Deep Cover

by Brian Garfield

  It was a long speech breathlessly delivered and when she had finished she lifted her shoulders and chin.

  He said, “You’re tough.”

  “I don’t like what I see you doing. What you’re changing yourself into.”

  “Your concern means a lot to me, you know.”

  She avoided his eyes.

  He said, “You’ve got it wrong, Ronnie. I don’t really lust after the dreary delegate-wooing and all the greasy lubrication of party machinery you have to go through to get into the White House. My ambition is to accomplish something, not to be something—you see the difference? For the first time in my life I’ve got a cause, a reason to step out front and act like a leader, and because I believe in this fight I believe it’s my fight to lead. Let the rest of them get on the bandwagon for a change.”

  “Fine. Then get in there and steer the fight on the floor. But don’t make it dirty.”

  “I can’t stick to sentimental notions if it means forfeiting a victory on an issue this vital. We’re dealing with an insane competition in ultimate weapons that can produce the ultimate end.”

  “In other words if you lose this fight the world will end—do you honestly believe that?”

  “I believe it’s possible.”

  Over coffee Ronnie turned businesslike. “There were a few calls while you were in conference with Professor Moskowitz. I’d better bring you up to date.”

  Her smoky voice had become brisk. “Les Suffield called to check in—nothing terribly important, the Secretary of Defense has called a news conference for Friday afternoon and the Secretary of State will be on Meet the Press Sunday, and Les thought you ought to know because undoubtedly they’ll both discuss you. I tried Frank Shattuck again but of course he’s out, to us, and—”

  “Top tells me Shattuck’s in cahoots with Webb Brecken-year. You may as well cross him off. No point wasting more time trying to set up appointments that he’ll keep breaking.”

  “All right.” She made a note. “Now, about yesterday, I had a rather long talk with one of the personnel officers out at the Shattuck plant. It was educational—let me give you the gist of it. I asked him what the reaction had been among the employees and he surprised me—he said it hadn’t caused much stir. Most of them know Shattuck Industries intends to bid on the lion’s share of the Phaeton component systems, and Shattuck’s likely to end up winning a good many of the contracts, but they don’t seem to care terribly whether it all comes through or not. A few of their contracts are due to run out soon, but according to Mr. Karakian about a thousand people leave the plant labor force voluntarily each year and that would just about coincide with the attrition from the completion of current contracts. They don’t visualize having to lay off very many people even if they don’t get any Phaeton contracts. There’s no union representation at Shattuck, of course—right-to-work—and men are laid off on the basis of job elimination, employment record, and seniority, in that order. Karakian said the men are quite aware that as long as they do good work they haven’t got much to worry about—the company always lets the goldbricks go first. He was frank about it, said not many people go to work in aerospace-defense who can’t live with this kind of insecurity. They’ve been through cutbacks before and they expect them again. When I asked him about his own job he just laughed and said he’d just bought a new Dodge and made the first payment and he wouldn’t have done that if he was worried.”

  Forrester’s eyes were wide. “So much for the specter of wholesale catastrophic unemployment if I kill the Phaeton program.”

  “I thought you’d like it. Now let’s see—I briefed you on the conference tomorrow in Scottsdale—Senator Guest, Congressman Trumble, Ramsey Douglass. I’ve never been quite clear on exactly what Douglass does, but Trumble wants him there so I have to assume he’s important enough to be included. He works for Matthewson-Ward but I don’t really understand where he fits in.”

  “He’s their SATAF coordinator—Site Aerospace Test Activation Facility. When Matthewson-Ward delivers a missile to the Air Force Douglass has to see that it’s set up properly and tested out before he turns it over to the Government. It’s a job that requires a good deal of political maneuvering—Douglass got it because he’s both a first-class engineer and an active Republican. He moonlighted as Trumble’s chief speech writer in the last campaign and I suppose he’ll do it again this year. He’s worked his way up in the party on the local level and I understand he pretty much tells the County Supervisor what to do. But he stays pretty much behind the scenes because he hasn’t exactly got the kind of personality it takes to get up in front of crowds and charm people.”

  “I’ll say. He’s such a bitter little man. I can’t stand him.”

  “Nobody can. But he’s got a brain like a scalpel.”

  “Let’s talk about someone else.” She reached for her coffee with a theatrical shudder.

  “That must have got cold by now.” He turned to signal the waiter.

  “Never mind,” she said, “it would only keep me awake. I really shouldn’t drink coffee after five.” When she looked at her watch he followed her glance and found himself attentively studying the fine pale hairs on her slim forearm.

  “Almost ten,” she said. “My goodness. I’d better take the body home and put it to bed.”

  He parked at the curb outside the palm-fringed apartment court where she lived. It was the third time he’d driven her home but she hadn’t invited him in and he had not pressed her to. Still he felt challenged by her odd admixture of warm personal concern and guarded, almost hostile reserve.

  He walked around the car and helped her step out over the high sill of the old Mercedes; he walked her along the flower-bordered walk to the far corner of the court and when she found her key she hesitated and then with an impulsive gesture thrust it toward him.

  He unlocked the door and stood back. “Well, then,” he began, with the awkward feeling that neither of them knew how to break off the evening.

  She reached inside to switch on a light. “Would you . .. like a nightcap?” Her eyes were very wide.

  “Only if—”

  “I do. Come in before I change my mind.” A quick smile fled across her face and she went ahead of him with her lovely high-hipped stride; when she turned, waiting for him, her lips parted and she followed him with her eyes when he extracted the key and shut the door and tossed the key on the small telephone table.

  The apartment was small and untidy, sparsely furnished and cluttered with easel and paint stand and stacks of stretched canvases. The walls were crowded with oils which he knew immediately to be her own work—bold colorful landscapes, bright with the primary hues of the desert, filled with a fascination for the high craggy tors and multitiered serrates of the rugged uplands. The paintings filled the room with a fury of color.

  She was nervous. “You like them, don’t you? I feel ridiculously pleased. Do you know that’s why I was afraid to let you come in? I had to steel myself—I was desperately afraid you’d laugh at them.” She tossed, her head as if released; her hair tumbled loosely over one shoulder.

  He turned a slow circle on his heels and then walked around to view them separately. “I love them.”

  A cloth concealed the work on the easel and he reached for the corner of it but she spoke instantly: “Don’t. Not yet—please?”

  He let it fall back, the painting undisclosed, and turned. She bustled toward the tiny kitchenette. “Sit down anywhere. It’s Chivas Regal with a splash of water, isn’t it?”

  There was a silver-framed snapshot on the coffee table and he was studying it when she brought his drink. The man in the picture was young, a Midwestern sort, dark blond hair, neat ears, a rugged blocky sort of face without much nose but a good big jaw. A face full of easygoing openness and healthy self-confidence. He put it back where he had found it and said, “Your husband.”

  “Yes.”

  “You’ve never told me about him.”

  She was silent long enou
gh for him to think she wasn’t going to answer. She sat opposite him, drawing her legs up under her. Finally she said, “I suppose he wasn’t exceptional. I mean, you wouldn’t have singled him out in a crowd. But we loved each other and when he died …”

  When she trailed off he reached for her wrist. “What is it?”

  “I really don’t like to talk about it.”

  “Maybe it needs talking about.”

  “Now you’re trying to get revenge for the way I pinned you to the wall at dinner tonight.”

  “Fair enough,” he said. “What was he like?”

  She brooded toward the photograph. “He was alive. Vital—enthusiastic. He came from Topeka—his father worked for the railroad. Phil was an engineer and his whole face would light up when he thought about building things. He was really a very straightforward guy—no hidden corners. He was working on his Ph.D. at the university here when he died. I had a secretarial job with a phone-company executive and Phil had a fellowship, and we were living in a horrible little house trailer in one of those miserable camps on Miracle Mile. Sometimes Phil used to go across the street to bowl a few lines on afternoons when he didn’t have classes. One day he didn’t come home and we went to tell him it was dinnertime—a girl friend and I—and we found …”

  After a while Forrester said, “You may as well finish it, Ronnie.”

  Her eyes were barely open. “In the weeds behind the bowling alley. He’d been clubbed and his wallet and class ring were gone. The police never found the muggers who’d done it”

  “Was he dead when you found him?”

  She gave a start. “I—I don’t know.”

  “You don’t know?”

  She withdrew her hand and twisted her face away from him. “I don’t remember it very well.”

  “That’s natural. Sometimes—”

  “No. It wasn’t just a minor thing. I feel ashamed of it—you see the truth is I had a pretty severe blackout and it lasted quite a while. I spent several months in a sanatorium, Alan. I came out of it, of course. All kinds of therapy. Insulin, hypnosis—the doctors put the pieces back together, more or less, but there are things that still haven’t come back to me. I’m sure it’s just as well. I don’t know, I’ve never been able to work it out in words. It seemed to burn something out of me and I’ve never wanted to work up the strength … Perhaps there just isn’t enough of me left over to offer anyone again. Phil and I gave each other everything we had.”

  She seemed willing to let the conversation die but Forrester revived it deliberately: “That was eleven years ago.”

  “I know what you’re trying to make me admit. It’s true enough but it’s not as easy as it seems. Maybe there’s something wrong with me—a wire down, inside.”

  “That’s ridiculous. Possibly you let yourself brood your way into an obsession but it’s time you came out of it.”

  “Now who’s being tough?”

  “An eye for an eye,” he said in a mausoleum tone, and it made her laugh and suddenly she was on her feet moving gaily toward the easel. She lifted the covering cloth and threw it back and stood aside proudly. “Do you like it, Alan? Please like it.”

  The painting was incomplete around the edges but the subject was unmistakable—the great pink mesa that towered at the corner of the ranch. She had caught it in late-afternoon sunlight, all magenta shadows and cruel incisions. Her bold brushstrokes had dispensed with trivial distractions and left only the great looming rock against a cobalt sky and he heard her say with an embarrassed little laugh, “That’s how I really see you, you know. But don’t take that in a trite Freudian way. I want to finish it by the weekend.”

  “Why?”

  She moved around the room, suddenly shy. “Because you’re probably going back to Washington soon and I want you to take it with you.”

  She was trying very hard to keep it casual but the strain in her face proved the deceit of it. He turned his back to her, ostensibly to look at the painting again but actually to hide his face from her because his throat was thickening and his eyes felt tight and he didn’t want her to watch him do combat with the sudden confusions inside himself. This was what he had not only wanted but subconsciously planned, but now he felt a sense of panic because he wasn’t ready for it just yet. His inner defenses were up; his mind, with stubborn refusal, simply didn’t want to face it and he found himself thinking wildly about everything except the question at hand.

  He had meant to break down Ronnie’s hostile barriers and he had succeeded but suddenly he was afraid and wanted to withdraw: did that mean the same thing might happen if after a carefully plotted campaign he won the White House? Would he discover he really didn’t want it and was terrified by it? Was there something inside him that made him fear success, like an athlete who suddenly and inexplicably ran out of steam when victory was in sight? He remembered Les Suffield railing at him just before the end of the last campaign when during a television speech he’d blurted something ad lib that had shocked the audience—For Christ’s sake are you trying deliberately to blow it, Alan? You had them in the palm of your hand but now … And in the end the election had been much too close; he had barely squeaked through with a five-thousand-vote plurality. He couldn’t even remember what it was that he had said. But there had been other times: in high school he had fudged his senior exams and blown the valedictorian’s chair; in the summer of his twenty-third year he had all but failed the bar exam; in court prosecuting a murder case he had forgotten to ask a key witness a key question and had watched the defendant walk out of court free; in Congress he had steered the writers’ tax bill all the way to the floor but neglected to sew up three votes that would have made the difference between passage and failure.…

  The sudden insight stunned him and he stood filled with frightened wonder, face and hands stilled, hearing Ronnie move forward behind him—the whisper of nylon thighs, the catch in her breath when she spoke: “Alan? What’s wrong? What is it?”

  He felt her weight behind him and he turned quickly and drew her close to him so that she wouldn’t see his face; he tipped his head to get the noses out of the way and kissed her with crushing violence but she kept her lips tightly compressed and hard.

  She pulled herself away from him and touched her mouth. “What’s the matter?”

  “I don’t know. I don’t know, Ronnie.”

  She stared. “What are we getting ourselves into?”

  “Are you frightened?”

  “I feel rocked—and I don’t want to.”

  “Ronnie, I—”

  “I’ve never been any good at the casual oh-hell-after-all-we’re-both-adults game, Alan.”

  “Neither have I. It’s nothing to do with that.”

  “Then what is it?” She was pleading to know.

  He was shaking his head as if to clear it and her face came into sharp focus before him. Suddenly he realized what had been wrong before: he had been looking at her only in relation to himself, seeing her only as a part of his own difficulties and the possible instrument of a cure for them, but not as herself, a complete and separate being with difficulties and a unique identity of her own. In his mind she had been an antidote to the memory of Angie: he had kept thinking of her as a means of deliverance—a departure rather than an arrival.

  “It isn’t like that now,” he said.

  It startled her. “It isn’t like what?”

  He smiled. “I’m not making sense, am I? I’ve been standing here making discoveries. It’s hard to explain.”

  He stood quite still and put his hands on her arms; after a while her mouth lost its nervous smile and began to soften and when she lifted her glance to his face her whole body suddenly was in her eyes. She brought her hands up under his elbows and slipped her arms around him as if they had been designed to fit exactly there and she said, “I think I’m falling in love with you. You were right, I am frightened.”

  “Of me?”

  “No. Of myself. I didn’t want this to happen.”r />
  “Why?”

  “Because I didn’t want anything intense—I can’t play games of ships that go bump in the night, but I can’t do it the other way either.” She shook her head with abrupt impatience. “Now I’m the one who’s not making sense—but there are things I just can’t put into words.”

  “It’s all right.” He was smiling gently and he slid his hand slowly and lightly up her arm and felt her shudder; her lids became drowsily heavy, a humid lowering that seemed to express both desire and regret, and when she spoke his name her voice underwent a subtle thickening modulation. He embraced her, gathering her hair in his hand at the back of her neck, feeling her tremors and the warmth of her legs and breasts. They kissed slowly and this time her mouth opened against his, luxurious, and he tasted the flick of her tongue.

  “Maybe I had better go.”

  “No.” Her answer was very grave. “Please stay? Please?”

  They made love on the bed with long languor. She was warm and lovely and he had a vivid sense of déjà vu, as if it were a union of long custom between them, as if they had already known the intimate secrets of each other’s bodies. There was no awkwardness and no urgency but only the gentle pleasures of caress and coupling that led without haste to the high rigid pain of ecstatic climax. But afterward when they lay close together, so close her two eyes blended into one, she seemed afraid again and when he tasted her lips he felt the startling salt dampness of her tears.

  Chapter Seven

  Leon Belsky had picked the motel for escape routes rather than comfort. He had taken a room in the rear with several exits close at hand—the rear windows of bathroom and bedroom gave access to a tree-tangled trailer court that was flanked by auto junk yards into which a man could easily fade.

  He had rented the beige Ford under the name of Meldon Kemp and checked into the motel under the same name. Then he had left it to make his contacts.

  The room was spacious and cold with cheap blond furniture. Belsky absorbed it with a single glance when he returned to it at midnight. He opened the suitcase on the luggage stand to appraise the telltales he had left—documents lying in slight disarray with the corner of the top sheet touching the middle letter of the word “finance” on the sheet below. The letter head was that of an industrial-relations concern in San Francisco. The two-page letter was addressed to Meldon Kemp in Los Angeles and was full of names and figures. It looked like the kind of commercial code of instructions and information marketed in the intercompany espionage game. Actually the message was spurious, but they would always go for documents immediately and if they had time they would take photos, which meant disturbing the arrangement of the papers.