by Rachel
He shot towards me like a bullet from a gun “Don’t let him, you are stronger than he is”
“For god’s sake Jay calm yourself….” I said a little too loudly.
The librarian heard me and promptly gave me a ‘SHHH’ and a frowning look wondering who the hell I was talking to, not that I could blame her I mean I technically I did look a bit weird sat there talking to myself. I felt a slight warm breath on my neck and someone sit next to me.
“Are you ok miss?”
I turned and there sat next to me was a beautiful man, he had blue eyes that seemed to twinkle, a sort of beard that was more like stubble, shaven but not completely gone and dark hair. He completely took me by surprise.
“Uhh yes thank you I’m fine….” I whispered shyly.
I could feel my cheeks burning red as if I were embarrassed, he was looking right at me but behind him I could see Jay’s ghost, observing the man who seem to have made my cheeks flush. I didn’t know what to do, I couldn’t talk to Jay without looking like I was either talking to this man or to myself.
“Would you excuse me….?” I smiled politely at the man.
I left and went to the bathroom, I could feel the cold chill follow me and I knew Jay was hovering behind. When I entered the bathroom I checked the cubicles for anyone else and locked the door. Surely then Jay came floating through.
“Look, I know what I’m doing, actually no scratch that, I don’t know what I’m doing but I will figure it out, now you have to trust me ok” my voice slightly raised and annoyed.
“I’m worried for you, I can’t help you”
“I know you are but I need you to have faith in me, even if you are on the other side, speak of which, how do you get away?”
He looks at me confused “I don’t know, I think of you and something wills me to get here, I can't really explain it, it's darkness down there, he has us in some sort of grip, every now and then I manage to think of you and bam, here I am, I'm learning more and more as I go along though.”
Figures aye, even in death he is still protective of me; I couldn’t help but feel a little happy with that knowledge. As I calmed and Jay disappeared my brain alarm goes off ‘SHIT JACK’ I had excused myself and left him there by the table. I ran back to the table and luckily Jack was still there and still sat on the chair next to him was the beautiful man.
“Oh my god I’m so sorry” my voice sounded nervous.
“It’s ok” his smile was attractive.
I cradled Jack in my arms “You must think something awful of me”
His lips were pressed together as he gave me side smile “Not at all, happy to help a beautiful lady…”
Oh wow, his words, his voice, his look, it was all so captivating, was this man even real or just the figment of my own imagination. I placed Jack in a comfortable position to carry as he was still sleeping, collected the book I had been reading and went to reception to check it out. He followed beside me chatting away as I left the library.
“So, you always run off and leave your child with a stranger?” I sensed the sarcasm in his voice.
My laugh was skittish “No of course not”
He laughed at me “I’m only kidding, anyway I’m Levi” he extended his hand to shake mine.
I shook his hand, they were so soft “Oh I-I’m Robyn.”
We walked for a while, he actually offered to carry Jack for me but I refused, this man, this beautiful man walking by my side, he was so enchanting, I couldn’t take my eyes of him. We reached my flat and both stood outside.
“Well that was a nice walk” his eyes gazed into mine.
“Yes Levi it was thank you for walking me back here”
“You seemed liked you could use the company”
I smiled at him softly pushing my lips together “Well your company was nice”
I couldn’t believe I said that, I was embarrassed and I felt all the blood rush to my cheeks, I remember him looking at me, smirking, it was so sexy.
“Well this may be forward of me but can I have your number?”
Wow, I wanted to see this man again, something inside me told me to go for it, I don’t know what it was at the time, I don’t know how I knew but I knew that from the moment his eyes caught mine I would never want to let this man go.
We exchanged numbers and said our goodbyes, I felt like I was in heaven, I spun towards the door like a gloating fairy and made my way inside.
My happiness was soon darkened by the cold chill in my living room, seeing the air leave my mouth someone was in my flat with me, I turned and there were two little boys and a man, an old man who protectively stood by them, their arms were missing and they had the wound on their neck. I gasped as they moved closer towards me; I knew this thing had got to them. The little boy looked up at me, pain and fear in his ghostly eyes.
“Help me” he mouthed.
I knew something was happening in the spirit world and I, well, I was the key to all this, I just hadn’t figured out how to stop this yet.
CHAPTER 13
A few days had passed and I had been texting Levi constantly, he was eager to meet up with me again and I the same but I was worried about Jack, could this man accept I already had a child? I guessed time would tell.
I looked over to the window and sat near the table were the two boys and the old man. They hadn’t really left me which was unusual because normally that monster had them under his control, Jay always managed to get away but every time I saw him he seemed to be disintegrating, could a ghost do that?
I suppose they could from what I had seen of him. I never understood at that moment why it was only him and never any of the others, then again I never saw them again, I usually saw these tortured spirits only once; it was only Jay I saw more regularly, and now these bloody three seemed to refuse to leave me.
Jack was playing happily with his toys, the ghosts seem to watch him with amusement and the two boys tended to join in with him, I didn’t mind, they weren’t hurting him, they were simply lost, frightened and I’m not surprised judging by their ghostly appearance.
My flat was always cold with these frigging ghosts around and I tell you, at that time my heating bills went through the roof, I had to have it on all the time to try and feel a tad warm but even then you could always feel the ghostly chill.
I had been working all week and then I was coming home to these three, as I said they just wouldn’t leave, I had made plans for that weekend to meet up with Levi and go for a walk with Jack.
To be honest I felt really excited, more excited than when I was with Pete or Jay, I mean don’t get me wrong I still cared for Jay and deep down I always would have but he was dead and Pete, well, Pete was a dick.
My phone went off and I got excited thinking it was Levi and to my disgust it was Pete.
**Hey, I’d like to see my son if that’s possible*
So he hadn’t bothered texting me in all this time about his son and now all of a sudden he seemed interested, why? Why now? I didn’t care, I had to put Jack’s interests first and I wouldn’t like it if I was never allowed to see my dad if my parents had broken up, so, thinking of Jack I agreed.
I mean, I wasn’t a heartless bitch and I would never take a child away from their parent, I wouldn’t like that done to me so what gave me the right to do that to someone else, he did after-all help create him.
Jack was almost five and all little boys need their dads, well, unless they’re abusive but no matter how much of a dick Pete was to me or the fact he couldn’t keep it in his pants, he would never hurt Jack, so I texted him back.
*Well I don’t see why you want to bother with him now after all this time but hey, if that’s what you want then yes, you could see him this weekend*
I hit the send button and took a deep breath, I felt a little furious inside at this man, normally when a guy does that to you, you cut all ties but I couldn’t do that, we had a child together. My phone beeped again.
*Thank you, I’ve missed him, I
will pick him up at 4pm*
Sorted, Jack was going to spend the weekend with his father and I could take a break and also spend some time getting to know Levi, that may sound a little selfish I know but when you are hounded by ghosts and you spend your time protecting your child and working a normal day job, a break is sometimes much needed.
I texted Levi.
*Hey babe, change of plans, no Jack this weekend so just me and you if you’re ok with that? Xxxxx*
He texted me back rather quickly.
*Hey babe, not a problem, can’t wait xxxxx*
His text put a huge smile on my face, I was so excited and I hadn’t felt this way over a man ever, I mean when I was with Jay I did love him and I did feel close to him but I never felt the way I was feeling when I thought of Levi.
Jack and I spent the evening cuddled up on the sofa watching films, I couldn’t hide the smile across my face, it felt nice cuddled into my boy except those darn ghosts were still lingering so Jack and I were cuddled under the blanket with the heating on.
I woke up around two in the morning, the air was colder than it had been with them three ghosts around, I felt the sharp pin pricks in my skin and the windows were iced over.
I knew something was wrong at that moment; I kept Jack in my arms too afraid to let him go. The windows seemed to have some sort of frost or mist appeared on it, like someone was on the outside breathing on the glass.
I felt the blood rush from my face, I felt scared, I couldn’t see the three ghosts of the two boys and the old man who had seemed to have moved in with me. I put Jack down and put the blanket over him to sort of hide him I guess and then I walked towards the window, I didn’t know why I even did that, normally you would run away and hide I guess but my curiosity told me I had to look, I had to see what it was.
As I approached the window a hand appeared on the glass, it banged so loud it frightened me and made me jump backwards falling straight onto my ass. I then saw a shadow, some sort of figure through the frosted window, my heart was beating hard with fear and I was breathing fast, almost hyperventilating.
As I looked at this hand still on the glass the room filled with ice cold mist, like the sea in a foggy winter, it surrounded me, I got up and went to Jack, clutching him tight and frozen on the spot, he started crying. I tried to sooth him but this atmosphere was evil and cold and he could feel it. I looked up at the window and in the mist I saw letters appear, it spelled out ‘I’m coming for you.’
I moved backwards scuffling my feet across the floor as fast as I could, the window broke and this thing came lunging at me trying to pry Jack from my arms. I screamed and fought as much as I could, there was no way I was going to let Jack go, it wasn't Ivan, it was something or someone else.
The neighbours must have heard my screams because there was a sudden banging on my door and voices outside screaming my name as if to want to help me. But they couldn’t help me. This thing heard the banging and then looked down at me. Whoever this thing or ghost was, he was coming for Jack, he looked so deep into my eyes I felt like he looked into my soul.
The front door barged open and two neighbours came running in as this monster disappeared. They found me in the corner of the room on the floor holding on to Jack tightly and breathing heavy. The window was smashed and the curtains were blowing everywhere from the wind.
“Robyn are you ok” the neighbours voice concerned.
I slowed my breathing and looked at them; fear filled my eyes “Ye-Yeah I’m fine just something broke my window that’s all.”
“I could hear your screams, sounded like someone was attacking you.”
“N-No, I’m ok really” I lied.
They helped me to my feet, helped me tidy up the mess and the glass and boarded the window for me.
Now this fucker was coming for me in my own flat? I didn’t know what to do, I mean, at that point I was thinking ‘how will I stop him’ but I hadn’t figured that out yet.
Friday had arrived and I had tried to put all of that behind me ready for a nice weekend with Levi. When Pete arrived to collect Jack I was scared and I didn’t want to let him out of my sight, but I promised Pete could see him and even though he was a dick I wasn’t a heartless bitch.
“Is he ready to go?” Pete asked all cool and calm.
“Yes, all his stuff is in the bag, be careful, watch him and do not let him out of your sight” I tried to contain my panic and fear.
“Of course I will he is my son too you know”
“I know that I’m just saying”
“I will look after him” he smiled at me and stroked my cheek “I wish you could see how much I miss you”
I pulled away “I don’t miss you, you’re here for Jack and that’s it, not to try and spin me a web thank you”
He looked shocked and hurt “I love you Robyn, I want our family”
Doubt was all over my face “You should’ve thought about that before you went dicking around.”
I gave him Jack’s things and sent them on their way. I couldn’t believe he had tried coming onto me, claiming he loved me and all that crap, I was stupid once, I wasn’t going to be stupid again.
It was around seven in the evening when Levi finally arrived, butterflies were swirling round in my stomach, this beautiful man was coming over to my flat to spend the evening with me and I was nervous and excited all at the same time.
He looked amazing, light blue jeans and a tight t-shirt with some funky logo on the front complimenting his slim and slender body, hair brushed back showing the shaved sides, arms out with all his tattoos, could this guy be any sexier?
We sat and had a chat for a while, laughing and joking, it was nice, I felt so relaxed, at ease, no ghosts around. It was as if all that went away, I felt so at home with Levi, I didn’t understand why when I hadn’t known him for long at that point but I guess they say, when you know, you know, and I knew I never ever wanted this man to leave my life.
“You look really pretty” he was smiling softly at me.
I blushed “thank you”
He leant forward and kissed me. His kiss was soft and sweet yet so powerful I went weak at the knees. I let him take me right there on the sofa, I couldn’t deny him; I didn’t want to, it felt too good.
CHAPTER 14
I remember I awoke the next day with him beside me, cuddled up behind me; arm around me all snuggled in. I felt like I was in heaven, which was nice until Jay appeared. I jumped back and screamed as his ghostly head appeared right next to my bed.
Levi woke suddenly “what, what you ok?” he held me close.
Trying to not look at Jay’s ghost hovering next to the bed I turned to Levi and kissed him.
“Yes I’m ok, just a scary dream, I’m just going to go to the bathroom.”
I shut the bathroom door, my voice low almost a whisper “What the hell are you doing?”
“Coming to see you, you seem nice and cosy”
“I should have known you were here, its bloody freezing Jay….” I wrapped my dressing gown around me in a huff.
“Who’s that” his head pushed through the door.
“He’s with me obviously” I spoke quietly so he wouldn’t hear me talking to myself.
“Wait, isn’t that that guy from the library?” Jay looked at me cocking his eyebrow.
“Yeah….so….what’s your point?”
“For fucks sake Robyn you barely know the guy”
“So what? It’s none of your business Jay now will you leave please I don’t want to stand here arguing in the bloody bathroom” I groaned in frustration.
“Robyn I’m just trying to look out for you” even his ghostly face looked concerned.
I sighed at him “I know you are but honestly I’m ok, please Jay, you look terrible, he's going to think I'm weird standing here whispering to myself if hears me, you know, you really need to try and move on.”
“Move on from you?” he looked puzzled.
“No you muppet, like on, on you k
now?” I rolled my eyes at him.
“I wish I could but I can’t, as long as that thing has a piece of me I’m stuck here, well there.”
SHIT! I totally forgot about that, Jay’s floating there in his ghostly appearance that seems to be rotting away with an arm missing because that monster had it.
“Jay I….”
I was interrupted by a knock on the door.
“Robyn you ok in there?” I see his shadow against the glass pane.
“Uhh, ye-yeah I’m ok coming out now”
I looked at Jay who just gave me the ‘I’m always here for you’ look and a soft smile before he disappeared.
I opened the bathroom door, there Levi was stood with just his boxers on and they sat nicely on his hips. His body was toned nicely, he had messy bed hair and he still looked sexy. He pulled me towards him and wrapped his arms around my waist. I swear he could feel my heartbeat beating against his chest.
“You ok?” he asked me softly.
“Yes, I’m ok now…..”
He kissed my lips softly and he took my breath away. He lifted me up so my legs were around his waist and he carried me back to the bed. I looked into his eyes with a cheeky smile on my face as if to say ‘you have me now what do you plan to do with me.'
He pushed his body against me and I felt his hard erection digging into me. I pushed my hips up so he could feel that I wanted him to. This sexual connection between us at that point was something I had never ever felt before, not with anyone.
He kissed down my face and onto my neck which made me gasp slightly, my back arched upwards and I grabbed his hair. He slid off my pyjamas and with my feet I pushed his boxers down and off, I remember lying there underneath him feeling rather impressed with myself that I could do that. He rubbed his stiff erection over the entrance to my vagina, he wasn’t entering me, he was teasing me, I cried out with pleasure, I wanted him so bad, my vagina was throbbing, I needed him inside me.
“What do you want baby” he whispered seductively.
“I want you” I whispered back looking into his eyes.
