Meet Me on the Beach

by Hilary Boyd

  Meet Me on the Beach

  Hilary Boyd

  Cover Page

  Title Page

  Copyright Page

  Also by Hilary Boyd

  Dedication

  Part One

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Part Two

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Part Three

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Acknowledgments

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  © 2015 by Hilary Boyd

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  This book is a work of fiction. Names, characters, institutions, places, and events are either the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons—living or dead—events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

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  Also by Hilary Boyd

  Thursdays in the Park

  Tangled Lives

  When You Walked Back into My Life

  A Most Desirable Marriage

  The Lavender House

  Hilary Boyd is a former health journalist. She has published six non-fiction books on health-related subjects such as step-parenting, depression and pregnancy. This is her fifth novel. She lives in West Sussex.

  www.hilaryboyd.com

  To Clare and Kate, with love and thanks for all your incredible support.

  Part One

  Chapter One

  Karen watched her husband. He sat at the end of the kitchen table, leaning back against the paisley cushion which padded the wheelback chair—his chair—a glass tumbler of whisky cradled in both hands, eyes half shut, his face sweating and suffused with red.

  Normally Harry would carve the chicken. Karen was quite capable of doing so, of course—in fact considered herself better at it than her husband, who hacked away at the bird, dumping heavy slabs of meat on to everyone’s plate as if they were cavemen—but Harry was a stickler for tradition. Tonight’s roast sat waiting on the worktop beside the range, but Karen knew it was pointless to ask him. He had been boozing all day, as usual, and was past negotiating anything but another drink.

  “What are you staring at?”

  His voice, suddenly sharp despite the whisky, interrupted her thoughts.

  Karen sighed. “Nothing.”

  “Nothing?” Harry raised his tone an octave, meanly mimicking her. “Nothing, nothing . . .” his voice trailed off.

  She turned away. “No point talking to you when you’re like this.”

  “Like what? What am I like?”

  “You know perfectly well. You’re drunk, Harry. You have been all day . . . all year, in fact.”

  Her husband just shook his head, his eyes closed. “Here we go. Here we bloody go again. Nag, nag, nag. Get the lecture over with then, woman. Tell me I’m a drunk, tell me the booze’ll kill me, tell me you can’t stand the sight of me anymore.” His eyes snapped open: blue eyes, now faded with age, but nonetheless focused and full of annoyance.

  Karen felt tears gathering behind her eyelids. She thought of all the countless times she had attempted to stop him drinking. Cajoling, entreating, threatening, appealing to his ego by telling him how much his extraordinary character was demeaned by drunkenness—which it was. And so on . . . and so on. All to no avail. She no longer had the will to try again.

  “You’re the only one who has a problem,” he was saying as he heaved his bulk out of the chair. For a moment he stood swaying in his brown cords, striped shirt and loafers, before beginning an unsteady potter across the worn terracotta kitchen tiles to the bottle awaiting him by the sink. Largo, the Labrador, started awake in his basket at the screech of the chair legs, then almost immediately fell back asleep. He was used to his master’s ways.

  “Sophie was here for what? A week? Ten days? She would have noticed if I was as drunk as you make out. She would have said something.”

  Karen watched him lay his glass down on the stainless-steel draining board with the slow deliberation of a person who realizes they aren’t quite in control of their faculties. He reached for the bottle, the top already off, and slopped a large measure into the glass. The ice tray, also to hand, still contained a few half-melted cubes, which he tipped out on to the draining board and then scooped into his drink. Turning, wiping his wet fingers down his trousers and leaning against the side for support, he raised his glass to her.

  “True, no? Admit it, Sophie has no problem . . . at all . . . with my alcohol intake.”

  Karen didn’t argue because Harry was right. Her stepdaughter had no problem with anything her father said or did, just so long as the checks kept on coming.

  Harry was eyeing the chicken. “Is that bloody bird going to sit there all night?” His words were beginning to slur slightly now—Karen marveled at the amount of alcohol her husband, nearly seventy-five, could consume and still be coherent. He pulled himself away from the worktop and weaved his way back to the table, grabbed his chair and slumped back down. “Bring it here. I’ll carve the damn thing before it gets stone cold.”

  She did as he asked, her gut dull with resentment. But she knew there was absolutely no point in tackling him when he was this far gone. She knew all too well where that could lead.

  *

  They sat in silence, their plates of food in front of them. The kitchen seemed suddenly hot and airless to Karen as she observed Harry attacking his meat and potatoes with gusto, piling, cramming the food into his mouth as if he hadn’t eaten in a week, gravy smearing his chin. He always ate like this, as if his life depended on it, as if he were trying to fill a bottomless pit. But in years past she had enjoyed his appreciation of her cooking. Now she just saw it as greedy. Karen had no appetite. All she wanted to do was escape that airless room, step outside into the garden—even though it was early January, pitch dark and icy cold—and fill her lungs with fresh air. Most of all she wanted to stop witnessing the sad degeneration of a man she had once worshipped. And to forget what he had done to her last night.

  It was Sophie’s final day with them, the end of her stepdaughter’s long and fraught Christmas visit. Sophie had never cut Karen any slack. She was ten when her parents had split up—two years before Karen even knew Harry—but in those two years, Sophie had had her father all to herself, and had been spoiled to princess level, led to believe she was, and always would be, the only
love of Harry Stewart’s life.

  So Karen understood that it would be an uphill battle, that she could expect a certain amount of animosity from the girl at first. But she had hoped—foolishly as it turned out—that they could mend their bridges over time. Eighteen years later, however, that was very far from the case. If anything, as her father approached seventy-five, Sophie’s attitude to Karen appeared to harden, the girl’s determination to belittle her in front of Harry, point out all of Karen’s faults, perhaps having something to do with the unknown details of her father’s will.

  Last night the three of them had been due at a local dinner party. Harry was hugely popular in the village and the surrounding area, a larger-than-life character whom everyone adored, told stories about, welcomed at any event. They were always in high demand as a couple.

  “Is that girl coming down this century?” Harry had groused as they waited in the kitchen for Sophie—who didn’t seem to understand time in the way most people did—to finish dressing. As usual, his mind permanently trained on the next source of his addiction, he reached for a glass from the cabinet and dragged the bottle off the tray in the corner.

  “Don’t, Harry, please,” Karen had said. “You’ve already had a couple and you can’t arrive at the Standings drunk . . . think how embarrassing Sophie would find that.” She’d known she was manipulating him, using his daughter as backup, but she didn’t care.

  At first he had just shaken his head, tutted, and put the bottle down. Karen had sighed with relief. He would be drunk by the end of the night, but then so would half the dinner party. But as Sophie still failed to appear, he began pacing the room, clearly on edge.

  “Sod it, one won’t hurt. Who cares what the Standings think? Don’t think I’ve ever seen Roger sober, anyway.” Which was a gross exaggeration, but she didn’t challenge it.

  “Please, just this once—” Karen started, and she could hear the unattractive pleading in her voice.

  But before the rest of the sentence was out of her mouth he had turned on her, his eyes blazing. She didn’t have time to back away before his large hand swung at her, his open palm catching her square on the cheek, her head snapping to the right with the sheer force of it.

  “Shut up! Just shut up, woman. If you’d stop whining for one bloody second . . .”

  He turned away, but not before Karen, standing stock-still with shock, had seen the panic in her husband’s eyes. Harry was not a bad man. He was just a bad drunk.

  She lifted her hand to her burning cheek, tears springing to her eyes. Without a word she began walking to the door, but Harry was fast behind her. His hand gripping her arm, he swung her round to face him.

  “Karen, listen . . . sorry, sorry, I shouldn’t have done that. I’ve . . . I’ve never, ever hit a woman before . . .” He paused, clearly bewildered by what he’d done. “It’s just when you nag like that . . . I saw red.”

  She had looked blankly at him.

  “Please,” he’d lowered his voice, “please don’t tell Sophie . . .”

  And when she’d still said nothing, he’d gone on, more urgently, “You won’t, will you? Please, Karen, don’t. She’d be absolutely horrified.”

  Karen hadn’t told Sophie. She did the same thing as she’d done in the face of all the bullying and belittling, all the cruel taunting, all the foul breath and stinking alcohol sweat, all the mindless, repetitive whisky-induced drivel that had gone on over the last few years. Nothing.

  “I can’t go to dinner with this,” she told Harry, holding her hand to her cheek as he stood in front of her, momentarily cowed, waiting for her forgiveness. Even this minor rebellion felt like a victory.

  “You’ve got to come. What’ll I say to the Standings?”

  “Say what you like. I don’t care, I’m not coming.” She couldn’t look at him anymore. Him in his pristine blue shirt and maroon tie, his tailored suit and polished brogues, his short, gray hair, still plentiful, brushed neatly back from his brow, his handsome face tanned from hours on the golf course. The picture of a smart, successful man, despite his advancing years. He was looming over her, standing close, blocking her way, not really threatening, just a solid barrier. But she pushed past him and hurried upstairs, shutting herself in their bedroom before Sophie had a chance to see the hot red welt spreading across her cheek.

  When she’d checked in the mirror for damage, she saw a stranger. Her blonde crop—not dyed, she and her brother, Johnny, had been white-blonde since they were children—was uncharacteristically disheveled, her hazel eyes huge and shocked in her heart-shaped face, the redness on her left cheek like some childish attempt at make-up.

  *

  Now, as she rinsed the plates, filled the dishwasher, wrapped the remains of the chicken in foil, wiped splashes of gravy from the table, swept up the bits from the floor that Largo had disdained, her thoughts returned to her predicament. He’s an old man, a sick old man. How can I leave him? It was a chant almost, that ran around her head on an hourly basis, had done for at least a year now. She understood that no one grew up wanting to be an alcoholic. It was addiction, pure and simple. But did that mean she had to stay and put up with this abuse for the rest of her life? He was tough, he could live another ten years at this rate. Maybe, she thought, Sophie could do what she was always threatening to do. Move in and look after her father, make sure she copped his millions when he died. Maybe he would clean up his act for her.

  But each time she reached this point, where she, Karen, was free, her stomach knotted with anxiety. Freedom felt more like being adrift in a vast, empty ocean. No house, no beloved Largo, no husband, no community. And she loved Harry, or at least loved the man that Harry used to be.

  The very first day she met him, at the interview for a job as his PA, she had been struck by his charisma. Despite being in his later fifties, he was so full of life, so funny, so handsome, so sure of himself.

  “You can type, I presume?” He’d asked, eyebrows arched, eyes full of laughter as he gave her an almost insultingly bold stare. He was standing in his shirtsleeves by the window of his modern, featureless office on the outskirts of Portsmouth, looking out on to a well-laid lawn and a plinth holding the shiny metal company logo of Stewart Engineering, cars parked off to the right. Harry had built his company from scratch, specializing in fencing—such as pedestrian barriers, railings, gates, security and electric fencing, anti-climb panels—and it was a success.

  “Just about,” Karen had said, more cheekily than she intended, but unable to ignore his teasing look.

  “Well, Mrs. Rawlings seems to like you. Which is unusual, to say the least.” He waved at her to sit down in the chair opposite his wide teak desk—piled high from end to end with papers interspersed with an odd assortment of keypads, fobs, cable loops and other unidentifiable widgets.

  Karen had said nothing. Mrs. Rawlings was an office manager of the old school: gray hair in a severe French pleat, black pencil skirt, plain white blouse, black court shoes, a single string of pearls at her neck, immaculate nails polished with a fearsome cranberry. Initially she had peered over her glasses at Karen as if she were something the cat dragged in. But for some reason she’d softened when Karen had been honest and told her she knew absolutely nothing about engineering and was probably most unsuitable for the job.

  “Don’t worry about that,” she’d said briskly. “You might be just what Mr. Stewart needs.” A comment Karen could not fathom, but chose to ignore.

  Her previous job as PA to the boss of a recruitment agency in Southampton was so dire, her boss so sleazy, that she would happily settle for almost anything, even if it meant a half-hour commute. And although she’d been hoping for a job in the travel industry, where her almost fluent French—learned during a two-year stint as a chalet girl in Courchevel when she was nineteen—would be an asset, nothing had come up in the months she’d been looking.

  “It’s a boring bloody job,” Harry declared with a curious satisfaction when they were both seated on either sid
e of his desk. “You’ll have to deal with me, for a start, and I’m tricky at the best of times. Then there’s Mrs. Rawlings to sweet-talk. And the men will ogle you every time you set foot out of the office.” He’d smiled his most winning smile. “In fact, you should probably run a mile.”

  And she’d replied, “I’ll risk it, if you will.”

  So the flirtation began from day one. Karen herself, when she started working for Harry, was in a sort of relationship, with Russ. On off, on off, neither could properly commit to moving in together, but they were close, real friends. As her mother, in her more sober moments, kept telling her, “Many good marriages have flourished on less.”

  But Harry was free, divorced from his wife, Theresa, for two years by then. Office gossip went that the marriage had fallen apart after he’d been spotted by a friend of Theresa’s in a hotel in Paris, holding hands with a tasty French sales rep, when he’d told his wife he was in Newcastle. And the friend had dobbed him in. Theresa, a feisty Greek with a Mediterranean temper, had not only taken a very dim view of his behavior—reasonably enough—but had seen it as a complete deal-breaker. The marriage, as far as she was concerned, was over from that moment. “She didn’t understand about my work,” was Harry’s excuse when Karen asked what had gone wrong.

  It was a few months before anything beyond flirtation happened. That Tuesday, snow threatened, a lot of snow according to the forecast, and Mrs. Rawlings had closed the office at lunchtime to prevent the workers from having trouble getting home. But Harry had asked Karen to stay a little longer.

  “Load of nonsense, these forecasts. Putting the wind up us to cover their arses. Not frightened of a little snow, are you?” he’d teased.

  “Of course not,” she’d replied, marveling at the way Harry Stewart thought even the elements were at his command.

  And it did snow. By the time they looked up from their work, vast amounts had dumped out of the sky in a matter of hours. There was no way Harry’s sleek silver Jaguar was going to make it past the end of the drive. They were trapped.