Jaxson (Black Devils MC Book 1)

by K. J. Dahlen

  He started his bike and listened to the roar of the engine for a moment. Then he let the clutch loose and rode away.

  CHAPTER FOUR

  When Raine got back to the warehouse, Sam met him outside. The others joined them and when Sam asked about Cassie, Raine shook his head. “She damn near didn’t make it. She went so far into her head, she almost didn’t come back.”

  “What the fuck is wrong with her?” Sabbath asked.

  “She’s got a severe case of PTSD. One of the worst I’ve ever seen outside of wartime,” Raine explained.

  “Where the fuck did she get PTSD?” Sam asked.

  “From what I overheard at the hospital, she escaped a hell house and lived on the streets of Boston since she was fucking ten years old.” Raine shook his head.

  “What set her off?” Sabbath wanted to know.

  “When she woke up she had her hands tied and she was in a small cement block room. The bitch that raised her used to tie her up and throw her in the basement for days. No food, no water the whole time she was down there. Cassie was beaten and abused by that bitch badly.” Raine fisted his hands. “When she woke up here with her hands tied, she flipped back in time. She thought she had to protect her babies from us.”

  “We weren’t gonna hurt her or the babies.” Sam growled. “Those are my grandkids for Christ’s sake!”

  “Yeah, well you aren’t gonna get close to her again, unless it’s through Deke,” Raine informed him. “And I don’t think he’s in a forgiving mood right now.”

  “He’ll have to get over that,” Sam argued.

  Raine shook his head. “She’s got more than him watching over her now.”

  “What does that mean?” Sam frowned.

  “Those men we saw at the clubhouse today, I got fair warning they would have her back as well. There were many of them too.”

  “So? Who the fuck were they?” Thor asked.

  “They said they were from Redemption House, whatever the hell that is.” Raine shrugged.

  Sam looked around but he could see no one knew what Redemption House stood for.

  “So what are you gonna do now?” Raine had to ask.

  “I think I’m gonna stick around a while,” Sam told the group.

  “Jr. ain’t gonna like that,” Thor told his boss.

  “I know,” Sam acknowledged. “But that’s too fucking bad. It isn’t every day I find out I’m gonna be a grandpa either. Besides that, somebody out there threatened our safety. I won’t stand for that. They don’t know who their messing with. I want to know more about this Redemption House.”

  “They didn’t threaten you per say,” Raine reminded him. “They only threatened you if you went near Cassie again, and then they claimed they would protect her.”

  Sam scoffed. “I only saw a handful of old guys at the clubhouse. How much damage could a handful of them do?”

  Raine shook his head. “I had three escort me out of the hospital, those three turned into ten before they were done, but I had a feeling there were a whole lot more waiting in the shadows. They also made it clear they didn’t belong to MC and they didn’t follow anybody else’s rules.”

  Sam frowned at him then shrugged. “They looked like harmless old men. They don’t really pose a threat.”

  “I don’t think I’d dismiss them that easily,” Raine warned him. “They may be older than us but they had a look in their eyes that didn’t bode well.” He paused for a moment then added. “I think they might have been military at some point.”

  “And that worries you?” Sam scoffed. “Ex-GI Joes? Hell, you’re an ex GI Joe.”

  “I know.” Raine nodded. “But the military taught me skills, mostly medical, but skills none the less. I just wouldn’t count these guys out, that’s all I’m saying.”

  “Fine…you worry about them.” Sam grinned. “I’m gonna worry about that bottle calling my name. I have a lot to celebrate tonight. I’m gonna be a grandpa of twins!”

  Raine shook his head and watched as everyone went inside. When the door shut behind them, the silence grew around him. He was about to go inside himself when he felt something shift in the shadows. He didn’t hear anyone, no footsteps echoing in the distance. Turning slowly, he found another man standing behind him. Neither of them said a word, but the man standing there just stared at him.

  He was dressed in a dirty old pea coat and he had an old hat on his head. The brim shadowed his face but Raine could feel his stare. He didn’t move and his arms hung down at his sides loosely but Raine could feel him. He was ready for any threat, he knew it, and so did Raine.

  Raine was surprised when the other man simply turned and walked back into the shadows as silently as he’d come. One minute he was there visible and the next, he was just gone. Again, Raine didn’t even hear him move. Footsteps usually echoed when a person walked away but his didn’t. He knew how to move softly.

  Raine turned and joined the rest of the men inside. He didn’t want to drink, so he went over to the corner and slid down the wall and sat there quietly. If Sam wasn’t careful, he could start a war they wouldn’t win. They had not only the local MC but another one hot after them and then there were the men from Redemption House. Raine didn’t like those odds at all.

  ~* * * *~

  Cassie opened her eyes and for a moment, she didn’t know where she was. She heard a steady beeping noise coming from behind her but everything else was strange to her. She started to sit up but gasped when she felt a pain in her side.

  Then Deke was there beside her. “Easy baby, you’re gonna be okay,” he whispered as he wrapped his arm around her. He helped her sit up and placed a hand on her belly. “You and the babies are gonna be fine.”

  Her hand covered his and she turned her head to look at him. “Are you sure? The babies are okay?”

  “Sam and Jemmia are fine.” Deke chuckled a bit. “You gave me a scare today.” He kissed her temple. “I couldn’t get through to you and that scared me.”

  “I’m sorry,” she whispered. “I did try. I could hear everything you said but I was too scared. I thought I couldn’t protect the babies—that I had let them down when they needed me the most.”

  Deke hugged her close. “I know you were, but you should know something. As long as I live, I will protect you and our children. I would kill for you and I would die for you. Believe in that. Trust in that because there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do to keep you all safe.”

  Cassie’s eyes filled with tears. No one had ever said that to her before. She buried her face deep in his neck and sobbed. She felt safe in his arms. “I should have trusted in you.”

  “Yes, you should have.” Deke’s voice rumbled in her ear. “You aren’t alone anymore.” He chuckled. “You really, really aren’t alone anymore. The hospital had to kick quite a few people out earlier. Not only was every member of the MC here but all your friends from Redemption House were here too. There must have been close to a hundred people here, waiting to hear about you and the babies.”

  Cassie leaned back and gaped at him in astonishment. “A hundred people here? For me? Why?”

  “Because they were worried about you.” He scolded her. “I told you, you aren’t alone anymore.”

  “Is Peaches all right?”

  Deke grinned. “I think Peaches will be just fine.” He chuckled again. “You should have seen the look on Iceman’s face when she told you she was having a baby. The poor guy looked like he’d been hit by lightning.”

  “I can imagine,” Cassie told him dryly. “I’ll bet you had the same look on your face when you found out about the baby.”

  “I don’t think you can imagine it. It’s different for a guy when his woman tells him there’s a baby on the way. You think you got scared? Not as scared as I was. I only ever had myself to worry about and take care of, now suddenly I have three other people to watch over.”

  Cassie frowned. “I never thought about that.”

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sp; “I suddenly have feelings I’ve never had before,” he explained quietly. “I love you like I’ve never loved a woman. Like I never knew I could love a woman ever. Women were never important to me before I met you. I loved them but I could live without them too.” He shrugged. “That didn’t work so well after I met you. The longer we were together the deeper you went in my heart. I didn’t just want you in my bed…I wanted you in my life. I couldn’t breathe unless you were there beside me. When I had my arms around you at night, I felt my world was complete. Then you told me I was gonna be a dad?” Deke laughed. “Boy, you blew me away that day. I never even thought about a kid before. I vowed I would never have kids before I met you. I remembered what my childhood was like and I didn’t want that for anybody, let alone a small innocent human being. Then suddenly, there you were and you told me you were gonna have my kid. I was stunned but then I was extremely happy too. My brain was filled with pictures of my kid and everything I wanted for him or her. I imagined you growing fat with the baby. Then him or her being born. I could picture its little fingers and toes, I could also see me standing right there beside you watching the baby take its first steps, or riding its first bike or going to school for the first time. And you know something?”

  “What?” Cassie asked, as she felt astonished at this rare display of Deke sharing his thoughts.

  “Unexpectedly, my world changed. I wasn’t alone anymore either. I had you and the promise of something better in my future. Maybe that’s what being a dad really means. The promise of a future.” He shrugged. “All I know is I want more for this child than I ever had. Sam was a deadbeat as far as being a dad went, he sucked. Maybe he didn’t know what being a dad meant either but I’m going to do better for my kids. My kid is gonna know he or she has value.”

  Cassie felt tears roll down her checks and for a moment, she couldn’t speak. Then she told him, “I had to learn to survive and no child should ever have to do that but I grew up, I survived for a reason. When things got really bad I could always hear my mother’s voice in my head. I didn’t realize who it was at first but I know who it was now. Her words of wisdom gave me hope. When I met you that first day, I knew in my heart that you were the one I’d been waiting for all my life.”

  “I wasn’t very nice to you that day.” Deke frowned. “I think I even hit you.”

  Cassie smiled. “You did smack me but I didn’t tear you apart. In fact I think I even smacked you first. If it had been anyone else, I would have taken you down, but I didn’t. I went home with you instead.”

  Deke grinned at her. “You gave me a gift a few nights later, a gift I’ve never had before.” His voice was soft with remembering.

  “You were the only man I’d met that I felt deserved that part of me. Sex scared the living daylights out of me. I didn’t want meaningless sex, I wanted something better. Something I got with you. You see a lot of meaningless sex on the streets. Sex of all kinds and mostly, it wasn’t nice either. Women allowing men to use their bodies as a type of barter and that just felt dirty to me. I wasn’t going to be one of those women. I tried to tell Peaches that but she was always more sexual than I was. She did promise me though she would never use sex as a form of barter.”

  “I was surprised and very happy you waited for me,” he whispered in her ear.

  “When can we go home?”

  “A few more hours. The doctor wants to make sure you’re good to go.”

  “Can’t we just leave?”

  Deke shook his head. “Not this time. I took you out of here once before and it was against medical advice. I’m not taking any chances this time.”

  Cassie groaned. “I want to sleep in my own bed with you beside me.”

  “Be careful what you wish for, young lady,” Doctor Peters said as he stood in the doorway.

  “Why is that? It sounds heavenly to me right now.”

  “I can send you home today if you like, but only of you promise me that you’ll take it easy. In fact, I want you on complete bed rest until your next appointment.”

  “That’s two weeks away!” Cassie protested.

  “I know,” Doctor Peters said, as he got closer. “But you went through something bad yesterday, between the disappointment of the missed wedding and the kidnapping, your body suffered a trauma. I just want to make sure you completely recover.” He motioned toward her big belly. “I want to give them a fighting chance. If they’re born too early, they might not survive.”

  Cassie gasped and her hands went to her belly. “That’s just plain mean doc.”

  “It may be but I’m very serious young lady,” he stated firmly. “Right now, they’re probably big enough to make it but they aren’t fully developed yet. Their lungs aren’t ready to breathe fresh air yet. Their little minds have to finish developing. And I think for your own sanity, you need this break. Let this big guy take care of you. Let your friends take care of you for a change.”

  Cassie glanced at Deke and nodded. “Okay, I want my children to live.”

  “Then follow my orders and we’ll see them born in about eight weeks.” Doctor Peters nodded and then when he got to the door, he looked back at them, “Do you still want to go home?”

  Cassie nodded.

  “I’ll get your paperwork done and you can leave in a few hours, but I mean it. Complete bed rest for two weeks.”

  Deke stared back at the man. “She’ll behave doc, if I have to sit on her, she’ll behave.”

  Doctor Peters nodded. “See that she does.”

  Cassie sighed and wrapped her arms around Deke’s waist. “Well, that sucks.”

  Deke chuckled. “At least, you’ll get some rest before they’re born.”

  Cassie scoffed. “I have too much to do between now and then. I have a meeting with the city council coming up next week. We need final approval for Redemption House. I have to hire a full time on staff nurse and councilor before then. Then I have to do a final walkthrough before the meeting.”

  “Honey, I know this is your dream but you heard the doc, you have to be on complete bed rest for the next two weeks,” Deke reminded her. “Someone else can do all that.”

  “I suppose they’ll have to.” Cassie felt crushed. She knew her dreams were now in someone else’s hands. Her hands rubbed her big belly and she felt her children moving inside her. She leaned into Deke and smiled. Not all her dreams were gone. She still had the most important dream close to her heart.

  ~* * * *~

  A few hours later, Cassie found herself in her own bed, the bed she shared with Deke.

  Peaches, Paige, Max and Peggy were there. Amos and Frankie were there too, as were Deacon and Marnie.

  “Marnie, I wanted to ask you something.” Cassie looked over at the other woman.

  “What’s that?”

  “I was wondering if you wanted to be part of the staff at Redemption House.”

  Marnie looked stunned. “In what position?”

  “Staff councilor. I need someone who understands the problems the people coming to us will have. Someone who can offer real help, not just say they will help but actually get behind them and dig for the right kind of help. I want someone who will understand where they are coming from and help them get to where they need to be. I think that person is you.”

  “But I’m not licensed for New York. I’m a social worker for Massachusetts.”

  “It wouldn’t take you long to get your creds for New York. I’ve seen how the guys respond to you, how you can almost sense what they need before they do. I saw what you wanted for the kids you brought with you from Boston and that’s the passion I want for my dream. That’s what I need for Redemption House. I want you.”

  Marnie smiled. “I would love it. I fell in love with your dream too. What you want to give everyone who comes there is a second chance and it is so badly needed.”

  Cassie grinned. “That’s one problem settled then. Now I need someone to walk through with the city council. Peache
s can you do that? It can be done before you and Iceman go back to Boston if we need to.”

  “Me?” She looked horrified. “I don’t have any clue what to say to them.”

  “Yes, you do,” Cassie told her. “You were there when this became my dream. You know better than anyone what this House represents. A safe clean place for people to come to. It’s what we both dreamed of while we were living on the streets of Boston.”

  “Miss Peaches,” Amos assured her, “We can help you too. We know the dangers that are out there and we know what you and Miss Cassie want to do. We haven’t had a place to call home in quite a while but we do now. Thanks to her.”

  “Yeah, we do and it’s all thanks to you guys.” Frankie nodded.

  Peaches looked from Amos to Frankie and then at Cassie. “I can do this.”

  Cassie smiled. “Now, if I can talk Maggie into taking the staff nurse position I’m ready to go.”

  “I would love to help,” Maggie called out from the doorway. “I was coming to check on you and I heard everything you said.” She came into the room and grinned. “I would love to be a part of this. I’ve been watching what you’re doing over there and I’ve wanted in since the beginning.”

  Cassie smiled and ran her hands over her belly. Her babies turned inside her expressing their pleasure to her. Then one of them kicked her ribs hard and she gasped. Pressing her hand to her side, she felt another kick. “Well, I think the babies agree with everything so far.” She giggled.

  “Okay, we need to let her get some rest,” Maggie announced to the room.

  Everyone but Peaches and Paige left. When it was just the four of them Maggie did her exam and announced she was doing great. Then she packed up her equipment and left the sisters alone.