Forever & an Engine (The Austin Series)

by C. J. Fallowfield

  ‘I love you Gabe,’ I whispered, my voice fluttering as my body continued to tremble from our efforts. I twisted my head to find his lips and finally closed my eyes as our tongues sought each other’s out. He took his hands off my clit and breast and moved them, clamping his arms around my shoulders and holding me tightly as he continued to flex inside me as we kissed. He pulled his head back and panted and I let my head drop, my chin on his forearm as I caught my breath.

  ‘Mia I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost you baby, you’re my whole world,’ he whispered. I lifted my head and tried to look at him, but he buried it in the crease of my neck and shoulder nibbling it.

  ‘Gabe you’re mine too, I’m not going anywhere,’ I replied as I rubbed my cheek against his hair.

  ‘I’m going to make sure you don’t Mia. You’re mine until your last breath.’ He slid out of me, suddenly, making me wince. I wobbled as he side stepped and moved in front of me, my hands were still in the back of my knickers unable to support myself, so he gently pushed me back against the wall his hands on my shoulders and kissed me savagely, bruising and biting my lip until I yelped from a mixture of pleasure and pain. He suddenly dropped to his knees, laying kisses along my belly, taking his time over my scars and tattoo.

  ‘This body’s mine too Mia.’ He ran his fingers through my wet lips, ‘this beautiful cunt’s all mine as well, to lick and suck and fuck whenever I want.’ I shuddered, bothered that his coarseness turned me on so much.

  ‘It’s all yours, everything’s yours Gabe. Please don’t touch me, I need to shower,’ I begged as I looked down at him. He gazed up at me, through his long dark lashes, his eyes glittering in the soft light, I don’t think I’d ever seen him look so happy and it warmed me through to the tips of my fingers and toes.

  ‘I don’t care Mia. I want to taste what I’ve done to you, I want you to taste it,’ he said as he pushed two fingers up inside me and stirred them around.

  ‘Gabe stop, please, it’s so wrong, I need to wash.’

  ‘There’s nothing wrong with it, it’s us Mia, it’s what we do to each other.’ I inhaled, shocked, as he sucked one of his own fingers and groaned. He quickly stood and shoved the other in my mouth. ‘Suck,’ he ordered and his pupils expanded as he looked at me. I did, I could taste both of us, sweet and salt combined, wet, sticky and heavy and he closed his eyes and groaned again. He pulled his finger out of my mouth and grabbed my face and kissed me before pulling away and sinking back down on his knees.

  ‘No Gabe, please no, not that,’ I begged. He just looked up at me again smiling and pulled my legs further apart then thrust back into me with his tongue. I was so desperate to run my fingers through his beautiful soft blond hair, that I dug my fingers into my bottom cheeks to prevent me from removing my hands, my nails forming crescent shaped dips in my skin. I laid my head back against the wall, closed my eyes and moaned as his tongue fucked me again and again, before moving to lash my clit as he slid three fingers up inside me thrusting in and out until I climaxed again with a scream of pleasure.

  ‘O shit,’ I groaned. I opened my eyes as he stood and looked at me tenderly and wiped his mouth on the back of his hand. It was too much, I couldn’t wait to touch him any longer, I didn’t care about his rules anymore. I yanked my hands out of my knickers, grabbed his waistcoat and spun him around, slamming him back up against the wall, taking him by surprise as I greedily went for his lips. Our teeth clashed as he opened his mouth and let me inside him. I lifted my leg and wrapped it around him and rubbed myself against his semi erect cock and he groaned.

  ‘I thought I was in charge baby?’

  ‘Hmmm, I’m a switch remember,’ I whispered into his mouth as my tongue rolled around his.

  ‘Suck me baby, wrap your tongue around my cock like that. Make me come in your mouth, I want to see and feel you swallow me,’ he begged. I broke away and stepped back as he held onto the wall this time. I watched him harden and swell again as he looked at me and I smiled. He was quite a sight, he looked like a young professional model, or dashing business man, but with such a flagrantly erotic edge with his erection, wet and shining, poking out of his tailored trousers. He reached up and loosened his tie and undid his top button as he caught his breath and his eyes blazed with lust as I stepped back to him and gripped his cock firmly making him jump.

  ‘If I’m yours Gabe Austin, then this gorgeous face, sensational body and big hard beautiful cock are all mine. Understood?’

  ‘Everything’s yours Mia, from the moment I first saw you owned me. Jesus you’re so beautiful.’ He went to kiss me and I put my left hand between our lips and he looked at me surprised.

  ‘I told you we’ve switched for a while Gabe, I’m in charge so I’m going to blow you and make you come in my mouth and swallow every last drop of you. You’d better be hard again as soon as I finish, because then I’ll want you to lay me on that bed and fuck me properly, preferably all night, no holding back this time. Am I clear?’

  ‘So clear baby, I promise I won’t let you down,’ he grinned as he watched me kneel before him and strain to take him in my mouth.

  Sunday

  I woke up, draped over his warm muscular torso and watched the sunlight’s rays moving along the wall in front of me. I had a dull internal ache from the many additional orgasms he’d given me on the bed last night and I could feel myself still slick and sticky between my thighs. He’d refused to let me wash, still wanting to taste and feel himself in me as he fucked me until I’d begged him to stop last night and we’d fallen asleep with our arms wrapped around each other. He’d woken me up another two times later in the night, sinking into me and filling me with his essence again, like he was reclaiming me after our few days apart.

  I carefully sat up and looked at the clock, it was only just past eight. I touched my tacky thighs and shuddered, I needed a shower, desperately. I wriggled to my side of the bed and got up stretching my aching muscles. I was still wearing my soaked knickers and the garter and smiled as I rounded the bed to see the rest of our clothes strewn all over the bedroom floor. The camera stood on its tripod, facing the bed, he’d wanted to film us again on there and I was looking so forward to watching that footage. I wondered how he’d feel about pizza and ice cream in bed as we watched it all the way through tonight.

  I looked down at him fast asleep on his back, the duvet pushed off him. I could hear his gentle breathing, his toned body looked oiled from the sheen of perspiration still clinging to it from his exertions and my eyes travelled down to his pelvis. It was one of the rare times I’d seen him without a hard on and I bit my lip smiling as I felt my stomach flip. God I loved him so much, it still amazed me how hard and fast I’d fallen for him, after a string of boyfriends that I felt nothing for.

  I went to the bathroom pleased to find no evidence of blood, internally or externally. He’d become more vigorous with each session last night, as I assured him each time he wasn’t hurting me. I removed my makeup, brushed my teeth and climbed into his shower, turning it on full blast washing and scrubbing myself clean before drying off and drying my hair. I headed into the dressing room pulled on my Westhampton Uni t-shirt, deciding I was going to go down and make us some coffee and toast and went back into the bedroom.

  He’d shifted, his arm lay across his face, he was hard again and his cock lay heavy across his stomach, jerking itself every now and again. Just like that I forgot all about breakfast, I wanted him again, I needed him back inside me. I carefully straddled his lap and as he started to wake up and yawn I took him in my hand, put him in position and slid down his shaft. I groaned as he stretched me to my max and I closed my eyes leaning forwards putting my hands on his shoulders as I rotated my hips.

  ‘Mia Page. I feel violated,’ he sighed. I half opened my eyes as his hands gripped my hips and I looked down at him and smiled through my pleasure.

  ‘Sorry but I needed you, you looked so delicious just lying there. I can get off.’ I pretended to make a move and he l
aughed, grabbed my hands and linked fingers. He pulled our hands above his head, tipping me off balance so I fell forwards onto his chest, my face hovering above his.

  ‘You stay right there, I could get used to being woken up like this. If ever you need me when I’m asleep just climb right on board baby, no ticket required, this is a free ride and there’s no complaints department,’ he grinned as he thrust his hips up, pushing further into me making me gasp and he kissed me.

  ‘I really enjoyed date night Gabe. It was amazing.’

  ‘Me too, we’re going to have thousands more like that and I forgot all about my presents. When you’ve finished abusing me can I open them?’

  ‘Of course you can,’ I sighed as I rocked on him.

  ‘O god baby, even with that creased t-shirt on, you still look so sexy riding me,’ he smiled. I smiled back and kissed his lips and ran my tongue around them as he pushed his hips harder against mine, thrusting into me in time with the rhythm I’d set. It was slow and gentle and felt just fantastic. He pushed his tongue into my mouth and slowly sat up taking me with him, still holding my hands. I leaned back gripping onto them as I started to circle my hips and thrust back against him.

  ‘Gabe,’ I sighed. I felt so connected to him when he was inside me, like I was complete, like we were whole as one. He took me by surprise and I squealed and giggled as he tipped me over, rolling with me and suddenly I was under him as he started fucking me faster. I put my legs around his waist as his lips nibbled my neck.

  ‘Christ you feel so warm inside. I love you baby,’ he groaned and I felt my heart bloom.

  ‘Move in with me Gabe.’ It came out so quickly that I surprised myself. I’d planned to talk to him about it, discuss my sudden desire to spend every waking second with him rationally, to maybe have him talk me out of it and tell me it was way too soon, that we weren’t in that place yet. I certainly hadn’t intended to blurt it out like that. I’d just wanted him to know how much I loved him and it was the only way I could think of showing him, convincing him what he meant to me. But to do it like that? How the hell had that just happened? He’d stopped dead in his tracks and looked down at me his blue eyes wide with shock and I suddenly felt sick, it was too soon. How could I’ve been so stupid, we’d only been together four weeks, not even four weeks, what the hell was I thinking? That he’d want this? That the serial self-confessed shagger of hundreds of women would suddenly want to be tied down to me, to come back to my apartment every night and play at domesticated bliss. He’d still not said a word. ‘Shit, I’m sorry. I don’t know what just happened, I’m talking crazy. Can you forget it? Please just forget it Gabe,’ I begged as he just stared down at me, still with that shocked and confused look on his face. I shut my eyes and I struggled to get out from under him, but he gripped my hands tightly and was too heavy on me.

  ‘Forget it? You just asked me to move in with you after a few weeks together and you want me to forget it?’ His voice was shaking. ‘Mia stop fighting me and look at me please.’ He let go of my hands and sat back on his heels so he could look down at me, his erection still tightly embedded inside me. I covered my eyes with one arm.

  ‘I’m sorry ok. I just hate being apart from you Gabe. I don’t know what I was thinking, it’s too soon, it was a mistake.’

  ‘So you’re taking it back? Mia look at me, please.’ He pulled my arm away I looked at him quickly and my eyes filled up to see him looking so confused. ‘You said from the start that you didn’t want to be suffocated Mia, I thought you wanted to take things slowly.’

  ‘I did Gabe. You have no idea how slowly I wanted to take things, but everything’s changed since then. You were just going to be someone to lose my virginity to, to just fuck now again, but I … I fell in love with you and it became more, you became more, so much more and we’re not going slowly Gabe, we’re going fast, really really fast.’

  ‘You want me to move in?’ he repeated.

  ‘Yes,’ I whispered as I tried to look away, but found I couldn’t, I needed to know what he thought, I’d never put myself out there like this for a guy and it was killing me. I felt my cheeks turned scarlet as he looked down at me and I tried to work out what he was thinking. I felt some tears spill out as I waited for him to say something.

  ‘Baby don’t cry, please don’t cry you know what it does to me.’ He bent back down onto his forearms and kissed the tears on my cheeks as he clasped my head in his hands. ‘You’ve just taken me by surprise, seriously by surprise, I wasn’t expecting it, I’d never have dreamed of you coming out with that in a month of Sundays.’ It was as if the air had been suddenly sucked out of the room. He was looking at me so strangely, I knew I’d over stepped and freaked him out.

  ‘Please forget it Gabe, forget I even mentioned it. I need to get up I can’t breathe … please let me up … I can’t breathe with you looking at me like that.’

  ‘Baby it’s ok, calm down,’ I felt his lips on my neck gently kissing me.

  ‘Gabe stop, please, I need some air, please get off me.’ I suddenly felt nauseous, clammy and dizzy and started to take quicker shallower breaths as he started to nibble my neck, his erection flexing inside me.

  ‘It’s ok baby,’ he murmured in my ear.

  ‘No, get off. I don’t want you inside me, it’s too much. Get off it’s too much.’ My ears were ringing and my mouth felt dry, I needed him off me, out of me, right now. ‘I QUIT,’ I cried and immediately felt the pressure on me release as he rolled off me.

  ‘Mia?’ I could hear the confusion in his voice as I started to sob. My body was trembling as I sat up and leaned over the edge of the bed, quickly pulling my hair back and was violently sick on the floor.

  ‘Shit Mia, what’s going on? Are you ok?’

  ‘No,’ I cried as I tried to wipe my tears with shaking hands. I tried to stand up and felt my legs buckle and he moved and reached up, grabbed me and pulled me back down to sit on the edge of the bed his legs either side of mine and his chest pressed up against my back. He put one arm loosely around my waist and his other hand stroked my hair as I sobbed and gasped for air.

  ‘It’s ok breathe, just breathe Mia. I think you’re having a panic attack. Take small gentle breaths ok? Just breathe. Sssshhhh it’s ok baby, it’s going to be ok.’ He curled around me as he held me and laid his cheek against my shoulder. I closed my eyes and tried to do as I was told and focus on my breathing. When I was calmer he stood, pulling me up with him and then carefully laid me back down in the bed and covered me up. I curled into a tight ball, the taste of bile stinging my throat and squeezed my eyes tightly shut to try and stop the room from spinning, blood was pounding in my ears so loudly. I heard him pull something on and whisper something and leave the room. I pulled one of his pillows down to me to hug and breathed slowly through my nostrils. I was suddenly exhausted, my body felt so heavy and I sighed as I fell into a deep sleep.

  I was jolted awake by the sound of a siren and looked back around at the clock to find it was coming up to eleven. There was a glass of water on the bedside table and I drained it and looked around. He’d cleaned up all the clothes and my sick and the camcorder had gone. I noticed a note on my pillow, it looked scribbled, like he was in a rush, it wasn’t neat and tidy like normal.

  I’m so sorry Mia. I kept you up way too late last night, you’re exhausted and need to rest. I’ve gone out and we’ll talk when I get back and you’re awake

  He hadn’t even signed it, or put a kiss on the end. I put my hands over my face, I felt like I’d just driven a wedge between us. We’d got through so much lately and I’d just ruined it all with four little words blurted out during sex. I lay back down fell straight back to sleep.

  I woke up again at quarter to twelve and went to the bathroom, washed my face and put some eye brightening drops in, then soaked some cotton wool pads in cold water and held them over my eyes to ease some of the puffiness from crying. I ached all over and was unsure if it was the after effects of my operation, or a whole nigh
t of sex after a few days off, probably both. I scrubbed my teeth again, just to try and take away the taste of sick then piled my hair up and put on some clean underwear, my black jeans and a red vest. I felt shivery and pulled on my black thick ribbed cardigan and belted it around me and put on some socks and my red converse trainers and sighed.

  I needed some fresh air and maybe a walk. I also needed to find him to talk. I went downstairs, the house was silent. When I couldn’t find him anywhere I went to the kitchen and made myself a hot chocolate with lots of sugar. I sat at the island as I swished it around my mouth, until all I could taste was the sweetness. I checked my phone, it was twelve thirty and I had no messages from him, but weirdly some missed calls from Doug. I’d ring him later when I’d dealt with this Gabe situation. I didn’t want to have this discussion with Gabe over the phone so I sent him a simple text.

  Where are you?

  My stomach knotted and I felt nauseous again, something felt off, seriously off. I suddenly heard Lexi banging about upstairs. I put my cup in the sink and jumped as I heard her yelling my name upstairs, she sounded in a panic.

  ‘MIA? Where are you? MIA?’ she yelled. I walked out of the kitchen to the bottom of the stairs and looked up.

  ‘Lexi I’m down here. You ok?’ I shouted. She came hurtling down the stairs and grabbed me squeezing me so tightly I could hardly breathe.

  ‘O god Mia.’

  ‘Lexi what’s wrong are you ok?’

  ‘Mia shit, Doug’s being trying to ring you on your mobile and you didn’t answer so he rang me. O god I don’t know how to say it … fuck Mia, I’m so sorry but it’s Gabe.’ She let go of me and stood back. ‘Doug’s coming to fetch us now to take us to him, grab your bag we need to go, right now.’