Feels So Right, It Must Be Wrong

by Charmanie Saquea

  "How far it go down?" he asked as he put his finger in the waistband of her shorts.

  "Pull em down and see." Asia smirked, not thinking he would. Knowledge called her bluff and pulled her shorts down. The tattoo went down to the top of her thigh where it ended with a small rose with Symare's name. He traced the tattoo with the tip of his finger, sending a chill down her spine.

  Asia did the same to the wings he had on his pecs. Knowledge had to bite his lip because he felt his dick getting hard and he knew Asia felt it too. Down, boy, he said to himself. His heartbeat sped up as their eyes connected. He could tell by the look in her eyes that she wanted him and he couldn't deny that he wanted her; he wanted her bad.

  Asia leaned up and kissed his lips softly. She was never this bold but there was just something about him that made her act out. She noticed that he didn't kiss her back and her feelings were shot so she climbed off his lap and went into the bathroom. She shut and locked the door before sliding down it.

  Knowledge ran his hand down his face. He was conflicted. Hehad a pregnant fiancéat home that he had been with for six years, but he was here with Asia; the girl that had been clouding his thoughts since the day he met her. He sat there for a minute before getting up and walking to the bathroom door. He tried to turn the knob but he noticed it was locked.

  He tapped on it but she didn't answer. Asia was feeling stupid for throwing herself on him. "Open the door, Asia," he said sternly. Asia got off the floor and opened the door with her head down. She just knew he was going to tell Symir that she came on to him.

  Knowledge used his finger to lift her head up before bending down and kissing her. Considering the fact that he didn't kiss her back two minutes ago, Asia was caught off guard for a second. Knowledge slid his tongue in her mouth and Asia accepted it. Without breaking the kiss, he lifted her up and carried her to the sink.

  He could hear Symir's words in the back of his head. Strictly business, right? He pushed it completely out of his head. I'll deal with that later, he thought. He pushed back from Asia whose eyes were low with lust. He tapped her on the butt for her to lift up so he could take her shorts off. He pushed her thong to the side and inserted a finger inside her. He looked her dead in her eyes before speaking.

  "Once I slide in, it's mines," he said seriously. Asia just nodded her head without speaking. "Nah, I need to hear you so I'll know you understand me."

  "I hear you," Asia said.

  All outside thoughts were pushed out of his head and right then he was only worried about what was going on right now. He was feeling like, ‘Chelsea who?’ Unbeknownst to him, Asia was starting to get nervous. The last time she had sex, it resulted in her getting pregnant with Symare. Not only was that her first, but it was also her last time.

  "Knowledge, wait," she panicked.

  "What's wrong?" he asked, hoping she wasn't having second thoughts.

  "I've only been with one other person," she said.

  "Okay, what's wrong with that?" He shrugged.

  "What I'm trying to say is, the only other time I've did this is when I lost my virginity, which happens to be when I got pregnant with Symare," she blurted out.

  Knowledge removed his finger from inside her and looked at her. "So you haven't did it since then?" he asked. She shook her head no in embarrassment. "Shit," he said. He lifted her up and carried her to the bed, he laid her down gently before undressing himself. "I'm happy you said something because I was about to tear yo lil ass up," he said before climbing in bed with her. I'll be easy this time.

  He lifted her tank top up while kissing her stomach up to her breast. He ripped off her tank top and Asia slapped his arm. "Knowledge!" she whined.

  "Shut up," he said as he unsnapped her bra. He ran his tongue along her collarbone before planting butterfly kisses down her body until he reached her navel. He gently brushed his tongue against it and Asia couldn't take it anymore.

  "Come on, Omari, stop playing."

  He stopped and looked at her sideways. "You rushing me? Because if I was to put thing thang in you right now, you wouldn't even be able to take it. So just sit back and chill out," he instructed.

  Asia just rolled her eyes before she obliged. He kissed down the rest of her body until he reached her honey pot. He ripped her thong off and threw it on the floor next to her ripped tank top. He kissed the inside of each of her thighs before giving her pussy a lick. Asia shuddered. She had never received head before so this was new to her. He kissed it before diving in head first. Asia kept trying to get away from him.

  He kept pulling her closer to his mouth. She was always talking big girl shit so he wanted to see how much mouth she would have tonight. He ate her out like his life depended on it. Asia felt like she was having an out-of-body experience. She had never felt this good in her life. Her legs started shaking and her whole body followed. Knowledge knew she had just busted her first nut of the night, but that didn’t stop him. He lapped up all her juices before kissing his way up her body.

  He placed the tip of his dick at her opening and rubbed it against her already sensitive clit before sliding in. Once he got all the way in, he had to stop because her shit was so tight. Asia winced a little and tensed up. She felt like he was stretching her to the max. She didn’t even look down to see what he was working with out of fear, but now curiosity was getting the best of her.

  Knowledge pushed her legs back and started giving her nice, long strokes. The pain had started to turn into pleasure and Asia was in heaven. He felt like he was swimming in an ocean because that’s just how wet she was. He knew now that he would kill her and any other nigga if she gave it up to anybody else.

  All night long, Knowledge twisted and bent her in every position he could think of. He had taught Asia some new tricks that she didn’t even know existed. Shewould be lying if she said he didn’t make this sexual experience better than Khyree did.

  9

  Things in Miami were back to normal for everybody except Knowledge. He was waking up to Chelsea every morning but dreaming about Asia every night. He made a mental note to talk to Symir real soon on a man-to-man note. He wanted to let him know how he felt about Asia and to also let him know that they had already taken it to the next level.

  He was headed to the Symir's barbershop to get a line up and to chill with the boys. On the way there he called Asia, but her phone was going to voicemail so he left a massage. "Call me back, man." When he pulled up to the shop, he noticed Asia's Audi in the parking lot. He walked in and Asia was walking out. "I just called you," he said.

  "I let Sasha play a game on my phone and it died. What's up?" she asked. She looked behind her to make sure there was nobody paying attention.

  "You. I'm try a slide through later." He licked his lips as he looked her from head to toe. She had on strapless romper, gladiator sandals, and her hair was in a bun. "Don't you think that outfit show too much?"

  "Huh?" she said as she looked down on her outfit. "What's wrong with it?"

  "Never mind. Anyways, where you going?" he asked.

  "I gotta make a store run real quick. I'll be back."

  He grabbed her by her hips and pulled her close. "Give me a kiss."

  "What, now?" she looked behind her again.

  "Yea, dude. Stop being scary and just give me a quick kiss." He puckered his lips. Asia giggled and pecked his lips. "See, was that so hard?"

  Cordae walked through the door with a raised eyebrow. "What y'all doing?" he asked.

  "Mind yo business, nigga," Knowledge said as he slapped Asia on the ass before she left.

  "What the fuck is up with that?" Cordae asked suspiciously.

  "Nothing, nigga." Knowledge waved him off before walking to the back where Symir's office was. He knocked on it and Symir told him to come in.

  "What's up?"

  "I gotta talk to you about some real shit," Knowledge said before taking a seat.

  "What's wrong?" Symir asked.

  "Asia," he answered.

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p; "Y'all not getting along?"

  "Yea. Actually, I came here to tell you man-to-man that I caught feelings for her. I know you said to keep it strictly business between us but it's too late because we already laid together," Knowledge admitted. He didn't want it to seem like he was disrespecting him by going behind his back.

  Symir sat back in his seat and looked at Knowledge real good. He already knew the two were bound to hook up. He could tell by the way they looked at each other, but he didn't think it would be this soon. "What about Chelsea?" Symir asked, catching him off guard.

  Knowledge looked shocked. He didn't necessarily keep his love life private, but he didn't go broadcasting it either. He had never brought Chelsea around nor had he even talked about her, so for Symir to even mention her threw him for a loop. "Don't be so surprised. Cordae told me how ya girl was six months pregnant and all that good stuff. You know Asia is my fucking heart. I would go to the end of the world and back just to protect her and I never wanna see her get hurt. She's twenty years old and never been in nothing serious and I don't want her ending getting in deep then she finds out she been playing number two this whole time," Symir explained.

  Before Knowledge could respond, Asia bust through the door. "Oh my bad, I didn't know you had company," she said as she handed her brother the bag and tried to avoid eye contact with Knowledge. "I gotta go."

  "Where you going?" Symir asked before Knowledge could get the words to form out his mouth.

  "Money to be made. Mickey wants me to come over and braid his hair," she said as she tried to leave the office.

  "Hol up, where is my nephew?"

  "His other granny wanted him for a few days. Now, I gotta go," Asia rushed.

  "When you pick him up tell Rose I put some money on Khyree's account so she don't have to," Symir explained.

  "Alright. Bye." Asia had to get out of there. All of a sudden she didn't feel comfortable around the two of them together anymore.

  Symir shook his head. He knew his sister better than he knew the back of his hand, so he knew she just wanted to get away from them. "Don't lose something you've been building for years over an infatuation that's only grew in a couple of weeks." Symir dropped a jewel on Knowledge before leaving out of his office.

  If Knowledge wasn't confused before, he damn sure was now. Was what he felt for Asia only an infatuation? Symir's last words hit a nerve and he knew he wasn't ready to give up what he had with Chelsea.

  Cordae was waiting at Asia's car to talk to her. He saw the exchange between her and Knowledge and he wanted to make sure he didn't interpret it the wrong way or was assuming shit. Asia walked over to her car and, surprisingly, she didn't have an insult for Cordae this time. "What's up Dae? I gotta go," Asia said as he blocked her door.

  "Look, A, I know we hardly ever see eye to eye or get along, but I just think you should watch yourself if you're dealing with Knowledge. It’s some shit about him that you don't know. I'm not coming to you on no hating shit either because that's my blood, but I'm just looking out for you," he said before walking away.

  Asia was left standing there speechless, which was odd because she always had something to say. She would have cussed him out for coming at her crazy if it wasn't for the sincerity she saw in his eyes. She made a mental note to ask him what he meant about Knowledge, but for now, she had to go so it would have to wait.

  ~ ~ ~

  Symir was finishing cutting the hair of one of his client’s when the shop’s phone started ringing. He nodded for Cordae to answer it while he cleaned up his station. He saw Cordae shaking his head so he walked over to see what the problem was. "Mama Anjie said Anika walked out of rehab about an hour ago," Cordae said.

  Symir sighed as he took the phone. "What's up, Ma?"

  "Symir, the doctors said they tried to call you but they couldn't get in contact with you. Nika walked out of rehab about an hour ago and they can't find her. I just pray that she's not where I think she is," Anjela said wearily.

  "Don't worry about it Ma. I'm about to go find her," Symir said before they ended their conversation.

  Anika was Symir's ex-girlfriend and Sasha's mother. They had been dealing with each other on and off since the age of fourteen. When Sasha was two years old they broke up for the last time and Nika started messing with some dude named Linx. She hid the fact that he was abusing her from Symir and eventually he got her hooked on drugs.

  Symir just so happened to pop up at her house one day and found Nika passed out on the couch with a needle in her arm while Sasha was sleeping peacefully in her crib. He told Nika that she had two options, to go to rehab and get clean or she wasn't ever going to see Sasha again. Ultimately she chose to go to rehab, not that she really had a choice because Symir was going to make her go.

  She went did her thirty days and got clean, got out and hooked back up with the dude and relapsed. Symir couldn't even be mad at her because he knew it was bound to happen so he paid for her to go back in. This time, she was in there for three months until now. Now he had to go out there and find her and be her savior yet again.

  "Dae, I'm about to head out," Symir said.

  "Want me to roll with you?" Cordae knew that if Nika was with that nigga shit was about to get deadly.

  "Yea, come on," he said as he locked up his office.

  They hit I-95 until they reached Liberty City. That was the first place Symir knew to look. He rode down the street slowly to see if he could find her. His product hit these streets hard so he knew exactly where to look for her. Many times he had been called a hypocrite because he got mad at Nika for getting hooked on drugs but he sold the shit. He didn't give a fuck what anybody had to say. He wasn't just going to sit back and watch the mother of his child be addicted to drugs.

  "Yo Mir, look!" Cordae said frantically as he pointed up ahead. There was Nika getting pounded on broad daylight by that bitch ass nigga that she just couldn't stay away from. Symir drove up on the curb and hopped out the car without turning it off. He took his gun out his waist line and hit the dude in the back of the head with it. Cordae went over to pick up Nika and carried her bloody and battered body to the car.

  Symir blacked out as he beat Linx with his gun. He blamed him for getting her hooked on drugs and destroying her life. He blamed him for Sasha not being able to have her mother in her life. His daughter asked for her mom almost every day and he had to tell her that she was sick and trying to get better. No matter what, he would never talk bad about or down on Nika to their daughter.

  As bad as Cordae wanted Symir to kill Linx, he wasn't about to have his boy get locked up. After laying Nika in the backseat, he ran over and got Symir. "C'mon man, we gotta get her some help," Cordae said.

  Symir left Linx just as bloody as he had left Nika before spitting on him. "I told your bitch ass to stay away from her," he spat before running to the car. "Take me to my mom house," he instructed Cordae as he climbed in the back with Nika.

  "Dammit Anika! Why do you keep doing this shit?" Symir asked, pissed off.

  "I didn't want to Symir, I promise I didn't get high. He said I owe him some money and if I didn't find a way to get it, he would hurt Sasha," Nika cried through a busted and bruised lip.

  "C'mon now Nika. You know damn well I wouldn't allow nobody to even get close enough to her to even touch a hair on her head."

  "I know, but it wasn't the first time he said it. He tried to get me to set you up and rob you but when I told him I wouldn't do it, he started beating me. I swear I wouldn't do that to you, Mir."

  "Shhh, stop crying. I know you wouldn't." Symir laid his head back and closed his eyes. Out of all the things in his life, this shit was stressing him out the most. He always tried to figure out where he and Nika went wrong. They had been in love with each other since forever. He may have dibbed and dabbed somewhere else a couple of times, but he always came back to her. They may have broken up every other weekend but they always got back together, except for that last time and that's when all this bullshit started
. He just wanted to know where they went wrong.

  10

  Knowledge had been spending a lot more time at home with Chelsea to help keep his mind off Asia. He actually hadn't seen or spoken to her since the day at the barbershop, and that had been over a month ago. He had been avoiding her because he needed some time to get his mind right and focus his attention back where it belonged.

  "How that look?" he asked Chelsea as he hung up the letters in the nursery that spelled out Serenity, their daughter’s name.

  "Perfect! I can't wait until she comes, I am officially seven months today." Chelsea smiled as she wrapped her arms around Knowledge. The baby started moving and kicking when Chelsea's belly touched Knowledge.

  "This little girl is a hot mess already," he laughed.

  "I wonder where she gets it from," she said sarcastically.

  "Her mama of course,” Knowledge smiled.

  "Whatever, asshole. Come rub my feet," Chelsea said as they walked out the nursery.

  Since Knowledge had been spending more time at home, she had been happier. She loved when he was around because they always had fun. Her mom didn't like him because of his occupation but she never took the time out to get to know him as a person. Chelsea knew if she did, she would love him.

  "So when am I going to meet some of the other females in the crew. I'm out the way out here with no friends and all I do is sit in this house and get fat," she asked as he massaged her swollen feet.

  "Soon, I guess," answered Knowledge. "What time is it? I gotta pick up Patience from the airport," he said

  "It's only noon. What she got up her sleeve?" Chelsea rolled her eyes.

  "How you figure she got something up her sleeve? She can't just be coming to see her little brother?"

  "Possibly, but that's not the only reason. You know your sister don't like me."

  "How you figure she don't like you?" Knowledge asked.