by Rachel
He slid inside me slowly, filling me; desire was running through my body. He eased in and out of slowly, it felt so good, I moaned loudly to which he kissed me, I could feel the vibrations of his moans on my lips and it sent shockwaves of pleasure through my body. It was intense; I felt something in this man I had never felt before. He pushed in and out of me slowly and I remember never wanting this feeling to stop.
“Faster Levi, I need you”
Then oh my fucking god did he really move, I felt him so deep inside me I swear my body began trembling with pure pleasure.
“Robyn I need you”
And with that I climaxed all over him wrapping my legs around him as he then followed suit. The sex was amazing with Levi, I felt connected to him and yes I know it was only a short space of time but I don’t know how to explain it now and I couldn’t explain it then either, this man was mine and mine forever.
He lied on top of me afterwards panting trying to control his breathing, he buried his head in my neck and I could feel the warmth of his breathing against my skin. I didn’t move from under him, I let him lie there on top of me as I played with his hair. This felt like heaven, I wasn’t in love with him at that point but I certainly felt complete drawn to him, devoted you would say.
When the weekend was over it was Sunday evening, I didn’t want him to leave but he had a job and his own flat and I had a job and also Jack was due back that evening. I had been so relaxed all weekend I hadn’t worried about anything which made a change and apart from Jay I didn’t see any ghosts, it could have been that I was caught up in my own little world but hey, I had the best weekend ever.
As Levi and I were cuddled up watching a bit of TV before he left my phone beeped.
*Hey I’m on my way back now*
It was from Pete, which was fine, I couldn’t wait to see Jack, it was the first time he had spent a weekend away from me, I read the message though and sighed like I was annoyed which Levi picked up on.
“What’s wrong?”
“Nothing, the ex is on his way back with Jack”
“What, you don’t want to see your son?” His eyes glazed down at me.
I looked up at him “What no of course I do it’s the ex I don’t want to see.”
Levi offered to stay with me until Pete had dropped Levi off which I was grateful for, I didn’t want to be alone with Pete so he could try and worm his way back into my life. Shortly afterwards the buzzer went and I went over to let them in. Jack came running up the stairs towards me.
“Mummy!” he was so excited to see me.
There behind him followed Pete.
“I really enjoyed this weekend, I want to have him every weekend if that’s ok, you through the week me on the weekend” he seemed genuine.
“Uhhh yeah well, I’m ok with that but if I want him home then he will stay but we’ll play it by ear”
He leaned in my door to touch me but I pulled back, Levi was in my kitchen right next to me, out of Pete’s sight but he was clearly in mine.
“Robyn I wish that you knew….”
He stopped suddenly when he saw Levi appear behind me.
“Levi this is Pete, Pete…..Levi” I introduced them.
I saw the look of horror on Pete’s face as he realised I had a new boyfriend, deep down I did feel a sense of pleasure knowing that right at that moment I was hurting that man by being with someone else.
I didn’t care though, I didn’t want to be with Pete and being the child that he was he told me he would see Jack the following Friday and he stormed off, what did he expect me to do then? Jump into his arms and be like ‘oh I love you lets be together forever’ fucking like hell was that ever going to happen.
CHAPTER 15
1 Year Later – Present Day
So Levi and I had made it to one year together and he we were, happy. Because he wasn’t living with me he didn’t see all the weirdness I would get up to, like talking to ghosts or being thrown around the room every now and then and disappearing to go help them.
My job as a carer had stepped up and I was now in the office running the care home rather than being the nurse, it was nice and it reduced my hours meaning more Jack and Levi time. Pete was being his usual dickish self telling me that Levi was just a ‘faze’ I was going through and that I was really too stubborn to see that I wanted him.
Seriously this guy was so full of shit it surprised me how much crap could actually come out of his mouth. I woke up on a cold fresh morning, I had to go to work and Jack had to go to school, rushing around as I normally was trying to get us both ready a cold breeze filled the air.
“What you doing?”
I jump out of my skin “For fucks sake Jay I wished you wouldn’t creep up on me like that”
Jay looked different now, his ghostly appearance was becoming thinner, like he was disappearing, he looked like he had almost completely decomposed and yet he soldiered on constantly popping up in my life.
“Jay I don’t have time right now I have to get to work” I am faffing around trying to organise myself.
“Hello Uncle Jay” Jack spoke smiling at him.
“Hello little feller….”
“Jay stop it, you’ll frighten him, you look like shit”
I am now running late and so is Jack and them two are sat having a nice chat which was annoying me. The room temperature fell colder.
“Jay please go its frigging freezing in here” I snap.
He looks confused, even for a ghost he seemed to not know what it was, he turns to me “That isn’t me”
I quickly grab Jack’s hand and pull him towards me. I can hear breathing, fierce breathing like someone was angry.
“THERE YOU ARE” it shouts.
I feel as if the ground is shaking before me, but it isn't, the shaking is me, a mixture of feeling cold and scared.
“Mummy!” Jack whimpers behind me.
“It’s ok baby mummy got you” I have him behind me protecting him.
Jay is hovering in front of me, even he looks scared, but before he or I can say anything to each-other those evil eyes appear.
“You’re coming with me” that thing is talking to Jay.
I get in-front of him “NO! Leave him alone, he is already in enough pain can’t you see that you don’t need him go away….”
What I don't know is outside my door Levi is listening as he is coming to get me and surprise me and take me to work, obviously he can't hear Jay or this thing shouting he can only hear me screaming, so he starts banging on the door, which I don't hear.
“GET OUT OF MY WAY, I TOLD YOU THEY ARE MINE, HE WILL NEVER ESCAPE ME AGAIN”
“NO!” I scream back defying it.
“Robyn, if he doesn’t take me he will go for Jack” his ghostly eyes gaze into mine with such care.
“Jay please fight him, please” my eyes begin to fill up.
He smiled at me softly “I won’t let him hurt you I….”
Before he could finish that thing swept him away and Jay was gone and this thing was screaming in my face so forcefully it was as if I had wind blowing through the flat.
I hear someone scream my name “ROBYN” and a bang on the door.
“I will be back for you, one day, you will surrender to me” and he vanishes.
Jack is crying, my heart is pounding and Levi comes barging through my door. I am in my living room shaking, Jack is clutching on to me for dear life.
“What the fuck Robyn are you ok” he scans the flat, his face worried.
“Ye-Yeah I’m fine don’t worry”
“No you’re not look at you you’re shaking”
I try to control myself “I’m fine Levi just leave it”
“Fine, how can I help you if you won’t tell me” His eyes narrow, he is annoyed.
‘Because you can’t help me’ my mind stated “Look Levi please just drop it, I’m late for work”
“That’s why I’m here to take you and then to take Jack to school”
I
give him a soft smile; I can see in his eyes he is worried about me and that he is only trying to help but there is nothing he can do.
In work I feel sad and you can see it written all over my face. Over the past nine years since Jay’s death he has been coming back somehow to see me and now he was gone, that thing took him and Jay was so willing to go, still willing to protect me and Jack even though Jack came after his death.
I guess not all the guys in the world are bad, there are a few that are sweet and I had the lucky chance of having two of them in my life, Jay and now Levi.
Sitting at my desk I begin crying, I hadn’t really mourned over Jay because he was always around, I cried at his funeral but when I saw him and then kept seeing him I didn’t really grieve. My phone beeped and I look down to see a text from Levi. Oh god, I feel panicky thinking about what he is going to say.
*Hey babe hope you’re ok, look, I don’t know what was going on this morning but from what I heard outside that door frightened me, I love you and I don’t want anyone hurting you, I’m here when you’re ready to tell me xxxxxxxx*
That puts a smile on my face, I want to tell him I really do but I simply can’t, the last person I told died because of me and I didn’t want the same thing to happen to Levi.
*I love you too and I’m ok, just leave it there xxxxxxxxx*
I hit the send button not knowing if I should say more, but I can’t I don’t know what to do and now that Jay has gone, I’m betting it won't long before he will be coming back for me and Jack. Finally it’s the end of the day and I can’t wait to go get Jack and go home. When I arrive at the school to get him to my horror he isn’t there. Bloody drains from my face and I feel my knees shake.
“Where is my son?” I panic questioning the teacher.
“Uhh gone miss, he’s not here, someone collected him”
I grip her by her collar “YOU LET SOMEONE YOU DON’T KNOW TAKE MY SON”
I let go and run out of the building and I run all the way home. I thought that thing monster this thing has my son. When I arrive outside the flat I fumble around for my keys dropping them on the floor because my hands are shaking so bad, at that moment my door opens and there is Levi with Jack in my flat.
I launch at him “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?”
He seems shocked “Woah I picked him up for you and thought we would surprise you….”
Panic is all over my face and I’m waving my arms around like a loon “why didn’t you fucking text me and tell me then you idiot do you know how scared I was that that thing had taken him and I wouldn’t be able to find him I…..”
I can see his puzzled face looking at me, all he did was take Jack home which I guess would have been fine but I was panicking and probably over-reacting I guess.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” he’s frowning at me.
“Nothing, nothing, I was just worried that’s all, I’m fine” I state quickly trying to hide the tremor in my voice.
“No you’re not Robyn something is up” he looks at me for answers.
I manage a smile “I’m ok really….”
Levi is looking at me with the look that says ‘I know something is up I want to help’ but I love this man so much, I don’t want to tell him my reasons for being edgy and concerned, I don’t want to lose him. We carry on with our evening, Levi cooking and Jack playing with his toys whilst I am avoiding the subject of why I’m so weird.
Standing in the kitchen I feel a chill, I look around and see the window is open so I close it thinking that was the reason, as usual though I’m wrong. I feel the hairs go up on the back of my neck and the shiver run down my spine.
“Help me”
I hear the whisper and I know there is someone there with me, for fucks sake, Levi is in the kitchen with me as I’m helping him cook and this has to happen now. I turn and see the old man, he’s back, somehow I don’t know.
“Help me” he whispers.
I look into his ghostly eyes, they are clouded almost, no colour, no pupil just clouds.
“I don’t know how” I whisper back.
“You talking to me” Levi asks as he’s cooking.
I look at the ghost and then at Levi “Uhhh no, excuse me.”
I leave the flat and go outside into the back secluded garden, the coldness of this ghost follows me. When I turn around he is there hovering, he looks so sad, his arm missing and a wound to the neck.
“Help me” he repeats to me.
“I can’t help you I don’t know how” I close my eyes to stop from crying.
I see the sadness in his face, his boys are gone and it’s just the old man, what am I mean to do? How am I meant to help them?
CHAPTER 16
I’m outside for a while and it starts to rain, I feel the cold water trickling down my skin but I can’t move as more and more ghosts appear. In the garden I’m surrounded by them. All with their arm missing and all with wounds, what the fuck am I meant to do?
“Please help us” their ghostly voices speak to me in unison.
“I can’t don’t you see that I can’t” I’m panting nervously.
They all seem to organise themselves into rows, one row behind the other on different levels all staring down at me. Their faces change, they become still, expressionless, their eyes fixed on me and not moving.
“They call him the Fearless, he takes us and keeps us so that he can use us to make to make him stronger, he wants your son so he can live again, he wants your soul so he can cross over, he will come for you, he will take you to the darkness, in the darkness we all suffer, we suffer in the darkness, we endure all the pain….”
Bile rises in my throat as I suddenly feel very sick, I’m shaking, their ghostly voices are frightening the shit out of me.
“He can try and take me but he will not get my son, please help me please” tears well up, my voice pleads with them.
The rain pours heavier and the wind picks up but the ghosts are not affected, just me. My hair is flapping all over the place, is it the weather or is it them? My god I’m so confused, I just want this to stop.
I shout to them over the sounds or the wind and rain “I DON’T WANT THIS ANYMORE, I CANT HELP YOU DON’T YOU GET IT, HE WILL NEVER TAKE MY SON NEVER!”
At that moment Levi comes outside, he could hear me shouting obviously as our window looks directly onto the garden. There I am stood there, on my own as far as he can see, wet and with a wind-swept look and I’m screaming into thin air. Fuck knows what I look like right now.
He walks up to me “Robyn come inside its raining.”
I hold back tears as he wraps a coat around me and leads me inside. The house is freezing so I’m shivering, Levi is looking at me weird, the heating is on but I feel so cold. I look and there on my sofa is a little girl, her face filled with sadness and pain, her arm isn’t missing and she doesn’t have a neck wound. I stare at her, I can feel Levi’s arms around me but I’m fixated on this little girl, unable to move.
“I want my mummy” she cries out.
I turn and look at Levi “Can you go put Jack to bed please”
I need to get him out of the room, I give him the ‘I’m ok look’ and I think he guesses that I’m telling him to give me some space because without question he goes into Jack’s room and gets him ready for bed.
I slowly approach this dead girl on my sofa “Where is your mummy?”
“She was in the park and then I got lost” she doesn’t stop crying.
I whisper checking if Levi is still in Jack’s room “do you want to show me?”
Why the fuck am I helping her? I don’t know, I guess it’s because she’s a little girl and her mother is probably distraught, I would be too if it were Jack. She disappears through my front door, without saying anything I sneak back out and follow her.
Damn this ghost moves fast because I’m practically running behind her to keep up. I don’t know where I’m going or where she is taking me but she’s eager to show me. She leads me to an
open rugby field, it’s dark and the mud is soppy and getting all over my feet, not a bright idea to wear fucking ballerina type shoes in this weather.
I see her ghostly image in the distance; it stops and just hovers next to some bushes. I walk over and I almost throw up by what I can see. There in the bushes is a body of a little girl, lying down as if she is sleeping, she has on a pink t-shirt and blue jeans, her hair is blonde and messy and she looks the size about seven or eight, I can’t see her face though, it’s covered in leaves and it’s dark, but I am guessing this is her.
I turn and she’s hovering behind me, “Is this you?”
She nods yes to me “I want my mummy.”
I look around, it’s dark but there’s lights from the houses that surround the field and next to it is a park, how could someone do this to her in such an open space without being seen. I get out my phone and call the police.
“Police how may I assist you?” the woman seems formal.
“Uh h-hi I…..” I pause, I’m jittery and you can tell in my voice.
“Hello? You still there?” the voice prompts.
“Sorry yes I’m here, I need help; I’ve found a body….”
“I’m sorry ma’am, did you say a body?”
I hear her typing on the keyboard, “Yes, a little girl, please someone come….”
“Where are you?” her voice is alarmed.
“I’m in the field next to the park by Richmond Road….”
“I’m sending someone; police are on their way ma’am”
I hang up and put my phone in my pocket, this little girl is still hovering next to me, the sight of her body lying there on the floor is making me feel sick, I try and claw back my emotions.
“What’s your name?”
Her expression changes to friendly “Lucy, is my mummy coming?”
My voice is soft, “No sweetie the policeman is coming to help ok and I will help find your mummy, I’m Robyn.”
She smiles at me as if I’m her friend, like she trusts me.
“Lucy, how old are you?”
“I’m eight”
I don’t know what I’m doing, I guess I’m gaining her trust but I have no idea how she ended up here, I’m not sure I want to know but if this was my son I guess I’d want anyone to help.
