The Bridge Tender
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Acclaim for Marybeth Whalen
“As I started reading The Wishing Tree, I was instantly drawn into a story filled with complex family relationships and characters I cared about. I felt Ivy Marshall’s pain as she faced past issues and cheered her on during her happier moments. Marybeth Whalen has earned a place on my must-read list.”
—DEBBY MAYNE, AUTHOR OF PRETTY IS AS PRETTY DOES, BLESS HER HEART, AND TICKLED PINK
“A betrayal, a bakery, and a beach: all three combine to woo you through Ivy Marshall’s conundrum. Will she forgive? Is that enough? Or is it time to move on with her love life? Strong characters, a terrific setting, and stunning baked goods make this a terrific beach read.”
—MARY DEMUTH, AUTHOR OF THE MUIR HOUSE
“Sink your toes in the sand, let the salty breeze tease your hair, and be swept away to Sunset Beach. Marybeth Whalen writes with an authentic voice, full of deep introspection and insight into relationships and the questions we all have about whether or not we’ve made the right choices. And there are cupcakes! The Wishing Tree delighted me from start to finish. Highly recommended!”
—CARLA STEWART, AWARD-WINNING AUTHOR OF CHASING LILACS AND STARDUST
“Marybeth Whalen writes with a light hand, skillfully blending issues of faith and the realities of modern life into a compelling and believable read.”
—MARIE BOSTWICK, NEW YORK TIMES BEST-SELLING AUTHOR OF BETWEEN HEAVEN AND TEXAS
“An engaging story of true love and the power of forgiveness. Thoroughly enjoyable!”
—ANN TATLOCK, CHRISTY AWARD-WINNING AUTHOR OF PROMISES TO KEEP AND SWEET MERCY
“Like a beach at ebb tide, Marybeth Whalen’s latest novel reveals itself in layers. From challenge comes strength, from struggle, self-discovery, from the sweeping away of old things, new beginnings. Readers will cheer Ivy’s season of growth in all the things that matter most.”
—LISA WINGATE, NATIONAL BEST-SELLING AND AWARD-WINNING AUTHOR OF BLUE MOON BAY AND FIREFLY ISLAND
“A tradition of wedding wishes takes on new meaning for Ivy Marshall as she searches for truth and faith. Marybeth Whalen delivers a classic story of healing, redemption, and forgiveness, reminding us the best days are ahead. Not in the past.”
—RACHEL HAUCK, AWARD-WINNING, BEST-SELLING AUTHOR OF THE WEDDING DRESS AND ONCE UPON A PRINCE
“A lovely journey of discovery and forgiveness. Here’s to wishes!”
—SHEILA ROBERTS, BEST-SELLING AUTHOR OF WHAT SHE WANTS
“Marybeth Whalen explores a question in the hearts of many married women at one time or another, but one rarely on their lips: ‘What if I had chosen differently?’ Ivy Marshall, in her journey toward that answer, comes to redefine herself and learns what it really means to wish, to forgive, and to love. The Wishing Tree is a novel not to be missed.”
—CHRISTA ALLAN, AUTHOR OF WALKING ON BROKEN GLASS AND THE EDGE OF GRACE
Also by Marybeth Whalen
The Guest Book
The Wishing Tree
A June Bride (A Year of Weddings novella)
For my mom, Sandy Brown, who taught me to cross bridges boldly, not to burn bridges, and to let things go like water under the bridge.
ZONDERVAN
The Bridge Tender
Copyright © 2014 by Marybeth Whalen
ePub Edition © April 2014: ISBN 978-0-310-33843-7
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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Whalen, Marybeth.
The bridge tender : a novel / by Marybeth Whalen.
pages cm
ISBN 978-0-310-33840-6 (trade paper)
I. Title.
PS3623.H355B85 2014
813’.6--dc23
2013049529
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Contents
Prologue
One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six
Seven
Eight
Nine
Ten
Eleven
Twelve
Thirteen
Fourteen
Fifteen
Sixteen
Seventeen
Eighteen
Nineteen
Twenty
Twenty-One
Twenty-Two
Twenty-Three
Twenty-Four
Twenty-Five
Twenty-Six
Epilogue
Author Interview
Discussion Questions
Acknowledgments
An Excerpt from the Guest Book
One
About the Author
Let’s be the runners in the mercy rain
Be my bridge when I fear to cross
PETER MURPHY, “MERCY RAIN”
The Sunset Beach Pontoon Swing Bridge was unique too in that it was a pontoon barge with a house on top, called the Tender House. The wooden road built over the pontoons rose and fell with the tide. When the tide was high, cars traveled over a slight incline in the middle of the bridge; when the tide was low, there was a small valley in the middle. All the while, the bridge Tender maintained a watchful eye from the little white house.
—“THE HISTORY OF SUNSET BEACH”
HTTP://WWW.SUNSETBEACHNC.GOV
Prologue
July 19, 2001
Emily Shaw stood on the beach and watched as her husband emerged from the ocean, water beading on his newly tanned skin. He shook his head like a dog, sending droplets in all directions. She smiled at the word. Husband. To say the word felt like wearing a sequin cocktail dress when she was used to wearing jeans. The whole scenario didn’t quite fit—but she wanted it to. She had longed to be this man’s wife, to refer to him as her husband. And as of three days ago, it was official.
The thought sent little zings of excitement up her spine each time she realized it anew. From the moment the church doors opened and she saw him see her in that white dress to this moment, the reality kept lapping at her heart and mind like the waves on the shore of Sunset Beach. This is my husband. I am his wife. Even with the warm rays of the sun beaming down on them, Emily shivered, giddy. As Ryan approached, she reached her hand up to take his and pull him toward her spot on the huge multicolored beach towel someone had given them as a wedding present. He laughed when he nearly lost his footing, awkwardly falling beside her and narrowly missing kneeing her in the stomach. He kissed her, and when he did, she tasted the salt of the waves, smelled the scent of his sun-warmed skin. This, she thought, i
s what happiness feels like.
She tried not to think that their time at Sunset Beach would end in just two days. A five-day honeymoon had seemed like such an extravagant gift when one of her father’s church members had offered it to them. Five glorious days in an oceanfront home, time unspooling in front of them like a satin highway. But satin was slippery and the bright ribbon was coming to an end. At least their marriage would go beyond this short week. She tried to focus on how much fun it would be to set up their new apartment, cook Ryan dinner while he studied, maybe get a puppy. Their apartment back in Rockingham wasn’t an oceanfront beach home, but it was theirs. She laced her fingers through Ryan’s and sighed contentedly as she noticed the position of the sun, sliding down in the sky. Another day was ending.
Reading her thoughts as he often did, Ryan spoke up. “Got any ideas for dinner?”
She giggled. “We already sound like an old married couple.”
“I was thinking maybe we cook at the house tonight? Make some pasta? Find some old movie on TV? I saw on the guide that there’s that one you said you loved when you were a teenager. I’ve never seen it so maybe you could introduce me to it?”
She smirked at him. “Are you sure you can handle Just This Once? It’s a total chick flick.” She gave him a coy look. “And besides, I’ll have you know I had a serious crush on the lead character.” She sighed dramatically for effect. “Ah, Brady Rutledge, what a hottie.”
He reached over and tickled her. “I’m secure enough in my masculinity to watch a chick flick. And as for this Brady Rutledge guy, he’s no match for me.” He paused and eyed her. “Right?”
She laughed. “No match at all.” She leaned against him and a quiet moment passed between them, filled with contentment. She watched the waves move closer and closer as the tide moved in, but she made no move to pack up, not wanting another day at the beach to be over.
Ryan broke the silence. “I just love hanging out with you, watching TV, taking walks, cooking dinner together. I know we could be doing other stuff, but I’m just as happy being at home, alone, with you.”
“Now you’re really making us sound like an old married couple!”
She didn’t say what else she was thinking about Ryan’s suggestion of cooking at the beach house instead of going out. Though he acted like he just wanted to take it easy, Emily knew that money was tight, and eating out wasn’t the smart thing to do. With Ryan in law school and them living off her salary as a new teacher, even getting to go on a honeymoon was a miracle, and to Ryan’s favorite place in the world, no less. He had been delighted when he discovered that the house they had been offered was at Sunset Beach, the destination of many family vacations in his childhood. He had settled right back into the place the moment they crossed the old pontoon bridge, and she had followed suit. Now she gazed at him with a mixture of admiration and pure bliss on her face—a goofy grin, her best friend Marta called it—knowing that this man would always make good decisions, would always take care of her. He was smart and methodical but he was also romantic and gorgeous. He was right: Brady Rutledge had nothing on him.
Emily wondered how she’d ever gotten so lucky. Blessed, her mother had said on their wedding day, her voice barely more than a whisper as they waited for the ceremony to begin. Three days later, sitting beside her new husband, discussing making pasta and watching old movies, Emily did indeed feel blessed. Short honeymoon in a freebie house with no money to eat out or not, she had hit the jackpot and she knew it. She leaned over and gave Ryan another kiss. “All I ever want to be is an old married couple,” she whispered, her voice nearly drowned out by the roar of the waves, the shriek of the seagulls, and the pounding of her own heart.
After dinner they left the dishes and went for a walk around the island they had come to love together. As they walked he shared stories from past vacations, laughing as he recalled family memories associated with the place. There was a magic about this beach, she agreed, a sense that time suspended when you crossed the old swing bridge. Life seemed slower at Sunset, people seemed friendlier, more carefree—and the feeling was contagious. Each evening Emily and Ryan had meandered up and down the numbered streets and around the perimeter of the island, dreaming of their future and scheming about how they could someday afford to buy a house of their own at Sunset.
That evening they ventured down to the opposite end of the island from where they were staying. They’d heard from a shopkeeper that there was a house there that now sat in the ocean due to the erosion of the beach. Ryan had suggested they check it out. Sure enough they found the house, its foundation sinking into the sand as the waves lapped at its edges like a child’s abandoned sandcastle.
“We’ll be lucky if we can afford this house,” she quipped.
He crossed his arms, studying the house for a moment longer before answering. “I’ve been thinking we could start saving once I’m practicing.” He eyed her. “Even if it’s just a little bit each month. It’ll add up.”
She shook her head. “We have to pay off your school loans first. No arguments.”
He grinned. “Now how did I know you were going to say that?”
“Someone has to have some discipline around here,” she teased. She would change nothing about her husband, except maybe his haphazard approach to life. It went against everything in her to leave the dishes behind in the sink, to ignore the wet beach towels on the floor where he dropped them, to not sweep up the sand they tracked in. It was a wonder the guy made it through law school, and yet when it came to his studies, he was laser focused.
He reached for her, pulled her close, and kissed her as the sea swirled at their ankles, their flip-flops left behind on the sand so they could get closer to the shore. She forgot about the mess back at the house. Looking deep into her eyes, with that look she had come to know meant all kidding aside, he spoke. “I want to give you a house here. A house we can come to all the time, bring our kids to. A place to make our own family memories. I promise you I’m going to give you that someday—college loans or not. It’s important to me. I see how happy this place has made you. You should always have access to that.”
Her mind searched for a response but there were no words. That word again—blessed—darted through her mind like the little minnows darting around their feet. She was even more blessed than she’d realized three days ago standing at the altar making promises about loving for a lifetime. This man was God’s gift to her—but this gift was one she’d keep unwrapping for many years to come. Already she was starting to understand this about marriage.
“So what do you say? Should we make that our goal? To own a place here, where our lives together started?”
Emily looked into Ryan’s eyes and nodded as tears slipped from her own eyes. “Absolutely.”
“No matter how we have to do it? The sacrifices we have to make?” She could see the excitement on his face and found herself getting excited at the prospect too.
“Yes!” He held up his hand and she gave him a high five to seal the deal, then he entwined his fingers with hers and pulled her close again. “Don’t forget, you made a promise and I’m going to hold you to it.” He winked and started leading her away from the house in the ocean, back to the beach house they were calling home for a few more blissful days. Though she would be sad to leave, she would do so with the hope of returning many, many times in the future. She cast one last backward glance at the house in the ocean, hoping that it didn’t let the waves pull it all the way out to sea.
One
March 3, 2006
Emily Shaw stood in front of her open closet, her eyes drawn to the black dress hanging there as if someone was shining a spotlight on it. She remembered buying the dress—a wardrobe basic, some fashion article had called it. Every woman needs a basic black dress, she had read, and, being a rule follower, she’d gone out and purchased one almost immediately. But she’d never worn it, preferring to wear colors like red and pink, yellow and blue. Happy colors, she’d always thought.
Colors that made people happy to see her. Colors that made her feel happy when she wore them.
But Emily wasn’t happy. Not anymore. Might as well dress the part.
She reached for the black dress, tugging it free from the hanger. She held it up to determine whether she could still wear it. She’d lost so much weight in the past weeks as Ryan started to slip away. Her appetite had gone the way of his fight. She pulled the dress over her head and walked over to stand in front of the full-length mirror in their bedroom. When would she stop thinking of it as their bedroom? Now it was her bedroom, hers alone. The bed was made. There was no laundry left on the floor, no folded piles waiting to be put away. There wasn’t a collection of discarded, half-drunk coffee cups and soda cans littering the surfaces. She didn’t have a thing to clean up, and she missed it. It’s finally clean, Ryan, she thought.
She looked at herself in the mirror, took in the image of the stranger reflected there. Her hair, once cut in a cute style, had grown ragged in the months after Ryan’s diagnosis. The highlights she’d splurged on had grown out, revealing long dark streaks on the crown of her head. She was so thin her head looked too large for her neck. Her eyes no longer held a spark but blinked back at her dully. And the once-flattering black dress looked exactly like a sackcloth on her. She would be a sight at her husband’s funeral. And she couldn’t care less.
She imagined what her mother would say, the way her mouth would form that grim little line of disapproval even as she bit back her critique of her only daughter. Her mother was the quintessential preacher’s wife—used to living in a fishbowl and prone to caring what “the people” thought of them. It just wouldn’t do for Emily to have anything less than a positive attitude, a smile on her face, some roses in her cheeks as she bravely faced the untimely death of her young husband. What would the people think? If her mother had her way, Emily would address the mourners today wearing vibrant red or brilliant blue, share an inspiring message of hope for a bright future. She’d quote some pithy verses and rally everyone with talk of God drawing near even in the valley of the shadow of death.