The Shadow Soul (A Dance of Dragons)

by Kaitlyn Davis

  "Don't tell me you haven't thought about it, with the joining so close. I know he has. I've seen him watching you."

  "We're friends," Jinji growled, her face burning.

  "Well, soon you'll be a lot more than that, and I want to hear all about it, but for now, the braiding."

  "Is my mother coming?" Jinji asked, surprised they were not returning to the village before beginning the preparations.

  "She knew you wouldn't want everyone around to watch. That's why she sent me to find you."

  Jinji smiled, sending her thank you to the spirits since her mother was not there to hear. The last thing she needed was the scrutiny of the elders, picking over her flaws, telling her how to sit and stand and walk and speak. No, it was much better this way.

  "I'm glad."

  "Me too. Now," Leoa started and then separated the first third of Jinji's hair, placing it gently over her right shoulder, "for your joined."

  "Taikeno," Jinji whispered, repeating the word in their native language, the one that had been stolen from them hundreds of years ago when the newworlders had taken over the land. But still, there were some things that could only be said in Arpapajo words. Some things only the ancient words could really express.

  Leoa took the next third and draped it over Jinji's left shoulder. "For your children."

  "Ka'shasten," Jinji responded, closing her eyes and saying it like a prayer.

  Leoa gathered the remaining locks, tugging gently on them while she said, "For your people."

  "Arpapajona." Jinji bowed her head, bringing her palms together, trying to catch the words and fuse them into the spirits around her.

  As she wove the three parts together, Leoa began to hum. Following the rhythm, Jinji let her hands dance, weaving the words and the spirits together in an invisible braid, copying her friend's movements in a personal prayer.

  Taikeno.

  Ka'shasten.

  Arpapajona.

  Jinji repeated the words again and again in her mind, turning them into a song. A song of hope for a future that was happier than her past.

  And then it was done.

  Leoa tightened the strands, tying a series of intricate knots at the base of Jinji's braid to keep it tight and strong.

  Just like that, she was a woman.

  Waiting one more breath, Jinji opened her eyes.

  And screamed.

  Jumping up and backing quickly away from the spot, she stumbled over Leoa's feet until they had both fallen to the ground again.

  Eyes.

  She had seen bright white eyes staring out of her shadow.

  "We must go," Jinji urged, breathlessly struggling to stand on her feet. Was that a yell she heard off in the distance? Were cries riding on the wind? "Do you hear that?"

  Leoa gripped her hands, keeping her steady. "What? There is nothing. You're scaring me."

  Jinji paused, took a deep breath, and listened. She heard nothing. Leoa was right.

  Looking down at her feet, Jinji let her eyes run over the edge of her shadow, looking deep into the depths for some sign of betrayal.

  But it was all a dream. It must have been a trick of the light. An illusion she had woven without realizing it.

  Everything was fine. Everything was as it should be.

  Her breath slowed as she tried to relax. Everything will be all right. The past is the past—I will not let it determine my future.

  She would not let the shadows drive her crazy—she had moved beyond that, past the craze that Janu's death had left her in. She was better now. Stronger.

  "Come here," Leoa said, holding up the dress.

  Jinji stepped closer, turning around and slipping off the furs that she currently wore. They were brown, covered in dirt and grass stains, blending into the spot where they fell.

  She raised her arms up, letting the fresh dress slide down over her body. It was still rough and unworn, scratchy against her skin. But it was beautiful. And it made her copper skin glow.

  Leoa tugged on the strap around Jinji's waist securing it tightly before stepping back. Jinji turned, meeting her friend's smile with a weak one of her own.

  "Let's go—" Leoa began.

  But she never got the chance to finish, because the imagined scream Jinji had heard on the wind turned into a real one, piercing both of their ears like a dagger.

  Their eyes met. After years of friendship, of sisterhood, no words were needed. The fear in their gazes said it all, spoke more than words could, and they ran.

  Another wail cut through the forest.

  Then a growl and a grunt.

  The howl of a warrior cry.

  Then silence.

  Leoa ran faster, her long legs carried her farther than Jinji's petite frame could match. Before long, her friend had become a phantom dashing farther and farther out of Jinji's sight.

  The fringe on Jinji's dress pulled against branches, tangling her in the forest as if the trees themselves were trying to stop her. The wind pressed against her limbs, strong gusts that acted like a wall holding her body. Her feet dipped deep into soft mud that should have been hard and dry.

  But Jinji pressed on, speeding through the small stream at the edge of their home until she spotted a figure in the distance, just beyond the entrance to the great longhouse.

  She sighed, slowing her steps. It was Leoa.

  If her friend had stopped running, then there was nothing to fear. Jinji had gotten them both worked up over nothing.

  "Leoa?" She called.

  Her friend turned just enough for Jinji to see a long stick protruding from her chest, a red spot seeping through her skins.

  "Leoa!" Jinji screamed. Her eyes widened in horror and her heart pounded, but she was stuck. Her feet felt too heavy to move, as if everything was happening in slow motion. Janu's face flashed before her eyes. This could not be happening. Not again. Her limbs were stiff, her mouth dry, her brain just repeated no, no, no unable to comprehend anything but agony.

  And then a whisper filtered through the wind, "Jinji," and Leoa's arm reached out.

  Her instincts kicked in. Jinji dashed to her friend, her sister, catching her just as her knees gave out and her body fell. They landed together, sliding slowly to the ground as Leoa's weight pulled them down. Jinji hugged Leoa to her chest, wishing that the beat of her heart would somehow spread to that of her friend's.

  But she felt the body in her arms slacken, felt it drop an extra inch into her lap, heard one last gasp of desperate air, and knew.

  Her arms lost their grip and Leoa tumbled onto Jinji's lap, lifeless and wide-eyed, shock written across her features.

  "Ka'shasten," she whispered, ignoring the tears that blurred her vision. My family. "Pajora jinjiajanu." Be with the spirits.

  Her voice cracked and she screamed.

  And then her vision went red. She was not a little girl this time. She was a warrior. And she would find out who did this.

  Jinji stood. Her eyes scanned the trees, searching for the bow that loosed the arrow, searching for any movement. But the village was still.

  "Who are you?" She screamed.

  A shuffling noise drew her attention. Just beyond the longhouse, someone was moving.

  Jinji crept closer, pressing her body against the curved wood of the house, using it as a shield, hiding from the invader.

  Heart pounding, she peered around the corner.

  But it was a man she recognized.

  "Maniuk," she hissed, trying to catch his attention. His spear was poised at the ready, a bow was slung over his shoulder, and the knife at his waist dripped red.

  Part of her was proud. He was already a great warrior, and he would be a great leader when this fight was over.

  But another part was afraid. Where was everyone else?

  Maniuk didn’t turn to her call. All of his attention was focused on the trees opposite them. She followed the line of his head, unable to see his eyes, and scanned the woods.

  There was nothing there.

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sp; "Maniuk," she called again. Chills ran along her limbs. It was not the time to be fighting alone.

  Suddenly he jerked into action. His arm lashed out, releasing the spear in a low arc that sailed through the center of their small village until with a thud, it landed.

  A body fell forward, scratching against bark as it dropped.

  But it couldn’t be.

  Jinji stepped back.

  Maniuk?

  He would never…

  But there was Kekohi, one of their own, an Arpapajo, facedown with the spear through his chest.

  Jinji's trembling hands rose to cover her lips, holding in the cry.

  And then Maniuk turned around.

  White.

  His eyes were white, drained of all color, of all spirit, empty and somehow full at the same time.

  The shadow had found her. It had come for her.

  She stepped back again and again, moving away from the monster before her until her foot caught, and she stumbled.

  Looking down, Jinji saw what she had missed earlier. The feathers along the arrow piercing Leoa's chest were raven black with red painted tips. They were Arpapajo, not newworlder. They were Maniuk's—Jinji had plucked those feathers herself.

  He moved closer.

  Jinji didn’t try to run. She had no weapons, no hope of outpacing him. She had nothing left to run for.

  Three feet from her body, Maniuk stopped. He slipped the knife from his waist and held it before him, arm out, almost as if he were offering it her.

  Her eyes narrowed, traced the bulging veins up his wrist to his shoulder, until she stared into those absent yet knowing eyes.

  The knife rose higher, up and up, over the height of her head, until it rested at his throat.

  "No," she reached forward.

  But in one quick motion, it was over.

  Jinji didn't look away. Instead, she searched those eyes, and the instant before Maniuk's life was gone, she saw what she had been looking for. The shadow disappeared and Maniuk, her taikeno, was back. A deep despair flashed in his irises, and they froze that way as death took him.

  He dropped to her feet.

  Jinji knelt down, put her palm to his cheek, and closed his eyelids. "We would have done great things together," she whispered, brushing her fingers up through his hair, "I'm sorry I brought the shadow to you. I'm so sorry, my taikeno."

  Jinji lowered her head until her lips pressed softly against his. Their first kiss. The one they should have shared at their joining. The one that should have been the first of many, yet would be their last. The only kiss they would ever know.

  Suddenly adrenaline punched through her veins. This couldn’t be the end, there had to be someone alive. Her mother. Her father. The children.

  She jumped over his body and paused at the edge of her home.

  To her left, the longhouse where her tribe slept each night. To her right, the longhouse where food was stored. Across from her, the smaller hut where she lived with her parents. And behind, the ceremonial grounds—today, the burial grounds.

  It did not take long to decide where to check first, and before she realized she had moved, Jinji was pulling the furs of the longhouse aside.

  The stench hit her like a punch in the gut, and she stumbled. Red splashed over the dirt floor, against the wooden slabs of the walls, dripping from the beams.

  The only way to keep moving was to turn her mind off. She walked emotionless down the rows of bed pallets, checking each cut throat for a pulse, not caring as her hand stained maroon.

  The children looked asleep, and she was happy for that, happy they had drifted away in ignorance, without experiencing the slow terror that was spreading along her nerves.

  None.

  There were none alive. And barely any sign of a struggle.

  It was too much.

  Jinji burst from the door and gulped in fresh air, heaving and coughing until spit dribbled from the corner of her lips—spit and tears.

  Lifelessly, she moved back to Leoa's body and lifted her by the arms, dragging her over to the longhouse.

  Jinji did the same for the bodies of the warriors she found sprinkled through the trees. She did the same for Maniuk, because she knew in her heart it wasn't really his fault—it was her fault, her burden to bear.

  And when all of the bodies were safely tucked inside, she turned to her family's hut, knowing without a doubt what she would find.

  She saw her father first, face down in the dirt. She turned him over, hand trembling above the wound that had opened his chest, and threw his furs over his stomach before pulling him to the rest of their people.

  And finally, her mother, hand tucked under her cheek—peaceful and unaware.

  And then it was done.

  Before she could think, Jinji moved to the great fire always burning in the center of their village. She pulled a stick free and placed it against the dried wood of the longhouse, watching it spark, flare, and spread wildly.

  Jinji stepped back, letting it burn her eyes.

  Better to blaze than to drown.

  Everyone she knew. Everyone she loved. An entire people wiped out. An entire culture gone.

  But no, not everyone.

  She was still here.

  Alone.

  Jinji looked down at the red stains covering her white dress, oozing wider with every second. Suffocating. The dress was suffocating her. It scratched her throat, sucked close to her body, constricting her breath, closing in on her lungs.

  She screamed, ripping the dress down the seams, pulling the skins her mother had spent hours preparing apart, until she was standing completely bare in the sun.

  Like a ghost, she turned around. Her eyes were vacant. Her arms hung lifelessly by her side. Her feet shuffled forward, barely lifting off the dirt.

  Jinji went inside her home, reached for the box she always kept by her sleeping mat, and lifted the lid. Her brother's clothes. Tiny as she was, Jinji still fit in Janu's boyhood clothes. She still wore them sometimes, when she needed to feel like she was not alone. So she slipped them on, sliding her legs through the breeches and her arms through the leather shirt, both worn soft by time.

  Reaching down again, Jinji gripped his hunting knife and grasped the end of her braid. Barely there an hour, and already all was lost. Her prayer had failed.

  Slowly, she sliced through her thick hair, back and forth, back and forth, mechanically.

  The braid dropped to the ground.

  Her body shivered.

  She reached back up again, eyes wide and wild, fighting the tears that were bound to come.

  Crazed, Jinji kept cutting, grabbing any loose hairs she could, forcing herself as bald as she could go, as though cutting it all off could somehow bring them back, or at least bring them peace.

  When it was done, she lay down, curled on her side with her legs pulled firm against her chest, so she could cry away from the world—whatever was left of it.

  And deep in her heart, she wished for one thing, a wish she had longed for years ago—that she had died instead of Janu.

  Before, it had been a selfless wish, a wish that her twin could live a long, happy life. She would have died to give him that chance. But now, she was acting selfishly. She was alone, and she wished beyond all things that she were the one with her people in the spirit world.

  Her eyes closed and she cupped her hands, imagining the spirits and the jinjiajanu she had trapped in that small place.

  And as she wished, she wove, tying the elemental spirits around her body in an intricate illusion, so for at least a little while she could pretend that she was the twin who had died, instead of the twin who was alone—the last remaining Arpapajo in this hopeless world.

  2

  RHEN

  ~ RONINHYTHE ~

  "Faster, Ember," Rhen called, urging his horse onward, leaving only the echo of a carefree laugh behind him on the breeze.

  Free again.

  Rhen grinned, relishing his narrow escape. Adrenaline
punched through his veins, fiery and intense, urging him to run as fast as possible. That nobleman had been inches away from gutting him. Of course, he couldn't blame the man. Rhen had spent the night in his daughter's bed, and it was a father's job to protect her virtue after all. Lucky for him, the old man's sword arm was a little slow.

  He did, however, feel slightly uneasy. It really wasn't the girl's fault that he had slipped into her room just before dawn. He had a reputation to protect—and he needed a reason to be run from the city. But the fist's worth of gold arriving at their door later that afternoon should be payment enough, Rhen assured himself. That was assuming Cal, his loyal friend and future Lord of Roninhythe, was on time with the delivery.

  Rhen rolled his shoulders, loosening the knots court life left, ridding his body of the weight of nobility.

  Despite the cost, there was no question in his mind. Now, riding Ember—carefree for a few minutes of peace—everything had been worth it. There were few things he wouldn't do to just be Rhen again.

  Not Whylrhen, son of Whylfrick.

  Not Whylrhen, Prince of the Kingdom of Whylkin.

  Not Whylrhen, blood of Whyl, the great conqueror who united the lands.

  No, just Rhen, a nineteen-year-old man with no strings attached.

  As the walls of the city faded into the horizon, Rhen slowed Ember, patting her soft muddy-red hairs until her breath calmed, and she understood that the urgency had passed. Aside from his mother, she was the only female who had ever held his heart, and though she was old, she had never failed him. Not as a foal, when she had kicked down the stable door, saving his older brother Whyllem from the blazing flames. And not as a mare, when she had saved his life time after time, never demanding more than a light scratch along her neck.

  Well, sometimes demanding more…okay, often demanding more, but Rhen was soft when it came to his horse.

  He dropped the reins, trusting Ember to keep the pace, and reached into his saddlebag to grab the plain brown tunic resting inside. Stripping off the bright red silks of the crown, he let his bare chest soak in the sun before donning the less noticeable, but also less comfortable, common shirt. His boots and pants were still of the noble variety, but he wouldn't be able to fully hide his station without leaving Ember—and that just wasn't an option.