I Take You

by Gemmell, Nikki

  A girlfriend remarked, within the thick of the maelstrom, ‘Nikki, you will look back on this time at your grave, and you will laugh.’ I couldn’t see it then, but gradually, over the years, could. Because what I found in the long run was that honesty connects; that there’s an incredible potency to telling the truth. People respond, movingly. It was empowering to have women say things like ‘Thank you for writing my words,’ or ‘Thank you for saying the things I’ve never been able to articulate.’ They did, for years afterwards. In fact still are.

  And so it has come to pass. I’m a different woman now, a different writer. Looser, lighter, not so concerned about what people think of me. I found my courage through a book I didn’t want anything to do with. It took a long time. My publishers very much wanted a sequel, for this book did well for them. As for me, I wasn’t so sure, for years and years afterwards. The problem, or ‘challenge’, as my rousing editor preferred to see it, was in replicating the feeling of reckless liberation I’d had when writing anonymously. But over a decade I grew up. Let go. Strengthened. Loosened. Didn’t give a damn anymore about what people thought of me, and I think that’s one of the liberations of middle age. I found my voice. My courage. My boldness. The follow-up came swift and strong and cheeky and sure, just as Bride had. Because it’s telling the truth, once again. It’s got my name on the cover. And it feels great.

  About the Author

  Nikki Gemmell is the author of The Bride Stripped Bare, the original publication of which sparked tremendous media interest. Both The Bride Stripped Bare and its follow-up With My Body went on to become huge bestsellers. Nikki Gemmell has written eight novels and regular columns for the Mail on Sunday and the Australian Weekend Magazine.

  For further information: nikkigemmell.com

  By the Same Author

  FICTION

  Shiver

  Cleave (published in the US as Alice Springs)

  Lovesong

  The Bride Stripped Bare

  The Book of Rapture

  With My Body

  NON-FICTION

  Pleasure: An Almanac for the Heart

  Why You Are Australian

  Honestly: Notes on Life

  Copyright

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  First published in Great Britain by Fourth Estate 2013

  Copyright © Nikki Gemmell 2013

  ‘Anonymity’ © Nikki Gemmell 2012

  ‘Anonymity’ first appeared in Honestly: Notes on Life

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  A catalogue record for this book is available from the British Library.

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  Illustrations by Jo Walker

  Cover photograph © Mat Taylor

  Ebook Edition © MAY 2013 ISBN: 9780007516605

  Version: 2013-08-07

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