “Child, you must listen to me this time. Stay here. Let me go see.”

  Alys didn’t argue, had no desire to. She looked back at Enid, who stood in her own kitchen and yet seemed as if she didn’t know where she was. Then Alys thought of Enid’s sisters and brother. She looked up at the ceiling of the kitchen as if she might see them through it.