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out of wooden frames, grounds
stretching in all directions.
And then follows the thought that none of it
can prevent death from strolling
right through the door (no matter how
it’s barred) and then leaving with
what it came for. Heaven must be
smiling on your deathbed as your soul
seeps upward, vaporizing.
Perhaps it’s better to die behind
one’s own back. Those who know
are never available. Yet each death feels
so exceptional, as if, simply due to the odds,
some people ought to be spared.
Is there truly time for so many tragedies?
Death has earned the key to every city. For who else
tends to all of the sick? Who else takes
in the old? Who else wants us all?
Not even our mothers. In fact,
only death always keeps its promise.
Notes
“Sometimes We Sleep Well in the Midst of Terrible Grief” takes its title from a line in “Submission to Death” from James L. White’s The Salt Ecstasies.
“On His Bed and No Longer Among the Living”: The italicized passages and title are taken from W. G. Sebald’s books The Rings of Saturn and Austerlitz.
“Narcissus and Me”: The italicized passages are my versions, with serious liberties taken, of passages from the “Echo and Narcissus” section of Ovid’s Metamorphoses.
“The Darkness Echoing” takes its title and its shape from “Personal Helicon” by Seamus Heaney.
Acknowledgments
5 A.M.: “Father,” “Anger”;
At Length: “Layoff”;
The Awl: “To an Editor Who Said I Repeat Myself and Tell Too Much,” “Variations on the Moment of Apprehending the Extent of One’s Responsibilities”;
Boston Review: “The Prince of Rivers”;
Catch Up: “Narcissus and Me”;
Colorado Review: “On His Bed and No Longer Among the Living,” “My Mom, d. 1994,” “Late Poem”;
The Laurel Review: “Beginnings for an Essay in Spite of Itself”;
The Literary Review: “Grief: A Celebration”;
Maine: “Jazz”;
The Nation: “Get Out”;
The New Yorker: “Money Time”;
Pleiades: “The Darkness Echoing,” “It Came from the Primordial Ooze.”
Thank you to Stephen Burt, Rob Casper, Erika Kawalik, Dennis Nurske, Parul Sehgal, Peter Conners and all at BOA, Stephanie G’Shwind, Monica de la Torre for pointing me to the paintings of Jorge Queiroz, and to Jorge Queiroz and the Sikkema Jenkins & Co. gallery for generously granting permission to use the stunning painting on the cover of this book. Thanks, too, to Dana Levin, D. A. Powell, all at PW, and my family.
Thank you to the Corporation of Yaddo and the MacDowell Colony for residencies during which much of this book was written.
About the Author
Craig Morgan Teicher is also the author of Brenda Is in the Room and Other Poems, chosen by Paul Hoover for the 2007 Colorado Prize for Poetry, and Cradle Book, named a notable book by the Story Prize committee. His poems have appeared in the New Yorker, the Nation, the Paris Review, the Best American Poetry, and many other publications. He works at Publishers Weekly and serves as an editor for the Literary Review. His writing about books, authors, and technology is published widely, and he has served on the board of the National Book Critics Circle. He lives in Brooklyn, New York, with his wife and children.
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