Back In The Game (Poker Loser Book 2)

by Golden Angel

  Lunch conversation flowed, eventually winding down to boyfriends and sex.

  “What about that hunk you’re dating Allison?” asked Clara. She was the oldest of the women, in her early thirties, dark blonde hair and a warmly rounded body. Allison had once showed her a picture of Roger, and she’d just about swooned.

  “Oh um. Things are fine, I guess,” Allison said, shrugging. She winced a little as soon as she did, realizing that her lackluster response was just going to garner more questions.

  “Uh oh, trouble in paradise?” Sally asked before taking a large bite out of her cheeseburger. No matter what Sally ate, she never had trouble maintaining her slim figure, although she’d once confessed to Allison that she wished she had Allison’s breasts. Sally was petite and tiny, not very curvy, and it didn’t help that was a runner, constantly on the go.

  “Not really trouble just…” Allison hesitated. “It’s a lot of little things. There was a guy before him that I was really into and I felt like he challenged me, opened me up to new experiences. Roger’s just kind of dull comparatively, but I feel bad saying that because he’s a really good guy. I’m just missing the excitement. And we’re not really, you know, compatible in bed all the time.”

  “Well feel free to send him over to me for lessons,” Clara said, winking. All of them giggled. “I’m sorry to hear that though sweetie. But you’re young, there’s plenty of time.”

  “Sounds like he’s kind of a rebound,” said Linda. “How serious were you with the other guy?”

  “Not serious,” said Allison, stabbing a piece of her chicken parmesan with unnecessary force.

  “Oooo, so it’s like that is it?” asked Linda, looking sympathetic. All of them looked sympathetic, but Allison was suddenly aware of how much older they all were than her. Probably thinking about young love and how she’d get over Todd and find someone better. Part of her wanted to rebel against that logic, part of her hoped that they were right.

  “Well, with the sex thing, do you… you know. Take care of yourself?” Sally asked. And then blushed deeply as they all looked at her. It was hard to see the blush, because of her Filipino heritage she had creamy cocoa skin, but she was embarrassed enough for the heat to darken her cheeks. All of them burst into wild giggles.

  “I mean um… yes?” Allison laughed, knowing that she was blushing now too.

  “I’m just asking because I got a new vibrator,” Sally said, lowering her voice to a whisper. “And it’s ah-maaaaazing.”

  “What kind is it?” Clara asked.

  “It’s called a dolphin, it’s just like a rabbit but with a dolphin shape.”

  All of them cracked up now, knowing Sally’s penchant for dolphins. She had a dolphin snow globe on her desk, all of her pens had dolphins decorating them, and then pendant hanging from her necklace was a pretty silver dolphin.

  “Why am I not surprised?” asked Linda, through the laughter.

  It got Allison thinking and when she got home she got onto her computer, searching for sex toys. That inevitably led to story and porn sites as well. Things were definitely hot online. She found a whole site that was filled with girls taking huge cocks up their asses, another where it was all gangbangs and orgies, and yet another with just bondage and whips and chains. Her pussy was wet and hungry from looking jealously at these girls, all in positions that she'd been in before. All doing things that she kinda wished she was now. Finally she found a site that made some life spring back into her dull hazel eyes, sitting up straight she looked through it in awe as page after page of kinky sex toys available for her to buy passed by her eyes.

  Why hadn’t she ever bought herself some new sex toys? All she had was her same old vibrator and the butt plug that Todd had sent her home in. She could have bought some for herself. Looking over the site, she decided she wanted to be conservative with her first choices. Although was infinitely better than having to go to an actual store and look over the products. Here there was no one to see her shame as she picked out a medium sized rubber butt-plug, the same kind of tweezer clamps on a Y shaped chain that Todd had put on her, and a vibrator with a little beaver shaped clit stimulator on it.

  That night Allison also decided that she wasn’t going to wait around for Todd again. If he had feelings for her then maybe some competition would be good for him. Diana was over at Chad’s and Roger got invited inside for the first time since Todd had left. It was a decision that she almost regretted as he slowly and gently thrust into her wanting pussy and moaned into her curls. Heaving underneath him, she pretended to pant for breath and gasp as he made love to her, all the while wishing that she hadn't invited him in. It wasn't even as if she could pretend he was Todd, because Todd would never leave her wanting like this - unless he was just teasing her to get her riled and then he would immediately become harder and rougher as she begged him to fuck her. Wrong. This all just felt so wrong.

  "Oh…" Roger sighed in completion as he rolled off her and pulled her close, hands stroking her sides. "I love you Allison."

  She tried not to tense up when he said it, and fortunately he didn't seem to notice as he kissed the back of her neck. Burrowing her face into his chest she murmured something noncommittal, and let him cuddle her. The entire time she felt like a monster.

  That night, after Roger had fallen asleep, Allison slipped out of his arms and went into the main room of the apartment, curling up in her bathrobe. She was going to have to break up with him. It wasn’t fair. If she’d realized that his feelings were getting so intense - but she’d been so wrapped up in her own feelings for someone else that she hadn’t really been thinking about Roger at all. Allison felt awful, curling up on the couch, for the first time she cried over Roger.

  *****

  Allison avoided Roger for the next couple of days, after seeing him on his way out. She felt horribly guilty, but at the same time it seemed awful to break up with someone the morning after sleeping with them and having them confess their love. Maybe a little distance from him would help sort out her feelings… maybe they wouldn’t need to break up.

  “All right,” Diana said, practically jumping on Allison when she came home from work. Allison groaned as her roommate, stripped her of her purse and jacket, dragging her into the kitchen. Dinner was already ready – chicken parmesan, one of Allison’s favorite comfort foods – so there were no distractions. Obligingly, Allison sat down at the kitchen table while Diana filled their plates with chicken, pasta and green beans, shooting her suspicious little looks.

  “Okay, spill,” said Diana as she put the plate in front of Allison. The heavenly smell of tomato sauce, oregano and basil caressed Allison’s nose, making her feel better already. There was a hint of citrus too, which meant that Diana had probably put lemon juice on the green beans. Yum. Allison began to cut into her chicken as she “spilled.”

  “I think I have to break up with Roger. But I don’t know how to do it. And I feel awful doing it. I really like him, a lot, but he just isn’t… he isn’t who I see myself with.”

  “Is there someone else that you see yourself with?” Diana asked astutely, picking up a forkful of green beans.

  Allison chewed on the chicken, letting the breading, moist meat and tomato sauce slide down her throat, filling her stomach with a contented feeling. Her taste buds were very happy too.

  “If Todd were here, then maybe yes. But that’s not why I’m breaking up with Roger. I have no idea if Todd’s ever coming back… I just.” Allison broke off her sentence sighed. “I want to want to be with Roger, but the truth is I don’t. And the other night he said he loved me and I realized I don’t feel that deeply for him. Not even a little bit.”

  Diana made a face. “Yikes. What did you say back?”

  “Nothing, I kind of mumbled into his chest,” Allison said, feeling immeasurably guilty. Some of that guilt eased when Diana laughed. Not a mean laugh, just a laugh acknowledging the awkwardness of the situation. “Yeah. Slick right?”

  “Probably shou
ld have just said something right then.”

  “Well I was kind of in the middle of having a revelation and we’d just finished having sex. It didn’t really seem like the right time.”

  “Ouch,” Diana said, wincing sympathetically.

  It was amazing how much of a difference a good friend and some delicious comfort food could have on a body. Or a soul. Allison realized that she’d been beating herself up over her treatment of Roger, but the truth was, if he did love her, he wasn’t loving an entire person. Because she couldn’t be herself around her, and sometimes when she tried he would shut her down. It wasn’t fair to him or her.

  “Yeah, so now I have to figure out how to break up with him.” Allison through back to past break-ups which had always been so much easier. But with Roger… the truth was if she hadn’t met Todd she might have thought herself in love with Roger by now. She really did care about him and didn’t want to hurt him, but that wasn’t enough to build a romantic relationship on. On top of the fact that she didn’t feel they really had the chemistry that she wanted, needed, in a romantic relationship. “I really hate the ‘let’s just be friends’ line, but it’s actually true this time. And it’s all complicated by the fact that he works for my dad.”

  Diana made a face. “Yeah, that won’t be fun. But it’s not really your Dad’s business.”

  “I hope he remembers that,” Allison muttered under her breath. It had been awhile since she’d talked to or seen her parents. Staying away from them, once she’d moved out, just made her happier overall. Realizing that she didn’t miss them had made her feel guilty for a while, but the truth was, when she did talk to them it didn’t seem like they missed her that much either. As long as she behaved properly and wasn’t doing anything to embarrass them, it didn’t really matter where she lived. Just, now it was harder for them to question her constantly on her behavior and so as long as they didn’t hear of any improprieties they were satisfied.

  Allison shook her head. “Thanks for cooking by the way, this is delicious.”

  “You’re welcome,” Diana said, smiling. It hadn’t taken them very long to get almost all the way through dinner. “Just wait till I do the brownies for dessert! You seemed like you needed a pick-me-up.”

  “Yeah, I think I did. So how are you and Chad?”

  “Oh, same old, same old. He’s fun and I like dating him, but it’s kind of like with Roger. I want to want to be with him, but there’s just something missing. But I’ve talked to him about it and he feels the same way. He’s not nearly as much of a stick in the ass as Roger and he doesn’t mind at all keeping things going on a casual basis.”

  That was too bad. Allison had kind of hoped for something more romantic between Chad and Diana. It seemed like everyone was stuck in lackluster love lately.

  ****

  She got a very nice surprise in the middle of the week when her package of toys was finally delivered. Allison never paid much attention to tracking packages she ordered, preferring to have a nice surprise when she got home from work and found a ‘present’ waiting for her. Today was a very nice present indeed. Immediately she pulled open the box, found the nipple clamps and removed them from their packaging. Teasing her nipples to hardness with her fingers, Allison put the little tweezers around first her left, then her right nipple.

  The little buds ached wonderfully. For a few minutes she just stood in her room, shivering and rubbing her fingers over the increasingly sensitive tips of her nipples, the pretty pink slowly darkening as blood pooled in the tissues. The slight pain made her think of nothing but Todd. Part of her wanted to resist, but heck with it. Until she found someone that she could be with, that fulfilled her sexually, might as well use him as a fantasy love. He was definitely the only man to give her screaming orgasms.

  And if she was going to use him as a fantasy lover, she might as well go all the way and break out the video. Eyes hungry, cheeks flushed, she watched hungrily as Todd began to shave her pussy… her hair was grown out again and she made a face as she ran her hands over the trimmed mound. Seeing Todd’s face, his body, made her feel a little lonely and sad, but at the same time she couldn’t deny the effect he had on her arousal. Moaning, she rubbed her fingers over her nipples, feeling the swollen ache and sharp jolts of pain tingling through her breasts, watching as, on the video, he began to work the vibrator in and out of her pussy. She tugged on the chain between her hard pink nipples, until they felt like ripe cherries about to burst on her chest, swollen and hard. Perfect.

  Eyes on the TV she slathered the butt plug with lube and then got on all fours before reaching behind her and teasing her asshole with it. Watching the television as Todd's thick cock was sliding into her ass on the screen in front of her, she worked the plug back and forth, stretching the tight hole. The sensitive bundle of nerves ached and made her quiver as she felt her body opening for it.

  Catching a glimpse of herself in the mirror, she was shocked at how slutty she looked bent over on her knees on her bed, pressing a plug in and out of her ass, nipples clamped tightly with a chain hanging from them as her breasts swung gently beneath her body. But her cheeks were glowing, eyes sparkling, her expression was lustful. It was an extremely erotic sight and turned her on almost as much as watching the TV did. Todd would love to see her like this. She moaned loudly as she finished pressing the butt plug all the way into her ass, feeling her hole pop over the thickest part and close tightly. Closing her eyes, she pressed her fingertips against the base of the plug, making it rock inside her. Her pussy gave an answering quiver as her muscles tightened around the plug.

  Turning over to sit on the bed, Allison found herself moaning happily as the plug pressed further into her body as all her weight was rested on it. Turning on the beaver vibrator, she giggled as the cute little critter buzzed merrily. Experimentally, she pressed him lightly against one of her nipples, closing her eyes and straining her back a little as the bud vibrated and throbbed. Her lower body tightened as she teased both of her clamped nipples with vibrations, running her other hand down to rub the top of her pussy. Damn hair.

  Leaning back she spanked her pussy as hard as she could, crying out as it burned and swelled. Her clit felt like it was on fire. Again and again her hand descended on her pussy lips, although she couldn't make her hand hit herself nearly as hard as Todd had. It felt good though, pain and pleasure tingling through her, especially when she slid the vibrator up and down the wet slit in between slaps. Going back and forth between spanking her pussy and rubbing it with the vibrator soon had Allison writhing with need.

  She didn’t have the self-control to continue tormenting herself, although she knew that Todd would have kept it up until she was begging for release. But he wasn’t here. Biting her lip, Allison pictured his dark eyes as he watched her be naughty, sliding the vibrator into her hole and feeling the pearls around the base of it moving, stimulating her pussy lips as the toy pressed against her g-spot. Her hips jerked as the beaver found her clit, teasing the small bud out from under its hood and making it swell as pleasure rose up inside of her.

  “Oh fuck…” she moaned, letting her head fall back as her pussy and ass clutched at the toys convulsively, her clit throbbing between her legs. Using her free hand to tug on the nipple chain, she began to move the toy back and forth inside of her, fucking herself with it, pretending that Todd was watching her pleasure herself. Making her wait before she could come. The loss of the beaver against her clit every time she pulled the vibrator out made her groan in disappointment, and then shudder with pleasure as it returned. Her legs spread and kicked, opening her up and tightening her. Her nipples were bright red as she tugged the clamps from them, making her scream as blood rushed back to the tortured flesh. Rubbing her hand over them to soothe the pain away, her entire body arched as the pulsing pain in her nipples resonated through her pussy.

  “FUCK, oh fuck… Todd… FUCK ME… Oh TODD!” His name exploded out of her mouth as she came, unbidden and overwhelming, just hearing her
own voice calling out for him as if he was really there enhanced her pleasure. “FUCK!” The hard vibration against her clit made her twist and thrash on the bed as wave after incredible wave of orgasm swept over her, her body burning and aching, riding the ecstasy as dark eyes filled her mind.

  Panting, she pulled the gyrating toy away from her sensitive tissues, curling into a ball as her over-stimulated nerves relaxed. That had been intense. So much better than using her fingers. Too bad Todd was the one in her mind as she’d worked herself to such an incredible climax. Asshole would probably enjoy knowing that she was screaming out his name while he wasn’t even on this side of the ocean.

  ****

  “Allison, what’s this?” Diana’s voice echoed through the apartment from the bathroom. What’s what? Allison wondered. Oh shit. Last night when she’d cleaned off the toys she’d left the butt plug out to dry, with the errant thought that maybe she’d put it back in at some point, but she hadn’t. Instead she’d left it sitting on the counter.

  Appearing in the bathroom doorway, Allison’s cheeks flushed as Diana looked at her with a mischievous grin. From the expression on the petite girl’s face, she knew exactly what the object sitting on the counter was, but was enjoying discomfiting her roommate.

  “Sorry about that,” Allison said, reaching out and grabbing the toy. Well it was definitely dried off. Diana laughed out loud at the sheepish and embarrassed look that Allison gave her. The toy had seemed monumentally out of place in their bathroom with its ivory walls, dark rose pink rug on the floor and matching shower curtain with a lace overlay.

  “What’s it like with a toy? Is it different?” Diana asked, gesturing to the toy in Allison’s hands.

  “Um.” The blush crept back up into Allison’s cheeks. How to explain? “Yeah. Still full, but the buzzing is… intense.”