The Tavern in the Morning
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‘Although he did not admit it when he spoke to me,’ she began, ‘Denys de Courtenay knows Joanna to be accompanied by a child, a young boy. Ninian. Is that correct?’
‘Oh, aye. He knows about her child all right.’
‘Then he will be looking for not a woman alone, but a woman with a boy. Yes?’
‘Aye.’
‘Well then, why not split them up?’
‘Joanna would never have it!’
‘Hear me out! What I suggest is this. Return now to the secret manor house, fetch Ninian here to us – oh, don’t worry, we would make absolutely certain that he was safe – and then go back to Joanna and—’
‘I can’t leave her alone there!’
‘No, no, I’m not proposing that you should. But, Sir Josse, you have a house. Some distance from here and very comfortable, I dare say?’
‘Aye, but—’
‘And is it in the least possible, do you think, that Denys de Courtenay would find her there, when he is not even aware of her connection with you?’
‘Less possible than that he’ll somehow discover the location of the old people’s manor house,’ Josse agreed. There was a long silence; she sensed he was thinking it through, planning, perhaps, how he would put the idea to her. To Joanna.
The only slight drawback, Helewise thought, was that this arrangement meant she herself would not meet Joanna de Courtenay. Which, she had to admit, was something she quite wanted to do.
Josse stood up suddenly. ‘It’s a sound plan,’ he said decisively. ‘I’ll go and see if she agrees.’ With a grin and a sketchy bow, he was gone.
Helewise sat as her table for some time more, thinking very hard. Thinking how best, in an Abbey full of nuns, to conceal a seven-year-old boy …
* * *
By the time he returned a few hours later, she was ready. Warned by Sister Ursel of their approach, she went outside into the frosty afternoon to greet Josse and his young companion.
‘Abbess Helewise, this is Ninian de Lehon,’ Josse said, slipping down from his horse and gesturing for the boy to do the same. ‘Ninian, this is Abbess Helewise.’
He came up to her, made a reasonably elegant bow and said, ‘I am honored to meet you.’ Straightening, he looked up at her with frank curiosity.
Looking back, she studied him. Quite tall for his age, and sturdily built – he could have passed for more than his seven years. Longish dark hair, an open, friendly face. And those brilliant blue eyes. Yes. He would do.
‘And I am delighted to meet you, too,’ she replied.
‘Don’t stare, Ninian,’ Josse muttered.
‘Sorry.’ Ninian glanced at Josse, then his eyes returned to Helewise. ‘It’s just that I don’t know any nuns. Lots of monks – there were any number of them, where I used to live. They always looked very serious, and they prayed most of the time. And they were terribly strict. I didn’t really like them very much.’ A shadow crossed the young face.
In a moment of intuition, Helewise thought: you say you didn’t like them. Were, perhaps, afraid of them. So that, when Josse told you he was bringing you here to our Abbey, maybe you thought we would be like your monks. ‘We’re not all that serious here,’ she said gently. ‘We pray quite a lot of the time – it’s what monks and nuns do – but we don’t insist that people go about with long faces when they aren’t praying.’
‘Don’t you?’ The boy didn’t look convinced.
‘No. I’ll tell you what, Ninian.’ She bent down to his level. ‘Because I’m always quite busy, I thought, when Sir Josse said he was bringing you here, that it would be nice if I asked one of the younger sisters who isn’t quite so busy if she’d look after you. What do you think?’
‘Younger?’ Ninian repeated. ‘Lots younger?’
‘Oh, years and years,’ Helewise assured him. ‘In fact she’s one of our youngest nuns, and she’s only been a proper one for a few months.’ She glanced up at Josse, who, she thought, had probably guessed which nun she referred to. ‘Her name’s Sister Caliste – shall we go and find her?’
‘All right.’
Standing up, Helewise wondered if the boy would take her hand. Tentatively, she reached out. And, instantly, felt his small fingers wriggle into her palm.
‘Sister Caliste usually works with Sister Euphemia, who is our infirmarer,’ Helewise said as they walked off, ‘which means the person who looks after the sick people who come here. Only today she – Sister Caliste – is busy doing the mending. She’s in a snug little room down here –’ she led the way along the path round the infirmary and approaching a small door in its end wall, opened it – ‘with all sorts of things that she’s got to sew. She’ll be very glad of your company, Ninian.’
Reaching past the boy, Helewise pushed the door further open. Inside, Sister Caliste jumped up, spilling a load of sheeting on to the floor, and, making a graceful obeisance, said, ‘Abbess Helewise! Good afternoon!’
‘Sister Caliste – oh, sit down, child! You’re standing on your mending – this is Ninian, whom I told you about. May he sit with you while you work?’
Sister Caliste’s response, Helewise thought, was perfect. ‘Oh, Ninian, how glad I am to see you!’ she exclaimed. ‘I’ve just sewn a hem that’s at least ten leagues long and I’ve now got to begin on another, and I’m so bored I could scream!’
What a fine actress, Helewise thought. She happened to know – because Caliste had confessed it to her – that there was little the girl liked more than an occasional afternoon by herself in the tiny sewing room, thinking her own thoughts, peacefully stitching away.
‘Come on, sit here –’ Caliste was clearing a space on the floor – ‘and tell me what’s happening in the wide world out there. Has there been a lot of snow yet this winter? Have you been sledging? Have the birds all flown off yet?’
‘I saw a hare today,’ the boy said, making himself comfortable, apparently instantly at home in Caliste’s company. ‘He was still brown, though, and I thought they went white in winter, so—’
Helewise withdrew and quietly closed the door.
Returning to Josse, she found him chatting with Sister Martha, who had come out to take his horse and Ninian’s pony.
‘No need, thank you, Sister Martha,’ Josse was saying, ‘since I must be off again straight away. And I’ll take Minstrel here with me. Just in case.’
Just in case, Helewise added silently, Denys comes looking …
‘Thank you, Sister,’ she said, and Sister Martha, assuming herself dismissed, returned with a bow to her stables.
‘Is the lad all right?’ Josse asked.
‘Yes. He’s fine. A nice boy.’
‘Aye, that he is.’ Josse gave her an admiring look. ‘A stroke of genius, Abbess dear, to put him in Caliste’s care. She does well?’
Helewise, remembering the affection which Josse had clearly felt for the young nun during her time of troubles the previous summer, nodded. ‘Oh, yes. As I believe I’ve said to you before, she makes a fine nun. Happy, cheerful, loving, and, according to Sister Euphemia, a born nurse. Gentle, you know. And with an air of trusting confidence that the Lord will do his best for her patients, which she communicates readily to them.’
‘You had your doubts over permitting her to take her final vows,’ he reminded her, ‘she being so young.’
‘I did. But neither she, nor I, nor indeed any of the community here, have had any cause to regret her admission.’
‘Aye, well, she’ll do a worthy job just now, if she can take that lad’s mind off worrying about his mother.’ Josse put his foot in the stirrup and swung up into the saddle. ‘And, speaking of Joanna, I must be on my way.’
‘Of course.’
‘Farewell, Abbess, and thank you. I don’t know when I’ll be back, but it will be soon, I promise.’
‘Goodbye,’ she said, raising a hand in blessing. ‘God go with you.’
His ‘Amen’ reached her faintly as, kicking Horace into a smart trot, he hurried out thro
ugh the Abbey gates and off down the track.
Chapter Twelve
Josse knew that there were several things he could be doing that would make more sense than riding as hard as he could to the secret manor.
He could return to Mag Hobson’s house, for instance, and see if there were any signs that Denys de Courtenay had been back there, hunting for Joanna. He could ride down to Ton-bridge, spend an hour or so in the inn, catch up on the latest talk. What were the townspeople saying about the poisoning in the inn? Was anybody under suspicion? Had anybody there seen little Tilly’s handsome man again?
Yes. That would be an area he ought to explore …
But Joanna was on her own. In an isolated, empty house where nobody would hear her cry for help. And in his head he carried a picture of her face, when she had stood in the doorway earlier and watched him ride away with Ninian.
The quick lift of the chin and the smile hadn’t fooled him for a moment, because he’d seen how she had looked when she thought he wasn’t watching her. And he’d rarely seen a more forlorn expression in his life.
* * *
He reached the hidden manor house soon after nightfall.
He spent longer than he need have done seeing to Horace and to Ninian’s pony. For some reason, he was nervous about entering the house. He kept having a strange fluttering sensation in his belly, as if a small bird were caught there, flapping its wings, frantic to escape.
The palms of his hands were sweaty, and, unfastening the buckles on Horace’s harness, he noticed that his fingers weren’t quite steady.
Fool, he told himself. You ought to be beyond feeling like a love-smitten youth.
Nobody gets beyond that, another part of his mind said sagely. When you’re beyond those feelings, you’re probably ready for your grave.
He made sure the water trough was full, then slapped Horace’s rump and bade him good night. Then, fastening the barn securely, he straightened his tunic and strode across the courtyard to the house.
* * *
She was sitting in her usual position, on the rugs, furs and cushions in front of the fire. Her long, dark hair hung loose over her shoulders, half-shielding her face, and right down her back. She was smoothing it with her hands, holding up thick hanks in front of the heat from the hearth.
Hearing him come in, she said, ‘I’ve washed my hair.’
‘Aye.’ He bolted and barred the door. ‘Joanna, the door was open. I could have been anybody.’
‘You could,’ she agreed, ‘but I knew you were you. I heard you ride into the yard. Well, I heard somebody ride in, and I looked out and saw it was you.’
‘Oh.’
‘You’ve been a long time,’ she said softly. ‘I was beginning to wonder if you were going to bed down out there with your horse for the night.’
The combination of her low voice and the words she spoke were rousing him. Was she doing it on purpose? he wondered. Trying to keep some control, he said, ‘Ninian was made very welcome at the Abbey. Abbess Helewise has put him in the care of a young nun whom I know – she’s a good girl, kindly and loving, and she’s not very much older than he is.’
Joanna had closed her eyes. ‘Thank you,’ she said. Then, looking at him, ‘Please do not imagine that, just because it wasn’t the first thing I asked about, it was not the first thing on my mind.’
‘I don’t imagine that.’ He came over to her, kneeling on the floor beside her. ‘I understand full well what you feel for your son. You have demonstrated it, if it needed demonstrating, by your willingness to have him removed from you, for his own safety. Removed from the danger that you are in, from your cousin.’
‘But—’ Joanna began.
He watched her. As had happened before, he had the feeling she was about to say something important. But the sensation was far stronger now.
‘But what?’ Her eyes on his held a strange expression, almost pleading. ‘Joanna, what is it? Can you not tell me?’
For a moment, she did not respond. Then, very slowly, she shook her head. ‘It’s nothing. I was just thinking about Ninian.’ She shifted her position a little, making room for him in the direct heat from the fire. ‘Come, warm yourself – it’s a cold night, and you have had a long ride.’
She was, he realised, determined to change the subject. ‘Not that long,’ he said, settling beside her. ‘My, you’ve got a good blaze going!’
‘I have a lot of hair to dry.’
Presently she said, ‘Are you hungry? I have food prepared. Not much, but I could bring it in here, and we could eat in front of the fire.’
The thought of food made him feel slightly queasy. ‘Thank you, but I’m not hungry, in fact, I feel rather—’ He stopped. No, best not to admit to his faint nausea. ‘I don’t want anything to eat. What about you?’
‘I ate earlier.’ Now why, he wondered, am I so certain she didn’t? ‘But I could prepare some wine. Yes?’
‘Aye, that would be welcome.’
He watched her get up, in a smooth, lithe movement that was all in her strong legs; she did not use her arms to lever herself and the effect was particularly graceful. She padded barefoot across the flagstones – she had, he noticed, very small, narrow feet – and returned with a jug and several little packets on a tray.
‘What are you doing?’ he asked, watching as, kneeling before the fire, she took varying amounts from each packet and sprinkled them into the wine jug. ‘What are you putting into the wine?’
‘It’s Mag Hobson’s secret recipe,’ she said, smiling, ‘to warm you from the heart outwards on a cold night.’ She paused to stir the contents of the jug, glancing up at him. ‘Don’t worry, all the ingredients are wholly beneficial.’
‘I hadn’t imagined they wouldn’t be.’
She dipped a finger in the wine, tasted it, and added some more from one of the packets. Then she opened a small jar and put a great dollop of something golden into the jug.
‘Honey,’ she said, in answer to his raised eyebrows.
Then she extracted a poker from where it had been pushed into the flames, and stuck the end, glowing pale-yellow with the heat, into the wine.
There was a hiss, and a cloud of steam rose from the jug. The aroma floated out over them – spicy, sweet, with a sort of bitter tang underneath the surface smells …
‘Nice?’ she asked.
‘The smell is wonderful,’ he said.
She poured some into a mug. ‘Try the taste. Careful – it’ll be hot!’
He sipped. Delicious! Sipped again, and, as the extreme heat faded, took a mouthful.
Something to warm you from the heart outwards. Aye, it did that all right. He could feel the warmth and had the pleasant sensation that the wine’s sweet smoothness was flowing right through his body, relaxing him, soothing him. Stretching out his legs, he lay back on the cushions.
It seemed quite the natural thing to do when she stretched out beside him. He moved over to make room for her and put out an arm. Accepting his unspoken invitation, she came nearer, lying against him, her head on his shoulder.
He stroked her hair. ‘It’s almost dry now,’ he remarked.
‘Mm.’
His eyelids felt slightly heavy. Letting his eyes close for a moment, he thought he could see a vision of golden clouds, and he felt strangely that he might be flying …
He opened his eyes again.
He turned his head slightly so that he could look at her. She was staring into the flames, her expression unreadable.
‘What are you thinking about?’ he asked. ‘If it’s Ninian, I do assure you he’ll be quite all right.’
She raised herself on one elbow and looked down at him. ‘I wasn’t thinking about Ninian. Not at that moment.’
He waited. He was sure she would tell him what she was thinking about. In her own good time.
She did.
‘Josse,’ she began, still staring at him, ‘I – out in the woods, we—’
She did not seem to know how to go on.
So he did it for her. ‘We kissed?’ he asked softly. ‘Like this?’ Reaching out with both hands, gently he held her face and brought it down to his. Then, tenderly, he kissed her lips. She gave a sort of sigh, then kissed him back, exploring his lips with her tongue as he had done to her, in that first explosive embrace beside Mag Hobson’s house.
‘Like that?’ she asked some time later.
‘Oh, Joanna,’ he murmured, ‘aye. Like that.’
The kiss on the lips developed and soon they were loosening one another’s clothing, exploring neck, chest, breast. Her mouth on his flesh felt soft, moist, thrilling, and his desire for her was escalating so rapidly that he was having difficulty controlling it.
But something was on the edge of his mind, something he knew he must pay attention to … something she had just said …
He made himself detach from the sensations she was engendering in him and think.
Think!
Aye. He remembered. Aye, that was it.
Very gently, so that she would not think it a rebuff, he pushed her away. ‘Joanna, wait.’
The dark eyes intent on his, she said, ‘Wait? What do you mean?’
Cradling her to him, resuming his stroking of her sheen of hair, he said, ‘Just now, when we began to kiss, you said, like that? As if you didn’t know.’
‘Was it not right?’ Her voice was full of anxiety. ‘You said it was, when I asked, you said, aye, like that.’
‘Sweeting, there was nothing wrong with the kiss! Quite the opposite – can you not tell?’
She whispered, ‘No.’
‘But you have been married? You have born a child?’ Oh, but there was no delicate way of saying this! ‘Joanna, you do know about love between a man and a woman. Don’t you?’
She rolled over on to her back, and instantly that side of his body missed the warmth of her, the highly-charged feel of her firm flesh against him. ‘Do I know about love?’ she repeated. Her voice had taken on a hard quality. ‘I know about sex, if that’s what you mean. I know about being raped, and about being made to do my wifely duty, which really amounts to exactly the same thing. Do I know about love? No, sir knight, I do not.’