Say It Again

by S. Moose

  “Baby, let go. Fuck, let go.”

  We both find our release as Jacob roars my name and the intensity of our lovemaking lingers through my body.

  “Wow that was amazing.” I sit up on the bed and look over at him. There’s a huge smile on his face. With his eyes closed, I lean down and kiss him before going to the bathroom.

  When I come out, there’s a shirt on the bed for me. I put it on and turn around to see him coming out of his closet, wearing sweat pants that are hanging dangerously low on his hips.

  “Can we do that again?” I run my fingers down his bare chest.

  “Go to sleep, beautiful,” he whispers and lifts me in his arms, carrying me to the bed, and laying us down together.

  “Not fair,” I pout and turn around so my back’s against his chest. I rub my ass on his cock and hear the hitch in his voice.

  “You’re tired,” he whispers, kissing my shoulder, and pulling me closer in his arms. “Goodnight, baby.”

  In his arms is where I feel the love and safety he brings. I smile knowing that in the morning I’ll be in his arms where I belong.

  “I love you,” I murmur before falling into a deep sleep.

  I GLANCE DOWN at the beautiful woman in my arms. Thinking about last night and how much we admitted our feelings to one another is playing in my head. We’ve only known each other again for a short amount of time, and already she’s my world. I meant everything I said to her last night and I’m going to show her how I feel every day because that’s what she deserves.

  I’m finally looking at my other half. There’s no measure of time when it comes to Cameron. Everything feels right and where it should be. I’m ready for anything that comes my way.

  Cameron moves her ass to my dick. Even in her sleep, this woman controls me. When my lips touch her neck, I feel her tremble and softly moan. I bring my hand down her body and under her shirt. My fingers softly graze her pussy and I can feel how wet she is.

  Pulling her body on top of mine, I kiss her lips and quickly deepen it, allowing my tongue to enter her mouth and feel the dance we’re about to have.

  “Mmm Jacob,” she moans and grinds on top of me. Her hands lay flat on my chest and she pushes herself up, leaning backward. I feel her pulling down my sweatpants, freeing my hard cock. The desire burns in her eyes as she slightly lifts herself and slowly sinks down. The moans fill the room and her whimpering noises make me lose control. If Cameron cries out again and moans my name, I’m going to lose it. Being inside her feels like home. When my hands caress her boobs, her body trembles and she rides me harder. Damn, seeing her head rolled back with her eyes closed is fucking sexy. It’s like she can’t get enough of me and my touch is the only touch she needs.

  “Open your eyes,” I tell her and she does. Her looking at me with those beautiful, trusting eyes is perfection. She’s perfect. My eyes roll back when she slows down and rocks her hips back and forth. There’s nothing in my life that feels as good as this. “Tell me how it feels,” I grunt while she rides me.

  “So good.” Her head’s thrown back as she grips my shoulders and quickens her pace. “Fuck, Jacob. Fuck.”

  “You feel amazing, Cameron.”

  “Am I doing this right?” I nod and lift my hips, and push deeper into her. “Jacob!”

  I know I should take this a little slow, but fuck she feels too good for me to stop or slow down. Cameron’s hands roll down my body and soon she’s touching her boobs and fuck, it’s so sexy to see.

  “Do you like touching yourself, baby?”

  “Mmhm,” she murmurs and plays with her nipples.

  Her pussy squeezes my dick and I can feel her coming. “Cameron,” I moan her name and soon find my own release.

  When we find ourselves after an intense orgasm, she collapses on top of me and I hold her tight against my chest. I wrap my arms around her and slowly get up to take her into my bathroom so we can both take a shower.

  While she’s in the kitchen making us breakfast, I talk to my dad and he tells me that Carter’s fine and they’re on their way to the zoo. Cameron and I spend the morning and afternoon in my bed, showing each other our love and exploring all parts of our bodies.

  “What are you thinking about?” she asks me, drawing small circles on my chest.

  “How sexy you are.” A laugh erupts from both of us and she squeezes me a little tighter. “Seriously though, I’m thinking about you and everything that’s coming our way. I want to take care of you, Cameron. I want to give you everything you want and everything you desire.”

  She doesn’t respond, but instead continues drawing on me and holds me tighter. We stay like this for a while until it’s time to leave and take her back to my parents’ house. I want to ask her to stay with us, to pack her things and move in for the summer. She’s perfect in every way and we fit together in perfect harmony. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for her.

  When I pull up to my parents’ house, I want to ask her again to move in. She wants to wait until September, but after last night and today, I want her with me every day, in my home and in my bed.

  “You coming?” she asks before closing the door. I get out and take her hand. As soon as we walk inside, Carter’s running to me and jumps in my arms. He’s telling me about his day with my parents and how Aunt Grace made him an ice cream sundae.

  “That sounds awesome, buddy. Go say bye to everyone.”

  “What are we doing today?”

  “Relaxing at home,” I tell him and look at Cameron. I’m hoping she’ll join us for dinner. I don’t want to ask her and pressure her to spend time with us. “How does pizza and wings sound tonight?”

  “Awesome!”

  I grab Carter’s bag and give Cameron a hug. I hate leaving her, but I’ve been spending a lot of time away from Carter, and I don’t want Carter to think I’m leaving him behind.

  After getting Carter in the car, I drive back to my house and look in the rearview mirror wondering if Carter’s going to ask me about Cameron. When we get home and inside, Carter stands in the middle of the living room and looks at me.

  “Is Cameron going to be my new mom?”

  I shake my head. “We’re dating. She’s my girlfriend and I’m her boyfriend. We like each other, so if it’s okay with you, we’re going to spend a lot of time together. Sometimes you’ll see her here.” I kneel down and place my hands on Carter’s shoulders. “Will that be okay?”

  “Yeah.” He enthusiastically nods his head. “I like her a lot and I hope that she becomes my mom.”

  I’m not sure how to answer. I don’t want to give Carter false hope. It means the world to me he loves her, and I hope she’s here to stay.

  “I have laundry to do, buddy, why don’t you go play.”

  “Okay, Daddy!”

  Taking out my phone I send Cameron a text asking her to come over later.

  Girlfriend: I’ll pick up dinner and meet you in a little bit.

  Me: Okay sounds good.

  Girlfriend: I love you xo.

  Me: I love you too.

  TODAY’S A HOT day so at the very last minute, I text everyone for a party at Grace’s house. We want to keep it small and have a lot of alcohol and food, since we don’t have to go shopping.

  “I so need this,” Grace sighs and pulls out hotdogs and hamburger patties from the fridge. “I mean this whole dating thing can suck my dick. I’m tired of the bullshit.”

  “I’m sorry, girl.”

  Sometimes I think about bringing up Aiden and making her think, but I hold back. Grace and Aiden have known each other almost their whole lives so they most likely have that brother-sister relationship, but it makes me wonder if she or he, hell or both, want more.

  “We’ve talked about this a lot and maybe you really do need to take a break,” I tell her.

  “Yeah, I know what you mean and I think you’re right. It’s hard because I’m so jealous of Jeff that it’s driving me fucking crazy.”

  “Don’t think about him. Fo
cus on your life and pick up a new hobby.”

  “Does drinking count?” she asks while grabbing a bottle of vodka from the cabinet. “I’m a fucking champ at that.”

  The guys, Jacob, Aiden, Cooper, and Ian, show up with a cooler filled with who knows what. When Jacob’s eyes find mine, he has the goofiest smile on his face. I can’t help but smile back and blow him a kiss.

  Jacob and Aiden get the grill going while the rest of us make drinks and put on some music. Pouring myself a healthy glass of . . . I’m not sure what’s in this drink or what it’s called, it’s a pink drink and smells delicious. When I take a sip, I know I’m in trouble.

  “Holy shit! Ian this drink is so good. You’re going to have to make more.”

  “It’s my specialty.” He smiles and I raise my glass to him.

  Jacob places his arm around my shoulder and gives me a quick kiss. “Are you planning on getting drunk?”

  “Why?” I smirk. “Are you planning on taking advantage of me?”

  “Mmm.” He nuzzles my neck and gives me another kiss. “Will you let me?”

  “I think I can arrange something. Sleep over at your place?”

  “I thought you’d never ask.” Jacob pulls me into his arms and gives me a passionate kiss, tipping me backward, and holding me tightly. I feel his kiss through my body. I’m not sure how I’ll get used to his kisses.

  “Aw you two,” Cooper gushes. “I don’t know what you did, Jacob, but please continue to do so. You’re making my girl so happy.”

  “She’s the one that makes me happy.”

  I wrap my arms around his waist and kiss his chest. When I see Grace over by the water, I let Jacob go, give him a quick kiss, and join her.

  The sad look on Grace’s face kills me. We go into the pool and stand over in the corner to talk.

  “Are you going to tell me what’s going on?”

  Grace shakes her head. “There’s nothing to talk about. I’m fine.” She smiles and leans against the pool wall. “Don’t worry about me, okay?”

  “How can I not? You’re my best friend, Grace. I know you’re going through something and that’s fine you don’t want to talk to me about it. Just know that I’m here for you okay?”

  “I know,” she tells me and we head back to the party and take two shots of tequila.

  Grace goes to hang out with Ian and Cooper and I can’t shake off the feeling that something else is going on with her. I know she’s going through a lot from the breakup with Jeff and her several dates. There’s something else though. I don’t want to push her.

  “Hey!” He hugs me from behind. “Why are you alone?”

  “Needed a breather.” I put my hands on his forearms and lean into his hard chest.

  “Everything okay?”

  “I made a decision,” I whisper and hold onto his forearms a little tighter. “I’m going to spend the rest of the summer with my best friend and enjoy it.”

  “Good.” He turns me around and leans down to kiss my forehead. Grace has been through so much these past few months and I know she needs this. “Let’s go to the guys.”

  All of us get in the pool, play chicken, and take in the day. I notice how close Grace and Aiden are and wonder why she hasn’t told me anything about them.

  “Babe,” I nudge Jacob’s side.

  “Yeah?”

  “What’s up with Grace and Aiden? Are they . . . you know?”

  “Na,” Jacob tells me. “They’re close friends and she’s been there a lot for him since Clarissa died. They have a bond. Why? Are you playing matchmaker?”

  “I don’t know,” I respond honestly. I want my best friend to be happy, but what I know about Aiden, I’m not sure if he’d ever allow himself to be happy.

  Everyone gets out of the pool as Cooper and Jacob man the grill. Cooper has a Kiss the Chef apron on and is making moves on Jacob. He takes it and I can’t help but laugh at them together. I notice Grace is talking with Ian and Aiden’s lying down on the lounge. I walk over and join him.

  “What’s going on, Pratt?”

  “Nothing much. How’ve you been?”

  “Good. Always good.” He turns to look at me and flashes his smile and lowers his sunglasses. “I forgot to ask Jacob, and since you’re here, I’ll ask you. There’s a benefit dinner for the hospital I work at and this year they’re honoring Clarissa. I’d love for you and Jacob to attend. It’ll mean a lot.”

  I sit up and turn so I’m facing Aiden. The look on his face when he talks about his wife kills me. I’m not sure how he gets on with his days.

  “Of course. We’ll be there.”

  Aiden gives me more details and I have to ask who he’s taking, if he is taking someone.

  “Clarissa’s parents moved to Italy last year and won’t be able to attend, so I’m going to ask Grace.”

  “That’s sweet, Aiden. She’ll go with you, I’m sure. I feel so bad for her and all the shit she’s going through.”

  “I told her to stop dating those assholes and to be alone for a while. Jeff fucked with her head and I think she needs to be alone for a while.”

  “I told her the exact same thing.”

  “Great minds think alike.” He smiles and touches my hand. “Thank you for making Jacob happy. You’re the light that he needs. Besides Carter, it’s you and I know you two will make it.”

  “Thanks.” I smile back and squeeze his hand a little tighter. “That means so much to me.”

  “Wake up, baby.”

  Jacob brushes his lips softly against my cheek. I don’t want to wake up. After the party, we headed back to his place and spent the night with lots of orgasms and sexy times.

  “Four,” I mutter. “Four. You wore me out. My body needs to rest so go away.”

  I hear him laugh as he gently massages my back. I know what he’s up to and seriously my vagina’s so sore so it needs a break.

  “I’m heading out to meet with Aiden. I’ll be back in a few hours with Carter.”

  “Okay,” I mutter. “I’ll be here.”

  “I figured,” he laughs before giving me a kiss and getting off the bed.

  By eleven a.m. I text Jacob and let him know I’m heading to lunch with Grace so he’s not worried when he comes home.

  I meet Grace at the mall and we have a light lunch at Chammps before going inside and shopping around. When we pass the Lego store, I pull Grace in and buy a few sets for Carter.

  “Wow, I cannot believe you spent that much. Jacob’s going to have a heart attack.”

  I dismiss her and smile because I know how much Carter loves Legos. “It’ll be fine.”

  “Whatever you say.”

  Grace and I buy some new dresses and shoes before heading back home. I grab some more things from her house before heading back to Jacob’s. When I park my car next to his, I walk in and see Carter.

  “Cameron!” he shouts and jumps into my arms. “What are those bags?”

  “Well,” I put him down and call for Jacob. When he comes over, I hand Carter the Lego bag and see how wide his eyes get.

  “Holy moly! Thank you so much, Cameron. This is awesome! I love you!”

  I’m frozen. Tears well in my eyes and I force myself not to lose it. Whenever I hear him tell me he loves me, it does something to me. I didn’t think he’d say it again, especially in front of Jacob. I’m a little nervous to hear what he has to say. I don’t want to replace Brenda as his mom, even though she hasn’t been in his life, but she’s still his mom no matter what.

  “I love you too, buddy.” Carter gives me another hug and kisses my cheek before running to the kitchen table with his Legos.

  SEEING THE LOOK on Carter’s face when he saw what Cameron bought him was priceless. I couldn’t believe how thoughtful my beautiful girl is. It’s way too much, but I know Cameron doesn’t mind. When Carter tells her he loves her and she says it back, I step back a little, standing shocked. My son doesn’t throw those words around. It took him a while to say it to his grandparents on bot
h sides, and he just started saying it to Grace.

  Cameron’s in the kitchen preparing dinner. I’m not sure how she’s feeling. After she told Carter she loved him too, she watched him leave and went straight to the kitchen.

  “Hey,” I whisper and place my hand on her shoulder. I notice her cheeks are red and wonder if she’s been crying. “Come here.” I make sure Carter’s okay before taking her into my bedroom. When I sit her down, I kneel on my knees and place my hands on her thighs. She has been crying.

  “What’s wrong?”

  “It’s just . . .” she blows out a breath and I give her tissues to wipe her tears. I’m not sure why she’s emotional and crying. Does she not want Carter to love her? “It’s just I haven’t felt like this in a long time. My parents were only children and their parents died before I got to meet them. I don’t have family, Jacob, besides your family. Grace tells me she loves me all the time and so does your mom. But,” she takes a breath and slowly lets it out. “What if we don’t work out? I love you and Carter. Being here with you guys makes me feel like part of your family.”

  “Baby.” I sit next to her and pull her close to me. “I know we just started dating and I don’t want to rush things or scare you away. You’re part of my family. You’re part of Carter and me. It should mean something to you that I’ve let you into this part of my life and introduced you to Carter. You’re it for me.”

  “I am?”

  “Yes.” I laugh and kiss her soft lips. “I love you, Cameron Pratt. I don’t care if we’re going too fast and you don’t have to say it now to me. You tell me when you’re ready, but know that I love you. You own me. All of me. I don’t know what I did to get you back in my life, but I promise to keep you next to us forever.”

  “I love you too, Jacob. More than you know. You’re my family and I don’t plan on leaving you or Carter.”

  Not wanting to leave Carter alone, we head downstairs, hand in hand, and finish making dinner together. Having her here in my home, in my kitchen, making dinner, feels complete.

  Tonight’s the benefit dinner for the hospital Aiden works at. They’re honoring Clarissa’s memory and Aiden will be on stage talking about her fight and demise with cancer. Although she wasn’t a survivor, her story and fight is inspirational. The doctors said she wouldn’t see her fifteenth birthday, but Clarissa was a fighter and fought until she was eighteen.