The Complete Works of Henry James

by Henry James

  “Oh I’m not in question!”

  “Yes, you are!” she quite rang out.

  “Ah—!” Mitchy laughed. After which he added: “Well then, I might overbear you.”

  “No, you mightn’t,” she as positively declared again, “and you wouldn’t at any rate desire to.”

  This he finally showed he could take from her—showed it in the silence in which for a minute their eyes met; then showed it perhaps even more in his deep exclamation: “You’re complete!”

  For such a proposition as well she had the same detached sense. “I don’t think I am in anything but the wish to keep YOU so.”

  “Well—keep me, keep me! It strikes me that I’m not at all now on a footing, you know, of keeping myself. I quite give you notice in fact,” Mitchy went on, “that I’m going to come to you henceforth for everything. But you’re too wonderful,” he wound up as she at first said nothing to this. “I don’t even frighten you.”

  “Yes—fortunately for you.”

  “Ah but I distinctly warn you that I mean to do my very best for it!”

  Nanda viewed it all with as near an approach to gaiety as she often achieved. “Well, if you should ever succeed it would be a dark day for you.”

  “You bristle with your own guns,” he pursued, “but the ingenuity of a lifetime shall be devoted to my taking you on some quarter on which you’re not prepared.”

  “And what quarter, pray, will that be?”

  “Ah I’m not such a fool as to begin by giving you a tip!” Mitchy on this turned off with an ambiguous but unmistakeably natural sigh; he looked at photographs, he took up a book or two as Vanderbank had done, and for a couple of minutes there was silence between them. “What does stretch before me,” he resumed after an interval during which clearly, in spite of his movements, he had looked at nothing—”what does stretch before me is the happy prospect of my feeling that I’ve found in you a friend with whom, so utterly and unreservedly, I can always go to the bottom of things. This luxury, you see now, of our freedom to look facts in the face is one of which, I promise you, I mean fully to avail myself.” He stopped before her again, and again she was silent. “It’s so awfully jolly, isn’t it? that there’s not at last a single thing that we can’t take our ease about. I mean that we can’t intelligibly name and comfortably tackle. We’ve worked through the long tunnel of artificial reserves and superstitious mysteries, and I at least shall have only to feel that in showing every confidence and dotting every ‘i’ I follow the example you so admirably set. You go down to the roots? Good. It’s all I ask!”

  He had dropped into a chair as he talked, and so long as she remained in her own they were confronted; but she presently got up and, the next moment, while he kept his place, was busy restoring order to the objects both her visitors had disarranged. “If you weren’t delightful you’d be dreadful!”

  “There we are! I could easily, in other words, frighten you if I would.”

  She took no notice of the remark, only, after a few more scattered touches, producing an observation of her own. “He’s going, all the same, Mr. Van, to be charming to mother. We’ve settled that.”

  “Ah then he CAN make time—?”

  She judged it. “For as much as THAT, yes. For as much, I mean, as may sufficiently show her that he hasn’t given her up. So don’t you recognise how much more time YOU can make?”

  “Ah—see precisely—there we are again!” Mitchy promptly ejaculated.

  Yet he had gone, it seemed, further than she followed. “But where?”

  “Why, as I say, at the roots and in the depths of things.”

  “Oh!” She dropped to an indifference that was but part of her general patience for all his irony.

  “It’s needless to go into the question of not giving your mother up. One simply DOESN’T give her up. One can’t. There she is.”

  “That’s exactly what HE says. There she is.”

  “Ah but I don’t want to say nothing but what ‘he’ says!” Mitchy laughed. “He can’t at all events have mentioned to you any such link as the one that in my case is now almost the most palpable. I’VE got a wife, you know.”

  “Oh Mitchy!” the girl protestingly though vaguely murmured.

  “And my wife—did you know it?” Mitchy went on, “is positively getting thick with your mother. Of course it isn’t new to you that she’s wonderful for wives. Now that our marriage is an accomplished fact she takes the greatest interest in it—or bids fair to if her attention can only be thoroughly secured—and more particularly in what I believe is generally called our peculiar situation: for it appears, you know, that we’re to the most conspicuous degree possible IN a peculiar situation. Aggie’s therefore already, and is likely to be still more, in what’s universally recognised as your mother’s regular line. Your mother will attract her, study her, finally ‘understand’ her. In fact she’ll ‘help’ her as she has ‘helped’ so many before and will ‘help’ so many still to come. With Aggie thus as a satellite and a frequenter—in a degree in which she never yet HAS been,” he continued, “what will the whole thing be but a practical multiplication of our points of contact? You may remind me of Mrs. Brook’s contention that if she did in her time keep something of a saloon the saloon is now, in consequence of events, but a collection of fortuitous atoms; but that, my dear Nanda, will become none the less, to your clearer sense, but a pious echo of her momentary modesty or—call it at the worst—her momentary despair. The generations will come and go, and the PERSONNEL, as the newspapers say, of the saloon will shift and change, but the institution itself, as resting on a deep human need, has a long course yet to run and a good work yet to do. WE shan’t last, but your mother will, and as Aggie is happily very young she’s therefore provided for, in the time to come, on a scale sufficiently considerable to leave us just now at peace. Meanwhile, as you’re almost as good for husbands as Mrs. Brook is for wives, why aren’t we, as a couple, we Mitchys, quite ideally arranged for, and why mayn’t I speak to you of my future as sufficiently guaranteed? The only appreciable shadow I make out comes, for me, from the question of what may to-day be between you and Mr. Longdon. Do I understand,” Mitchy asked, “that he’s presently to arrive for an answer to something he has put to you?” Nanda looked at him a while with a sort of solemnity of tenderness, and her voice, when she at last spoke, trembled with a feeling that clearly had grown in her as she listened to the string of whimsicalities, bitter and sweet, that he had just unrolled. “You’re wild,” she said simply—”you’re wild.”

  He wonderfully glared. “Am I then already frightening you?” He shook his head rather sadly. “I’m not in the least trying yet. There’s something,” he added after an instant, “that I do want too awfully to ask you.”

  “Well then—!” If she had not eagerness she had at least charity.

  “Oh but you see I reflect that though you show all the courage to go to the roots and depths with ME, I’m not—I never have been—fully conscious of the nerve for doing as much with you. It’s a question,” Mitchy explained, “of how much—of a particular matter—you know.”

  She continued ever so kindly to face him. “Hasn’t it come out all round now that I know everything?”

  Her reply, in this form, took a minute or two to operate, but when it began to do so it fairly diffused a light. Mitchy’s face turned of a colour that might have been produced by her holding close to it some lantern wonderfully glazed. “You know, you know!” he then rang out.

  “Of course I know.”

  “You know, you know!” Mitchy repeated.

  “Everything,” she imperturbably went on, “but what you’re talking about.”

  He was silent a little, his eyes on her. “May I kiss your hand?”

  “No,” she answered: “that’s what I call wild.”

  He had risen with his question and after her reply he remained a moment on the spot. “See—I’ve frightened you. It proves as easy as that. But I only wanted to show yo
u and to be sure for myself. Now that I’ve the mental certitude I shall never wish otherwise to use it.” He turned away to begin again one of his absorbed revolutions. “Mr. Longdon has asked you this time for a grand public adhesion, and what he turns up for now is to receive your ultimatum? A final irrevocable flight with him is the line he advises, so that he’ll be ready for it on the spot with the post-chaise and the pistols?”

  The image appeared really to have for Nanda a certain vividness, and she looked at it a space without a hint of a smile. “We shan’t need any pistols, whatever may be decided about the post-chaise; and any flight we may undertake together will need no cover of secrecy or night. Mother, as I’ve told you—”

  “Won’t fling herself across your reckless path? I remember,” said Mitchy—”you alluded to her magnificent resignation. But father?” he oddly demanded.

  Nanda thought for this a moment longer. “Well, Mr. Longdon has—off in the country—a good deal of shooting.”

  “So that Edward can sometimes come down with his old gun? Good then too —if it isn’t, as he takes you by the way, to shoot YOU. You’ve got it all shipshape and arranged, in other words, and have only, if the fancy does move you, to clear out. You clear out—you make all sorts of room. It IS interesting,” Mitchy exclaimed, “arriving thus with you at the depths! I look all round and see every one squared and every one but one or two suited. Why then reflexion and delay?”

  “You don’t, dear Mr. Mitchy,” Nanda took her time to return, “know nearly as much as you think.”

  “But isn’t my question absolutely a confession of ignorance and a renunciation of thought? I put myself from this moment forth with you,” Mitchy declared, “on the footing of knowing nothing whatever and of receiving literally from your hands all information and all life. Let my continued attitude of dependence, my dear Nanda, show it. Any hesitation you may yet feel, you imply, proceeds from a sense of duties in London not to be lightly renounced? Oh,” he thoughtfully said, “I do at least know you HAVE them.”

  She watched him with the same mildness while he vaguely circled about. “You’re wild, you’re wild,” she insisted. “But it doesn’t in the least matter. I shan’t abandon you.”

  He stopped short. “Ah that’s what I wanted from you in so many clear-cut golden words—though I won’t in the least of course pretend that I’ve felt I literally need it. I don’t literally need the big turquoise in my neck-tie; which incidentally means, by the way, that if you should admire it you’re quite welcome to it. Such words—that’s my point—are like such jewels: the pride, you see, of one’s heart. They’re mere vanity, but they help along. You’ve got of course always poor Tishy,” he continued.

  “Will you leave it all to ME?” Nanda said as if she had not heard him.

  “And then you’ve got poor Carrie,” he went on, “though HER of course you rather divide with your mother.”

  “Will you leave it all to ME?” the girl repeated.

  “To say nothing of poor Cashmore,” he pursued, “whom you take ALL, I believe, yourself?”

  “Will you leave it all to ME?” she once more repeated.

  This time he pulled up, suddenly and expressively wondering. “Are you going to do anything about it at present?—I mean with our friend?”

  She appeared to have a scruple of saying, but at last she produced it. “Yes—he doesn’t mind now.”

  Mitchy again laughed out. “You ARE, as a family—!” But he had already checked himself. “Mr. Longdon will at any rate, you imply, be somehow interested—”

  “In MY interests? Of course—since he has gone so far. You expressed surprise at my wanting to wait and think; but how can I not wait and not think when so much depends on the question—now so definite—of how much further he WILL go?”

  “I see,” said Mitchy, profoundly impressed. “And how much does that depend on?”

  She had to reflect. “On how much further I, for my part, MUST!”

  Mitchy’s grasp was already complete. “And he’s coming then to learn from you how far this is?”

  “Yes—very much.”

  Mitchy looked about for his hat. “So that of course I see my time’s about up, as you’ll want to be quite alone together.”

  Nanda glanced at the clock. “Oh you’ve a margin yet.”

  “But you don’t want an interval for your thinking—?”

  “Now that I’ve seen you?” Nanda was already very obviously thoughtful.

  “I mean if you’ve an important decision to take.”

  “Well,” she returned, “seeing you HAS helped me.”

  “Ah but at the same time worried you. Therefore—” And he picked up his umbrella.

  Her eyes rested on its curious handle. “If you cling to your idea that I’m frightened you’ll be disappointed. It will never be given you to reassure me.”

  “You mean by that that I’m primarily so solid—!”

  “Yes, that till I see you yourself afraid—!”

  “Well?”

  “Well, I won’t admit that anything isn’t exactly what I was prepared for.”

  Mitchy looked with interest into his hat. “Then what is it I’m to ‘leave’ to you?” After which, as she turned away from him with a suppressed sound and said, while he watched her, nothing else, “It’s no doubt natural for you to talk,” he went on, “but I do make you nervous. Good-bye—good-bye.”

  She had stayed him, by a fresh movement, however, as he reached the door. “Aggie’s only trying to find out—!”

  “Yes—what?” he asked, waiting.

  “Why what sort of a person she is. How can she ever have known? It was carefully, elaborately hidden from her—kept so obscure that she could make out nothing. She isn’t now like ME.”

  He wonderingly attended. “Like you?”

  “Why I get the benefit of the fact that there was never a time when I didn’t know SOMETHING or other, and that I became more and more aware, as I grew older, of a hundred little chinks of daylight.”

  Mitchy stared. “You’re stupendous, my dear!” he murmured.

  Ah but she kept it up. “I had my idea about Aggie.”

  “Oh don’t I know you had? And how you were positive about the sort of person—!”

  “That she didn’t even suspect herself,” Nanda broke in, “to be? I’m equally positive now. It’s quite what I believed, only there’s ever so much more of it. More HAS come—and more will yet. You see, when there has been nothing before, it all has to come with a rush. So that if even I’m surprised of course she is.”

  “And of course I am!” Mitchy’s interest, though even now not wholly unqualified with amusement, had visibly deepened. “You admit then,” he continued, “that you’re surprised?”

  Nanda just hesitated. “At the mere scale of it. I think it’s splendid. The only person whose astonishment I don’t quite understand,” she added, “is Cousin Jane.”

  “Oh Cousin Jane’s astonishment serves her right!”

  “If she held so,” Nanda pursued, “that marriage should do everything—!”

  “She shouldn’t be in such a funk at finding what it IS doing? Oh no, she’s the last one!” Mitchy declared. “I vow I enjoy her scare.”

  “But it’s very bad, you know,” said Nanda.

  “Oh too awful!”

  “Well, of course,” the girl appeared assentingly to muse, “she couldn’t after all have dreamed—!” But she took herself up. “The great thing is to be helpful.”

  “And in what way—?” Mitchy asked with his wonderful air of inviting competitive suggestions.

  “Toward Aggie’s finding herself. Do you think,” she immediately continued, “that Lord Petherton really is?”

  Mitchy frankly considered. “Helpful? Oh he does his best, I gather. Yes,” he presently added—”Petherton’s all right.”

  “It’s you yourself, naturally,” his companion threw off, “who can help most.”

  “Certainly, and I’m doing my best too
. So that with such good assistance”—he seemed at last to have taken it all from her—”what is it, I again ask, that, as you request, I’m to ‘leave’ to you?”

  Nanda required, while he still waited, some time to reply. “To keep my promise.”

  “Your promise?”

  “Not to abandon you.”

  “Ah,” cried Mitchy, “that’s better!”

  “Then good-bye,” she said.

  “Good-bye.” But he came a few steps forward. “I MAYN’T kiss your hand?”

  “Never.”

  “Never?”

  “Never.”