Elsker

by ST Bende

  “So what’s Odin’s plan?”

  “Well,” she bit her lip,. “hHe’s not sure. You can’t join us without the magic of Mjölnir, and Odin can’t force it against Thor’s will. The only way you can become one of us is if you can change Thor’s mind. You have to make him want you to be a goddess.”

  I threw my hands up. “How am I supposed to do that? He hates me.”

  “No, he doesn’t.” Inga shook her head. “Kristia, I know Ull went over this with you. Thor doesn’t think or do anything that isn’t founded entirely on reason. If he believes that you will be a detriment to the realm, he’ll never agree to change you. But if you can show him you’re an asset, especially now… well, then he might change his mind.”

  I saw where this was going. But I was trying to follow Ull’s edict. “Isn’t losing Ull enough reason to change me?”

  “It should be, but it’s not. Thor thinks Ull will come around, that he’ll realize he shouldn’t turn his back on Asgard for a girl.”

  “He shouldn’t.” I felt sick about that.

  “Oh, stop it. Thor shouldn’t make him choose. That’s what’s wrong here.” Inga sputtered.

  “So I have to convince Thor I can help? That’s the only way I’m getting into Asgard?”

  “Pretty much. Got any hidden talents?”

  Boy did I. “Well. Yes. But Ull doesn’t want me to tell Thor about it.”

  “What is it?”

  “I can see the future.”

  Inga choked on a piece of pastry. “Excuse me?”

  “I can see the future. I can’t control it or anything, and I hardly ever see anything important.”

  “And you failed to mention this because…”

  “It’s kind of embarrassing.,” I shrugged. “It makes me seem crazy.”

  “Ull knows about this?” Inga put her plate on the table.

  “Yes.”

  “And he won’t let you tell Thor about it? That’s the kind of thing that would make him reconsider, for sure.”

  “I know it is. Ull thinks it’s too dangerous. Apparently, people who see things are hot commodities to bad guys.”

  “He’s right about that.,” Inga picked up her teacup. “Who else knows about this around here?”

  “Here? Nobody. Just Ull. I didn’t tell Olaug.”

  “Huh.” Inga stared out the window. When she looked back, her eyes were shining. “You’re going to tell Thor anyway, aren’t you?”

  “I’m thinking about it. I don’t want to go against Ull, but if there’s no other way to change Thor’s mind, I kind of have to tell him. Don’t I?”

  “Yes. You do.” Inga picked up the remote and muted the bickering Sports Wives. “Now tell me everything about your ability. We need to come up with a plan.”

  Chapter Eighteen

  The Seer

  AT THE END OF January, I returned from a weekend at Ýdalir to a big box on my doorstep. I carried it inside and lifted out its contents. My grandmother’s wedding dress was so beautiful. It would hardly need to be altered to fit me. A note of parental congratulations rested at the bottom of the box, along with another envelope -- this one with my name written in Mormor’s handwriting. A faded sticky note on top of the envelope said, “Give to Kristia on her wedding day.” Wedding day, my foot.

  I ripped open the envelope and started to read.

  ‘Dearest Kristia,’ it began. ‘If you are reading this letter, I did not make it to your wedding. I know you will make a beautiful bride. I wish I could offer you pearls of marital wisdom, but the truth is I just got lucky with your grandfather. I have every confidence that your choice in husband will be just as remarkable.

  Kristia, a few months ago a woman named Elsie joined my bridge club. She only stayed in town for a bit, and just before she left she asked me to give you a note. She may have been a few pies short of picnic, but since I never saw her again, I’ll never know for sure.

  Her message is in this envelope. She asked that I not read it, and I honored her request. Something about her made me feel that she really did have your best interests at heart. I hope I wasn’t wrong.

  I love you very much, and I so wish I could have been there to see you as a bride. Keep your chin up and your shoulders back, and enjoy every minute of your big day.

  Jeg elsker det,

  Mormor’

  My curiosity peaked, I reached into the envelope and pulled out a folded piece of paper. On the outside it read:

  ‘If Kristia is to marry a man named Ull, please give her this message on or before her wedding day.’ Well, that was weird.

  The message continued on the inside: ‘Kristia, If your betrothed is named Ull Myhr, then my Ull has found you. Thank Odin! Your union is the key to saving Asgard and Midgard from destruction at Ragnarok. On the day you were born, I recognized your gift of sight -- you are a powerful seer. As a human this was probably inconvenient, but as a goddess your gift will allow you to travel through the realms undetected, to see present and future events. You will foresee the battle plans of Asgard’s enemies, and tell Odin how to fight them at Ragnarok. You are to be Asgard’s greatest protector.

  Since I was never able to tell the Three Sisters about you, they still believe Ragnarok will mark the end of the gods. And as part of my punishment, I am forbidden from seeking out any Asgardian. But if you should ever need me, hold your grandmother’s necklace and say my name. I will find you.

  I wish you and Ull lifetimes of peace and joy.

  Elsker’

  So I was right. I stared at the two pieces of paper, one from the grandmother I’d loved with all of my heart, and one from a stranger who risked everything to help me find my destiny. I sat for so long, it grew dark outside. I pulled my sweater tight around me. Twenty years of crazy visions made sense now. I played my life back in rewind, thinking of all the things I’d seen that had come to fruition. I’d always thought I was nuttier than a fruitcake in a pecan factory, but now I saw my ability with different eyes. It was the key to convincing Thor I was an asset; my ticket into Asgard. But it wouldn’t come cheap -- spying on Asgard’s enemies could cost me everything.

  It was a price I was willing to pay.

  ****

  “She said what?” I could hear Ull’s teeth grinding together through the phone.

  “I told you not to freak out. She said what I’ve been trying to tell you all along -- I’m meant to be a goddess. My visions are meant to help Asgard. I’m supposed to use them to spy on our enemies. And if I do, there won’t even be a Ragnarok. I was right.”

  “No. Absolutely not, no. I cannot allow anything happen to you.”

  “Ull, it’s not about me anymore. Elsker put this all together before I was even born. You were always supposed to find me so you could change me. We were meant to be together so we could save our realms.”

  “Kristia, I forbid you to do this. You are not to put yourself at risk. I do not know how I would live without you.”

  It was hard to argue with him when he said things like that. I tried another angle. “Okay, but think about this. Ragnarok is coming, whether I’m a goddess or not. And if I’m human, according to that prophecy, we’re all going to die. So I’m a goner in that scenario. At least if we try Elsker’s way, we have a chance at a future together.”

  Rather than admit I had a point, Ull spent a full minute muttering about how this entire situation was too dangerous and how dare Elsker risk his woman’s life for the sake of Asgard. It was kind of cute. But it made me realize I’d have to talk to Thor without him. If I was trying save the entire cosmos, I didn’t need father and son working against me.

  ****

  I was grateful to see the number flashing on my mobile. I’d been planning strategy with Inga for the last hour, and it would be a relief to talk to Ardis for a while.

  “Inga? Can I call you later? Ardis is on the other line.”

  “Sure. Talk soon.” Inga hung up and I clicked over.

  “Ardis,” my relief was audible,. �
�How are you?”

  “I’m great!” Her voice was ecstatic. “I got the lead in the musical! I’m going to be Sandy!”

  “Wow, that’s great -- congratulations!” I wracked my brain to try to remember the play Sandy was in. My theatre knowledge was limited. “So you’re doing…”

  “Grease!” Ardis laughed, a happy sound that lifted me from my mood.

  “Sorry, I knew that. I think.”

  “You did. We only watched it, like, a dozen times when we were little. Remember? We used to sneak the movie into my room, because my parents didn’t like the language. It wasn’t even that bad!”

  “I do remember that. Sorry, I’ve had a lot on my mind.”

  “Spill.”

  “First let’s talk about you. When do your start rehearsals?”

  “Next week! The great news is that the show’s going to be at the end of the semester, after awards season so agents and critics can come to see us! I might get a real job from it!”

  “Oh my gosh, that’s incredible.”

  “I know, right? The bad news is that it’s at the end of the semester, so I won’t be able to fly out for your graduation like we’d planned. I’ll make it in time for the wedding though, don’t worry.,” Sshe barely stopped to breathe. “The last performance is two nights before your big day, so I’ll catch the first flight out and with the time change, I should be there a day early. I wouldn’t miss that for anything!”

  “Oh, Ardis! What would I do without you?”

  “Oh, you’d probably be in Nehalem working in your parents’ shop and pining away for some half-hunky lumberjack,” she laughed.

  “That is a disturbingly accurate picture of what could have been. Thanks for the reminder.”

  “Meh, what are friends for?” I could almost see her shrug, and suddenly I missed her so much my stomach ached. “Now what’s going on across the pond?”

  “Everything. I’m still trying to figure out how to make Ull’s parents like me.”

  “You’ve got to be kidding. They seriously don’t like you?”

  “Nope. Not even a little. Well,” I amended, “his mom is okay with me. But his dad is definitely not. So I have this… meeting with Ull’s dad. Sort of a last ditch effort. My friend Inga is going to help me sell him on why I’ll make a good wife for his son.”

  “Wait, why doesn’t his dad think you’d be a good wife?” True friend that she was, Ardis was indignant.

  “Turns out he’d sort of planned on Ull marrying this other girl, Skadi, and he still thinks she’s a better fit for him than me.”

  “Seriously? Skadi? What kind of a name is that? I’ll bet she’s 200 pounds and has messed up teeth.”

  “Ardis!”

  “Well, it’s probably true.”

  “Probably.” I grinned, hoping fervently that Skadi was the first ugly goddess in the history of mythology. “But it doesn’t matter either way. Ull told him he wouldn’t marry Skadi -- that he was marrying me, and that was that.”

  “I like this Ull more every time we talk. He sounds like a real man.”

  “You have no idea,” I muttered. “Problem is, his dad pretty much disowned him for saying that.” I wanted to tell Ardis as much as I could without violating Asgard’s secrecy. “If Ull marries me, he can never go home again. He won’t have his family and he won’t be able to be there for them if they ever need him.”

  “Kristia. You know that’s not true. There is no way this guy’s mom is going to lose her son like that. She’ll make Ull’s dad come around.”

  “I don’t think she can. His dad is super stubborn. The only way he’d change his mind is if I can convince him that I’m as good as Skadi.”

  “Well that should be easy enough. First of all, your name isn’t Skadi. So there’s a point in your favor.”

  I giggled.

  “What? Just keeping it real. Second,” Ardis picked up steam,. “Ull chose you. He knows his heart. His dad doesn’t, and he can’t force him to feel something. Especially for someone named Skadi. You know, I bet she has really bad skin, too.”

  “I love you Ardis.”

  “I know. And third, you are so way better for Ull than this Skadi chick. You’re smart. You’re incredibly kind. You’d do anything to help the people you love. You have fabulous judgment. And you have me rooting for you. You can’t lose.”

  “That simple, huh?”

  “That simple.” Ardis paused. “I am sorry he’s giving you a hard time though. That has to hurt your feelings.”

  “It’s nothing I can’t handle.”

  “Don’t worry, Kristia. He’ll come around.”

  “Yeah, maybe. Now tell me all about your play.”

  “Well, the guy playing Danny is super cute -- and he’s straight!” With that Ardis was off, giving me a much-needed break from thinking about the task ahead of me.

  ****

  “He’s coming -- hurry!” Olaug, Inga and I scrambled into place as Olaug put down the phone that linked to Asgard. It was time. Thor was going to show up on the screen any minute, and this was my only chance to convince him to change me. If this failed, we were out of options. Ull would become a human, the gods would lose at Ragnarok, and Earth and Asgard would disappear forever.

  Oh, and we’d all die.

  We stood shoulder-to-shoulder in the secret room under Ýdalir, Olaug and Inga flanking my sides for support, our hands clasped together. As we stared at the screen we heard a muted thud followed by heavy footsteps. The sound came from the chamber Olaug told me led to the Bifrost, the passage between Asgard and Earth. We weren’t expecting a visitor -- we’d been very careful to keep this meeting secret from everyone, especially Ull. Certainly none of us were expecting the enormous man with fiery red hair coming out of the chamber.

  “This seemed like something that should be discussed face to face.,” Thor’s gruff voice thundered in the suddenly small space.

  You could have pushed me over with a feather. Thor was a hundred times scarier in person. He stood at least a foot over me, sinewy muscles straining against his clothes and an enormous hammer clutched in his left hand. His face was weather worn and his ruddy skin bore the scars of countless battles. But none of that bothered me. I knew what was riding on this meeting and I couldn’t afford to be scared. I narrowed my eyes in determination. I was going to get through to him, no matter how much I wanted to turn and run up the stairs.

  Olaug broke our silence. “I am sorry Thor, I did not know to expect you in person. What a treat for Ýdalir to have you. Would you care for a beverage?”

  “I would love a cup of tea, thank you Olaug. Hello Inga.,” he nodded to my friend.

  “Hello Thor. Thank you for hearing us today.”

  “I will hear you. It is all I can promise.” His hand tensed reflexively around Mjölnir.

  “Sit, please.,” Olaug motioned for us to gather around the table as she brought Thor his tea. It was an uneasy gathering. Thor dwarfed his chair, but still managed to sit with the agility of a jungle cat poised to attack. I willed my voice to work.

  Thankfully, Thor spoke for both of us. “Miss Tostenson, it is a pleasure to meet you. I am sorry for this state of affairs. It pleases me that my son has chosen a companion, but under the circumstances, you can see why I am not in a position to celebrate your union. Losing Ull at this time is a travesty to Asgard, not a cause for revelry.”

  I wanted to yell, Then change your mind! But I didn’t want to sound petulant. Inga gave me a nod. “Thank you for coming, sir. I know this is not a good time for you to be away.”

  “No, it is not.”

  “I wouldn’t have asked this of you if I didn’t truly believe that I could help.”

  “Miss Tostenson, you are a human. Weak, fickle, and frail by your very nature. How could you possibly help the gods?”

  “I can’t, not as a human. But I can if you make me one of you.“

  “I thought I made myself clear on that topic. You are not fit to join Asgard.”

 
; “Yes. I am.” Thor’s brow tensed; he was not used to objections. “I am more fit than you know. Sir,” I added as his eyes flashed.

  He stood to leave. “I have no time for insolence. Olaug, see that my energies are not wasted again.”

  “Wait!,” I ran in front of the enormous man. He frowned as I blocked his path. “I can save your realm.”

  Thor’s snort bordered on derision. “Miss Tostenson, what can you do that all the forces of Asgard cannot?”

  “I can see your enemies’ battle plans. I can discover their strategies and report to you. Or I could, any way, if you would make me a god.”

  “I do not understand.”

  “Here,” I fumbled in my pocket until I pulled out Elsker’s note,. “This explains everything.” My lungs hurt for lack of air until Thor read the note all the way through. The crease on his brow deepened as he read it a second time. He folded up the note and handed it back to me.

  “This means nothing. Elsker is a traitor.” Thor turned and moved towards the Bifrost.

  “What are you talking about?” I jumped in front of him again.

  “She mingled Ull’s fate with a mortal. She was cast out with cause. Now if you will excuse me.” He tried to move around me but I blocked his path. His eyes turned black and he gripped his hammer. It was time to pull out the only card I had left.

  “Elsker.” I gripped my grandmother’s necklace as I said her name. “Elsker, Elsker, Elsker.”

  “Oh, my.” Olaug stepped back as the old woman appeared next to her. Elsker stood four and a half feet tall, tops. Her white hair was pulled up in a bun and her wrinkled skin had a soft glow.

  “Elsker?” I stepped toward her. There were a million things I wanted to say, but only one mattered right now. “I need your help.”