“I’m yours and you’re mine.” She cries out the words, as she wraps her arms around his waist, pulling him even deeper against her.
He reaches between them, drawing circles around her clit as he pounds into her. She feels herself climbing up and up, heading towards her peak. “Melissa.” All it takes is the tender way he says her name to push her over the edge. She cries his name, as fireworks explode behind her eyes. Hawk thrusts into her one final time and groans, as he comes hard inside of her, filling her.
He supports himself on his hands so that he doesn’t collapse on top of her crushing her. However, Melissa pulls him down, wanting to feel his weight on her. “I won’t break.” She whispers the words in his ear as they lay chest to chest, breathing heavily as their hearts take up a more regular beat.
Hawk leans his forehead against hers, kissing her gently on the lips, but his eyes are hard. “I don’t want you anywhere near him.”
Melissa rolls her eyes, not totally unhappy about his jealousy. “You really want to talk about another guy while you’re still inside me?”
Hawk smiles broadly, wickedly. “It’s the only way I want to talk about another guy.” His expression turns serious again. “We’ll find another way. You’re part in all of this is done.”
“But I want to help!” Melissa pulls back to see him better.
“You have helped; now it’s time for us to deal with it. Things could get dangerous, and I don’t want you involved.” Hawk gives her a meaningful look before he pulls out of her and moves to sit on the edge of the bed, his back to her. Melissa is left feeling empty and pissed off.
“News flash Hawk, I’m already involved!” Melissa sits up, staring at his back. “So that’s it? I’m just supposed to turn tail and run. I don’t even get a say in it?”
“No, you don’t. I’m telling you to keep out of this; it’s club business now.” His voice is cold, as if he’s putting a stop to the conversation before it’s even really started.
“But I want to help. Besides, I know Wes better than all of you put together and I know how The Tribune runs. I’m useful and I can make a difference.” Melissa pulls the sheet up over herself, feeling far too exposed arguing in the nude.
He acts as if he hasn’t heard or, at least, as if he wasn’t listening. He stands up, walking away from her. “I’m going to take a shower.”
“You can’t just tell me what to do, Hawk. That’s not how this works.” She gestures at the space between them at the ‘this’ that they haven’t yet defined.
“We’re done talking about this, Melissa. Don’t push me.” He makes a cutting gesture with his hand and closes the bathroom door behind him.
Melissa doesn’t move until she hears the sound of water running. She had thought that they were making progress, that they were moving forward. But his reaction to her offer of help told her how little he seemed to understand her. Melissa has never allowed anyone to tell her what to do. It was something that drove her mother crazy, but it was the way that she was. She isn’t about to change now, and if Hawk can’t deal with that, then he is either going to have to get wise to it, or she is going to have to walk away.
Too much has happened in the last twenty-four hours to process. She needs some time and some space to think without interruptions and without the very tempting Hawk in her bed. She gathers her clothes up from the floor, pulling them on, not caring how haphazard she looks. She looks back at the door, wondering if she should confront him, have it out with him, tell him that he can’t just dictate to her, and that if he thinks their relationship is going to work that way then he’s in for a rude awakening. But after the way he’s just behaved, she knows that he’s not going to talk to her, whatever happens they’ll just descend into an argument.
They only seem to be having sex or having it out with each other. There doesn’t appear to be much of a middle ground. She knows that Ali would call that passion, but it was too exhausting for words. Melissa has no intention of leaving the Wes issue alone, and she has no intention of letting Hawk tell her what to do. So, she does the only thing she can…she leaves, hoping that he cares enough to find out why.
CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN
Melissa scrubs at her tear-stained face in the bathroom mirror. Get a grip, Potter. You’re the one who walked out. It was true; she was the one who had walked out of Hawk’s place without so much as a word. In her soul, she knows she had taken the easy way out; she could have confronted him about how she was feeling, but she’d been too chicken. It wasn’t only a matter of courage—she knows that. It was also a way of making her point, a way of telling him that she couldn’t be bossed around, that she would stand up for herself, and that she wouldn’t take orders from the man she was supposed to be in a relationship with. He was her boyfriend, or at least something like that, not her boss.
So now that you’ve walked out, what now? Her reflection stares at her accusingly. She will have to figure that out tomorrow. Today had already been way too much of a long day for her to be able to think clearly anymore.
She pulls off her clothes, trying not to think about how only a few short hours ago Hawk was the one pulling them off, and she dumps them unceremoniously into the washing basket, changing into her pajama camisole and shorts. She turns the light off in the bathroom and jumps when—almost immediately—there’s a knock at the front door. A beating would be a more appropriate way to put it really, rather than a knock. It doesn’t stop, and Melissa already has a feeling that she knows who it is. She takes a long swallow. She’d thought that she would have at least tonight before he came looking for her. Turns out she was wrong.
Ali appears in the hallway, wielding her straightening iron, eyes wide with panic. “What are you doing?” She looks at Melissa, hissing urgently, as if anything could be heard over the incessant pounding.
“I’m going to open the door.” Melissa looks between her friend and the hair accessory she’s holding. “What are you doing?”
“It was the first thing I picked up.” Ali waves away Melissa’s amused expression. “Now I’m thinking I should maybe invest in a baseball bat.”
“I’ll get you one for your birthday. But don’t worry about it for tonight; you won’t be needing it.” Melissa pauses just by the door, her hand on the lock ready to turn it.
“Why not? Are you going to go all Karate Kid on their ass?” Ali doesn’t even pretend not to be genuinely excited at this prospect. “What if they have a gun?”
Melissa doesn’t think it would be wise to tell her blonde friend that the person on the other side of the door almost certainly does have a gun. From the way Ali was clutching her makeshift weapon, Melissa didn’t think that it would do much for her confidence.
“It’s just Hawk.” Melissa makes a calming gesture to her friend. “Go back to bed.”
Ali raises her eyebrows and shakes her head, holding her hand up to her heart. Melissa realizes that Ali had been more frightened than she was making out. “Better let him in before he wakes up the whole neighborhood.” Ali rolls her eyes, no doubt thinking about their nosy neighbors having a field day with a biker turning up at their door in the middle of the night and using his fist as a battering ram.
Melissa takes a deep breath, and only when she hears Ali pad quietly back into her bedroom does she open the door. The expression on Hawk’s face takes her breath away, and not in a good way. His hand is raised mid-beat and, when he focuses on her, the intensity in his eyes tells her that he’s mad, really mad.
“You know we have a doorbell, right?” Melissa tries to summon some of that sass that has served her so well in the past. Hawk doesn’t say anything, brushing past her to walk through the door. “Come on in.” She mutters the last sarcastically, under her breath.
“Don’t be cute, Melissa.” He levels his index finger at her, as if he were a teacher telling off a naughty school kid. “What the hell happened?” He doesn’t even try to pretend that he’s not spitting mad.
“Hawk, can we not do this ri
ght now? It’s been a really long day—”
“And the night is going to be even longer if you don’t tell me what the hell is going on with you!” He plants his hands on his hips, looking at her, clearly completely confused.
“Hey! Back off, pal!” Ali’s voice startles them, and they both turn around to see her advancing towards Hawk, matching his angry expression.
“Ali, it’s fine.” Melissa tries to stop her friend from intervening, but it’s too late, telling Ali not to get involved is like asking water not to be wet.
“You can’t just wake up the whole damn neighborhood in the middle of the night, come waltzing in, and then start a fight with my best friend.” Ali draws herself up to her full height, but Hawk still towers over her—although she doesn’t give any sign that she’s the least bit intimidated. “Haven’t you done enough damage?”
“Hold on a second there, counselor. This isn’t really any of your business.” Hawk makes a calming motion with his arms, but that just seems to fire Ali up even more.
She starts to poke him in his broad chest. “No, I will not hold on! I’m the one that has to pick up the pieces after you go and break her heart! I’m the one that has to watch her mope around the house like a lost puppy without being able to do anything about it. I’m the one that has to gain five pounds while we go through the pizza and ice cream breakup faze together! So don’t you dare tell me that this isn’t my business.” Ali pokes him again for good measure, and Hawk takes a step back. Melissa just watches the scene play out, shocked and not a little bit amused.
“Alright, alright, enough with the poking!” Hawk holds up his hands in surrender. Ali looks proud of herself. “I’m not here to hurt Melissa; I’m not here to break her heart; I’m here because she walked out without so much as a goodbye, and I want to know why.” Hawk holds Ali’s eyes and watches as her shoulders relax a touch. “I’m here because I care about her.”
Ali seems to consider this, giving Hawk the look that Melissa likes to refer to as her ‘lawyer look.’ It’s the one she uses to size people up and to gauge whether or not they’re telling the truth. Melissa had no doubt that she would use it to become a kickass attorney. When Ali is satisfied with what Hawk is telling her, she turns to Melissa, giving her the same once over. “Is what he’s saying true?”
Melissa tries not to wilt under the judgment in Ali’s eyes and lifts her chin, a posture that her friend no doubt recognizes as her digging her heels in.
“Fine, whatever!” Ali throws her hands up in resignation. “From what I can tell, the two of you deserve each other. Just do me a favor and try to keep it down.” She shakes her head at them both, as she heads back to her bedroom, closing the door behind her.
“What the hell is up with girls poking me recently? First Felicia, now Ali.” Hawk rubs his chest absently where Ali has no doubt left a mark.
Melissa sighs deeply, turning to face him again. “Maybe it’s a sign that you need to work on your attitude.” She gives him a pointed look.
“My attitude? I’m not the one who disappeared in the middle of the night. Do you know that I was worried about you?” He looks at her accusatorily, taking a deep breath and lowering his voice, no doubt remembering Ali’s request about the noise. “Did you even think about that?”
Melissa winces at his words. The truth was that she hadn’t thought about that at all. “I’m guessing you figured out pretty quickly that there wasn’t any foul play.” She sasses him to cover the fact that she’s actually a little ashamed of herself.
“When I saw your car was gone, I figured that this is where you’d be.” Hawk shakes his head and paces around their tiny family room. “What I still haven’t been able to figure out is why.” He turns and looks at her expectantly, asking the question that Melissa had hoped she’d have a little more time to prepare for.
“Hawk, I really don’t want to talk about this now. Please.” She looks at him pleadingly, and Hawk seems to take in the sight of her for the first time since he’d arrived. He sees her eyes, still red from crying, and the defeated slump of her shoulders.
“You’re the one who always wants to talk things through, Melissa. After everything that’s happened these past few days, I think I have a right to know. I think I’ve proven how much I care about you, so I’m here. Let’s talk.” He motions for her to take a seat on the overstuffed couch as if they were in his house not vice versa.
For a few seconds she remains standing, not wanting to have this conversation, but she can tell from the expression on Hawk’s face that there’s no way he’s letting her get out of it. So, dutifully, she sits. Hawk makes a small, satisfied sound and then resumes his pacing.
“What happened to make you come running back here?” He shakes his head, like he can’t get his brain around what the reason could possibly be.
“You really have no idea?” Melissa knew that men were clueless about a lot of things, but she’d assumed that there was some level of common sense at work.
Hawk sighs deeply. “I’m not a complete idiot, Melissa. You were angry that I told you that I didn’t want you involved in this whole Wes mess. It wasn’t exactly hard to tell that you were pissed. But being pissed at me and walking out without a word are two different things, at least in my book. I figured you, of all people, would get that.”
Melissa opens her mouth to correct him and then closes it again. It was clear that he wasn’t just talking about them. Hawk was thinking about his dad who left them saying he was going out for a pack of smokes and then just never came back. He was thinking about her father, who hadn’t even bothered to stick around for her birth. Melissa bites her lip, berating herself in her own mind. Nice one, Potter. She’d done the one thing that Hawk was terrified of—she’d walked away without any kind of an explanation. He was right; she should have known better.
“I’m sorry.” Her words seem a little feeble. “I didn’t think.” That was the truth of it. She hadn’t really thought about what she was doing; she’d just acted on her emotions. It was something that Ali had always encouraged her to do, but probably not with this specific circumstance in mind.
“I still haven’t finished working on your car. It needs an oil change before it just stops dead on you in the middle of the road. You could have been stranded in the middle of freakin’ nowhere at God knows what time of night!” He’s angry, but not like the night before when he had torn up his studio. This was more frustration born out of fear for her safety, and it made her feel like she’d been an even bigger idiot than before.
“I’m sorry.” She repeats the words, looking at her bare feet and chewing on her lip as she takes on board what he’s told her. She really had been thoughtless; she hadn’t thought at all.
“We’ll tow it back into the garage tomorrow; it’ll need to get the all clear before I let you drive it again.” Hawk lets out a sigh, his shoulders relaxing a little as some of the tension drains out of his body. He gets closer to her, standing over her and leaning down. Her heart picks up the pace, the way that it always does when he’s anywhere near her.
“I can’t read your mind, ‘Mel.” His words are quiet, as he leans down towards her, closing the distance between them, and kisses her on the lips. She opens her mouth willingly to him, and his tongue delves in deeper, probing and exploring her, tasting her. Melissa feels need pool between her thighs, and she deepens the kiss, wrapping her hands around his neck. Hawk grabs her ass and pulls her up so that she’s standing, plastered against him, and left in no doubt that he’s as turned on as she is.
CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT
It would be so easy to fall into bed with Hawk now and let their bodies do all the talking. It would be magnificent and passionate and intense and all the great things that they are when they’re together, when they’re joined. The world seems to come to a complete stop around them as the kiss makes her knees weak. But this was partly why Melissa had walked away tonight, and if she just succumbs to the chemistry between them, then she knows she’ll be
angry at herself in the morning.
“Stop.” At first, Melissa barely recognizes her own voice. It’s so husky and sounds like it’s been wrenched out of her.
Hawk goes completely still, as if he’s been frozen in time. He pulls back and looks at her, his eyebrows raised, making sure that she really had meant to say it. “Stop?” The question in his eyes speaks volumes.
Melissa pushes away from him, getting some distance between them before she has a chance to change her mind. Her body is a complete traitor to her whenever Hawk is involved. Hawk is still watching her with a wary expression, looking at her as if she’s a ticking time bomb.
“This is why I didn’t tell you I was leaving.” Melissa can’t help but feel a little silly now that she’s about to say what it is that’s been bothering her.
Hawk looks at her blankly, the blood seeping back up towards his head slowly. “I’m gonna need a little more than that, ‘Mel.” He folds his arms, never taking his eyes off of her.
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