by Pamela Ann
“That’s pretty loaded Kyle…”
“Don’t worry….no need to rush. I just love being with you,” he whispered softly in my ear.
“I saw him today, you know and he hates me.” Him as in Blake Knightly.
“He doesn’t hate you—the man is just hurt because you rejected him. I don’t think that sits well with a man like Blake. I don’t think he knows what rejection feels like and you dished it out to him. He’ll get over it.”
Why does everyone tell me that Blake will eventually “get over it”? Have they seen how much the man has changed? How much he loathes me? His eyes practically sliced me into two. And he totally looked hot…I’m such a charity case.
“Who knows if he’s been rejected? Not many can resist him you know. Apart from his vast wealth, the man is a walking sex on a stick.” My heart palpitated with thoughts of Blake with women again. Crap, this has got to stop.
“Exactly, you don’t want that do you? You should think about the future and what you want. I know you’re still recovering and you’re doing a great job. But you have to let it go, Sienna. It’s not healthy.” I turned around and faced Kyle.
“You mean it’s time for me to move on and consider you and me again?” I looked him straight in the eye.
“Yes…that too. I love you and I’ve been in love with you since I was ten I think. I told my mom that very same day that I was going to marry you someday. I want to marry you today, tomorrow…it doesn’t matter. I’m nuts about you. We have history—just think about it? Promise me that, will you?”
“Marry you today or tomorrow?” I joked and tapped the tip of his nose.
“Sure. I’d love to. I can’t stop loving you…or wanting you baby. I’ve tried and it was pointless. I know you’re not ready to get married yet—so all I’m asking you is to start really thinking about us. How about a trial period? Two weeks or a month? See if you can be with me, that’s all I ask. Promise me you will consider it?”
I smiled at his pleading face. “Okay, okay. If you’re that desperate to be with me, then I promise to think about it.”
He laughed, making his eyes twinkle. “God you’re awesome!” He bent over to kiss me on the lips. “Now, get your fine sexy self ready or else we’ll be crazy late to the gig.”
“Fine, then go wait for me outside so I can finish up faster.” I shooed him out of the room.
I gathered up and slipped on my lace-up knee-high black boots and started with my heavy lined make-up. Leaving my dark wavy hair down, few pumps of my Coco Mademoiselle perfume and gathered my clutch purse.
“I’m ready,” I called out to Kyle. Maybe I can be ready to be with Kyle again. We’ll see how things unfold.
First, I need my beloved Chad to emerge from his coma.
5
Blake
Entering the famed French Restaurant on Baker Street, I politely declined the offer of the maitre d’ for assistance. I knew Lucy and Toby were waiting impatiently.
They’ve been calling and texting like mad for the past ten minutes. I’m late and I didn’t mean to be. But Ivanna took her sweet time while getting ready. Ivanna’s the Nordic beauty from the plane. The woman was uncontainable on the way back from Italy. I obliged her pouty requests. I fucked her twice and the invitation for her to join me and my friends for dinner sprouted out of nowhere. Are you sure it wasn’t because there’s a possibility of her joining us for dinner? Possibly, I just knew I couldn’t go in there defenseless.
The minute I found their table, Lucy’s eyes buggered out. “Lucy, Toby this is my companion for tonight, Ivanna.” Luce and Toby greeted her politely as we took our seats.
“So Ivanna, tell me—how did you two meet?” Her bright blue eyes were inquisitive as she took a long lengthy sip of her red wine.
“Oh we met today—I was his stewardess for Italy and he swept me off my feet. It was love at first sight.” Ivanna flashed her winning white smile at me while I paled from her retort.
Love? What the fuck is this woman on?
Luce choked on her wine and covered her mouth with the silk napkin as she coughed. She took a sip of water and cleared her throat. “Love at first sight you say? That’s epic. Congratulations you two! I’m so happy you’ve finally found your one true love, Blake. I knew you’ve been scouring the streets of London to no avail and finally….here you are—at last.” Her voice dripped with her usual sweetness and a trace of sarcasm. She looked furious.
“Lucy!” Toby warned her with a quick glance before returning to Ivanna. “That’s splendid! I’m happy for you both,” he said with his usual charming demeanor.
“Thank you! Isn’t that great baby? They already like me!” the delusional woman went on. Christ, had I known she was going to rant like a rambling floozy, I wouldn’t have invited her. But now, I’m stuck with her for the rest of the night while Lucy’s eyes throw daggers at me.
“Let’s order, shall we?” I distracted myself with the menu as they discussed what to order.
When dinner was served, we spoke about Chad and the business world. The whole time Ivanna was compliant and kept touching my thigh which never failed to distract my attention and it made me halt a few times mid sentence. Lucy’s laser eyes saw where her hand kept reaching out and I reddened under her scrutiny.
Thank god she kept her opinions to herself without making snide remarks. Lucy’s a sweet girl but try crossing her and it’s game over. Her attention kept diverting back to her phone and she would smile once in awhile whilst reading the messages.
“Why are you smiling like that, who are you talking to?” Toby asked her.
Her vibrating phone became a nuisance.
“Oh, I just found out about this new fave band that I love. They’re playing tonight. We’re going there after we’re finished to enjoy live music and company. Do you two lovebirds want to come and join us?” she asked sweetly.
“Sure, count us in.” Ivanna gave me a quick peck on the cheek. “This is going to be a fun night!” she crooned with her think accent. Christ, can she be any more annoying? I hate being fondled in front of an audience.
“Sounds….lovely,” Luce murmured drily.
After dinner, I had Richard drive us to our next destination. We slid out of the Bentley and Ivanna linked her arm with mine as we entered the punk rock-like atmosphere. The band that Lucy was talking about already started playing. They sounded good and a large crowd milled around the stage.
We were seated in a booth that gave us a great view of the stage. Toby took the liberty of ordering us alcohol and I was relieved to get away from Ivanna’s clasping hands. I could easily brush her off, but I didn’t feel like being much of a brute tonight. It’s been a long day. The visit in Italy took another toll on me. My uncle had a heart attack. He’s stable now—but needs to rest. My aunt was barely hanging in there. I was trying to figure out a way to make things easier for them when the lead singer’s voice boomed over the microphone after their song.
“I want to invite a very good friend of ours up here. He helped us out and signed our band. He became a very good friend and we found out that he can seriously jam. Kyle Matthews get your bloody arse up here!” The crowd applauded and hooted for the “guest.” The bloody fuck emerged and went up on stage.
I tensed and looked accusingly at Lucy and Toby who had his hands held up. “Had no clue mate, don’t look at me.”
“Lighten up will you? Now, hush. I want to hear this one out,” Lucy ordered.
Damn, I should’ve seen this coming when she invited us to go somewhere tonight. Lucy’s on Sienna side and it didn’t take much to realize that this is Lucy’s way of punishing me for being so crass of late.
“Hello,” the smiling idiot said on the microphone. “This is my first time playing with a large crowd, so I beg you guys to be patient. I’m going to play Somewhere in between by Lifehouse.” Strapping the guitar on his shoulder, sat down and strummed it a few times before speaking again.
“This is song’s for Sienna�
�the love of my life. Remember what you promised.” He winked at someone in the audience and I examined the crowd looking for her. I found her sitting in another booth across the room smiling up to him. The room was dark but I could see her sappy looking face.
What did she promise him? What the hell!
“Goodness, he’s going to serenade her! Right in front of all these people! How romantic! Sienna’s probably peeing in her knickers just about now.” Lucy’s excitement piqued my increasing annoyance of the damning situation.
The fucking wanker’s going in for the kill and she looks like she’s eating it all up. I wanted to throw something at him to shut his gob.
He started to play the guitar and sang. His soft raspy voice lulled the audience to silence.
I can't meet
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours
I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing...
“Gosh, did any of you know that he can actually sing? What a lovely voice! Is it just me or has Kyle gotten edgier? Look at all those tats. It looks incredible,” Luce gushed with amazement.
Who cares? I wanted to yell at her. Ivanna even looked mesmerized at the crooning bloke. Women turn gaga over men singing with their guitars strapped on. The bad boy appeal, perhaps? Even the sweet proper Lucy simply looked awestruck. Bloody women.
“Try not to gawk at the poor bloke love—he might get struck by lightning—I’m sure he doesn’t need any more trouble other than the wrath of Blake—that alone is deadly,” Toby jested. He wasn’t even jealous when his girlfriend admired another man. I wish I was that confident when I was with Sienna.
This is over my head
But underneath my feet
Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat
And everything will be back to the way that it was
I wish that it was just that easy
My eyes landed back on Sienna. I took in her sexy ensemble. She looked provocative and racy with that red and black lace corset. God, she looks sultry and utterly fascinating. She can pull-off any bloody look. How does she do that? She can look divine and sophisticated with her a-line dresses and pearls then look like a cowgirl next without much ado. Fuck, her breasts look like they’re about to topple over. Did she dress up for him? My thoughts countered. Bloody fuck, I hate her!
Cause I'm waiting for tonight
Been waiting for tomorrow
I'm somewhere in between
What is real, just a dream
I felt a heavy ache sitting on my chest. I want her so badly it hurts to breathe but hell will freeze over before I succumb to Sienna again. I won’t let her hurt me that way again.
I felt Ivanna’s hand on my thigh again and smiled. It was a good call to bring her with me or I would’ve bloody dragged Sienna out of here before she could blink twice. I still had the inkling to do so, but my pride prevented me and rationalized my thinking.
When Kyle finished his song, he said thanks and left the stage. The audience seemed to love him. I watched him like a hawk as he strolled towards her. He picked her up and kissed her quickly on the lips as he twirled her around.
How cozy, it looks like they’re back together, I thought drily as I took another swig of my drink, Belvedere on the rocks.
Luce and Toby excused themselves and made their way towards the inseparable couple. Ivanna’s hand kept going upwards until she reached my crotch and massaged it. “You know you’re a very sexy man Blake.” I shrugged, smiling at her. “You are. I can’t stop touching you.” She pouted her lips and tried to catch my attention.
I bet my bank account appealed more to her no doubt. She’s dressed in a silver sheath short dress with her platinum blonde hair and silver grey eyes that made her look like she came right out of the fashion runway. She’s gorgeous and she knows how to use that to her advantage. Although she’s a tad delusional…I might just keep her around if she can manage to not spout crazy notions about her and me. Or I can just drop her and properly pursue Camilla—if I can get my act together.
Ivanna was actually not bad with sex—nothing astounding, but fairly decent. She’s quite responsive and didn’t quite mind that I called her a different name. I can’t help it you see—it just happens naturally even if I tried not to. Every single bloody fucking time I’m fucking someone, I imagine it’s Sienna. Am I going crazy? It’s quite bizarre and it’s mystifying to me.
I smirked when I thought of doing the same thing with Camilla—she would be aghast and would never speak to me again. She’s such a sweet, proper woman. That is why if I do decide to consider her, I have to be rid of Sienna. Or if not, at least not scream her name while I’m buried over nine inches deep inside another woman.
All four of them were approaching our booth. I leaned over to Ivanna’s ear and whispered seductively, “Keep doing that…you might just get rewarded tonight. Can’t help it can you?”
She shook her pretty blonde head, “How? That’s impossible. You gave me two mind-blowing orgasms,” she announced with no filter whatsoever and right in front of our FOUR approaching guests. Ivanna kept smiling at the newcomers. I heard Toby and Kyle break out in riotous laughter.
Perfect, just in time.
Toby and Luce slid in first. That left room for only one more person. “Come sit on my lap babe,” the idiot slid next to Toby and pulled Sienna from her waist and positioned her on his thigh.
Brilliant, just bloody fucking brilliant!
The lovebirds sat before Ivanna and me. I didn’t even bother introducing Ivanna to them. I’m raging with madness right now. I’m trying to reason with myself—that I have to get used to seeing her with someone else from now on. But I can’t see straight! It’s like waving a large crimson red flag at a raging, wild and uncontrolled bull. All I see is that red flag waving, baiting me to take a good hit at Kyle Matthews once again.
Oh, I’m sure he loves this awkward, uncomfortable situation. I knew he’d savor this sweet victory of his and rub it on my jealous face. He’s doing a splendid job. I’m just about to lose it when Toby spoke.
Thank God! At least there’s a person here looking out for me before I grab Matthews by the throat and throttle him. He’s fairly muscled, but I’m much bigger and stronger. Thanks to rugby football and boxing. For pastime, I like to row and sail when I get a chance. The man wouldn’t stand a chance with me.
“Ivanna this is a good friend of ours, Sienna and her friend, Kyle.” Toby cleared his throat and continued, “Uh this is Ivanna—Blake’s—uh.” He was at a loss for words, bugger.
“Lover…girlfriend…whatever fits,” Ivanna airlessly offered. “So, you two are a couple? That was super sweet with you singing to her like that Kyle.” Her accent much more pronounced with her roll of the words.
“Thanks! Yeah—it was actually a surprise. I sang to her few years back but I’ve been practicing for quite some time now. I enjoy it a lot. Did you like it, babe?” Addressing his “babe.”
“Um, that was very sweet Kyle. You did great.” Her murmuring voice made the hairs on the back of my neck stand out.
Kyle’s only fault is that he loves Sienna to distraction, as do I. If he wasn’t after her like a rabid dog waiting on the sideline when Sienna and I were together, I could’ve taken a liking to him. He and Toby seemed to get on quite nicely but I can’t bring myself to be civilized enough to make pleasantries when I’m incensed with fury towards he and Sienna. I didn’t even bother looking up at them. I can’t risk it with my current frame of mind.
Instead, I grabbed my drink and annihilated it.
The leader of the band who introduced himself as Will came over to our table and thankfully dragged Kyle back with him to join them for drinks. “You coming with us, foxy?” Will asked Sienna who gave him a stunning smile. Yep, the lapping bloke doesn’t stand a chance when she smiles like that.
“No thanks, I’m staying wi
th my friends for awhile. I’ll catch up with you guys later.” He pouted and placed a hand on his heart. “How you keep breaking my heart! Got to dash—but do call me when you’re ready for that date I asked you about! I won’t disappoint. I swear it.” She laughed throatily as he headed back to Kyle and his friends.
“Are you going on a date with him?” Ivanna inquired. Sienna’s smile died as shook her head. “No, it’s not like that with Will. He’s just horsing around.”
“Because you’re in love with that Kyle over there?” Ivanna’s choice of words made her sound quite foreign. Sienna glanced at Lucy and back to Ivanna. “Kyle and I have been the best of friends since we were kids, of course I love him.”
“Sienna…I like that name a lot…don’t you think so baby?” She glanced at me with an accusing glare. Ha! She finally figured it out whose name I screamed every time I climaxed.
Ha bloody ha.
I merely shrugged. “Sure, if you think so.” Sienna gave me a small smile, “How was your trip to Italy?” Her eyes were rimmed heavily with kohl black liner and it made her eyes stand out…making them absolutely… spellbinding.
I looked at her, dead in the eye. My hate/love/fascinated/violent emotions drilled into her with a glance. She looked perplexed and kept staring at me like she’s seeing me for the very first time.
“Fine,” I responded curtly without much ado. We aren’t friends any longer. No need to chitchat about where to and how to.
“Uh, that’s good to hear then.” She kept staring at me and bit her lip when I ignored her.
“Don’t mind Blake love—he’s quite spent from his Energizer Bunny-like lifestyle,” Luce drawled. “Tell me—did you know that Kyle could actually sing? You never let on.” Blimey, the woman seriously doesn’t like me at the moment.
