Helios

by Anja Fuerst

  - I have no reason to fear, Mr Carter - do not know where the courage came, but stared at him without taking my eyes in no time, even though he was with that look killer on me. Robert let out a quick, throaty laugh. Sarcastic.

  - I hope you're reminded of the threat did you last time - threat?

  Ah! The threat. Let me tied up in bed for two days. Big Deal! I waited for something worse. I let my sarcastic laugh escaped and I was careful to check whether or not we were calling the attention of others.

  - Do not count on it, Mr. Carter - raised an eyebrow challenging him. His eyes narrowed.

  - You broke our agreement. I am willing to charge interest anger that made me go last night. Do not be so brave, Melissa. I do not know what awaits - my eyes flickered and he smirked. Puta Shit! How could he? I needed more than strength to push him away.

  - Gentlemen? - A flight attendant came. - Follow me, please. - I took my hand luggage and Adam stepped forward to help me.

  - Let me - did an inexpensive staging romantic movie heartthrob. I smiled widely at him. If my lover wanted to play I also would play.

  - Thank you, Adam! - I left the room at his side. Adam seemed a little dog, who had just received a treat of the owner, so happy.

  We entered the jet and two commissioners were waiting for us, plus the pilot and copilot. They all shook hands, giving special attention to Robert. It was my first time, yet could not fail to amaze me with what he saw. The jet was big enough to accommodate us with the utmost luxury and comfort, and give us privacy. Very, very much, bigger than my apartment. It was a display of abuse.

  The eight armchairs seemed to be fully equipped for the well being of its occupants. I remember perfectly well how much were comfortable.

  This time Robert was not one of them. He walked to the entrance of the cabins and disappeared behind the door. All others were accommodated in the seats ahead. I did the same.

  Quickly a stewardess offered to hold my hand luggage. I noticed it was not the same as last time. purse pulled out my notebook, even though it could not use it to access the internet. I needed to re-read my report in the case of Robert have any questions. Also I pulled out my iPhone to, once again, check everything that was scheduled. Everyone seemed engrossed in their affairs.

  We settled in and the plane then slid on the track gaining height. We checked our departure time. It was not yet eight o'clock. I tried to get comfortable. It would be complicated, a trip of almost fourteen hours and a half, just sitting in an armchair. Last time I had the freedom to lie down, but he doubted Robert had this courage.

  I did the math: when we got to Dubai would be nearly midnight in Chicago. Taking into account that we had five hours difference in time zone, we would reach our destination at the end of the day. Great! We would not have to work, on the other hand, Robert could find me more easily. Connecting rooms. I sighed. He would kill me.

  I looked out the window and let my mind get lost in thought. Alexa told me enough to make me give up, so I did not give up? Why could not accept that Robert was not the right person for me and that, as he wished, could never have it?

  It was so frustrating to remember our moments, the way he looked at me, it sometimes seemed as passionate as me and suddenly I realized that it was not at all what I thought. Alexa told me that he would not back down and I knew he would not, but why? What led him to do so? Never talked about it did not give me a clue.

  All findings did not help me to trust him. What the hell! Shit! What had happened after all? What Nicole meant by those allegations? I would never know.

  The door opened and Robert passed her. His face showed how much was angry. He sat in one of the armchairs and immediately all turned their at him. I ended up doing the same.

  - And then? - Paul said.

  - And then what? - He returned the impatient question and Paul rolled his eyes.

  - I see your bad mood continues - there were no formalities had in the company. - All because Nicole and Alexa decided to leave last night. Robert Forget it! - Thank God he was not upset with Nick. I would not forgive me if I knew that, for me, the two were not right.

  - I did you a favor - Robert looked offended.

  - Oh, Robert! Thanks man - Paul was just trying to lighten the mood. - Nick said he did not need much.

  - Nicole is a fool - my boss shot back angrily.

  - Melissa was there - Paul continued to look tired of the subject. Apparently they had already talked about. - Say, Melissa. What do you think of what happened? - Almost sank into the armchair in shame. It was exactly what Robert wanted. One explanation. I did not know what to say.

  - I ... - everyone looked at me waiting for what I say. I swallowed hard. - I was not present when it happened - I admitted sheepishly.

  - Miss. Simon was busy - Robert looked even angrier.

  - Busy? - Adam instantly became interested in that part of the conversation.

  - Apparently she had a distraction last night - completed.

  - A distraction type: boyfriend? - Frank butted into the conversation. My face was on fire.

  - That - Robert stared at me angrily.

  - Boyfriend? I thought it was an invention - Adam joked of being disillusioned and Paul laughed at him.

  - I have no boyfriend - my voice was almost a whisper. The response was Robert more than for any other.

  - No? - Adam brightened and Robert closed his eyes impatiently. Damn it! I could only worsen things further.

  - But you are accepting resumes? - Joked. - What are the requirements as a prerequisite? - Frank also watched waiting for my answer. I was amused at the irony of the situation.

  - She already has a boyfriend - Robert said visibly uncomfortable with the direction of the conversation.

  - She said no - Adam countered having fun with the situation. He seemed to irritate Robert further. - So, honey, what do you think a man important for you to give him a chance? - I thought about what might say. Robert looked at me intently.

  - Just ... - I stopped without the courage to challenge him.

  - Come on, Mel! A tip - Adam instigated. Robert clutched the chair putting power in the hands.

  - She already has a boyfriend, Adam - already responded to explode.

  - What is wrong with Robert? Let the girl answer for herself - Frank joked. Robert sighed defeated and stared at me waiting. - After all you have or not have a boyfriend, Mel?

  - No - I could laugh at Robert face the fear of what would happen after not keep me so cautious.

  - So ... how a man should be to win your heart? - Adam was being too syrupy for my taste.

  - Judging by what I saw yesterday ... - Robert was with a smile and a devilish look on his face. - It is not very necessary - pressed my lips together tightly, a little disappointed with his choice words for him.

  - Oh really? - Adam spoke enthusiastically.

  - Actually ... - I began to speak, fully prepared to face it. - As said Mr. Carter, is not very necessary. My only requirement is that is not married - I looked at him defiantly. His eyes turned red hot, but all the others gave laughter. - There are some other important points, such as: do not be evil character, a liar, or opportunistic. Not find the right to come into my life changing everything that already existed and, especially, do not think you can give me orders, because for this I already have my boss - I could feel the sweet taste of revenge on my tongue. Robert was mortified.

  - It is a great list that does not require much - Frank said turning attention to the papers in his hand. My eyes were still attached to Robert biting the tip of the big toe staring at me with vengeful eyes. I was a dead woman, he was sure.

  - This story has gained more importance than it should. Let's get to work - Robert raised going away to the cabin. All returned to their activities and I was lost in my thoughts. He would charge me triple.

  I had attacked directly. What was I thinking to challenge him like that? I could only be crazy. What was he thinking when he said that shit? I was shaken, embarrassed, very
angry and, moreover, had to pretend that everything was fine and that he had no power over me.

  I felt so confused and mentally worn out that it was impossible to think coherently and come to a sensible conclusion. My body charged the sleepless night and my mind begged for a little peace and quiet.

  - Ms? - Commissioner drew my attention, pointing to a cart containing magazines and newspapers at the bottom and some things to eat at the top. - Juice, coffee, water? - I looked at the cart and my stomach was wrapped. I could not put anything inside until he had digested all the confusion.

  - You would have Coke? - She looked at me surprised, but accepted without asking me questions.

  - Certainly. One moment please - went out and I noticed that the others were still lost in their activities.

  Paul was with a newspaper in hand, Adam watched something on TV and Frank analyzing a document, certainly some agreement. As I watched he raised his eyes meeting mine and then smiled. It was embarrassing. I gave a wry smile and went back to watch other people, very embarrassed to have been caught red-handed.

  The other commissioner has hurried with a huge smile on his face and went to the door that separated us from Robert. She went in without looking back. What the fuck was that? What he meant? He believed he could have sex with that outrageously busty blonde while I was waiting on the other side? I could feel the tears forming and thought of various ways to cause the crash. At least then he would not so much wanted it.

  That miserable son of a bitch! It would not be so easy. Not even.

  - Mrs? - The other attendant came with my soda. - Want something more? - Yes. I wish that daughter Busty mother away from my ... From my ... I do not know what, but it was mine.

  - No, thank you! - My voice did not disguise his anger. I took a sip and let the liquid ooze burning my throat.

  - MS. Simon? - The blonde and busty stewardess approached without my noticing their presence. I looked at her ready to kill her. - Mr. Carter awaits - it seemed somewhat disappointed and I could not hide my great satisfaction.

  Okay. He's mine.

  I got up and followed the miss silicone to the other side. She led me to another door and opened it. I knew the way very well and knew how to find my boss without her help, but as needed to keep a clear head, mainly because would be alone with Robert, I let the annoying woman lead me.

  The room where Robert was was the same we stayed when we went to Greece. It was hard to get used to the idea that in a jet could be as large room as that. I looked at the bed and I was a little scared. Robert promised to tie me in bed if I broke the agreement. Would he have courage to risk?

  What Robert would want me there. What others would think? God! My legs were shaking and my panties started to get wet. It was absurd, I know, but it was impossible not excite me to think of my head, I and a bed in the same space. I had experience to know how much pleasure these three words could provide me. However, I could not let anything happen.

  Robert was on the other side of the room, sitting in a comfortable chair without his jacket and the sleeve of folded shirt revealing his forearm. Ahead of him was a table containing some papers and other armchair. He did not look at me. I walked in and the Commissioner withdrew. Only then he looked up and stared at me. It was like I was burning from the inside out. I was fucking excited. It was so unfair!

  - Melissa - dragged the voice to pronounce my name. His tongue passed his lips moistening them. My imagination was very fertile at that time and my eyes could not focus on something else. - Sit - indicated the chair in front of him. I gulped and obeyed. Robert just watched me.

  - Mr. Carter ... - I began, but he raised his hand stopping me.

  - What are you doing? To measure forces with me? - His eyes narrowed and my heart raced.

  - I do not know what you're talking about.

  - Dean, Adam Simpson ... - opened and closed my mouth without knowing what to say. - I think I have not been clear enough about my concept of trespassing - ok. Anger began to explode on me. It was a dangerous path to tread.

  - Property? - Interrupted him in a low voice feeling insulted.

  My mind was working at full steam releasing parts of the conversation with Alexa at the same time images of him with Tanya holding hands appeared in flashes. The air was so heavy that breathing became a battle. He was still speaking, but his voice seemed distant. I partially heard what he said.

  - I'll need to keep her locked up at home so that you understand ...

  - Stop it now, Robert - I closed my eyes angrily trying to keep my voice. I did not want others to hear. - I'm not. Your. Property - the tears ran down my eyes, but did not deter me.

  - Not the way you thinking - he stepped back, but it was too late.

  - To hell you and all your theories - was amazed at my reaction. - I'm tired. I'm tired of this game. I'm tired of all this his madness. You may have worked with all the other women he joked, not me. I'm tired. I am out. You can fire me if you want. You can send me back on the next flight or can throw me out of that, but I'm out - fucked! Anger over me. I could not allow him to treat me like an object.

  Robert pulled the air force and rubbed his head, but soon regained security.

  - Do not attempt to turn the tables on me, Melissa. It was not me who was grabbing me with another woman at the club yesterday. It was you who broke our agreement and gave me this right.

  - Wake up? - I laughed sarcastically wiping the tears flooded my face. - We have more agreement. I will not let myself be fooled because you can not solve his problems with his wife. I will not be any more weekend at home prevented from seeing my friends, going out with who I want, the way you want, and by the time I want. You do not own me - this last sentence came out with more strength and therefore higher.

  - Enough, Melissa! - shouted. I was amazed. Robert got up and walked around the room passing hands through his hair. He exuded anger. I was very angry. - I will not admit it, you know? - He said with the finger pointed at me. It seemed my father gave me when scolding. It would be comical if it were not so tragic.

  - You do not have this right, Robert. Go give orders to his wife.

  I stood stamping their feet like a spoiled child, determined to get out of there and let him talking to himself. That everything else be damned. care not whether people outside would find or not about our case, or if I would be fired. I did not care about anything else. I just wanted to get as far as possible from him.

  But Robert did not have the same plans. He caught me before I could get to the door. I had no time to react, because with exaggerated force, threw me on the bed positioning above me. His hand holding mine above my head and the other was covering my mouth. I was scared and tense.

  - Do not yell - warned me. - What are you going to do? Go away? Running into the arms of that ... From that imbecile? - I struggled beneath him.

  Robert held me tightly and opened space between my legs positioning itself between them. My skirt resisted making it difficult to maneuver. My boss smiled, demonic, delighted by my refusal. Holy shit! It was an unequal fight, much above my capacity.

  - It will never be for you even half of what I am, Melissa - shake off the face to get rid of your hand. He answered my appeal and released my mouth. His long fingers brushed my lips parting them. I closed my eyes trying to regroup his thoughts and when he opened his mouth down towards me.

  - Leave me alone. I do not want - turned my face preventing him to kiss me, but I knew if that was his will nothing would stop him.

  - Of course you want - without giving up, he kissed my cheek and down distributing kisses her neck, coming very close to her breasts. Mixed emotions mingled in my head. Anger, hatred, shame and lust. Robert could always awaken what existed best and worst in me.

  - Giving in to his sexual appeal will not keep me on your side, Robert. You will get what you want. Always get. I can not help it. But I swear that after that I'll leave. Disappear from your life ... - sobs prevented me from continuing, but it was enough to make him stop. O
ur eyes met.

  He looked at me for a few seconds. His eyes showed pain, but this feeling guerrilhava with fury. It was charming and scary at the same time. I was afraid of what he would do. Robert was at an impasse. I first saw desperation in his eyes, so he let his forehead came down to my neck. I sobbed leaving crying dominate me. How could it be so conflicted?

  - What you want from me, Melissa? Do not test me so this way I do not know what I'm capable - he panted with his face buried in my neck. His hand was still holding mine.

  - Let me go, Robert. You can not give me what I want. What do I need - I could not believe I was saying it. Where did I get the courage?

  - Who can? Dean? - He raised his head looking at me with crazy eyes. - Or Adam Simpson? - Spat the words, disgusted. I closed my eyes.

  I did not want to make matters worse our situation. I just needed him to accept that we could no longer stay together and that was the easy part. Difficult it would be to convince me it was the right decision.

  - I'm no different at all of the many women who have been through in his life - he laughed sarcastically. His free hand ran for his tousled hair, but Robert quickly regained security and spoke without showing fear before.

  - You do not know what you're talking about. Who put that shit in your head? Who've been talking? - His eyes narrowed as if to know much more than he was able to ask me.

  - This matters? Will deny that other women have represented the same role as me?

  - No other woman played this role, Melissa. Not so and definitely not even have a third of what I give you. But Damn! - He released me and sat on the bed. I stood slowly afraid had another absurd reaction. - Is that really what you think? He believes that another man is able to meet your expectations? What do you, Melissa? Answer!

  He did not scream because he had awareness of danger that was to draw the attention of others to us, yet his voice was loud and authoritative. Robert oscillated between insurance CEO of himself and arrogant, not asked, ordered, and the sweet and gentle man who often had, seduced me and made love to me. I was confused and could not answer.