Helios

by Anja Fuerst

It was enough for me? No, it was not.

  - I think lover is the correct term for this situation - tried to get up and Robert stopped me. I felt anger at the small talk that he was trying to play on me. - What you want? Sex easy as it passes this bad phase with his wife? - He laughed holding me tightly.

  - Easy Sex? I think I have no idea what this is. He met Mennie, was not it? Do not you think her sex would be much easier than it has been with you?

  - You're a sadist? You want me crazy? I will not accept what is proposing me.

  - I made no proposal - I looked like a fool. My eyes were wet. - There is nothing to propose, Melissa. What exists are just facts. We are not negotiating anything and you are not a commodity - let me go. His words made me feel humiliated. Robert took a deep breath and closed his eyes. - I will repeat again, Melissa. You are. My. - My heart accelerated again and my skin got goose bumps. - And you have no way to fight it. No fool, like the one with whom you were rubbing the club can give you what you need or want. He is not able to satisfy her as a woman. I can even by phone - wish I could slap him. - I've done it even with the look. It was you who chose. When he lost the rhythm of the breath to see me. When I felt that I played even when he was away. It was you who started it, not me.

  I was hit fatally by those words because I knew it was true. While it was something of my own, I could bear, but he knew everything all the time. I knew the right way to reach me. I gave him all the cards, every opportunity. It was easy.

  - You know nothing about me - I struggled to be able to continue safe.

  He laughed and I could see the gleam in his eyes. Robert moved throwing me back and forth to stay on top of me. I tried to fight, push him away, but he held my hands over my head with one hand and with the other stroked my face, rubbing his thumb on my lips.

  - I know everything about you. Do not fool yourself. Do not think that would accept anyone in my company, with free access to my personal and professional life. I'm not an idiot, Melissa. I know all about you. To the ideal size of your panties. I know everything.

  I felt fear. Robert was able to know everything yourself. Of course! Even the spare key to my apartment he had. How did I get myself in that situation?

  - Now be a good girl and collaborate with me. My time is now very short, I do not want to lose it with nonsense.

  Robert kissed my lips sweetly. I wanted to resist, but it was between my legs and his hand was exploring my breasts with light caresses. It was absurdly delicious.

  - A woman like you do not deserve the weak and casual sex once a week, that imbecile was giving him. I know exactly what you need - her lips brushed my neck as he spoke. I was both scared and with an overwhelming desire. - But I have to agree with some points - let me go and went out again to me. I was lost, loose in space. - I do not want him to come back to play it. Neither he nor anyone - his eyes were killer.

  - You have no right to demand it. What kind of fool are you?

  - I can. Or is my only or will never be mine. You choose. I can guarantee that with me will never be as it was with him. By the way, you know very well that - that crazy proposal hell was that? - Now that you have chosen me ... - he spoke again after a brief silence, and I laughed at his conclusion. It could only be a joke. - I know you chose me - said laughing and I found it lovely to see him so relaxed. No sending or demanding anything. It was natural. It was just Robert.

  - I do not have much choice. You have the key to my house. You know the size of my panties. Is surrounding me from all sides. It is driving me crazy.

  - I know how to be very persuasive when I want something.

  He returned to lie about me and kissing my mouth. I lost my breath. We were in my bed. He kissed me greedily. His hands were inside my sweater, caressing my breasts. Her sex brushed with pleasure on my, and even with the barrier of his jeans, was very tasty. I could not resist more. I pulled his body with my will and encouraged him to continue. Then he stopped.

  - Wonderful, Melissa! Simply wonderful! - His eyes scorched. - Unfortunately we have to finish this conversation. I did not get where I still want to get - more talk? Oh my Our Lady of fiery women, save me!

  - Stop looking at me as if begging me and definitely avoid this flushing. It's too hard to see it without going beyond.

  - So keep - closed my eyes feeling defeated and delivered.

  - I can not - his voice was short, as if to convince himself that he could not continue. - I have an appointment I can not cancel.

  - Not for me? - I tried to persuade him. That situation was torture for my body and even worse to my mind.

  - For anyone - returned to get out of bed. My heart sank chest.

  - If you and Tanya are separating, why pretend a perfect relationship? Why do you think that is something society? I ... I do not understand.

  - I owe nothing to society, Melissa. I'm not give a fuck for what they will think. My problem is ... - looked at me intently evaluating how far could tell me. - I owe it to her. Tanya - again, scratched his head and walked across the room. - I do not know how far you will understand without knowing the whole story. The most important is to know that I and Tanya do not live as husband and wife.

  Rethought all the information he gave me. So it was not a mistake. At least not an absurd mistake. And I was not to blame for their separation. I could bear? I was not so sure.

  - You said there were more reasons to continue in this marriage.

  - Yes. But you will not know what - I bit my lower lip. Why so many mysteries? And if all that was nothing but a huge lie?

  - I do not know if I trust you - revealed. He laughed.

  - It would be easier to understand that, even without knowing anything, you gave me several times. It is much better to believe that is not making any mistakes - I blushed with his sincerity.

  - Tanya knows you looking for lovers?

  - Do not look for lovers - looked at me impatiently. - Yes it is. Tanya knows I go out with other women. It's part of our agreement - my eyes widened. She knew he had other women. "Other women" not just me. - What's the surprise, Melissa?

  - Everything you're telling me.

  - Specify.

  - An agreement between you that predicts the existence of another person, or rather others.

  - If there is one thing I can not stop wanting in my life is sex. And quality sex. Tanya knows this and also knows that I would not be so long without a woman, even if just for this purpose - again my heart sank with its revelations. - If we are separated, I have the right to know other people, provided it is within our rules.

  - Rules? - My head was spinning.

  - Yes, some. And you've made me break one - I looked closely at him. - I can not get involved with employees. Tanya is part of the board, is one of the major shareholders, then, theoretically, I am forbidden to get involved with you - what irony! Among so many women willing to be with him, I, who am employee, was chosen, forcing him to break the rules.

  - And the others?

  - The other rules? - I nodded. - I can not spend the night away from home, except in cases where it is not in the city. I can not be seen with other women, exposing the well to ridicule. I have to be home every Saturday night - smirked that cynical way that only it could be sexy. - It is the day she receives guests and need to represent the perfect husband paper.

  Let the trapped air in my lungs. There were other rules. too absurd. My head felt like it was going to tie a knot. What a strange way was that to live? As they accepted the situation? They were a perfect couple of psychopaths.

  - It does not seem that they are separating. You have to spend every night at home.

  - Involves more than you can know now. The fact is that the rules apply to them and can not even want to break them, more than I already broke. There is much at risk. So I need you to behave.

  They were so much information that could not hold me to detail. Few things every revelation he made, were stored in my mind. For now I was just trying to find the questions that would lead me the
right answers to relieve the feeling of guilt and fear.

  - Do you sleep together?

  - No - he fingered his lips thoughtfully.

  - Have you ever ... They were together after these rules?

  - Yes Sometimes. - Holy shit! I could not agree. He still had the hots for her, how could I trust? I passed hands through his hair and I looked down. - Melissa, Tanya is almost as compelling as I do. But that is not so long ago. Overall I avoid.

  - Why are you still like it?

  - No, because in some situations I do not feel free to refuse it.. It's complicated. It's a game, Melissa, and I do not know how to play, I end up losing more than you can imagine.

  - I can not agree with that.

  - And you will do what? Continue with the furtive meetings we're having? Or will continue to accept that jerk in your bed? For what? To enjoy calling my name? - My pride was hurt. I lifted my face challenging him.

  - I do not need you in my life. Me and Dean always got on very well in bed - thought I'd be angry, but he just laughed.

  - This just proves my theory that you know nothing of sex. At least not really sex. With quality. Safely and indescribable pleasure.

  - And that only the "Mighty Carter" can give me? - I gave a sarcastic laugh. - Very funny, Robert.

  - Have you had some samples. I can do better.

  His gaze penetrated me and my body reacted immediately. Holy shit! He really knew how to give me what I wanted. What my body needed.

  - I bet her panties already all wet - I looked down confirming what he said. I was embarrassed. - You're crazy when you're excited, Melissa - pulled the air. He was absurdly delicious.

  - Did you tell your story, Robert. He said the rules will have to accept. I have to understand that never once, I'll have you with me for a whole night. We will not have a social life. I can not know other guys or go out with the old. I'm your only - nodded. - And I will not have anything from you other than quality sex.

  - You will have what you want from me, Melissa, provided it is within the rules.

  - Right. Since it is within the rules - let out a chuckle and shook my head in denial my will to accept it. Anyway, I just wanted him. - I have my rules too, Robert - raised an eyebrow. For this he did not expect. - I want to be the only - his eyes narrowed. - I do not want you to come back to have sex with Tanya, or any of the other women he has gone out. Or young women. Anything. I'll be yours. Uniquely yours, if only my - he was silent watching me. Thinking and pondering what I said.

  - It's all right. We entered into an agreement - "agreement". We were negotiating? I felt like a cheap commodity.

  - If you find that you had sex with a woman, but me, I give up everything. And you can not convince me to go back. I do not like the idea of being a lover, not to share my stuff. If we stay together will be in these terms - he gave his perfect smile and my whole body is warm.

  - Very persuasive. I agree. You just me. I know what I want and is almost all summed up to you. It's been maddening can not be inside you - dammit! My sex throbbed now desirous of it.

  - But you can now - Robert, sitting with his elbows on his knees, and his hands clasped in front of her mouth, smiled lightly and bit his thumb. His eyes were pure desire.

  -. No I can not. I said: I have an appointment I can not put off - I let my body fall on the bed. I was disoriented. Why not? There would spend so long. - Honey, I have spoken. You are not a woman for a quickie. I do not want to spoil our time shagging quickly to get to get on time to my commitment. I want you with time to spare. Besides ... - he walked towards me and wrapped his long fingers in my hair, down the shoulder and gently touching the curves of my breasts. - You owe me some orgasms. will not be satisfied with just one - my body was on edge. Down, and holding my face and kissed me with ease.

  - Now I must go - he left me too fast. - Control your libido, Melissa.

  Oh damn! How to control? He came, gave orders, set limits, excited me and left. Holy shit! It could not be so. I still had so much to say, so many questions to ask, so many limits to set. I wanted him to stay until everything was cleared up, but when I opened my mouth could not say anything he wanted.

  - You come back?

  - Not today - I closed my eyes, desolate.

  - But we'll see tomorrow.

  - Yes of course. At work - her smile was hiding something.

  - I have to go. Be nice and behave - I agreed. Could it be different? - We'll see tomorrow.

  Robert left and then immediately felt bad. It was very hard to think of everything he told me casually when his eyes were not on me. I was treading a path which could only be disappointment. But I had agreed and did not want to go back.

  ***

  Sunday passed slowly. The whole time I abused myself wondering why I have accepted. But my body could not resist it and it would be too exhausting to keep letting things happen the way they were going. He agreed with my rules. At least I could feel better by this detail.

  I went to bed early and I was rolling it thinking of gray eyes burning through me and touching me deeper than his fingers were able to achieve.

  The next day I woke up again unwilling to get out of bed, but for the first time, meet with Robert at work accepting my mistress situation. I wonder how it would be, how we behave. My attitudes in recent days were unrecognizable to me, so I could not know how to react.

  I chose a blue dress with neckline in "V", not too deep, but with the bare back. It was just up to my waist, but he released in waves beneath it, causing a dancing effect. Not knowing what Robert meant by that look when I mentioned that we would meet at work, I chose a lace panties, small and also blue.

  I dried my long brown strands leaving them smoother. I put high heels and makeup. I liked the result. I was beautiful and felt strangely good.

  I left the building and I ran into the improbable. Robert Carter, standing in front of his car and looking at me with wild eyes. He wore a suit and graphite was mayor there, as always. My boss opened the door for me.

  - Good morning, Miss. Simon.

  - Good morning, Mr. Carter - entered the car without charging more information. He took over and started.

  - Whether your agenda today, now or wait will come to the company? - I was unsure what we should talk.

  - No need. I know perfectly well that we have scheduled for today - wow! That was news to me. - I can guarantee that anything related to the company is scheduled for both of us - my mouth was opened and I was no reaction.

  - As well? - I looked out and saw that we were in the opposite direction.

  - I said, Melissa. I need a whole day with you. I am providing it - his voice was nostalgic. My whole body tingled. "It would be today? Now? Logo "- concentrate, honey! - Spasms again tried to reach my body just the fact that he called me by name. It was so intimate.

  - And the commitments?

  - Desmarquei all. We will have a full day tomorrow. And Miss will be well tired - smirked. My heart raced. Robert started the car sound and we were just with music, something about someone being on fire, and our thoughts.

  We arrived fifty minutes after a huge house, lost in the middle of nowhere. Incidentally, in the middle of a huge forest that I knew not exist in Chicago. The silence was frightening. He stopped the car in the driveway and turned off the engine turning his attention to me.

  Just gave me his perfect smile and down, back to my side offering me his hand. I held her and he squeezed my fingers transmitting security. We climbed together the steps of the house. My boss opened the door very naturally.

  - What house is this?

  - My house - faltered. He noticed and looked at me understand my apprehension. - Just mine.

  - Too big to be just his - he gave a rueful laugh and looked at the house out.

  - IT IS. Very large - pulled me inside with subtlety.

  Inside it looked even bigger. The furniture was rustic and, once again, the white pattern with dark wood reigning sovereign. He took me to the middle of the huge room. Pa
intings decorated the walls. They seemed expensive, but I knew very little art. In the background there was a sliding door, very large, wood. The glass intercalated, revealed the huge pool outside. It was a perfect view.

  - And now, Melissa Simon ... - whispered in my ear. - We are only two of us.

  His eyes left clear what would happen.

  I gasped.

  CHAPTER 22

  It was logical that I knew what would happen. I and Robert alone all day without anything or anyone to stop or hinder us. Our Lady of wobbly legs to help me. My boss had given me small doses of their ability, and I can guarantee, it was nothing like what I was used to.

  However, with my consent and released to have a complete list, which I accepted to be his mistress, I had no notion of what to do. I blinked several times to focus on his actions because my did not exist. I was completely static and expectantly.

  Robert, always very gracious and feline, crazy and real mixture, looked me in the eyes wildly, which did not ease even a little the pressure inside me. I bit my lower lip and he saw me doing it licked his lips slightly, delightedly. Holy shit! I was terrified and excited.

  The tingling in the foot belly was driving me crazy. A mixture of joy, desire, anxiety, tension and fear played in my body and I fought my urge to flee or attack him. He raised his hand and gently stroked my arm. Rose fingers unhurriedly across my skin, every centimeter was marked by a trail of fire. Heaven! He'd go crazy me even before actually touching me.

  His fingers went up. The cold skin on my very hot, almost burning, reaching my shoulders. He went up a little and stroked my cheek that surely was totally flushed. I tried in vain to control his breathing, but it was a losing fight.

  His eyes went down to my lips and concentrated there. I could feel his desire, but Robert was controlled. Very controlled. He would not act without making me lose my mind before. Thumb down to my lips opening them minimally, while his free hand brushed his fingers on my skin, reaching the limit of my neck.

  - I can not choose what the ideal color for you, Melissa, all are beautiful in your skin.