A Visible Darkness

by Jonathon King

  I lost my eyesight for a second and had a strange recollection of the first time I tried to stand on ice skates as a child and felt no friction under my feet.

  When my vision returned and refocused, I was down on the canvas with my knees together and ankles splayed out, squatting. Mohammed was back in his corner, standing, taking instruction from his trainer. The room was still spinning when I turned to look out of the ring. My father was missing. And then I saw his back turned to me. The sight of his son being dropped to the floor by a black man, even in sport, was something he could not bear to witness. His shoulders filled the door to the street and he met the cold wind without dropping his chin.

  13

  The light woke me. A midday sun left bright and clean by a high pressure system that had swept the sky clear of cloud. I was not used to sleeping in daylight.

  “The evils of city nightlife,” I said aloud, with no one to share the joke. I got up and set the coffeepot going and rummaged through the rough pantry shelves for canned fruit and a sealed loaf of bread. As I ate I could hear the hard “keowk” of a tri-colored heron outside, working the tide pools on the western bank of the river. I looked for a book in my sloppy stack on the top bunk and picked a collection of stories about the Dakotas by Jonathan Raban. I took it outside and sat on the top step, propping my back against the south wall. I was deep into the fourth story when the cell phone started chirping.

  “Yeah, Billy?” I said instinctively into the handset.

  “Ya’ll wait till I say hello an’ you wouldn’t make that mistake,” McCane said from the other side of the connection.

  “McCane?” I said. “Who gave you this number?”

  “Well, that’d be your pal Manchester. He doesn’t seem too eager to deal with me one-on-one, if you know what I mean.”

  I could hear a tinkling of glassware and the strains of a Patsy Cline song in the background.

  “What do you need?” I said.

  “I need to get with you on this little purchase group I’ve been sniffin’ out, Freeman. Why don’t you come join me? We’ll sit down and have a drink and sift through it a bit.”

  “Why don’t you sift through it over the phone? I’m afraid I can’t make it back in today,” I said. It was early afternoon and I could hear the softening of the hard vowels and drawn out s sounds in McCane’s speech, telltale patterns I’d heard too many times in my youth. He wouldn’t be sober by suppertime.

  “Okay. Have it your way, bud,” he started. “We got a bit of a trail working here. But it’s not exactly clear where it’s leadin’. Through our company I pulled some private documentation and laid out the purchases on our insured. Then I got some friends with the other companies to do the same.”

  He was clicking back into business mode and I had to admire the transition.

  “Now, these investment boys pull these life policies in from a lot of places. The so-called gay community was a choice target when that AIDS thing was knockin’ ’em off a few years back. And there wasn’t too much illegal goin’ on, since these boys figured they had a death sentence anyway so let’s get the money and party. Hell, the investors bought ’em up for twenty cents on the dollar. The boys spent the money while they shriveled up, and when they died, the investors cashed out.”

  Even with a few drinks in him, McCane still only bordered on displaying the homophobia in his voice. Nothing that an e-mail or printed deposition would ever show.

  “But the money guys needed a go-between,” he continued. “They sure as hell weren’t gonna go hang out in the boy bars themselves recruitin’ business.”

  “So you’re saying there’s a go-between here also?”

  “There’s always a go-between Freeman. You know that. The money men, especially the white-collar money men, never get their hands dirty.”

  McCane sounded more bitter than he had a right to, considering he worked for the white-collar insurance world. But he was right. No different than the drug trade or Internet scams. The guys with the investment capital never saw the streets. They sat high above, just doing business.

  “So you have a line on any of these middlemen?”

  “I’ve got an eye out, Freeman. And you ought to, too. Your boy Manchester is pretty good at trackin’ the fìnancials on whatever names I give him. I’ll just follow the money trail.”

  McCane took a long pause. I could almost hear the whiskey sliding down his throat.

  “How much money do you pay a man to kill old ladies in their beds?” I finally said.

  “Depends on the man, Freeman. Depends on the man,” he said. “So what have you got for me, Freeman? I assume you ain’t leavin’ this all to me.”

  I told him about my tour of the neighborhood, my meeting with a local detective I knew and the suspicion that they had a serial rapist who had progressed to choking his victims to death. Whether it had any connection with our case, I wasn’t sure. Hell, I wasn’t even sure we had a case. But if I believed what McCane was telling me, he wasn’t just dismissing it.

  “So you’re with me on this?” he repeated.

  “You stay on the middlemen, McCane. Leave the locals to me,” I said.

  I hung up and sat on the top step of my porch and watched a heron fishing in the shallow waters under a stand of pond apple trees. The bird’s roving eye seemed to be everywhere at once, but I knew it was focused on a target. The tapered beak was always poised. I sipped from my cup and watched the filtered sunlight dance around him and then, with a flick, the beak struck and came up with a small pilchard fish pinched at the head, its tail flapping furiously. Nice lunch, I thought. But instead of flying away with its catch, the heron stood frozen, its eye still worrying. I looked up into the canopy, scanning the top foliage, then twisted around and saw him. The big osprey was perched in the top of one of the twin cypress trees that marked the entrance to my shack. He was looking down at the heron, or perhaps at me as if to say, “Now that’s how to catch a fish.”

  After a minute the standoff ended. The heron finally bent its legs, unfolded its wings and took flight. The osprey didn’t move. He sat there, as if waiting for me to decide on a course to take. I stared at him for a few minutes, then got up and went inside, closing the door softly behind me.

  14

  This one was not as weak. Eddie replaced the metal lid on Ms. Thompson’s garbage can in the alley behind her small house on Thirty-fourth Avenue. Inside there had been empty packages from frozen dinners, the smell of shaved pork from a wad of tin foil and a confetti of small ripped pink packages of sugar substitute. It was not like the garbage he’d seen on earlier forays. The others had eaten little or nothing. Their cans had been near empty, holding only mounds of tissues, a few half-filled cans of protein substitute and bags of medical trash. Ms. Thompson was not waiting on the edge.

  Eddie knew she lived alone. Her husband was long dead. But he had seen her move about in the past. Had even watched her drive that old Chrysler till just a couple years back. She was more like his own mother, feisty and bitchy and always getting on him about how he needed a job. Humpin’ ’round all day pickin’ trash and bein’ laughed at by everyone in the neighborhood ain’t no job, she would say. And why don’t he clean hisself up and go on Sunday with her down to Piney Grove Church like he used to and her not thinking that was twenty-five years ago when he was still a boy. No, this one would be more like his momma, who wouldn’t get off him, constantly pushing on him about making money to help her out and how come he can’t be like other sons and what was he going to do when she was gone and where would he stay and who would take care of him then. Well, today he had three new hundred-dollar bills in his pocket down by his watch and he was making it just fine in her house without her. No, this Ms. Thompson would not be as easy as the others. She’d be more like his momma.

  He watched the house from the cover of a ratty hedge. The smell of the alley didn’t bother him. A trail of ants led from one of the trash cans to the base of a shed across the way. Their industry was constant
. It was an odd, jiggling ribbon of life that would only be temporarily interrupted when Eddie slapped his boot down, crushing half a dozen. Then he would again study Ms. Thompson’s window lights, marking her habits. He’d push his cart up and down her street. And by the time he came back, the ants would have resumed their marching. Eddie wondered what would happen when a car or truck rolled through the alley and mashed the whole line.

  On the third night, the lights in Ms. Thompson’s kitchen went out and Eddie moved. In the darkness he could get closer. He left his cart and took up a position in the side yard. He inspected the grates on the side windows. He knew he could quietly turn those bolts out if he had to. And usually, if he removed the iron grate and set it down on the lawn, the window behind it would be carelessly unlocked. People didn’t care, Eddie thought. They set themselves up for what they got.

  He moved again, to the other side of the house into a shadow on the neighbor’s wood slat fence. He could see the carport from here. The old Chrysler looked like it hadn’t moved for years. The windshield was layered with dust. The tires had gone soft and there were cracks in the rubber whitewalls. His eyes moved to the carport door that led into Ms. Thompson’s utility room. It was a louvered door, the dull metal handle and lockset still strong, but there was no grate over the windowpanes. With a couple of panes out he could reach through and snap open the lock.

  He waited for an hour. Never dozed off. Never once did he lose his concentration on the inside noises. He saw when the living room lights went off and then the shine of the small bathroom window on the back lawn. He waited that one out, too. Eddie was patient, but the stiff hundred-dollar bills in his pocket seemed to press into his thigh. He needed to see the Brown Man.

  When the house had been dark for another hour, he stepped to the carport door and slipped the socks over his hands and started on the jalousies. With his hand inside, he turned the deadbolt and slipped the chain—he would have to remember to refasten it when he left. Inside the small laundry room, the odor of bleach stung his nostrils. He moved, a single wary step at a time. A clock ticked on the kitchen wall. The hallway was carpeted and quiet. The bedroom door was ajar and the bathroom across the hallway smelled oddly of what? Cologne?

  Eddie gripped the door, fingers wrapped around its front edge, and pressed it up and tight against the hinges to avoid any squeaking as he eased it open. He was surprised to see a line of light glowing at the bottom of a door inside. Another bathroom. It was wrong for this neighborhood. She must have had it installed, Eddie thought. He had never seen a second bathroom in these houses. He watched the strip for several seconds, soaking up the light, adjusting his eyes. In the high-mounted bed, he could see the line of Ms. Thompson’s body turned away from him. He could see her white hair in the slight glow. Another pillow lay next to her, punched down and indented. Eddie picked it up, assessed the position of the old woman again, and then pushed the material over her face.

  He was just beginning to close his eyes to her muffled groans when light burst into the room.

  “Abby baby, you purrin’ like a ol’ lioness ain’t too tired…” The man coming out of the lighted bathroom caught a glimpse of the huge thick back bent over the woman he had just recently started calling his girlfriend and yelped “What the hell?…”

  The speed of Eddie’s left hand swapped its hold from the woman to the old man’s throat before another syllable could be uttered. The man’s eyes went big. Eddie’s right palm remained on the pillow and the light from the doorway caught all three of them in an ugly instant of time.

  Just as the old man started kicking Eddie tightened his grip, feeling the soft flesh and then crushing the bony windpipe under his thumb. He spread the fingers of his other hand and kept the pocket of his huge palm over the mouth of the other. And he silently held the pose, watching the man’s face go from red to dusty blue in the light of the new master bathroom. Eddie was a patient man and did not move until he was sure that the lives in both of his hands were gone.

  15

  I was upriver on a rare morning paddle when the cell phone chirped from my bag in the bow of the canoe. I’d been up with the sun. Found it impossible to read and was actually pacing the wood floor of the shack when I decided to grind out a trip to the headwaters. The water had been high and the morning light spackled the ferns and pond apple leaves that crowded the edges. The river twisted and folded back in on itself and if you stopped moving, the deep quiet and moist greenness could sweep even an unimaginative mind back several millenniums. In the morning light I’d seen several glowing white moonflowers nestled in a small protected bog, and I knew that back in a thicket at the end of one offshoot stream were a half dozen undisturbed orchids. By luck no one had found them. But like a hundred years ago, when exploiters of the delicate flowers had plucked them from the dark hammocks of the Everglades until tĥey were nearly extinct, there was little optimism that these few would remain hidden.

  I’d spent more than an hour plowing up past Workman’s Dam and on to the culvert where Everglades water from the L131 Canal poured into the river to give it an extra flow. I had pulled the canoe up onto the grass bank and was on top of the levee looking out over acre upon acre of brown-green sawgrass. The view extended to the horizon like unbroken fields of Kansas wheat. The only break was a dark clump far in the distance that looked like bush but was actually a hammock of sixty-foot-tall pine, and mahogany and crepe myrtle rooted in high ground in the river of grass.

  The bleating of the cell phone in my canoe spoiled the quiet. I loped down the bank to answer it and Richards was on the line.

  “Hey. Nice to hear your voice on such a great morning,” I said, sounding too chipper.

  The silence on the other end dampened my enthusiasm.

  “I don’t know how the hell you do it, Freeman,” she said. “But you’ve got one special nose for trouble.”

  I was back in the world, outside another low-slung home on the northwest side. The address Richards gave me wasn’t hard to find. Three patrol cars and a crime scene truck were still parked at haphazard angles in front. A black, unmarked Chevy Suburban was backed into the driveway.

  The uniformed cops were on the front lawn keeping a small gathering of people back. A black officer with a bald, shiny scalp was bristled up in front of a group of three black men. All their voices, even the cop’s, were ratcheted up to a high pitch.

  “What you mean they investigatin’?” said one. “Shit, they ain’t done no damn investigatin’ the last time. Hell, they ain’t investigated nothin’ on this side of town, an’ you know that’s true.”

  The cop had his hands spread out in front of him, as though the paleness of his palms facing the group would settle them.

  “I know. I know. I hear you,” the cop was saying. “But you got to change some things from the inside, fellas. You know what I’m sayin’.”

  I asked one of the other officers for Richards and as I was led up to the front door the knot of men shut down their conversation and watched me. They were the same three I had seen at Ms. Greenwood’s mother’s home.

  “Comin’ through,” someone in the doorway said, and I turned as a black vinyl body bag was taken out on a wheeled stretcher. The eyes of the crowd followed it to the back doors of the Suburban. I followed the cop into the house.

  No one was in the living room. A sectional couch sat against a wall of frosted mirrors. An expensive looking crystal clock was in open sight on an end table. Crime scene techs were working in the kitchen, spinning small fat brushes dipped in fingerprint powder along the window casements. Outside on the patio Richards was sitting at a table across from an elderly black woman who was chastising the detective as if she were a dull schoolgirl.

  “Young lady, I have toll you and seven more of you all, no. I did not struggle. I took me a gasp of breath when I heard George go to chokin’ and spittin’ and I laid myself still. I didn’t even breathe until that pilla eased up on my face and then I still didn’t move. I knowed what was comin�
��. I didn’t just come in from the fields young lady. I know what these mens want.”

  The woman looked at me when I reluctantly stepped out of the house. Her eyes stopped me. She’d seen too many men in her house in the last few hours. Richards turned and nodded at me and I took a step back and waited.

  “So you just laid still and fooled him?” Richards asked, turning back to the woman.

  “I don’t know about fooled,” she said. “Only one been made a fool is me. I stayed still. Left that pilla on my face and prayed to the Lord. Then I felt him put George down next to me. He covered him up like he was layin’ him to rest and I guess he was.

  “I heard him leave and I still laid there, not movin’ a muscle, a dead man next to me. But I knows when to keep my head down, young lady. An’ when to get up and holler and that wasn’t no time for hollerin’.”

  The woman turned her head and looked down at the empty tabletop. A single tear formed at the corner of her eye and then rolled down her cheek and disappeared into the wrinkles of her face. For some reason, it seemed out of place to see an old person cry. My own mother had always hidden that aspect of her sorrow.

  This woman was unashamed.

  “When I was truly sure he was gone, I called y’all on nine-one- one,” she said, still not looking up. “And I waited right on the bed, watchin’ after George.”

  Richards let it go, touched the back of the old woman’s hand and got up quietly. Back in the house she crossed her arms in front of her. I put my hands in my pockets.

  “The first guys on the scene had to take down the front door to get in,” she said. “Luckily, it was an experienced patrolman who checked the other doors and windows first and eyeballed everything. The place was tight. No signs of forced entry.”