Red

by Ted Dekker

  But here in the desert, with the odor of sulfur so strong and his face nearly white, the disease took her by surprise.

  “Are . . . are you okay?”

  He stared at her, dumbfounded. “We had to go in dressed like one of them,” he said. “I haven’t bathed. Why are you here?”

  His men and Mikil stood around a small circle of bedrolls on the sand. No fire—a clean camp. Their horses stood in a clump beside Thomas. William was only half dressed and was wiping his body down with water. His skin was a mix of clear pink and pasty white.

  “How could you do this without telling me?” she demanded. “You haven’t bathed since leaving? You’ve lost your mind!”

  He said nothing.

  No matter, he was safe; that’s what she cared about. She ran back to her horse, pulled out a leather bag full of lake water, and threw it to him.

  “Wash. Hurry. We have to talk. Alone.”

  “What’s happened?”

  “I’ll tell you, but you’ll have to wash first. I’m not kissing any man who smells like the dead.”

  He washed the disease clear, and Suzan told the Guard about their journey. But when Thomas demanded to know why they had taken such a risk, she only glanced at Rachelle.

  Thomas jerked a tunic from his saddlebag, snapped it once to clear the dust, pulled it on, and faced the others.

  “Excuse us for a moment.”

  He took her elbow and led her away. “I’m sorry, my love,” he said in a hushed tone. “Please forgive me, but I had to come and I couldn’t worry you.”

  He still smelled. A spit bath would never compare to a swim in the lake. “Running off wouldn’t worry me?” she asked.

  “I’m sorry, but—”

  “Don’t ever do that again. Ever!” She took a deep breath. “I know why you came. I talked to the old man, Jeremiah. Did you find them?”

  “You know I came for the Books?”

  “And I’m guessing that you didn’t take the fruit last night as I thought we had agreed you would.”

  “You don’t understand; I had to dream.”

  Rachelle stopped and glanced back at their small camp. Then she looked into his eyes and swept a strand of hair from his face. “I dreamed last night, Thomas.”

  “You always dream.”

  “I dreamed of the histories.”

  He searched her face urgently. “You’re sure?”

  “Sure enough to chase you halfway across the desert.”

  “But . . . how is that possible? You’ve never dreamed of the histories! You’re absolutely sure? Because you may have dreamed of something that felt like the histories, or you may have dreamed that you were like me, dreaming about the histories.”

  “No. I know it was the histories because I was doing things that I have no business knowing how to do. I was in a place called a laboratory, working on a virus called the Raison Strain.”

  She’d rehearsed this a hundred times in the last twelve hours, but telling him now brought a lump to her throat and a tremble to her voice.

  “You were a scientist? You were actually there, working on the virus?”

  “Not only was I there, but I had a name. I shared the mind of a woman named Monique de Raison. For all I know, I was her.”

  His body tensed. “You . . . how’s that possible?”

  “Stop asking that. I don’t know how it’s possible! Nothing makes sense to me, any more than it ever made sense to you. But I know without question that I was there. In the histories, I shared the mind of Monique de Raison. Look, I have a cut on my finger that proves it. She . . . I . . . I was handling a piece of white parchment . . . no, it was called paper. The edge of the paper cut my finger.”

  She lifted her finger for him, but there wasn’t enough light to see the tiny cut.

  “You could have cut yourself here and imagined that you were cutting yourself in a place called a laboratory working on the virus that I’ve spoken of many times.”

  “You have to believe me, Thomas! Just like you wanted me to believe you. I was there. I saw the . . . computer. Did you ever talk to me about a device called a computer that computes in a way we can’t even imagine here? No, you didn’t. Or a micro . . .” She couldn’t remember all the names or details; they’d grown fuzzy with each passing hour. “A device that looks into very small things. How could I know that?”

  His eyes were wide. He ran his hand through his hair and paced. “This is incredible! You think that you’re actually her? But you look different there than here.”

  “I don’t know how it works. I felt like I was her, but also separate. I shared her experiences, her knowledge.”

  “I’m Thomas in both realities, but I look the same in both. You don’t look like Monique.”

  “You’re exactly the same person?”

  “Yes. No, I’m younger there. Only twenty-five I think.”

  “The details get fuzzy the longer you’re here,” she said.

  He suddenly stopped his pacing, looked directly at her, and kissed her on the mouth. “Thank you! Thank you, thank you.”

  She couldn’t help her shallow grin. Here they stood, in the middle of the desert with the Horde not a few miles away, kissing because they had this connection with their dreams.

  “Have you dreamed again?” he asked.

  Her smile faded. “On my horse, I slept, yes.”

  “And?”

  “And I dreamed of the Gathering.”

  “But not of Monique. Something must have happened for you to dream that one time.” He rubbed his temples. “Something . . . does she know?”

  “Monique?”

  “When I dream, I’m conscious of myself in the other reality. I know that at this very moment, while I’m awake here, I’m also asleep in a hotel in a place near Washington, D.C. Do you know, is Monique sleeping now?”

  Rachelle had no idea. She shrugged. “I don’t think she knows about me, or at least she doesn’t think of me. Or I should say that she didn’t think of me when I was . . . looking through her eyes.”

  “Perhaps because she hasn’t dreamed of you. You know she exists, but she doesn’t know you exist!”

  He was far more excited about his conclusion than she was. “I don’t find that comforting,” Rachelle said.

  “Why not? The point is, you know! You have no idea what this means to me, Rachelle. We’re somehow bound together in both realities. I’m not the only one anymore. Do you know how many times I’ve been tempted to think I’ve lost my mind?”

  “So now your lunacy has spread to me. What a delightful prospect. And I don’t think we are bound together in both realities, as you call them. Not the way I understand bonding.” She lowered her voice. “Do you love Monique?”

  He blinked. “No. Why?”

  “You should!”

  Thomas stared at her.

  “I mean, if I am Monique, then you have to love me.”

  “But we don’t know if you are Monique.”

  “No. But at the least, she and I are connected.”

  “Yes.”

  Rachelle lifted her cut finger. “And what happens to her happens to me.”

  “It would seem that way.”

  “A man—Swenson?—this man . . . he will kill Monique.”

  Thomas didn’t say anything for a moment, as though a real understanding of what she was saying had begun to reach him. Then he gently wrapped his hand around Rachelle’s and lifted her finger to his lips. He kissed her cut. “Dreams can’t kill you, my love.” Thomas’s hand was shaking.

  “You don’t need to pretend. You know it better than I do. You told me the same thing yourself fifteen years ago. You said it again last night. If we die in the histories, we may very well die here. I don’t understand it. I’m not sure I want to understand it, but it’s true.”

  “I won’t let you die!”

  She took a step closer to Thomas so that her body touched his. “Then you must dream, husband. You must stop the virus, because we know from the hist
ories that the virus kills most of them, and I doubt very much that this Swenson has any intention of letting Monique live.”

  “Then you think I can change the histories?”

  She looked into his eyes. “If you can’t . . . if we can’t, then we both may die. There and here. And if we die here, what will become of the forests? What will become of our children? You must rescue Monique. Because you love me, you must rescue Monique.”

  Thomas looked stricken.

  “I have to get the rest of the Books of Histories! Now, before the Horde moves.”

  “No. You must dream. I know where Monique is being held.”

  13

  THE OVAL Office. More power flowed from this room than any other room in the world, but watching the hubbub of activity while waiting for his audience with President Blair, Thomas wondered if that power might have short-circuited.

  He didn’t know precisely who knew about the Raison Strain, but the urgency on their faces betrayed the panicked disposition of half a dozen other visitors who’d evidently demanded and received appointments with the world’s highest office.

  Some were undoubtedly secretaries or aides in the cabinet itself; others had to represent fires the president felt obligated to put out—opposition leaders threatening to go public, concerned lawmakers with good intentions that would ruin the country, et cetera, et cetera.

  If this was the kind of panic that disturbed these stately halls, what was the scene in other governments? From what Thomas could overhear, the governments of the western nations were all but caving in already, only two days into the crisis.

  Thomas was seated on the gold sofa with his feet on the presidential seal, facing the president, who sat on an identical couch directly across from him. Phil Grant sat on the couch next to the president. To his right Ron Kreet, chief of staff, and Clarice Morton, who’d come to Thomas’s rescue in the meeting yesterday, sat in the green-and-gold armchairs by the fireplace. A painting of George Washington eyed them from its frame between them. Robert Blair, Phil Grant, and Ron Kreet all wore ties. Clarice wore a plum business suit. Thomas had opted for the same black slacks and white shirt he’d worn yesterday—at the moment, they were the only clothes he owned that had any real dress to them, although he doubted it mattered much to this president.

  “You’re sure about this, Thomas?” the president said.

  “I’m as sure as I can be about anything, Mr. President. I know it still sounds like a stretch to you, but this is how I learned about the virus in the first place.”

  “You’re saying that you found the Books of Histories—these history books that may tell us what happens next—but more importantly, you know where they’re keeping Monique de Raison.”

  “Yes.”

  The president looked at Kreet, who lifted an eyebrow as if to say, Your call, not mine.

  Thomas had awakened early and spent the first hour trying to track down Gains or Grant—actually anyone who could respond to this new information he’d retrieved from his dreams. Both had stayed up late and were finally asleep, he learned. By the time he convinced Grant’s assistant to patch him through, it was almost nine in the morning.

  Three minutes later he had both Grant and Gains on a conference call. He had new information, and when he told them what it was, they’d pulled whatever strings needed pulling to move the meeting with the president up.

  He’d convinced Kara to take an early flight to New York. Their mother needed her children in a time like this, but Thomas couldn’t leave Washington. Not now.

  It was eleven, and he’d just made his case to the most powerful man alive. Monique was being held in a mountain called Cyclops, he said.

  “So you’re saying that your wife, this wife in your dreams, is somehow connected to Monique de Raison. Is that right?” Clarice said.

  He sensed that she wanted to believe him. Maybe a part of her did believe him. But the twinkle in her eyes betrayed more than a little doubt.

  He looked at the president. “Mr. President, permission to be blunt, Sir.”

  “Of course.”

  A woman dressed in a black suit slipped in and whispered something in the president’s ear.

  “When?”

  “In the last two minutes.”

  He turned to the CIA director. “Phil, I think you’re needed. We just received word from the French. Find out what’s going on and get back in here as soon as you have the picture.”

  “I knew it,” Grant muttered. “Those sons of . . .” He left the office with the lady in black.

  “The French?” Kreet said. “We were right?”

  “Don’t know.” President Blair looked at Thomas. “Five of their leaders including the president and the prime minister were seen walking into an unscheduled meeting yesterday. Only four came out. Some are saying that President Henri Gaetan is no longer who he was yesterday.”

  “A coup?”

  “That’s a bit premature,” Kreet said. “But it wouldn’t surprise us if elements of the French government weren’t somehow connected to Svensson.”

  The president stood and walked to his desk, one hand in his pocket. He rapped the top of his desk, sat against it, and folded his arms.

  “Okay, Thomas. Fire away. Tell me why I should listen to you.”

  “Honestly, I’m not saying that you should. Two weeks ago I was trying to pay rent by holding down a job at the Java Hut in Denver.”

  “That’s not what I need. Why should I listen to you?”

  Thomas hesitated. He stood and walked around the couch.

  “I’m the only one here who’s seeing both sides of history. As the only person seeing both sides of history, there’s a good chance that I’m also the only one who can change that history. I don’t know that as a fact, but I’m fairly confident it’s true. If I can’t change history, then billions of people, including you, will soon be dead.”

  The chief of staff raised an eyebrow.

  “These are the facts,” Thomas said. “And the more time I spend justifying myself, the less time I have to change history.”

  His delivery seemed to have taken the president off guard. He stared at Thomas silently.

  It did sound awfully arrogant, Thomas thought. With his own people, as the supreme commander of the Forest Guard, this kind of presentation would be expected. But here he was still the kid from Denver who had flipped out. At least to some. He only hoped the president wasn’t among them.

  A slight grin nudged Robert Blair’s mouth. “Now that’s what I call spunk. I pray to God you’re wrong about all of this, but I have to agree that in a strange way you actually make sense.”

  “Then I’ll tell you more, if you like.”

  “I’m all ears.”

  Thomas walked to a painting of Abraham Lincoln and faced them again. “I’m sure your people have considered this already, but I’ve had more time than most of them to think this through. Clearly, it’s just a matter of time before the rest of the world discovers what’s happening. You can’t hide the kind of arms movement Svensson is demanding from the press for long. When they do learn of it, the world will begin to fracture. There’s no telling what kind of chaos will ensue. Pressure to comply with Svensson’s demands will become astronomical. So will pressure to launch a preemptive strike. Both will end badly.”

  “And exactly what scenario won’t end badly?” the president asked. “You may have given this a lot of thought, son, but I’m not sure you can appreciate the full complexity of the situation.”

  “Then tell me.”

  Kreet cleared his throat. “Excuse me, but I really don’t think this is the best use of—”

  The president held up his hand. “It’s okay, Ron. I want him to hear this.”

  He turned to Thomas. “For starters, short of invoking emergency powers, I don’t run this country alone. It’s a republic, remember? I can’t just do what I want to.”

  “You can and you have to. Invoke emergency powers.”

  “I may. In the
meantime, the virus has cropped up in over a hundred of our cities. The CDC and the World Health Organization are up to their eyeballs in data they can’t begin to unravel in any amount of reasonable time. Apart from this premonition of yours called Cyclops, we have no clue where Svensson’s hiding out, assuming he’s the person we should be looking for. Dwight Olsen’s opposition is already circling the wagons. Knowing him, he’ll find a way to blame this whole mess on me and bog down my emergency powers. There are already rumblings of a preemptive nuclear strike, and I think Dwight might reverse himself on this one. If we go down, we go down fighting. You know the drill, and I’m not sure I disagree. Even if we give in to these ridiculous demands of this New Allegiance of theirs, we have no guarantee that they’ll give us the antivirus.”

  “They won’t. Which is why you can’t give in.”

  “You know this from these books?”

  “If I were their strategist and you were the Horde—if you were my enemy—I wouldn’t give you the antivirus. The instruments of battle have changed, but not the minds behind them. It also explains why over half the world’s population is wiped out by the virus according to the histories. They plan to give out the antivirus selectively, regardless of any promise to the contrary. I’m quite sure you’re not at the top of their list of favorite people.”

  Clarice stood and crossed the floor. There were now three on the gold carpet—only Kreet remained in his chair. “So you insist we don’t give in to their demands, and you insist we don’t wage war, assuming we ever pin down a target. What, then?”

  The president acknowledged her question with a nod and looked at Thomas evenly.

  “I doubt very much any conventional solution will change anything. They would have been tried in the histories and failed. My solution requires you to believe me. I understand that’s the challenge here, but in the end you’ll find it’s the only way.”

  “Be more specific, Thomas,” the president said. “What exactly are you suggesting?”

  “First, believe me when I say I know where Monique is. She is your key to securing the antivirus. Second, do whatever is necessary to prevent both nuclear war and the international community’s capitulation to Svensson’s demands. Bluff if you have to. Start the nuclear weapons on their way. Withhold enough weapons for a credible threat, and if we have no solution when the weapons actually reach their destination—”